A Disabled Alpha’S Guide To Being Loved Chapter 69
byChapter 69: Crying with grievance, waking up from illness, returning to Pujiang…
The illness came like a mountain. After returning to Pujiang, Cheng Cheng was accidentally infected when he went to the supermarket to buy goods one day and fell ill with a menacing flu.
At first, he was just dizzy, and his legs felt like lead. Later, his whole body was so sore that he couldn’t even lift his hands. The high fever made his consciousness a little blurry. What was even more uncomfortable was his throat, which felt like he had swallowed several razor blades. There was an excruciating pain when he swallowed, and he couldn’t speak at all.
His friends all advised him to take a good rest.
In desperation, Cheng Cheng could only ask someone to find two caregivers with good reputations, meticulous and reliable work, and work shifts day and night to take care of Wei Zhi.
He held on to his feverish body and gave instructions to the caregivers one by one, including the taste and dosage of Wei Zhi’s three meals a day, and even what time he should turn over and sit up and move around every day, all of them were properly arranged.
He also deliberately explained the meaning of every expression and cry of Wei Zhi to the nursing staff in detail, fearing that the nursing staff would misunderstand and wrong Wei Zhi.
Cheng Cheng had a high fever, and the doctor repeatedly told him not to interact with others, especially patients with weak immune systems like Wei Zhi, so he could only watch from a distance.
In the first few days, even if he was weak, he would struggle to walk outside the ward window from time to time. Through a layer of glass, his eyes would follow the figure inside, and he would watch the nursing staff feed him, wipe Wei Zhi’s face, and sit with him for a moment.
Sometimes, he had a vague feeling that Wei Zhi was also “looking” at him, and his originally empty eyes were facing him by the window.
But he knew in his heart that it was just a coincidence.
No matter how he waved his hand or made the familiar movements to Wei Zhi, the person on the other side of the glass still showed no reaction, and his eyes were still blank, as if there was not just a layer of glass between them, but an insurmountable gap.
Even so, this brief “look at each other” can make Cheng Cheng’s tense heart relax a little.
After observing outside the window for a few days, he saw that the caregivers were really attentive and that Wei Zhi was still not making any noise. Cheng Cheng finally relaxed and returned to his residence to recuperate. He lay there for a whole week.
By the beginning of the second week, Cheng Cheng’s body had become much lighter, with only symptoms of cough and runny nose.However, when the flu is almost over, it is more likely to be transmitted to others. He still does not dare to go to the nursing home and communicates with the nursing staff online every day.
On Monday night, Cheng Cheng took the medicine and just lay down on the bed to get some rest when his cell phone suddenly rang rapidly. It was the nurse, Sister Yu.
His heart skipped a beat, and he felt uneasy for no reason, and he quickly answered the phone.
Nurse Yu’s tone was full of anxiety and a bit helpless.
“Mr. Cheng, come and take a look! Mr. Wei doesn’t know what’s going on today. He refuses to eat even a morsel of food. He throws the bowl every time and breaks several pieces on the ground. The doctor came to check and all the physical indicators are fine. But he is making a fuss. He is still yelling and refuses to sleep. He has been struggling all afternoon. No matter how we coax him, it’s no use!”
Cheng Cheng’s heart tightened instantly, and all his sleepiness instantly dissipated. He stood up and changed his clothes suddenly. His voice was a little hoarse because his voice was not yet sharp: “How was his mood this morning? Is there anything abnormal?”
“He was fine in the morning. He sat quietly all morning. When I talked to you on the phone at noon, he was also well-behaved. But in the afternoon, he didn’t know what happened, but he suddenly started to make a fuss.” Nurse Yu watched Wei Zhi throw the quilt covering him to the ground again, and sighed helplessly, “The doctor said that if the fuss continues like this, he will have to come over for a sedative, but we can’t bear to watch.”
“No! Please tell the doctor not to hit him first, and wait for me to come over!” Cheng Cheng’s voice suddenly rose a few points.
He hurriedly put on a double mask and carefully wrapped a coat, fearing that his germs would be transmitted to Wei Zhi, and then immediately called the fastest car and rushed towards the nursing home.
Along the way, his heart was hanging in the air, and he kept thinking about Wei Zhi losing his temper, and he coughed so much that his heart was broken.
When Cheng Cheng arrived, the ward was in a mess, with broken dishes and food scattered on the floor. Wei Zhi sat on the bed with his back stiffened, expressionless, and staring at the mess on the floor with dull eyes. He refused to lie down or eat, with a sense of stubbornness all over his body.
The caregivers stood by at a loss. As long as he took a slight step forward, Wei Zhi would let out a sharp scream, his eyes full of resistance.
How could this happen?
Wei Zhi rarely showed such violent shouting and resistance before. Especially after coming to Pujiang, he became much docile. Most of the time, he would lie or sit quietly. Even if he didn’t speak, he would not torment others like this.
Could it be that the nursing staff didn’t take good care of me?Or is Wei Zhi uncomfortable somewhere, but he just can’t express it?
Cheng Cheng hurriedly opened the door and walked in, staring at Wei Zhi with his black and white eyes, anxiety mixed with a hint of irritation in his heart.
His fever had just subsided and he was still very weak. After all the travel, his chest was already feeling tight and tight.Wei Zhi’s troubles made him feel a little powerless for a while.
The nurses’ eyes turned to Cheng Cheng as if they had welcomed a savior. Wei Zhi’s head also slowly turned, looking at Cheng Cheng with insubstantial eyes.
Looking at his appearance, Cheng Cheng felt angry for the first time in his heart, and thought about why Wei Zhi was so ignorant.
Fresh hair, clean clothes, meticulously made beds… It can be seen that the caregivers are very attentive and take good care of Wei Zhi.
Cheng Cheng couldn’t help coughing violently.
He did not step forward immediately, but turned around and said to the caregivers: “You should go and rest today. You have worked hard. Your salary will be taken care of. Leave the rest to me.”
After the nurses left, the ward instantly became quiet, leaving only Cheng Cheng’s suppressed cough.
He coughed harder and harder and had to hold his chest and gasp for air.
After running all the way, my body, which had not yet recovered, could not bear it at all. Breathing became very difficult, and even the blood in the sun jumped up suddenly. A faint headache spread from the back of the head, with throbbing pain.
He held the edge of the bed and waited for a while before slowly straightening up.
At this moment, his eyelids twitched suddenly, widening in disbelief, and he even forgot to cough.
Something seemed to be sliding down Wei Zhi’s cheek.
Is Wei Zhi crying?
He stared at Wei Zhi’s face for a long time before he dared to confirm.That was not an illusion, Wei Zhi was really crying, there was no sound, no sobbing, just lines of tears silently sliding from his empty eyes, down his cheeks, dripping on the clean collar, and spreading out small wet marks.
He remembered that Mu Shiyue said that many patients like Wei Zhi would cry incessantly. This was a normal response to their physiological conditions and could not be controlled.
But since Wei Zhi fell ill, Cheng Cheng had never seen him cry.All he had was quiet silence, high-pitched screams, and the occasional frown of discomfort.
He always thought that Wei Zhi had long lost the ability to express emotions, but today, Wei Zhi shed tears silently in front of him.
Cheng Cheng’s heart hurt like a knife. He walked forward, stopped half a meter away from Wei Zhi, and slowly said, “Why are you crying?” The answer to him was of course silent silence.
He muttered to himself: “Are you hungry, thirsty, sleepy, or want to pee…” He listed the possibilities one by one, staring closely at Wei Zhi’s reaction, but Wei Zhi still didn’t respond and just kept crying.
Cheng Cheng paused, and a ridiculous idea suddenly came to his mind. He tentatively said carefully: “Still…feel aggrieved?”
He faced Wei Zhi, who was still crying, and took out a tissue to wipe his tears: “What do you have to feel wronged about? The nursing staff are very experienced, and your daily life is also very fulfilling. Is there anything else you are dissatisfied with?”
As soon as he finished speaking, Wei Zhi’s eyes were full of tears, like beads with broken strings.
Cheng Cheng suddenly had another unrealistic idea, and his heartbeat was fast: “It’s because today you heard the nurse nurse talking to me on the phone and heard my voice, but I never came to see you, so you feel aggrieved, right?”
The moment the words fell, Wei Zhi slowly raised his head, and a trace of confusion seemed to pass through his empty eyes, as if he understood what he said, but also as if he didn’t.
But strangely, the tears in his eyes stopped falling.
Cheng Cheng’s heart was about to beat out of his chest, and he eagerly moved closer, almost touching Wei Zhi’s face: “So, you really recognize me! Right?”
Wei Zhi opened his mouth, hooked his fingers on one end of his mask, and pulled hard. The first layer of the mask was torn off by him.
Cheng Cheng hurriedly took a few steps back and covered his mouth, for fear of infecting him: “I understand what you mean, but I can’t stay here with you now. I’m sick and need to rest. Can you let me go home and sleep?”
Wei Zhi looked at him and was silent for a few seconds, then softly said “ah ah oh” a few times, his voice was weak, but with a trace of imperceptible compliance.
Cheng Cheng knew that he agreed, so he stepped forward and touched his head before leaving: “Sleep well, I’ll come see you tomorrow.”
The next day, as soon as his footsteps entered the house, Wei Zhi looked up instantly as if he had sensed it and caught a glimpse of him.
Nurse Yu was making the bed. He raised his head and smiled at Cheng Cheng: “Mr. Wei seems to recognize you. You have been so good today. He sat by the window and looked at you early in the morning, as if he knew you were coming.”
Cheng Cheng smiled, walked quickly towards Wei Zhi, and lowered his head to look into his eyes.
He had long been accustomed to Wei Zhi’s appearance, so he didn’t pay much attention to it. He just stepped forward naturally and helped him straighten his slightly crooked collar.
The moment he slowly lowered his hand, an extremely subtle, almost ignored murmur reached his ears.
“Don’t leave.”
Cheng Cheng’s hand holding the collar shook, and the collar he had just arranged was messed up again.He tried his best to control his trembling voice: “What did you just say?”
Wei Zhi tilted his head and said two words with a dull expression: “Don’t leave.”
These two words were so light, but they hit Cheng Cheng’s heart like a heavy hammer.
He froze in place, his fingertips trembling more and more violently, his breathing erratic, and his eyes filled with moisture.
He had been looking forward to this day for so long that he almost thought that Wei Zhi would never say a complete word to him again, and would never remember him again.
Nurse Yu also froze on the spot, the sheets in her hands almost slipped, and she murmured in a low voice: “Oh my god…Mr. Wei actually spoke!”
Cheng Cheng slowly squatted down, looked at Wei Zhi’s level, and tried to keep his voice as steady as possible: “I’m not leaving.” He said word by word, “I’m not leaving, so I’ll stay here with you, okay?”
Wei Zhi tilted his head, and the faint light in his empty eyes seemed to be a little brighter.He looked at Cheng Cheng quietly for a while, then nodded slowly, his movements a little stiff, but with a clear response.
He slowly raised his hand and carefully grasped Cheng Cheng’s cuff. His fingertips were slightly forceful, as if he was afraid that Cheng Cheng would disappear if he let go.
All the fatigue and anxiety just now disappeared in an instant.Cheng Cheng couldn’t help coughing a few times and subconsciously wanted to step back for fear of infecting Wei Zhi, but Wei Zhi held his wrist tightly.
“I’m fine,” Cheng Cheng smiled and patted Wei Zhi’s hand, “I just have a little cough. I’m wearing a mask, so I won’t infect you.”
Upon seeing this, the nurses quietly packed up their things and quietly exited the ward, leaving space for the two of them.
For a long time, the only sounds in the room were Cheng Cheng’s occasional suppressed coughs and Wei Zhi’s gentle breathing.
Wei Zhi still held onto Cheng Cheng’s sleeves and refused to let go.Cheng Chengcheng squatted beside the bed and let him hold her, his eyes falling gently on his face.
He looked at Wei Zhi carefully, looked at his black hair, and looked at the rare clarity in his eyes, and his heart was filled with emotion.
He knew that Wei Zhi’s condition did not improve immediately. He might only wake up briefly, or he might forget what he had just said and who he was in the next second, but that was enough.
This sentence “Don’t leave” is enough to make all his efforts meaningful.
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Wei Zhi felt that his body was as light as a wisp of smoke, and his consciousness was floating in boundless chaos.
He couldn’t see any light or shadow, couldn’t smell any breath, couldn’t touch any entity, couldn’t hear a single sound, couldn’t open his mouth to breathe, couldn’t even utter a weak whisper.
Of course, at that time, he didn’t know that his name was Wei Zhi.
He is just a helpless consciousness, floating aimlessly in the chaos, without direction or concept of time.
Suddenly, at a certain moment, he suddenly noticed something strange all over his body.
Dense drops of water fell on his “body”, and a hint of coolness spread along the edge of his consciousness, making him tremble slightly involuntarily. For the first time, he clearly felt the “cold” taste.
There was another voice, which seemed to penetrate the layers of chaos and came from a very far away place, calling him softly.
The voice was vague and weak. He tried hard to catch it, but he still couldn’t make out what it was saying.
Wei Zhi subconsciously drifted slowly towards the direction of the sound. In the chaotic darkness, there seemed to be bright spots of light floating, flickering.
What is that?A vague curiosity arose in his heart, but he couldn’t get into it.
He continued to move forward uncontrollably, toward the glimmer of light and the vague and non-existent calling…
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From the moment Wei Zhi became attached to Cheng Cheng, his self-awareness began to plump up little by little, like a bud breaking through the ground.
His face gradually gained a lively look.
She will be filled with joy because of Cheng Cheng’s company, her eyebrows will be drooped because of small grievances, and her eyebrows will be relaxed because of Cheng Cheng’s gentleness. Even when she doesn’t like the food of the day, she will express her rejection directly without concealing it.
Wei Zhi is like a baby who has just entered the world. With pure ignorance, he carefully explores this vivid and perceptive world step by step.
In the first month, he learned to express his likes and dislikes with his expressions;
In the second month, he was finally able to speak clearly and tell Cheng Cheng his innermost thoughts intermittently;
In the third month, his eyes no longer only focused on Cheng Cheng, but began to pay attention to other people around him, leaving vague impressions of them in his heart.
In this way, he is growing rapidly at a speed visible to the naked eye…
Finally one day, he opened his eyes with a tired face and gently said “Xiao Cheng” to the person holding his hand and lying beside his bed.
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The author has something to say: Let’s do something big in the next chapter hhh
Banxia novel, a lot of fun