A Disabled Alpha’S Guide To Being Loved Chapter 42
byChapter 42 Confession I’m going to fucking ask you right now, do you love…
Cheng Cheng stood blankly at the door, looking at Wei Zhi, who was half leaning on the hospital bed with an expressionless face, waiting for the nurse to insert the nasogastric tube. He couldn’t believe that this was the person he had just parted with a month ago.
Wei Zhi’s head tilted slightly to one side, and the line of his jaw seemed stiff because he clenched it unconsciously.
Those once bright eyes were now covered with a layer of gray fog, looking straight at the emptiness somewhere outside the window. The elevated highways and high-rise buildings in the distance were twinkling with stars, but he seemed to have seen nothing.
The nurse pushed the door open and walked in. Cheng Cheng subconsciously hid aside, not wanting Wei Zhi to find him.
Wei Zhi heard the subtle and clear collision sound of metal instruments approaching. He blinked slowly and glanced past the nasogastric tube packaging bag in the nurse’s hand. There was a strong smell of disinfectant on the thin plastic film.
As soon as he saw the nasogastric tube, he began to retching uncontrollably. He let out an extremely weak whimper in his throat that was almost covered by the sound of breathing. His internal organs seemed to be squeezed tightly by a big hand.
In just one month, Wei Zhi’s thin and somewhat skinny fingers suddenly curled up and gripped the sheets underneath him. His knuckles were jagged and turned white, silently resisting this forced “feeding”.
He could no longer use his legs to escape from this bed, nor could he use his will to refuse life support.This tube will bypass all his psychological defenses and physical rejections and go straight to his stomach.
It shone with a wet, ominous glow.
The nurse gently informed Wei Zhi that the operation was about to begin. His lips pursed into a pale straight line and he nodded slightly. There was a kind of despair in his obedience.
The cool touch of the nasogastric tube pressed against the tip of Wei Zhi’s nose.
[Thank you, the reviewer, carefully looked at it. The protagonist in this paragraph is sick and needs a nasogastric tube to supplement nutrients. There is nothing wrong with it]
His whole body was shaking violently, and he wanted to vomit because of the dryness and discomfort in his throat. However, he was unable to coordinate his efforts from the waist down, forming a weird and painful twisting posture.
He closed his eyes tightly, frowned, and sweat appeared on his forehead.
The nurse’s warm voice guided Wei Zhi on the correct way to swallow. His Adam’s apple rolled up and down with difficulty, each time affecting the muscles of his neck and shoulders. However, in his lower body, his legs remained motionless, as if the painful struggle of his upper body belonged to two completely different beings.
As the nasogastric tube penetrated from the nasal cavity into the stomach bit by bit as he swallowed, Wei Zhi’s breathing suddenly became rapid and shallow, his chest heaved violently, and he could not control the sound of “ho ho”.
Tortured by lack of oxygen and severe discomfort, his face began to turn red. Tears overflowed uncontrollably from the corners of his closed eyes, flowing from the ends of his eyes to his forehead. A small dark stain stained the pillow.
The process of nasogastric feeding is very difficult and must be continued without pause.
The nurse responsibly confirmed the position of the tube while gently comforting her.
When it was confirmed that everything was correct, the connected syringe slowly pushed in the warm liquid nutrient solution. Wei Zhi’s tense body did not seem to relax, but instead showed a more painful stiffness.
The nutrient solution flowed into his originally empty stomach bit by bit, and there was an unfamiliar feeling of peristalsis and fullness in his abdomen.
To a man who derives some twisted sense of mastery from chronic hunger, this feels like a violation.
Wei Zhi let out a low sob, as if suffocated by water, a slight crawling sound came from his abdomen, and the muscles in his cheeks twitched slightly uncontrollably.
He never opened his eyes, as if closing his eyes would separate him from the current situation.But the tears that kept flowing out and the uncontrollable physiological tremors betrayed the silent torture that this body was enduring.
Wei Zhi seemed to have shrunk his entire existence behind those closed eyes, huddled in the pain of having a foreign object forcibly penetrated his stomach and being filled with food.
The operation is finally over.
The nurse carefully fixed the pipe and gently wiped away the sweat and tears on his face with a warm towel.
Wei Zhi opened his eyes extremely slowly, his eyes were red, his eyes were blurred, and he could not focus for a long time.
The violent struggle just now exhausted his already scarce strength, and he fell limply to the ground like a leaf ravaged by the strong wind.
There was only bottomless exhaustion and numbness in Wei Zhi’s eyes.
The nurse pushed the trolley and quietly left the room, and the ward fell into darkness and silence again. Only the regular and monotonous ticking of the ECG monitor and Wei Zhi’s heavy breathing were left in the air filled with the smell of disinfectant.
Zhou Qi gently closed the ward door, walked to Cheng Cheng, and sighed.
“As you can see, he is not very cooperative. Nasogastric feeding is actually not that painful, but the pain is amplified because of his psychological burden, and there may be some physical symptoms that make him extremely repulsive.”
Cheng Cheng’s nails clenched his palms, feeling a stinging pain: “I will persuade him to see a psychiatrist.”
Zhou Qi shook her head: “This is secondary, the main thing is to give him the will to survive. He is now working almost 24 hours a day. His secretary often brings people to report work to him, and sometimes they even hold meetings directly in the ward. He does not get the rest he deserves at all.”
“Mr. Wei seems to be in a hurry to complete some task. Once completed, everything will be over.”
Cheng Cheng immediately thought of the government bidding project Wei Zhi had mentioned. Is that what Wei Zhi wanted?
He blinked his dry eyes and looked back at Tan Lou, who was leaning on the bed with his arms folded: “You go back first, I want to stay with him.”
Tan Lou frowned: “Stay with him? How long do you want to stay with him? He will stay in this hospital for the rest of his life, and you will stay with him for the rest of his life?”
Cheng Cheng stared at him quietly: “Yes.”
“Why?”
“I love him.”
For Wei Zhi, he could give up everything, even put down what he was studying, and concentrate on taking care of Wei Zhi.
Tan Lou pursed his lips and thought of something. He lowered his face, said “Whatever you want”, and turned towards the elevator.
In the middle of the night, Wei Zhi opened his eyes in the darkness, cold sweat slid down his forehead, his stomach was churning uncomfortably, and he had the urge to induce vomiting.
He slowly moved towards the edge of the bed, holding on to the armrest to get up and turn on the light.
“What do you want to do? Wei Zhi.”
Suddenly, a voice appeared in the darkness.
Wei Zhi was stunned. It turned out that he was still in his dream and had not woken up at all. He heard Cheng Cheng’s voice!
However, in ordinary dreams, Cheng Cheng would call him “Brother Wei” or “Boss Wei” with a smile, but would not call him by his first name in such a serious voice.
Before he could react, the voice came closer and said, “Don’t vomit, Wei Zhi.”
With an awkward toughness.
No, this is not right!
“Bah!” Wei Zhi touched the night light at hand, and the dim light instantly filled the entire ward.
As if struck by a silent thunder, everything in the ward instantly faded into blurry, out-of-focus blocks of color in his eyes.
He held his breath and did not dare to move, staring closely at the person in front of him.
Cheng Cheng stood in front of the hospital bed, looking at him with red eyes. He stared at Wei Zhi’s thin face without blinking and choked for a moment.
Wei Zhi propped up his upper body, his heart trembled, and he subconsciously blurted out: “Xiao Cheng, don’t worry…”
“Did you just want to vomit!” Cheng Cheng couldn’t help but shed tears, “Why didn’t you tell me that your anorexia relapsed!”
Wei Zhi’s face turned pale and his Adam’s apple slipped: “Xiao Cheng, this is very embarrassing.”
“What’s the matter? It’s just an illness! Is it some terminal disease that only you have in the world?” Cheng Cheng growled, “You don’t trust me, so you didn’t tell me! The same goes for the adoption. You never believed me from the beginning to the end, and you only kept me in the dark!”
“No, it’s not…” Wei Zhi muttered to himself.
“I’ve had enough!” Cheng Cheng rushed forward and grabbed Wei Zhi’s collar, “I’m going to fucking ask you right now, do you love me or not?”
Wei Zhi stared blankly at Cheng Cheng’s face close at hand and found that he seemed a little darker and thinner, but his lips were still full.
He stuck out his tongue and gently licked Cheng Cheng’s lips.
With a buzzing sound, Cheng Cheng no longer bothered to guess what Wei Zhi was thinking. He hugged Wei Zhi tightly into his arms and kissed his lips randomly. The mint julep that had been dormant for a long time burst into glory again.
Suddenly, Cheng Cheng let him go. Wei Zhi was a little anxious, thinking he was leaving: “Xiao Cheng!”
Cheng Cheng took out a small black box from his arms, threw it in front of Wei Zhi, and stretched out his left hand with the back of his hand facing up.
Turning his head with red cheeks: “Bring it to me!”
Wei Zhi was overjoyed and tremblingly opened the box. He held two rings that were exactly the same except for the rings, and pushed them into Cheng Cheng’s ring finger bit by bit.
Cheng Cheng blushed, licked his wet lips, took his hand, and put the slightly larger ring on his ring finger.
He looked at the ring that was too big with regret: “I have to buy a new one.”
“It doesn’t matter…”
Wei Zhi cried silently, smiled and trembled, as if he was trying to use all his strength to lock the happiness that almost drowned him in his arms forever.
Suddenly, Cheng Cheng pushed him away and stood up, wiping his lips and regaining consciousness.
“Wait! You haven’t told me what adoption is all about yet!”
This time, Wei Zhi could not evade anything he said.
Wei Zhi’s arms suddenly fell empty, and his heart was empty. He clenched the quilt beside him unnaturally, his fingertips turned white, and he was silent for a moment before slowly speaking.
“In the early days of starting my business, I recruited a group of disabled people, used their identities as disabled people to create content that catered to popular topics, taught them shooting techniques and video editing, and established Zhiyu Media. At the beginning, Zhiyu was just a small internet celebrity agency.”
“The little omega boy I want to adopt is called Qiu Yao, and his father Qiu Xinyu is one of the first batch of disabled people I signed.”
It turns out that there is still this relationship, and the cloud in Cheng Cheng’s heart was gradually lifted: “Then what? Did something happen to Qiu Xinyu?”
Wei Zhi shook his head gently, his eyes filled with a gloomy look: “The company is getting bigger and bigger. From the initial short video shooting for advertisements, it has gradually expanded to live streaming and selling goods. The first few accounts have become more and more popular. Many established entertainment companies are greedy for our traffic and have begun to poach people from the company in various ways, especially the first batch of people who followed me.”
“Qiu Xinyu failed to control his desires, accepted bribes from other companies, and took the initiative to leak the company’s video planning and design to them. I was very angry at the time and fired him without leaving any room for him.”
Seeing this, Cheng Cheng took a step forward and took the initiative to hold Wei Zhi’s cold hand.
There was warmth in his palms, and he gently wrapped the other person’s cold knuckles: “He leaked company secrets. He is indeed of bad conduct. It is understandable for you to fire him.”
“But the other company didn’t fulfill its promise at all – it didn’t give Qiu Xinyu the promised 10 million, nor did it recruit him for training. Instead, it turned around and threw him away as a useless chess piece.”
Wei Zhi’s voice deepened, with a bitterness that could not be concealed, “It happened that at that time, his brother Qiu Xinjun drove all night and got into a car accident. He urgently needed a lot of money for surgery. All the money he saved before was spent on the termination fee with our company, and the new company ignored him. When he was desperate, he came to see me… But I was full of anger at that time and didn’t want to see him at all. I had him stopped at the door of the company and refused to let him in.”
“Later…his brother didn’t make it through and left. Qiu Xinyu was completely desperate and committed suicide.” Wei Zhi took a deep breath and calmed down, “There were only three of them in the family. His brother also had a leg disability and never got married. Qiu Xinyu’s wife suffered a massive hemorrhage and passed away after giving birth to Qiu Yao. Qiu Yao became an orphan without anyone to care for him.”
He lowered his head and stared at his slightly trembling hands, his knuckles turning white from exertion. His voice was filled with guilt that was so thick that he couldn’t get rid of it: “It was me who blocked him from the door. It was me… who cut off his last way of survival.”
Cheng Cheng hugged Wei Zhi into his arms. He could clearly feel that the body in his palm was trembling slightly, and the guilt that penetrated into the bone marrow almost drowned Wei Zhi.
He didn’t speak, but used a little force to hold Wei Zhi’s body tighter.
After a while, he let go of him, slowly squatted down, and looked level with Wei Zhi.
Cheng Cheng glanced at the thick red bloodshot eyes and the tears that he was holding back but still couldn’t stop falling from his eyes. He lowered his voice softly and softly.
“Wei Zhi, I know you are feeling very uncomfortable right now, but please listen to me first.”
He raised his hand and gently wiped away the tears on Wei Zhi’s cheek with his warm fingertips: “First of all, it was Qiu Xinyu’s own choice to leak company secrets. Adults must be responsible for their own actions. This is not your fault. You fire him according to company rules to maintain the company’s bottom line, which is understandable.”
Wei Zhi opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but Cheng Cheng gently stopped him with his eyes.
“I know you will feel that you didn’t give him a chance to explain.” Cheng Cheng followed his thoughts and spoke in a gentle and firm tone, “But at that time, you had just been betrayed. It was the most normal reaction to be angry and not want to see him. It would be difficult for anyone to remain absolutely calm in that situation. Moreover, it was the company that poached people that deceived him and abandoned him, not you.”
“They were the final straw, not the decision you made that stopped him at the door.”
He gently patted the back of Wei Zhi’s hand and continued: “You want to adopt Qiu Yao now, is it because you feel guilty and want to make up for it? But making up is never because you are guilty or owe someone, but because of your kindness.”
“If it was really your fault, what you are doing now may be an atonement, but that is not the case. Whether you marry me or get entangled with the Omega Association, you are just doing your best to give that child a home.”
Wei Zhi’s trembling gradually calmed down. He slowly raised his eyes and looked at Cheng Cheng with red eyes. His voice was hoarse and he asked a sentence that had been lingering in his heart for many years.
“But if I had been willing to see him…even just listen to him say a word, would it have been different?”
“There are no ifs.” Cheng Cheng’s tone was very light, with the warmth of a young man, but with a reassuring power. “There is never a way back in life. What we can do is not to be trapped in the guilt of the past, but to do what we can do now. You want to adopt Qiu Yao and take care of him now. This is already the best response to the past.”
“Moreover, when you stopped him, you didn’t know that such a big thing happened in his family, and you didn’t know that it was his last hope. You are not a god, you can’t predict everything, and there is no need to take all the responsibility on yourself.”
With that said, Cheng Cheng let go of his hand, sat on the edge of the bed and gently held his shoulders, bringing him into his arms.
Wei Zhi didn’t resist and leaned on his shoulder. His tense body completely relaxed, and the long-suppressed sobs finally couldn’t help but escape from his throat.
Cheng Cheng patted his back gently, as if comforting a wronged child, and said firmly: “It’s okay, everything is over. Wei Zhi, if you want to take care of Qiu Yao in the future, I will accompany you. We can adopt him and love him as our own child. If we don’t adopt him, we can also visit him every week and accompany him.”
The person in his arms was shaking even harder, but it was no longer because of the pain of guilt, but because of the release after being wrapped in comfort.
Cheng Cheng could feel his shoulders gradually getting wet. He didn’t urge him, he just stayed with him quietly, using his own warmth to keep Wei Zhi away from the paranoid person he was that day.
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The author has something to say: It’s the end of the month, does anyone have any extra nutrient solution [poor]
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“Straight Man Omega, Top Pheromone”
Also known as “Traveling to the abo world with an old enemy”
The Flower Attack of the High Mountain × The Tsundere Suffering
Xiang Yunjia’s family owns a sock factory and has nouveau riche parents.
I have short, slightly curly chestnut brown hair, a slender and straight figure, and a warm smile like the spring breeze. I am a well-deserved leader in the design department of A University.
But this student has a secret crush on the cold goddess from the School of Mathematics and Physics, who also has a secret crush on Xue Zhixing, the student from the A University School of Mathematics.
Xiang Yunjia began to secretly compete with Xue Zhixing. He also wanted to get in the taxi that Xue Zhixing took; he wanted to snatch the books that Xue Zhixing borrowed from the library… He always caused trouble for Xue Zhixing in his life.
Xue Zhixing was also fed up with this rustic and stupid upstart who was hovering around him like flies all day long, and wished that he would disappear from this world immediately.
–
One day, his wish came true.
However, the two of them disappeared from this world together.
Xiang Yunjia and Xue Zhixing traveled to the interstellar era where resources were scarce, where people also differentiated into strange Alpha, Beta and Omega.
Looking at the identities of the two people on the registration terminal, a rare crack appeared on Xue Zhixing’s expressionless face.
But fortunately, he is an Alpha and cannot have children.
Xiang Yunjia was not so lucky. He could not accept it no matter what. He, a straight man who loved looking at beautiful women, turned into an Omega who could give birth to babies!
His husband is still…Xue Zhixing!
Soon, the two of them looked at the dilapidated house with bare walls and could not say anything.
Only by building a mecha can it be possible to travel from the most remote desert star to the main city of Riald Star…
Just close your eyes and do it…
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When they first arrived at Desolate Star, the two had a cold war.
Because Xiang Yunjia washed and torn Xue Zhixing’s only shorts.
“You are a grown man and you are still so stingy. It’s just a pair of torn shorts. Why are you so angry? When I get back, I will compensate you a hundred pairs and give you a hundred pairs of socks!”
Xue Zhixing gritted his teeth: “Xiang Yunjia, see for yourself if there is anyone selling shorts around here?”
Xiang Yunjia stopped talking.
You can’t even buy napkins here, let alone shorts.
Xue Zhixing was so depressed that he had nowhere to go, so he went out early to repair the mecha.
On this day, he waited until very late to go back.
There was not even a fuel lamp lit in the dilapidated house.
Isn’t that guy Xiang Yunjia the most afraid of the dark?
As soon as Xue Zhixing stepped into the house, he was choked by the strong smell of vanilla.
“Xiang Yunjia? What’s wrong with you?”
Xiang Yunjia trembled and squatted in the corner, his eyes were dull, and he kept mumbling: “Don’t come over, don’t come over, my neck hurts…”
“Xiang Yunjia!”
Xue Zhixing pulled Xiang Yunjia over and saw several bright teeth marks with Alpha pheromones on his neck.
“Who did it?” He gritted his teeth, his dark eyes filled with murderous intent.
Who dares to bite his Omega like this!
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Later, life got better and they lived in a big house and had a new identity.
But Xiang Yunjia was horrified to find that he seemed to be carrying a baby, having fun in his belly all day long…
He held out his stomach stiffly and couldn’t help but curse: “Xue Zhixing! Aren’t you a straight man?!”
Xue Zhixing smiled lightly: “You said you are also a straight man.”
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When Xue Zhixing adjusted the soft pad behind his waist for the fifth time, Xiang Yunjia finally threw the pregnancy manual on the medical cabin: “Can you stop spinning? It’s like a top.”
Alpha’s bony hands stopped in mid-air, and the cuffs were still stained with blood from the mecha’s battle.
“The doctor from the Seventh Galaxy said that the angle of lying on one’s side should be kept at 35 degrees.”
A series of obscure medical data flashed across Xue Zhixing’s lenses, “Your heart rate fluctuated 17 times this morning because…”
“Because some idiot made the nutritional supplement taste like coriander!” Xiang Yunjia grabbed a pillow and threw it at it, but was intercepted by Xue Zhixing in the air.
The slits in the silk pillow exploded, and a lemon candy fell out of the fluttering down – it was Xue Zhixing’s trophy from the black market yesterday.
Xiang Yunjia took the peeled lemon candy away with peace of mind.
Xue Zhixing looked at Omega’s carefree appearance and couldn’t help but put his hand on his belly, humming a lullaby stiffly. The off-key melody made the fetus tremble.
“Senior Xue, who won the national prize in the mathematics competition,” Xiang Yunjia suppressed laughter and trembled, “singing lullabies is good enough to be shot for ten minutes.”
Banxia novel, a lot of fun