A Disabled Alpha’S Guide To Being Loved Chapter 38
byChapter 38 The last fig leaf was violently torn off, just when Wei Zhi was stunned…
Just when Wei Zhi was stunned, there was a fishy smell in the air, and he suddenly saw Cheng Cheng’s slightly strange expression. He suddenly reacted and felt a faint feeling of wetness under his body.
His whole body seemed to be nailed by invisible nails, motionless. The hands holding the sheets unconsciously loosened, and his shoulders slumped slightly, as if the strength to support his body was instantly drained.
When he was most nervous, he leaked urine unconsciously in front of Cheng Cheng.
Shame and humiliation rushed towards him, and his last fig leaf was severely torn off.
Yes, he is a useless person who cannot even control his most basic physiological needs. Who is he qualified to discuss love?
Fate is ruthless and teasing, like a tornado that sweeps away everything it can’t bear to see.
Cheng Cheng reacted before Wei Zhi. He subconsciously approached and wanted to help Wei Zhi deal with the dirt.
Wei Zhi’s pupils suddenly shrank and he waved away Cheng Cheng’s outstretched hand.
“Let me help you…” Cheng Cheng was interrupted by Wei Zhi before he could finish his words.
His voice was trembling violently: “Go away, okay?”
Cheng Cheng frowned: “You can’t handle it yourself, so I’ll do it.”
“No… no, please! Don’t come here!” Wei Zhi covered his face, and his hoarse voice came out from the slit in his throat. The scream gradually became smaller, “I will handle it myself…”
Once again he shed tears of humiliation.
Cheng Cheng’s heart was touched by the person he loved. He had dealt with countless such emergencies when his mother was alive, but now he felt at a loss.
He was afraid that if he said the wrong word, he would stir up a certain nerve in Wei Zhi, causing him to break the string and start going crazy.
“Okay, I’ll leave first.” Facing Wei Zhi like this, Cheng Cheng felt an inexplicable fear in his heart.
He remembered his mother yelling when she was depressed. He was used to it, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t afraid.
Every time he spent it in fear, he could only cover his ears and huddle in his bed, praying that the terrifying moment would pass quickly.
Cheng Cheng quickly walked out of the bedroom, washed briefly in another bathroom, packed his luggage, bought himself the nearest train to Pujiang, and left the hot spring hotel as if he was running away.
On the train, only the station ticket was left. He stood near the door and watched the scenery outside the window passing by frame by frame. Although he obviously wanted to forget it, he still remembered Wei Zhi’s roar before leaving.
Wei Zhi is a gentle person, he kept telling himself this.
But how could a person who experienced a rough life in his early years and whose legs were paralyzed not be crazy in his bones?
But Cheng Chengzhen was afraid of Wei Zhi who was yelling.
In fact, he felt it a little bit. When he was in bed, Wei Zhi would coax him gently at first, but as soon as Cheng Cheng relaxed a little, he seemed to be a different person, using whatever means necessary.
He enjoyed controlling every inch of Cheng Cheng and plundered him without mercy.
Cheng Cheng knew that he was now like a deserter, and guilt and heartache flooded into his heart.
Wei Zhi must have been more frightened than him at that time, but instead of stepping forward to hug him, he chose to turn around and leave…
In a daze, Cheng Cheng looked towards the distance where the train was heading. This was a punishment for Wei Zhi and a warning to himself.
Wei Zhi’s pain is real, but it is also real that he deceived himself into not loving himself… He has been struggling in the quagmire of pain and has no room to give love.
Cheng Cheng returned home alone, but did not wait until Wei Zhi came home.
He moved back to the guest room on the first floor and cooked himself a bowl of noodles. He took two bites but couldn’t finish it.
The next day, two days… a week passed, and Wei Zhi still didn’t go home, nor did he send any message, not even Secretary He sent a message.
What is the situation now, a cold war?
Cheng Cheng smiled bitterly and shook his head. Since Wei Zhi didn’t live here anymore, he was no longer needed as a caregiver. Wei Zhi had a lot of money and could find more professional caregivers.
Of course, he had no intention of contacting Wei Zhi. He would not go to Wei Zhi until Wei Zhi came to talk to him.
Cheng Cheng silently packed his few luggage and packed all the clothes he brought into the Oxford cloth suitcase with frayed corners.
Taking one last look before closing the door of 1102, he took a deep breath and left the house.
It’s late winter now, and the cold wind is biting into my bones.
When Cheng Cheng walked out of the community, he found that the original security guard was standing guard, smiling at him in a friendly manner.
He responded with a polite smile, feeling sad in his heart.He came to Pujiang in July, and now it’s only the end of December. He hasn’t arrived for half a year, and it seems like a long time has passed.
He tasted the long-lost home in 1102, and also tasted the bitterness of the glass of love in Wei Zhi.
Cheng Cheng has already contacted Xu Zhiping and will spend one night in his rented house. Tomorrow he will go to the house he rents to sign a contract with the landlord.
He settled on a one-bedroom apartment in a remote community far away from the city center. Although it was only 30 square meters, it was enough. When he successfully entered college in June, he would be able to live in a dormitory.
If the relationship between him and Wei Zhi continues like this, it is impossible for him to live in 1102 anymore. They will probably have to restore the relationship according to the contract, with a monthly salary of 5,000, including five insurances and one housing fund.
Christmas is coming soon, and there are already many Christmas decorations on the streets in Pujiang. There are also exquisite Christmas-shaped desserts in the transparent windows of cake shops.
Cheng Cheng stopped in front of a candy apple and imagined its taste. It was probably sweet and sour juice wrapped in a crispy and sweet syrup shell. It couldn’t be said to be very delicious, but it would definitely be novel to people who had never tasted it.
If you want to disturb someone’s home, you definitely can’t go empty-handed.
Cheng Cheng walked into the cake shop and packed a piece of strawberry cake, a box of Christmas tree-shaped cookies and a candy apple.
It cost one hundred and fifty yuan.
Nowadays, coffee shops and dessert shops are really stealing money. Cheng Cheng complained secretly in his heart, carefully carrying the flimsy paper bag, and continued to catch the bus.
Xu Zhiping and Tian Qianqian also rented a small house, about 50 square meters, near the outer ring road.This is the result of their discussion. After all, big cities have more opportunities, and food delivery is more profitable than small counties.
After taking three buses, Cheng Cheng finally found the community where Xu Zhiping lived.
Tian Qianqian went out to work, and Xu Zhiping was still recovering at home. As soon as he heard the knock on the door, he limped and ran to open the door.
“Chengzi! Come in!” Xu Zhiping greeted him warmly. The sun had already turned on in the room, making it very warm.
Cheng Cheng stepped forward and hugged him gently: “Zhiping, long time no see!”
He showed Xu Zhiping what he had bought and asked him where the refrigerator was so that Tian Qianqian could have ice-cold cakes when she came back.
“Over there, over there!” Xu Zhiping pushed Cheng Cheng towards the kitchen, “You are tired, have a rest, I will give you a cup of tea.”
“Your injuries haven’t healed yet. Just rest. I’ll do it!” Cheng Cheng hurriedly took the cup he wanted to pour water from.
The two of them were sitting on the sofa drinking hot tea. Xu Zhiping took out a large bag of melon seeds and peanuts and cupped Cheng Cheng with his elbow.
“What happened? Didn’t you go out with your sweetheart? Why did you break up with your boss?”
Cheng Cheng held a large handful of peanuts that Xu Zhiping was forced to give to him and sighed quietly.
“Oh, actually, the person I told you I like is…my boss.”
Xu Zhiping looked at him in shock: “No, don’t you just cook for others? Why do you still fall in love with it?”
Cheng Cheng couldn’t talk about the marriage because of the confidentiality agreement, so he could only say: “He is very kind and gentle to me. I initially offered him 20,000 yuan to help invest, and he agreed, taking my little money into his heart. And, he…”
Cheng Cheng paused: “He is also paralyzed in both legs. After knowing that I can massage, he hired me to give him a massage… He is very good.”
Xu Zhiping discovered the key point at once: “Your boss is paralyzed, and your mother is also paralyzed. Nariko, I know your mother’s temper… You are not an Oedipus who lacks love, are you?”
“How is that possible!” Cheng Cheng said anxiously, “My boss is so handsome, don’t talk nonsense!”
“Okay, okay, I know, what next? Why did you break up?” Xu Zhiping comforted the angry Cheng Cheng.
“Oh, it’s not because of…” Cheng Cheng said everything he could in general terms.
“That’s it. I don’t know if he loves me or not, and I can’t figure out my feelings for him. I actually ran away at that time…” Cheng Cheng lowered his head.
“Of course it’s not your fault,” Xu Zhiping comforted him, “You were so tortured by your mother that anyone else would probably have depression or PTSD. You are already considered mild.”
When Cheng Cheng thought of Wei Zhi’s fragile expression after venting his anger, his heart twisted like a knife. He clenched his trembling hands into fists: “Zhiping, do you think… he has loved me?”
Xu Zhiping straightened his expression and said seriously: “I think he loves you.”
Cheng Cheng looked at him confusedly, with a glint of expectation in his eyes.
Xu Zhiping continued: “Whether a person loves someone does not depend on whether they love or not, but depends on the other person’s actions. You said that he has done a lot of things for you, and those actions are real. The money he gives you is also real. You can’t say that he doesn’t love you.”
“If he just wants you to fall in love with him, then his goal has been achieved long ago. Why bother talking to you heart-to-heart, enlightening you, and letting you study for a bachelor’s degree?”
Xu Zhiping paused and looked at Cheng Cheng’s astonished expression: “Maybe he doesn’t know if he loves you, or he may be telling himself that he’s just trying to get you to take the bait when he’s doing those things. In fact, that’s not the case. He’s doing it unconsciously.”
Cheng Cheng squeezed the tea cup in his hand and lowered his eyes.
Is this really the case?Is it because Wei Zhi himself doesn’t know whether to love or not?
Xu Zhiping took a sip of tea, peeled two peanuts and threw one into his mouth and one into Cheng Cheng’s mouth.
“Do you know where I learned this?”
“Where?”
Xu Zhiping smiled mysteriously: “My father said that.”
“He said that his life was in vain and he did not love the person who loved him the most. When he and my mother were matched by a matchmaker, he was impatient with my mother every day, but she did the laundry and cooking for him without any regrets. He had hot meals to eat every day when he came home from work. The house was spotless, the quilt was changed every year, and the quilt cover was changed every month. My mother took care of everything silently, but my father still felt that she did not love him.”
“Of course I love you very much…” Cheng Cheng murmured.
“No!” Xu Zhiping retorted quickly, “Actually, my mother does not necessarily love my father. She is a woman who was oppressed by the old era. She has no awareness of divorce and is forced to be a housewife. What I want to say is, your boss is your superior, how can he be forced to do what you do?”
Cheng Cheng opened his eyes wide and just nodded, almost forgetting to chew the peanuts.
Xu Zhiping laughed, went to the bathroom with crutches, then returned to the room and lay down. He said “Think carefully, brother” and went to take a nap.
Cheng Cheng froze on the sofa for a while, then started to clean up the somewhat messy living room, sweeping the floor again and again, while thinking wildly.
If it was really what Xu Zhiping said, what should he do?
Jiang Lingfei walked out of the subway station, holding a half-cooled bun in her left hand, sliding her right hand around on the screen of her phone, and exclaimed in disbelief.
People passing her looked at her strangely.
After watching indifferently for a while, she closed her phone and walked quickly towards the association.
Tan Lou had already sat at his workstation early and was boredly watching a video of a psychologist talking rhetorically. This was a task assigned to them by the leader, and everyone had to learn new theories.
Jiang Lingfei swallowed the last bite of the bun, threw her handbag casually on her seat, and hurried to Tan Lou: “Have you received the system notification?”
Tan Lou was confused: “What’s wrong?”
Jiang Lingfei opened her system message and threw the first notification file in front of Tan Lou: “See for yourself!”
Tan Lou squinted his eyes and read the documents carefully, then raised his head in surprise: “Wei Zhi actually took the initiative to withdraw his application?”
Jiang Lingfei stared at me: “He has been pestering me for so long, and he gave up right away. It’s so strange. I suspect he has other ways to adopt.”
Tan Lou continued to watch the video without paying much attention: “Maybe people just want to understand? Don’t always make malicious speculations.”
Jiang Lingfei poked Tan Lou on the shoulder: “Don’t act like it’s none of your business. You are my partner now. When there is a problem, the leader will find us two. I plan to find him and ask about the situation. There must be a reason for the sudden cancellation.”
Tan Lou suddenly felt blessed and asked: “What stage did you tell him about the procedures?”
“You have to apply for the inspector to visit your home. After this step, the adoption will basically be confirmed.”
“Doesn’t that mean that he knew the inspector came to the door and revealed his secret?” Tan Lou pressed his fingers on the table. “I guess there is a relationship problem with his partner.”
Jiang Lingfei frowned: “But last time he looked very determined at the hot spring hotel, it didn’t look like he was having a relationship problem.”
“Ha, who knows, feelings are the most untrustworthy things.” Tan Lou stretched out, “Okay, you can mind your own business if you like, I won’t work overtime with you.”
Seeing his irresponsible look, Jiang Lingfei felt bored, choked him a few words, and returned to her work station, thinking about how to invite Wei Zhi to meet him.
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Banxia novel, a lot of fun