ATBWSTBP Chapter 123
by VolareChapter 123: Memories Return
Chapter 123 Memory Retrieval
A few minutes after Jin Mo and Jin Baiyan returned to their room after dinner, they received a call from Jin Mother.
At first, Jin Mo thought Jin Mother was calling to plead for Pei Qingqing.
On the surface, she and Pei Qingqing’s mother, Hu Jiaoyun, were best friends, and she was also the goddaughter of Pei Qingqing’s grandfather, Pei Yuanqing.
When Pei Qingqing had a problem, Hu Jiaoyun would naturally ask Jin Mother for help.
If it were the old Jin Mother, she would naturally plead for mercy, but the current Jin Mother didn’t want to pretend anymore.
There wasn’t much real affection to begin with; everything was just a transaction.
Not to mention that Pei Yuanqing had already been removed from his position, even if he hadn’t, she didn’t want to be coerced into living her life anymore.
“Xiao Mo, tell Jin Baiyan to do whatever he needs to do. Don’t be afraid; the Pei family can’t do anything to us now!”
“That engagement, although we had our own selfish motives, the Pei family wasn’t well-intentioned either. Pei Yuanqing needed funds to pave the way, so he came to us!”
“The funds weren’t enough, and the path wasn’t paved well, so he was removed from his position, and the Pei family has been in decline ever since. This time, I don’t believe that Hu Jiaoyun didn’t suggest Qingqing instigating me!”
“Okay, I won’t say anymore. I’m calling to tell you what your uncle and I think!”
After hanging up, Jin Mo felt like he was dreaming!
Ever since Jin Mother came here last time and was stimulated, she had been completely in a state of letting herself go.
She doesn’t attend any of those tai-tai tea parties or gatherings.
The photos posted in the family group are either of her helping out on the farm in a white T-shirt and long pants, or directing tourists in a red volunteer vest…
In short, she’s starting to be down-to-earth!
However, Jin Mo could tell that Jin Mother was smiling very naturally at this time!
He was also happy for Jin Mother!
“What’s wrong?” Jin Baiyan couldn’t help but hug Jin Mo and ask after Jin Mo hung up the phone for a long time without saying anything.
Jin Mo leaned into Jin Baiyan’s arms and unconsciously stroked the back of Jin Baiyan’s hand.
“It’s nothing; I just think Jin Mother has been in good spirits lately!”
Raising his face to meet Jin Baiyan’s gaze, he said with a smile, “I think it’s great this way!”
Jin Baiyan lowered his head and pressed his face against Jin Mo’s for a long time.
That night, Jin Baiyan had a very long dream.
He dreamed of pulling the little Jin Mo, who was like a ball of mud, to his side.
He dreamed of accidentally dripping candle oil on the root of little Jin Mo’s thigh, and little Jin Mo looking at him pitifully with tears in his eyes.
He dreamed of finding Jin Mo from the orphanage.
He dreamed of the two of them eating together, sleeping together, peeing together, inseparable!
He dreamed of little Jin Mo squatting at the gate of their school waiting for him, and he ran straight over and took little Jin Mo’s hand to go home together.
He dreamed of the scene when he was tutoring Jin Mo and was so angry that his heart ached.
He dreamed of secretly beating up those who scolded Jin Mo and ridiculed Jin Mo.
He dreamed of Jin Mo saying he didn’t like homosexuality; he dreamed of the scene where he broke up with Jin Mo;
He dreamed of following Jin Mo and seeing him accept someone else’s confession;
He dreamed of the scene where he locked himself in his room, going crazy, in pain, collapsing, and jealous;
He dreamed of the painful process of forcibly splitting his personality.
Like fleeting shadows, they kept rolling in his mind.
Half-asleep and half-awake, he vaguely understood that he wasn’t dreaming, but the recovery of his memories.
Tucking Jin Mo in his arms, he fell asleep again.
This time, he dreamed of his two personalities fighting. At first, the first personality could completely crush the second personality. Later, as his longing for and possessiveness of Jin Mo increased sharply, the second personality began to grow stronger.
The first personality wanted to suppress the second personality, but it had become difficult. Helpless, he could only increase the dosage of the medicine, which had some effect, but the accompanying side effects exhausted him.
In desperation, he could only hide.
Afraid that Jin Mo would look for him, even more afraid that Jin Mo wouldn’t look for him.
The two personalities reached a consensus, leaving hidden clues along the way, leaving their fate to God.
He painted that 3D painting for more than twenty days!
He didn’t know if Jin Mo could still remember their childhood agreement!
Because he was afraid, he deliberately threw it to that rogue as garbage.
It was a pity that the bracelet Jin Mo gave him was broken, and three beads were missing!
At that time, his heart was actually dark. He didn’t have much hope that Jin Mo would come to find him and find him.
They hadn’t spoken properly for more than three years. They were like familiar strangers.
He missed Jin Mo so much that his heart ached, but he didn’t know if Jin Mo missed him at all!
Lying in the cramped cabin, he felt that he had reached the end of his life, as if lying in a coffin, waiting to be buried.
At that moment, he picked up a pen and left a letter.
He couldn’t remember what was written in the letter!
He was in a daze when he wrote it, and his mind was blank after he finished writing!
Holding that letter, he wanted to destroy it for a while, and then he wanted to keep it for a while. After thinking about it, he finally left it!
Maybe Jin Mo would come to find him!
He still had a glimmer of hope in his heart!
After checking into Tongmei, he began to lose control!
The second personality began to fight back with all its strength! He wanted to return to Jin Mo’s side! He didn’t want anyone else by Jin Mo’s side! He wanted to tie Jin Mo firmly to his side, so that he could see him at all times. He couldn’t stand the days without Jin Mo!
The first personality tried its best to leave a letter, leaving clues to his final destination.
He knew that his clues were too hidden, and he was afraid that Jin Mo wouldn’t have the patience to look for them, so he had to leave the Venus Limited Edition Lighter that Jin Mo gave him, and the first tie he bought for him.
These were his last bets!
He wanted to use these to arouse Jin Mo’s memories and let him not give up on himself!
After preparing everything, it was time for him to go to the battlefield!
For those two months, his consciousness was chaotic and his memory was blurred!
The only feeling was that he was worse than dead! Time passed like years!
His whole person was torn apart and then fused, torn apart again and fused again…
He was always in these two states!
The two personalities pulled each other, and neither was willing to give in!
One resolutely didn’t want to let the other do anything dangerous to Jin Mo.
One resolutely refused to let go of Jin Mo and wanted to go back to find him.
In the end, he became Jin Baiyan without memory.
This was the consensus reached by the two personalities.
Bury all the past memories and become a brand new person.
Not a psychopath, without obsessions, if Jin Mo found him, he wouldn’t recognize Jin Mo, so he wouldn’t hurt him.
And he didn’t have to face Jin Mo in the state of a mentally deranged psychopath!
He was afraid that Jin Mo would dislike him! Detest him!
Burying memories, merging personalities, and becoming a brand new self.
He completely handed over his fate to Jin Mo.
When he woke up, the room was still dark.
The slight sound of breathing pulled back his confused thoughts.
The warm body in his arms and the familiar breath at the tip of his nose made him smile involuntarily!
The reason why his memory recovered was just because his knot was untied.
Jin Mo didn’t dislike him for being mentally ill, so what reason did he have to dislike himself!
Thinking of that Venus Limited Edition Lighter, he laughed even more happily.
That was the second time Jin Mo had given him that item!
He used to think that Jin Mo gave it to him because he thought it was fun, but it turned out that he also had an unspeakable possessiveness towards him.
It was a pity that he couldn’t see Jin Mo’s thoughts at that time, and he wasted his years in vain!
Fortunately, Jin Mo chased after him!
He opened his heart and placed it in front of him, so that he could see it clearly!
“Xiao Mo! I… love you so much!”
In the darkness, Jin Baiyan murmured softly and reached out to hug Jin Mo even tighter!