FCY Chapter 121

Luo Yan, after reading the entire diary, remained motionless for a long time. He seemed to understand the reason behind everything Cen Xi had been doing. The events of his childhood had been too much of a blow to Cen Xi, causing him to develop a subconscious inferiority complex. He learned to anticipate other people’s feelings and act accordingly, just like when he moved out of the room this time. Long-term suppression led him to develop self-harming tendencies, using pain to make himself happy. However, Cen Xi always felt that he was a normal person and had no problems at all. Gradually, he did disguise himself as particularly normal. Under normal circumstances, he did not have any self-harming behavior, only in special circumstances would the twisted psychology deep in his heart be triggered.

Luo Yan is now the cause of Cen Xi’s illness.

So, the reason why Cen Xi didn’t dare to ask about my relationship with Li Yu at the time was also because when he asked his grandmother questions as a child, his grandmother would only scold him?

So, he didn’t dare to ask, right?

It wasn’t just this matter that he didn’t dare to ask. During this one day, Luo Yan recalled all the things between him and Cen Xi. In the past, there were many things he didn’t ask. Every time before I went out to a party, he would stare at me, but only stare at me. Maybe he had something to ask me at the time, such as who was at the party, but he didn’t. He just waited for me on the sofa in the SY Base after I came back from the party, waiting for me to tell him about the interesting things at the party.

Yeah, whether before or after being with me, my brother never asked me much about what I was going to do or what I had done. At most, he only asked me for some small opinions.

And after he recovered his memory, he also said “At that time, my mental state was still a bit problematic”, but I didn’t care…

No, something’s not right. Luo Yan suddenly discovered a point. At that time, he only cared that Cen Xi misunderstood his relationship with Li Yu, but he didn’t care about other things. Now he realized, what exactly is the “strawberry” that his brother was talking about? Why did Luo Yan have no impression of him having a “strawberry” on his neck? And why did he say I drank…? Who did he hear it from?

Everything is a cloud of confusion.

Luo Yan had questions in his mind. He needed to discuss this matter further with Cen Xi.

Although he had questions, at this moment, most of Luo Yan’s mind was not on this question.

I really want to hug my brother, Luo Yan thought, and he prepared to do so. He put the diary under his pillow and went out to look for Cen Xi, but for some reason, Cen Xi was nowhere to be found in the entire SY Base. Luo Yan asked Wu Xinming and the others, and they said they hadn’t seen Cen Xi either.

He will always come to the SY Base, Luo Yan thought.

Luo Yan sat down in his seat and prepared to wait.

……

“Were you looking for Luo Yan?”

Zhu Zi had just prepared to enter the SY Base when he heard Cen Xi’s question. He turned his head and saw Cen Xi, who had appeared behind him at some point.

“What are you talking about?” Zhu Zi said awkwardly.

“You weren’t? Then why, just now, was your car still parked at the gate of the SY Base, but you and Yan Bao both disappeared from inside the SY Base? Xia Zhulin, did you tell him everything?”

Cen Xi questioned with a face, and got closer and closer to Zhu Zi, almost pushing him into a corner.

Zhu Zi was sweating profusely. Cen Xi like this was too fierce. He turned his eyes away and stuttered, “No, I went to the convenience store to buy a bottle of drink first…”

“Why don’t you look me in the eyes and say it again?” Cen Xi stared fiercely at Zhu Zi. He didn’t want the person he loved to know his weak side, and didn’t want the person he loved to be with him out of pity. “How many times have I told you, don’t tell anyone!”

“I just…” Zhu Zi looked weakly at Cen Xi, unable to come up with a reason. He should be able to understand the things Cen Xi was worried about, but if the two wanted to love each other and go the distance, shouldn’t they show their true selves completely?

“You…”

“Brother Zhu Zi, what are you two doing?”

Cen Xi’s words were interrupted.