FCY Chapter 114

Cen Xi – Reason

Cen Xi – Reason

“Master, the last four digits of the phone number are 1234.”

Zhu Zi had just started the engine when he heard a familiar voice from the back seat.

“What are you doing here?” Zhu Zi turned his head to look at Cen Xi, suppressing his anger, “I told you, don’t provoke me! I advise you to get out, or I really won’t be able to hold back!”

“Who wants you to hold back? Who believes that you can relieve your anger by letting me be beaten and scolded when I’m not in front of you? Pay back grudges, Xia Zhulin, haven’t I told you that? You’ve changed after not seeing you for a few years!” Cen Xi crossed his arms, responding to Zhu Zi’s angry gaze, “Anyway, I’m not getting out, drive, let’s go to your place for a drink.”

“Damn it!” Zhu Zi cursed, shifted gears, and drove off.

They were silent the whole way.

“Wait for me here?” After the car stopped, Cen Xi got out first, looking at Zhu Zi who was still turning off the engine, “I’ll go buy some wine.”

“Who’s waiting for you!” Zhu Zi shouted, pulled out the keys, got out of the car immediately, and left.

“Okay.” Cen Xi didn’t continue to speak, he found a convenience store by himself, bought a bunch of stuff, and struggled to carry the wine, following his memory to find Zhu Zi’s house. It had been three years, and Zhu Zi still hadn’t moved.

It should be on this floor, right? Cen Xi walked out of the elevator, and saw that the door on the right wasn’t completely closed, confirming that Cen Xi hadn’t misremembered the location. He was still as contrary as before. Cen Xi chuckled and walked in.

“So slow.” Zhu Zi saw the late Cen Xi and couldn’t help but complain, “If you were any later, I would have fallen asleep.”

“Like you could sleep.” Cen Xi put everything on the ground, and at the same time took out a bottle from the pile and handed it to Zhu Zi, “If you don’t scold me properly, I don’t believe you can sleep peacefully.”

“Humph!” Zhu Zi took the wine, opened it, took a sip, and ignored Cen Xi.

Indeed, Zhu Zi couldn’t directly start scolding at the SY Base, what if the others found out… the team would have problems.

Cen Xi and Zhu Zi sat side by side, each holding a bottle of wine and drinking.

“You tell me, what are you thinking about all day long? You sentenced Luo Yan without asking anything, you’re really fucking sick, and not just a little sick!” Zhu Zi took another sip, “The team also went downhill because of you, damn it, do you know how much pressure there was back then? Luo Yan even took the initiative to stand up as the captain, he’s really something,… it’s all because of you! You’re really a beast!”

After Zhu Zi cursed a bunch of words, he couldn’t help but punch Cen Xi. He felt it was unfair to everyone, one punch wasn’t enough, so he punched him a few more times, “When your sister told us back then, I didn’t believe it, but now I really believe it, do you have masochistic tendencies? Need to pay attention to your psychology? If something goes wrong, you’ll bottle it up, and when you can’t hold it in anymore, you still won’t ask, you’ll only abuse yourself, only hurt yourself, and numb yourself with pain, anyway, you just won’t ask, you’ll only believe what you believe.”

Zhu Zi repeated what Cen Yi had told him back then, and took another sip of wine, “If you had just asked back then? You only believe what you believe, and you stubbornly bottle it up, where did this problem come from?”

“It came with me from childhood.” Cen Xi smiled self-deprecatingly, “I even stubbornly refused to see a psychologist before, but I went to treatment for the past three years.”

“If only I had gone sooner…” things would have been different.

The room fell silent again. Zhu Zi knew about Cen Xi’s situation (although he didn’t quite believe it before). He didn’t want to say anything. He had scolded enough and hit him enough. The anger in his heart lessened a bit. He looked out the window and took sips of wine, while Cen Xi just wanted to drink.

“You still haven’t told me how you lost your memory?” Zhu Zi suddenly looked at Cen Xi. Without him knowing, Cen Xi had already drunk three bottles. He was obviously a little drunk now.

“Damn it!” Zhu Zi grabbed Cen Xi’s wine, “You’re an injured person right now, don’t drink so much, otherwise…”

Zhu Zi wanted to say that Luo Yan would worry, but then he remembered that they had broken up.

“Otherwise Yan Bao will worry? He used to, but not anymore. I abandoned him, and he will never pay attention to me again.” Cen Xi snatched the wine from Zhu Zi’s hand and finished it in one gulp, “He was completely hurt by me. Do you know how he looked at me back then, how he looked at himself?”

Cen Xi recalled the scene at the time, recalled Luo Yan’s eyes that were filled with self-deprecating feelings during their breakup, his heart ached. He didn’t want to see Luo Yan mock himself. Luo Yan could scold him, could hate him, but couldn’t mock himself.

“Cen Xi abandoned Luo Yan, Cen Xi didn’t believe Luo Yan, Luo Yan doesn’t want Cen Xi anymore.”

Cen Xi lowered his head and repeated it over and over again, tears dripping onto the floor, “Cen Xi deserves to die!”

Cen Xi clenched his fists and wanted to hit himself, but was stopped by Zhu Zi. He grabbed Cen Xi’s hand, seemingly talking to himself, “I think I understand it now, you really hurt yourself.”

Cen Xi followed his hand that was being held and looked over, his eyes were bloodshot, it felt like they would shatter with a touch. This was a Cen Xi that Zhu Zi had never seen before.

“Xia Zhulin, I’m sorry to you, I’m sorry to everyone, but I can’t control myself.”

After Cen Xi finished speaking, he wanted to hit himself again, alcohol invaded his consciousness, and now he couldn’t control himself even more, he could only act according to his instincts.

Zhu Zi was shocked, and in addition to being shocked, he stopped Cen Xi once again.

“You… didn’t you have treatment? Damn it! You’re really good at hiding it, no wonder I couldn’t tell, should I get a rope and tie you up? Never mind.”

This time, Zhu Zi really felt what Cen Yi said. He tried hard to pull Cen Xi, the strength was really great, he was really cruel to himself, beating himself to death, damn it!

It’s already like this now… then wouldn’t something even bigger have happened back then…

Zhu Zi carefully recalled the scene from back then. Cen Xi lived in a single room back then…

Damn it! No wonder his dark circles were getting heavier and heavier. I thought it was because of the pressure. Zhu Zi suddenly realized, ha, how could Xi Shen, who had played in two major tournaments and won two championships, not be able to sleep because of the pressure of the competition?

“You were using not sleeping to abuse yourself? You’re really something.” Zhu Zi looked at Cen Xi, “No wonder you didn’t touch a single sleeping pill, so you didn’t plan to sleep, Cen Xi, you really… have a big problem! No, you had a problem to begin with, and so did I. If only I had noticed back then…”

Cen Xi was still constantly muttering about Luo Yan, “Yan Bao, I was wrong, Yan Bao, I miss you so much…”