FCY Chapter 5

Let’s Get To Know Each Other Again

Let’s Get To Know Each Other Again

Cen Xi sat on the sofa, hunched over with his hands on his head. Luo Yan’s words kept cycling through his mind. Irresponsible was the word he hated most. Yet, at the same time, he himself had been irresponsible twice, to his boyfriend and to his team. He had become the embodiment of the word he loathed most. He really wanted to kill himself. Why on earth had he left in the first place?

Cen Xi wanted to recall what had happened, but when he felt like he was about to grasp a fragment of his past memories, his head would throb painfully, just like when he was abroad. He would often wake up in the middle of the night in pain. When he told Cen Yi about it, Cen Yi always said that it was because he was under too much pressure from the competitions, which caused headaches during sleep. Now that he thought about it, it must have been because his subconscious didn’t want to forget that part of his memory, so it frantically searched for those memories after he fell asleep. “These three years, I’ve lived such a failure. I looked glamorous on the surface, winning a few championships, but in reality…”

Cen Xi clenched his fists, wanting to hit his thigh, but when he remembered Luo Yan’s words from just now, “Don’t hurt yourself,” he loosened his grip. “Let’s try again, what if I can remember?” Cen Xi thought, leaning back on the sofa, closing his eyes, enduring the headache, and gripping the sofa cushions tightly with both hands. Although a few young Luo Yans appeared in his mind, those images were not enough to piece together a complete event. The headache became more intense, and he couldn’t bear it anymore, so he had to give up.

Cen Xi opened his eyes, his forehead covered in a cold sweat. The pain finally subsided, but his mind could no longer support Cen Xi to continue thinking. “I’m really…”

At this moment, Luo Yan came out with two bowls of noodles on a tray. After placing the noodles on the dining table, he pouted and said, “Brother, come eat breakfast.”

It seemed that the little bit of anger in Luo Yan’s heart hadn’t been digested by himself.

Cen Xi slowly moved to the dining table, sat opposite Luo Yan, and took the bowl of noodles next to Luo Yan to his side. Luo Yan looked at Cen Xi in confusion, the anger in his eyes clearly increasing. They used to eat side by side, but since you’re doing this, don’t blame me for being rude!

Luo Yan stood up, turned the back of the chair towards Cen Xi, picked up the noodles, and started eating by himself, with his back to Cen Xi.

Cen Xi was amused by Luo Yan’s actions, and the melancholy in his heart disappeared a bit. He knew where Luo Yan wanted him to sit from the placement on the table. Or rather, he immediately understood how intimate he and Luo Yan used to be when eating. After all, with his personality, he usually wouldn’t want anyone to sit on either side of him when eating. He didn’t like to be too close to people while eating. But now, he wanted to explain things clearly to Luo Yan, and he had to sit opposite him to show respect.

Cen Xi stood up, walked to Luo Yan, took the noodles from his hand, placed them on the dining table, squatted down, and looked up at Luo Yan, “…”. He didn’t even know his boyfriend’s name, how ridiculous.

“I have something to tell you. After you listen, I’ll let you do whatever you want.” This was what Cen Xi owed Luo Yan for the past three years.

When Luo Yan looked down at Cen Xi’s serious and solemn expression, he knew that this was not the time for him to be childish. He nodded in agreement. He wanted to see what important things Cen Xi could say, not even willing to coax him. “Wait, after he finishes speaking, we’ll settle the new and old scores together.”

Cen Xi carefully turned the chair back to its original position, and then sat back across from Luo Yan.

“Cen Xi-ge, go ahead,” Luo Yan said, looking down at Cen Xi with a somewhat condescending gaze.

Cen Xi took a deep breath, his tone slightly calm, “I told you about this last night when you were drunk, but it seems you’ve already forgotten. I have amnesia. I’ve forgotten everything about you, and everything about the SY team you mentioned.”

Luo Yan’s first thought was the same as last night, “He’s lying to me, right?”

“Impossible, right?” Luo Yan put the noodles on his chopsticks back into the bowl.

But this matter seemed to have some clues. Luo Yan replayed the events of this morning in his mind. Brother’s changes were really big, brother’s kissing skills were very inexperienced, and brother never called my name from beginning to end, whether it was a pet name, real name, or game name. “That’s right, only this can explain why brother never came back to find us. So it turns out he has amnesia. But why did he lose his memory? I guess even brother himself doesn’t know, right?”

Luo Yan understood, and his mood became low. “Then will brother still want me? He doesn’t even remember me, he can’t want me, right? Luo Yan, what to do? You’ve become a child without a home again.”

Luo Yan’s parents died in a car accident when Luo Yan was in high school. After that, he made a living as a substitute player in internet cafes. It was Cen Xi who made him feel loved again and gave Luo Yan another new home.

Luo Yan’s tears flowed down drop by drop. Cen Xi’s heart twinged when he saw it. He didn’t want and wasn’t willing to let Luo Yan cry. He pulled out a piece of paper, stood up, reached across the table, and wiped Luo Yan’s tears while saying, “But when I recalled everything about meeting you last night, I realized that when I met you last night, my heart was beating much faster than usual. All the feelings in my body told me that I used to love you, and my subconscious told me that I still love you. The choice is in your hands, little brother.”

Cen Xi looked at Luo Yan seriously and affectionately, his voice trembling slightly. He was also afraid that Luo Yan would not want him anymore, “, my name is Cen Xi, and I’m a person with amnesia. Are you willing to start a relationship with me and help me recover my memory? Former boyfriend.”