FCY Chapter 119

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“I originally called you out to talk about this matter.” Zhu Zi looked at Luo Yan, “I’m going to tell you about this from my perspective, which might be a bit subjective, but ultimately, you judge for yourself.”

“Cen Xi has psychological issues.”

Zhu Zi’s first sentence was a direct hit to Luo Yan. Cen Xi has psychological issues? How could I not see it at all when I was with him?

Luo Yan was confused, but seeing Zhu Zi’s posture, he wanted to tell the whole story in one go. All he had to do now was be a qualified listener.

“Three years ago, Cen Yi, Cen Xi’s older sister, spoke to me and Liu Li alone about this, but neither of us paid attention to it.”

Zhu Zi sighed, “Who knew? That kid Cen Xi was such a good actor, pretending that everyone thought he didn’t have any psychological problems, that he was just a normal person.”

“You should know the specific reason why Cen Xi left, right?”

“He misunderstood me.” Luo Yan replied in a muffled voice, showing that he really didn’t want to bring up the matter.

“And he didn’t even ask you about the truth of the matter. Damn it, I really want to scold him when I think about it. That guy is really sick, convicting someone without asking a single question. He’s really not just a little sick.”

“I think so too.” Luo Yan especially agreed with Zhu Zi’s words.

“He didn’t dare to ask.” Zhu Zi suddenly said in a low voice, “Cen Xi didn’t dare to ask, he was afraid that if he asked, it would really become true.”

“I sensed this last night.”

“This is also related to his psychology, or more precisely, to his childhood experiences.”

Zhu Zi remembered Cen Yi’s words. Cen Yi said that Cen Xi’s childhood experiences caused his current psychological state, but he didn’t know the specifics.

“You should also remember, right? During that competition three years ago, Cen Xi’s sleep condition was getting worse and worse. When we asked him, he just said he was nervous, but we all believed it. You guys believed it, and even I, who knew some things, believed it. I’m pretty ridiculous too.”

“Come to think of it, Cen Xi, the god of Xi in everyone’s hearts, has experienced so many competitions, how could he have insomnia just because of a competition?”

“He was torturing himself. He hasn’t slept since he saw the… on your neck.”

“Psychological problems cause him to rely on torturing himself to make himself a little happier when he encounters certain things.”

“He left silently after the competition because he needed greater stimulation, so he chose self-harm. If you see Cen Xi’s arm in reality, you can see dense knife wounds under the tattoos. This can’t be captured by a phone.”

“He has amnesia because, if he didn’t have amnesia, if he didn’t forget your words, he might have self-harmed to death.”

“Actually, there’s another way, which is to ask you the truth.”

“But again, he doesn’t dare to.”

“This is everything I learned last night.”

“I think I also owe you, and SY, an apology. As a coach, knowing some things and not seeing the state and psychological problems of my own players is my dereliction of duty.”

Zhu Zi finished speaking, and Luo Yan was stunned.

Luo Yan’s mentality, which was initially just wanting to understand all the facts and not leave any regrets for himself, turned into shock and began to recall all the things he had done with Cen Xi.

Your boyfriend, who has been with you for so long, suddenly someone tells you that he has psychological problems, that he left you because of illness, because of misunderstanding you, and you never noticed this.

Luo Yan felt very uncomfortable in his heart, and he tried to find things in his memory that could confirm what Zhu Zi said.

In the competition three years ago, Cen Xi’s condition before the last few games was indeed worse than the last… He only seemed to be okay when on the stage.

And when he first met Cen Xi with amnesia, he was hitting the table and hurting his hand…

Was it there before?

It seems like it was. When he first met Cen Xi, he saw Cen Xi use a cigarette butt to burn his arm, leaving scars on it…

That’s right, there are burn scars on his arm, but they’re gone now…

I was actually loving Cen Xi carelessly…