DF Chapter 93

Chapter 93: She attempted to crash and bleed with her sharp antennae.

Chapter 93 She attempted to crash and bleed with her sharp antennae.

July in Jingjiang was already unbearably hot. The sun overhead seemed ready to melt people at any moment. Looking at the asphalt road, even the air seemed distorted.

It was already four in the afternoon when Song Ji’an came out of her little house.

She and Sheng Jia were supposed to meet at five in the afternoon.

She drove aimlessly around the Binhai Highway, turning the car around and heading towards Fuyuan District.

Once, Song Ningqiu bought a small villa here so that she could live better in Jingjiang No. 1 High School. Song Ji’an lived there for a whole year. Later, when she left the Song family, Song Ningqiu wanted to transfer the villa to Song Ji’an’s name as well, but she refused.

She hadn’t been near this area for five whole years.

Obviously, she arrived here earlier than Sheng Jia. Even though the villa had been unoccupied for so many years, it still looked the same as when Song Ji’an left. Even the flowers and plants had been carefully pruned and cared for.

But the villa was empty after all, and it had long lost the vitality it once had.

Song Ji’an didn’t know where Auntie Liu and Auntie Zhou had gone afterwards, but she thought that with their abilities, they wouldn’t be doing too badly no matter where they went.

Song Ji’an didn’t hesitate in front of the door. She put her fingerprint on the lock, and the fingerprint lock clicked open, revealing the interior. Even the photos that she had personally arranged were still there.

She stood by the photo wall in a daze, and for a rare moment, she didn’t know what day it was. Those memories that she had deliberately suppressed and didn’t want to recall were about to burst out from under this photo wall, almost completely engulfing her in a cold sea. She was sure that without even needing to struggle, she would be immediately swallowed by this sea.

Footsteps sounded behind her. The collision of the hardwood floor and heels was particularly clear. Song Ji’an didn’t turn around, but Sheng Jia’s voice rang in her ears.

“This place has been preserved very well.”

Song Ji’an nodded, “It’s exactly the same as before I left.”

Then there was a long silence.

In fact, there had also been such a long silence three days ago when Song Ji’an called Sheng Jia at night.

Sheng Jia seemed to have expected it long ago. Even though there was silence on the other end after the call connected, she quickly called out Song Ji’an’s name.

Yes, Sheng Jia had always been prescient, hadn’t she?

She calculated everything clearly, and everything was moving forward according to her plan. Then, guessing that Song Ji’an would choose to call, wasn’t it also easy for her to do since she had deliberately revealed her trail?

So Song Ji’an just took a deep breath, and arranged a time and place to meet her, and hung up the phone after talking it over.

The two of them were like machines that had been programmed long ago, completing the foreplay that they both knew so well.

“In the years you’ve been gone, Song Ningqiu has been helping you to preserve and manage these properties that you didn’t want, down to the flowers and plants in a small villa, she has people come over every week to take care of them.”

Sheng Jia said slowly.

Only then did Song Ji’an turn to look at her.

This was Sheng Jia after five years, tall, upright, wearing a well-tailored women’s suit, exuding a strong elite aura from head to toe. Probably because she had just finished a summit and rushed over immediately, her face was slightly pale and tired.

She casually threw the suit jacket over her arm on the back of the sofa, lowered her eyes, and skillfully made two cups of latte for the two of them in front of the coffee machine.

Song Ji’an looked at the cup she handed over, took it, and took a sip. It was the taste she had drunk many times in the past.

At Greenery Cafe, when Sheng Jia was still working part-time there, she almost knew Song Ji’an’s drink preferences by heart.

But unfortunately, Song Ji’an doesn’t get enough sleep these days and has given up coffee.

There was another silence, like the calm before the storm, the atmosphere was extremely oppressive.

Song Ji’an sat down on the sofa. She turned to look at Sheng Jia, who was putting down the cuffs of her sleeves, “Sit down. Let’s make things clear today.”

She took the initiative to invite Sheng Jia.

Sheng Jia also sat down opposite her as she was asked.

This was the first face-to-face conversation between the two after five years.

They couldn’t help but take a few more glances at each other, seeing each other calm and composed.

“Do you have anything you want to ask?” Song Ji’an’s tone paused slightly, then she smiled, “But since you’ve taken the initiative to appear in front of me, you should already know everything you need to know.”

She was telling the truth.

After Sheng Jia discovered Song Ji’an’s trail, it only took her a short afternoon to learn about Song Ji’an’s current situation, and use this to reverse-investigate what Song Ningqiu and Song Ji’an had concealed from her.

In fact, before she went to Jingjiang, or perhaps even earlier, when she noticed something was wrong, she had already made a guess in her heart. Now it was just confirmed.

Sheng Jia chuckled. She slowly said: “When you left the Song family, you told me that Song Ningqiu chose me, and abandoned you, but you took away the assets that belonged to you over the years, and you want to live well, not to be trapped by hatred. Do you think you did it?”

Song Ji’an was stunned. Her gaze didn’t shift, but directly met Sheng Jia’s. She saw a hint of sarcasm in those deep eyes.

“Are you mocking me?” Song Ji’an’s words inexplicably added a bit of gunpowder to the atmosphere between the two, “When your investment intentions appeared in Cheng Fangyang’s WeChat, didn’t you already know the answer to this question?”

“Yes, you didn’t do it. Not only didn’t you do it, you also lied to me,” Sheng Jia couldn’t help but laugh, “You didn’t take away any assets, and you didn’t think about where your future was going, but you still wanted to put an end to things between the two of us, so you invited me out for a farewell.”

“You wanted to use this farewell to deceive me.”

Song Ji’an sat up straight and asked very slowly, “What did I lie to you about?”

Sheng Jia opened her mouth, and after a long time, she spat out that embarrassing answer, “Song Ningqiu never chose me from beginning to end. The person who really made this choice was you.”

Sheng Jia had made such a guess after discovering something was wrong half a year ago, but she stubbornly wanted to get real evidence to prove this outrageous guess.

She had tested Song Ningqiu’s attitude, but didn’t find out anything. She had quietly inquired about Song Ji’an from Sheng Huaiying, but apart from a few abnormalities, she didn’t get any news. Then, she began to inquire about Song Ji’an’s whereabouts, just like every time she inquired later, everything about Song Ji’an on the surface was normal, but if she investigated further, it would turn into a fog and she couldn’t find anything.

During that long period of time, while working all over the country, she would approach the real estate near Song Ji’an and secretly investigate. These things had been returned to Song Ji’an’s name for so many years, but they had never been used.

During her time in Jingjiang, she went to investigate the last real estate under Song Ji’an’s name, which was this villa. There was nothing wrong with the villa. It was cleaned spotlessly, the owner was still Song Ji’an, and it showed no signs of being used.

After Sheng Jia met Song Ji’an, she investigated Wangfen Funeral Home, and finally found out about Song Ji’an’s experience in college and the process of taking over the funeral home through this line.

She had never used any of the assets that originally belonged to her.

This might have already explained something.

The person who was really managing all the industries was Song Ningqiu, and the only reason was that Song Ji’an had “abandoned” these assets. She herself was unwilling to accept them, and she was even more unwilling to come back, but they still had to create a facade to confuse the inquiring eyes.

The target of this confusion was only Sheng Jia.

And the truth under this cover and confusion was that Song Ningqiu had never given up on Song Ji’an. The person who made the choice for Song Ningqiu was Song Ji’an. Song Ji’an even deliberately used a farewell mixed with lies to cover up this truth before leaving.

Song Ningqiu was hoping day and night that Song Ji’an and Sheng Jia would one day resolve their past grievances.

To this end, she even worked hard to preserve the things that belonged to Song Ji’an.

Sheng Jia almost laughed out loud the moment she completely confirmed her guess.

She couldn’t tell which was more, embarrassment or frustration. At that moment, the only thing she wanted to do was to bring Song Ji’an over and confront her, just like that snowy day when she was seventeen, when Song Ji’an dragged Sheng Jia, who was trying to get away from her, to confront her.

But now, after hearing Sheng Jia tell the truth, Song Ji’an’s eyes only moved slightly. She had already guessed that Sheng Jia knew the truth, so she wouldn’t be too surprised at this moment.

“So you’re here to accuse me?” Song Ji’an asked knowingly, “But wasn’t that the best choice we had at the time? Sheng Jia, you wanted me to leave the Song family, and I just didn’t want to stay in the Song family anymore. Wasn’t my departure just right?”

“Yes, very good,” Sheng Jia said, “It’s a particularly great choice.”

Song Ji’an’s eyes became colder under her sarcastic tone.

In fact, Sheng Jia wasn’t the only one with frustration that she couldn’t vent. Song Ji’an was the same. Her life had long been a mess. Her life quickly sank in such a huge change. She endured and restrained herself, telling herself that it was the right choice. She fulfilled herself and Sheng Jia.

So she couldn’t accept Sheng Jia’s accusations against her at this moment.

“Sheng Jia,” her eyes darkened slightly, and she was amused by the anger, “Do you think my choice was wrong?”

At this moment, she and she faced each other, it was an unprecedented tension.

Their eyes became a silent signal, causing those high-rise buildings that they had tried so hard to wrap up, symbolizing reason, to collapse.

“How could your choice be wrong?” Sheng Jia sneered, “I used the way of hurting myself to force Song Ningqiu, I showed all my pain and paranoia of the first eighteen years in front of her, but I underestimated a mother’s love for her daughter, which can’t be easily covered by blood relationship.”

“Even if she feels sorry for me, pities me, and wants to compensate me, it’s still difficult to really follow my wishes and abandon you, and separate from you. She has long been accustomed to being an enlightened good mother in front of you. Even if she encounters such a thing, she would rather choose to tell you first and then slowly think of ways to alleviate the incompatibility between us.”

“But you made a choice,” this was perhaps the most emotional moment for Sheng Jia in so many years. Those unwillingness, resentment, repression, and more complex unspeakable emotions that were buried in her heart all broke out completely at this moment, and only in front of Song Ji’an could they break out, because they were each other’s reflections in the mirror in the world, their lives had been entangled from the moment they were switched.

They had learned to hide their emotions early on, but those helplessness would always swell in their hearts after tossing and turning, bursting their chests, causing their masks to shatter, revealing the truth that was covered up.

This sharp and unseemly appearance would only be revealed to each other in secret.

This was perhaps also their common choice under their strange tacit understanding.

Sheng Jia continued: “It was you who made her abandon yourself, it was you who insisted on leaving the Song family. Even at the moment you left, Song Ningqiu was still willing to do as you wished. She was willing to bear all the ruthless gossips and accusations for you, just to respect your choice. You don’t want anything, so she will save all your things, just waiting for the day when she can resolve the conflict between me and you and take you home. You made her hide all your whereabouts from me, so she has been covering up your whereabouts for five consecutive years, so that I can’t find out anything. You left, but her desk probably still has reports about your recent situation every month.”

“She never really chose me from beginning to end.”

Sometimes Sheng Jia would rather she didn’t live so clearly. What if she found out? She could live her life well if she pretended not to know, enter the company, control the company, and become the next heir of Song’s Heavy Industry, without thinking about anything, without doing anything. It doesn’t matter, even if she doesn’t let go, Song Ningqiu won’t take Song Ji’an back, and Song Ji’an won’t be willing to come back.

What if she continues to walk down so basely?

Even if she knew that Song Ningqiu had been working hard to adapt to the life torn apart by Song Ji’an and Sheng Jia in the past five years, even if she knew that Sheng Huaiying had been working hard to adapt to the life where both daughters had been away from her for a long time in the past five years, even if she knew that Song Ji’an had been living a muddled life after choosing to leave on her own, so what?

She should live her own life well.

She should take Song Ji’an’s words when she left as true, and deceive herself that everyone has their own choices.

But she couldn’t do it the moment she learned the truth.

She had never been able to deceive herself.

The unspeakable sense of frustration defeated her, turning all her resentment and estrangement from Song Ji’an into a joke.

What she wanted and what she got was not what she had really calculated and sought after, but what Song Ji’an had persuaded Song Ningqiu to give her.

In the end, the person who fulfilled her young, biased and stubborn thoughts was Song Ji’an.

She would rather her plan fail than accept Song Ji’an’s sacrifice.

She attempted to crash and bleed with her sharp antennae.

Instead of being like a fool, thinking that she had won a victory mixed with pain and guilt in this war.

Song Ji’an laughed, her tone also became sharp in Sheng Jia’s venting accusations.

She put down the coffee cup in her hand and asked, “Did I have any other choice? That’s not entirely because of you, don’t think too highly of yourself. After that happened, I didn’t have the face to stay in the Song family anymore.”

“You took on the pain of eighteen years for me, that’s what I owed you, and it should have been returned to you. I returned everything you wanted to you, is there any problem?” Song Ji’an’s eyes were red, and she asked sharply, “Everything that you and Meng Yeran calculated, everything you wanted, I think there’s no problem with it. The real and fake heiresses return to their respective positions, it should have been a matter of course. Since you’ve already returned, what are you struggling with?”

“Can’t we just live our remaining lives peacefully? Can’t we just not have any more contact? You have your choice, I have my choice, so why do you have to break all this?”

“Do you really think there’s no problem?” Sheng Jia sneered, “If there really was no problem, you wouldn’t have deliberately used farewell to replace the truth before you left. You should have stood in front of me openly and told me that Mom can’t make a choice between the two of us, but you will choose to leave on your own. Instead of standing in front of me as a loser, letting Mom say something against her will, telling me that she finally chose me, and kicking you out of the house.”

“Because you know that no matter how extreme I behave, I will never accept the position you gave up, and your charity to me,” she stared closely at Song Ji’an’s eyes, “Even if Song Ningqiu didn’t choose me in the end, I would at most maintain a state of coexisting with you in the Song family. There might be hostility, but Song Ningqiu would definitely try to resolve the conflict between us.”

This was originally the scene that Sheng Jia had simulated in her mind that might appear after her plan failed.

In fact, if Song Ji’an didn’t choose to leave, this scene would become a reality the next day.

Song Ningqiu felt that Song Ji’an’s choice to leave was to fulfill her embarrassment, she held Song Ji’an and sobbed, saying sorry.

She said she wanted to realize Sheng Jia’s wish, but she didn’t think about giving up on Song Ji’an, she only thought about letting the two not meet temporarily, letting Song Ji’an avoid Sheng Jia, and waiting for everything to be sorted out, and waiting for her to untie the knot in Sheng Jia’s heart before they meet again.

Song Ji’an was the child she had raised with her own hands, she couldn’t give up easily.

She just felt that this decision that had to be made was also unfair to Song Ji’an, and she was blaming herself for not being able to find a better solution to this matter.

She felt guilty to both children.

“You gave up everything, you voluntarily withdrew, you know that I would never accept it if I found out the truth, but you still chose to use this method, pulling Song Ningqiu together to create a lie for me. This will make you feel better, right? You think your mission is completed, you think we’re even, you think our matter is completely resolved.”

This was the extremely resolute choice made by the young Song Ji’an, she wanted to leave, she wanted to leave cleanly, she didn’t want to live in the Song family, she wanted an ending with a clear conscience, even if she knew that the process of this ending might deceive Sheng Jia, she still did it.

Two seventeen-year-old teenagers always felt that everything was in their control, but in reality, they were still young, not mature enough, and the choices they made went from one extreme to another.

Song Ji’an also completely revealed her sharp side in the dispute with Sheng Jia. She stared at Sheng Jia and sneered, “Sheng Jia, don’t say it so grandly, do you think I don’t know what you’re thinking? You and I have been together for a whole year, you have changed from simply being hostile to me to feeling guilty after doing everything.”

“The unwillingness and frustration in your heart is not Song Ningqiu’s choice, nor my deception, but you can’t believe that you are really so lucky.”

“Lucky enough to realize at the moment of discovering the truth that even if you don’t make such an extreme choice, and don’t spend so much effort to approach everything in the Song family, as long as you spread the truth in front of everyone, I will actually choose to leave on my own.”

“My departure is not because I was defeated by you, not because I was frightened by your paranoia, but because I also have my own principles, I also have the courage to face pain, I can give up all the benefits I shouldn’t have for the sake of the fairness I pursue.”

“You think you should hate me for taking away your maternal love and your identity. And because you have become too aware of me, you hesitate, struggle, and feel guilty, so you think, let’s make a break quickly, and end everything before you can’t bring yourself to do it, this is the reason why you used such a biased approach to force Song Ningqiu to make a choice, you feel uneasy, you think things are going to exceed your control.”

“You think of everyone as so bad, you never believe in anyone, you don’t believe that you can get equal treatment, and after that, anything that might shake your mind is heresy, because you are afraid that you will no longer be yourself after you change.”

Sheng Jia clenched the back of the chair and said angrily: “If I don’t do this, I would have been skinned and cramped long ago! Why do you let me believe in you, whom I only knew for a year or that I intentionally approached myself?”

The room suddenly fell into silence.

Whether it was Sheng Jia or Song Ji’an, they lost the self-restraint and restraint that they should have had in the dispute.

They fiercely attacked each other’s weak points, stabbing each other with blood.

But they vaguely felt a trace of pleasure in the wound, which was the anger that they had been suffocating for a long time and had nowhere to vent, which was the real and active soul under the two delicate human skins.

That was the sequel to the snowy field at the age of seventeen that had not been resolved. Perhaps they should have had a fight like this a long time ago, even if they couldn’t argue who was right and who was wrong.

Sheng Jia took a deep breath and turned to look out the window. She narrowed her eyes and suddenly said, “If you think my unwillingness is wrong, then why did you decide to come to me because of my investment in the funeral home?”

“Because you are also unwilling to accept my help, you are not willing to accept my help, even if your funeral home is actually extremely difficult now, and you don’t know what will happen next. According to its current development, you may not be able to fill it even if you take dozens of orders outside.”

“So what? Is this your revenge? Do you want me to empathize?” Song Ji’an retorted.

“This is not revenge,” Sheng Jia looked at the photos on the wall, she saw the seventeen-year-old Song Ji’an was smiling happily, “You have always empathized with me, I know.”

It was because of empathy that they had to use a ridiculous farewell to maintain Sheng Jia’s self-esteem.

In fact, this kind of empathy is also the same when used in reverse by Sheng Jia to Song Ji’an. This investment has never been revenge, it was her subconscious choice after she realized that Song Ji’an’s spirit was heading towards a difficult situation.

But Sheng Jia didn’t continue on this topic, her voice suddenly became much lighter, “Song Ji’an, do you remember what you said to me on the last day?”

“You said we shouldn’t meet again in the future.” She hooked her lips, her eyebrows and eyes were no longer tense, “Since everything is fake, then I don’t need to abide by your request.”

At this moment, she had no plans, helpless, and didn’t know what to do.

But she would stubbornly untangle this mess.

It took a long time for Song Ji’an to open her mouth, her voice was lazy, and her emotions had stabilized, “The funeral home is your own investment, I originally didn’t have the right to prevent shareholders from entering.”

After saying that, she stood up and added, “But you may not be able to see me.”

Three hundred and sixty-five days a year, she is running around outside for three hundred and fifty days, how can she be so easily seen by her?