BLHO Chapter 60

Chapter 60: You Are Still You

Chapter 60: You Are Still You

The wind and snow swallowed everything, Song Jiting’s face was half covered with dried blood, dragging his tattered body, step by step, moving forward with difficulty.

The night had not yet faded, and he didn’t know how long he had walked before he walked out of the man-eating Imperial Palace.

But he didn’t know where he should go.

He felt he was already dead.

He died the day Li Yuliang drew a prison on the ground and trapped him.

From that day on, his will was slowly eaten away.

Until that madman forced him into another madman.

So crazy that he never expected that Li Yuliang would return his freedom.

The faint light barely reflected in his vision, and Song Jiting felt that he must be hallucinating.

In a daze, he even saw his father’s figure.

Impossible.

How could his father still be alive?

Even Gu Huan, a servant of the Drunken Fragrance Pavilion, was not spared.

Everyone related to him could not escape this implicated misfortune.

But the figure getting closer and closer was unmistakably familiar.

His father, whom he missed so much, how could he mistake him?

“Jiting…”

A vicissitudes of life call came, and Song Jiting’s last strength was finally exhausted.

His body could no longer support him, and he knelt weakly in the snow.

Song Lian valued his reputation all his life, and he knew what kind of temperament his child, whom he had carefully taught, had.

Since he was a child, he had been able to distinguish right from wrong, and what he sought in his life was to be worthy of his heart and innocent in the world.

But in order to save his life, what kind of things his child did, Li Yuliang didn’t have to tell him clearly, he could guess it.

“Father…” Song Jiting struggled to raise his head and saw the face of the person in front of him clearly.

“It’s really you… your child has finally seen you…”

He lay on the cold snow, bitterly tugging at the corners of his mouth.

Finally, there was one thing Li Yuliang had done for him.

At least he didn’t suffer those sins in vain, his father was still alive.

But why did he still hate so much?

His father’s hands could not warm his body, and his body kept trembling.

Days of torture had already exhausted his strength, his eyes were dark, his heart ached, and his breathing was extremely difficult.

Was he going to die like this?

“No… I don’t want to die… don’t want to die…”

He gritted his teeth and supported his body.

Hot tears fell and were instantly swallowed by the ice and snow.

He couldn’t feel it himself.

He couldn’t feel anything.

Only the thought of living on.

“I want to live… I want to personally… cut him into pieces…”

The first ray of dawn fell on his face, and the dark night ended.

–

The Empress Dowager passed away, and the whole country mourned. For several days, the sound of wailing filled Fengdu City, only calming down at night.

It was already late, and Lin Shuangxu was leaning against the window, not yet resting.

The Empress Dowager, the Qi Dynasty long princess, Duan ZhiQiu.

Because of the word “Autumn” in that name, he was named Shuangxu.

Before her death, the imperial edict, besides him, no one would understand why this amnesty came about.

Perhaps he should be sad, after all, the deceased is gone.

But in this life, he had even let go of hatred, so how could he be entangled by those unnecessary emotions?

He had long ignored love and hate, his life was just living, for no reason.

The old butler came with a lantern and saw that he was indeed not asleep. He said to him: “The General is still busy, and can’t spare time for a while. Let me tell the young master to rest early and not wait for him.”

In the past few days, people from the military camp frequently visited to discuss the situation at the border with He Yuncheng.

The discussion time was later day by day, presumably the situation was tense, and the day of the war was not far away.

Lin Shuangxu was nursing his injuries, and He Yuncheng didn’t dare to stay overnight in his room, but after finishing his work every day, no matter how late, he had to come and see him to feel at ease.

Every day, Lin Shuangxu had gotten used to waiting for him.

It was almost midnight.

“Why is it so late today?” Lin Shuangxu asked.

The old butler had just vaguely heard the military advisor and others mention something about Han Mao, and the atmosphere was very tense, and it seemed that there was a difficulty that was not easy to solve.

But He Yuncheng didn’t let him tell Lin Shuangxu too much, for fear that he would worry.

The butler respectfully followed the instructions and said, “It’s nothing else, I just chatted with the military advisor and the others for a few more words. It’s late, and the General said he won’t come tonight, so as not to disturb the young master’s rest.”

Lin Shuangxu was silent for a moment, and didn’t ask anything, “Okay, I know.”

After the butler left, he returned to the bed alone. The room was too quiet. He closed his eyes, and even when he was half asleep, he didn’t stop thinking.

He lived in this world, only seeking stability in this life, nothing else.

But it seemed that God didn’t intend to spare him.

Everything was not over, the abyss was there, and the one who went forward bravely was the first to be smashed to pieces.

–

Another half hour later, He Yuncheng and Guo Yao and others ended their discussion and came out of the main hall.

After seeing them off, He Yuncheng looked at the sky and realized it was indeed too late.

But he still wanted to go to Lin Shuangxu’s room to take a look, otherwise he wouldn’t be able to rest assured all night.

The courtyard was silent, and only a dim lamp was left in Lin Shuangxu’s room.

He must have already fallen asleep.

He Yuncheng was afraid of waking him up, so he stepped very lightly, and didn’t make a sound when he pushed the door open.

Lin Shuangxu was lying flat on the bed. His injuries had recovered well in the past few days, and he had been resting peacefully at night.

He Yuncheng stood by the bed, looking at his peaceful sleeping face, and the tension in his heart that had been strained during the war discussion finally relaxed.

He had agreed not to disturb his rest, but staring at his face like this, He Yuncheng couldn’t help but quietly leaned down.

He approached those lips inch by inch, almost close enough to touch, when suddenly Lin Shuangxu called his name.

“Yuncheng.”

He Yuncheng stopped his movements, seeing him open his eyes at close range.

He didn’t feel ashamed to be caught doing something good. With a helpless smile, he stood up and asked, “Did I wake you up?”

Lin Shuangxu didn’t answer yes or no, and propped himself up to ask him: “What did you discuss for so long? Is the border situation tight again?”

He Yuncheng didn’t want him to worry, but since he asked, he didn’t hide it from him. With a solemn expression, he nodded and said, “Yan Zhao sent troops to attack and burned our granary. The border now urgently needs supplies and support. If it is delayed, the outcome is unpredictable.”

“Does the imperial court know?” Lin Shuangxu asked.

If the granary was burned, it was not something they could solve by collecting military funds through unconventional means.

He Yuncheng said, “The Ministry of War knows the situation, but Chen Chang…”

He frowned, and when he mentioned these people, he only felt annoyed and difficult to deal with.

“Are you unwilling to allocate silver?” Lin Shuangxu asked.

He Yuncheng said disgustedly, “He is focused on supporting his brother-in-law, Han Mao. These dog officials only care about seizing power for themselves and don’t care about the life and death of the people on the border at all.”

It was no different from what Lin Shuangxu had expected. These people were staring at He Yuncheng’s military power. Without his life as a threat, they would still use other means of coercion.

“Then what are you thinking now?” Lin Shuangxu asked him.

He Yuncheng lowered his eyes, actually finding it difficult to choose.

If he continued to stalemate with the Ministry of War like this, the border war situation would eventually collapse.

But if he really gave up his military power… he didn’t know what the consequences would be for Bei Sheng, and he also didn’t know where he should go from now on.

He took a heavy breath and smiled at Lin Shuangxu, “Let’s not talk about this. How is your wound? Have you felt any discomfort these days?”

Lin Shuangxu quietly looked at him. Since he didn’t want to talk about it, then he wouldn’t.

Without answering, after a moment of eye contact, Lin Shuangxu turned sideways and directly untied his clothes.

He Yuncheng was a little surprised and stared at him blankly, without blinking for a moment.

The moon-white thin shirt slipped, half-covering and half-revealing half of his back.

The wound was well bandaged, and the surrounding skin was a light pink color that was gradually healing, without any signs of ulceration.

His injury was no longer a major problem, so the military doctor no longer accompanied him in the residence every day. When he left the residence a few days ago, he told He Yuncheng to observe it occasionally. As long as the wound was not wet or touched, there was no need to worry.

He Yuncheng didn’t move for a long time behind him, so Lin Shuangxu slightly turned his head and asked him, “I don’t feel any discomfort, are you looking at it?”

He Yuncheng licked his lips subconsciously and said in a low voice, “Well, it’s much better than before.”

His gaze was warm, and Lin Shuangxu could feel it even in ordinary times, let alone at such a moment.

Familiar and beautiful images appeared in his mind, and Lin Shuangxu couldn’t help but start to feel hot.

Then he raised his hand to lift up the clothes that had fallen on his shoulders.

He only lifted it halfway when He Yuncheng suddenly grabbed his wrist.

The stopped movement was ambiguous and difficult to hide. Lin Shuangxu lowered his eyebrows, making it seem like he was deliberately waiting for something.

He Yuncheng approached without hesitation, his cheek close to his wound, his breath entwined with the bitter taste of medicine.

“You’re suddenly being so nice to me, do you feel sorry for me again?” He Yuncheng asked.

“Where am I being nice to you?” Lin Shuangxu’s tone was very calm.

“You took the initiative to undress. The last time you did this was because I was involved in a lawsuit and you were afraid that I wouldn’t be able to escape punishment… This time, what is it because of?”

He used the tip of his nose to scrape Lin Shuangxu’s shoulder, touching him and smelling him again and again.

“Do you feel that this time the border war is a disaster for me, too dangerous, and you are afraid that I will never return?”

The subtle teasing quickly made Lin Shuangxu’s breathing hot.

For a person like him, silence was consent, and indulgence was already initiative.

He Yuncheng would not fail to understand.

Dense kisses fell on his back, and He Yuncheng whispered to him.

“When my father died in battle, I only thought it was an accident, but now I understand that for a general, it is normal to be in constant danger.”

“Do you remember?” He Yuncheng hugged Lin Shuangxu even more passionately, “After my father died, my mother also followed him. At that time, I was sad, but I also thought that if I had a wife in the future, would she be as unforgettable and willing to die for me as my mother was for my father.”

“If someone is willing to treat me with such sincerity, no matter what the ending is in this life, it will be complete and without regrets.”

“Later, you said that you wanted me to like you, and I thought again that if I marry you as my wife in the future, I will definitely treat you like my father loved my mother, with loyalty and dedication.”

Lin Shuangxu listened to his murmurs, tightly grasping his sleeves, waiting for everything that might happen next.

But He Yuncheng stopped his movements again.

“But do you know what I’m thinking at this moment?”

His palm was gentle, still restrained and comforting.

While Lin Shuangxu was lost in thought, He Yuncheng whispered to him next to his ear.

“I think, fortunately, I didn’t force you to marry me, Lin Shuangxu, you are still you, with or without me, you are complete.”