FBF chapter 23 part 3
by Volare“Ugh… ah, there, stop….”
“You showered, right? You were trying to get ready for sex with me… to get ready so quickly.”
“Ah-huut….”
“You knew I was going to suck you, right? You did.”
Because the man was saying those words as if murmuring them, with his lips pressed against my skin, it felt as if the sound was coming from inside my body. The growling sound also sounded as if he was calling out for something. The moment I saw him bringing his lips back to the place he had just sucked from, as if urging me to answer him, I nodded my head without even thinking about it. Y-yes, I showered. I said I showered… If I didn’t answer, I felt like he would suck me until a piece of my skin came off this time. Lee Jihoon’s hand, which had been playing with the area near my ribs, stopped briefly, and then he mumbled in a low voice.
“So that’s what happened. Our Seon-uk was trying to get ready….”
“…Ah-ugh, ah!”
“You were begging to be sucked… huh?”
Lee Jihoon, who had gone down deeper, hurriedly buried his head into me as if lowering his head. The flesh on the upper part of my chest seemed to be swallowed by Lee Jihoon’s mouth all at once. Every time I heard the sound of him opening his mouth wide and then licking it loudly, my lower stomach would tighten as if it was being pulled.
It was also at the same time that he found and grabbed my dick. Every time Lee Jihoon got excited, his grip would tighten and my dick would twitch as well. It was an intense stimulus to accept all at once. To the point that I felt grateful that one of his hands was still holding the top of my head as if to protect it.
“Huth, ugh, ah… Lee Jihoon….”
The more I sobbed, the more Lee Jihoon would gasp.
“Ah, I like this so fucking much….”
“…Ah!”
Now, I couldn’t even care where my semen had landed. Even though it was my fourth ejaculation, Lee Jihoon’s touch didn’t stop, and my dick was faithfully swelling as if returning a favor. I had buried my head halfway in Lee Jihoon’s shoulder. I knew that I wouldn’t fall because he was holding me, but I felt like I would fall if I didn’t cling to him like this.
The parts that Lee Jihoon had passed over were tingling or hurting. Even without looking, it was clear that everything from my neck down was all red. Lee Jihoon grabbed my waist and lifted me up slightly. It was to suck on my nipple.
“Uht…!”
My waist involuntarily tightened. Lee Jihoon, who was holding me tightly so that I wouldn’t fall back, buried his face in my chest. My nipples, which had already been erect, were sucked into his mouth, as a response to the stimulation being applied to my body both above and below. The feeling of my skin getting rubbed due to his strong sucking power was brief.
I couldn’t move at all when Lee Jihoon started sucking on it. Not only was Lee Jihoon pressing me against the headboard to suck my chest better, it was also because of my dick, which was now accepting Lee Jihoon’s hands as if it was used to it. It felt like it was getting bigger and smaller as Lee Jihoon touched it. The stimulation given from above and below was intense. My whole body was trembling by now.
“…Ha, haaa, eu-uht….”
The way he was focused on sucking it, was like he believed that something would come out of it. He had been sucking the protrusion with the broad side of his tongue and it felt like he wouldn’t let go of it. It was only when my left nipple felt as if it was about to fall off that he released it from his mouth. His lips were glossy. Lee Jihoon’s eyes were now completely unfocused. Just like when we had sex for the first time. I put force into my hand as I didn’t want to miss the fact that Lee Jihoon’s dick, which I had been grabbing, was swaying. Lee Jihoon moaned briefly and hurriedly put his head down again. His hot breath touched my nipple. If I even tried to twist my waist because I couldn’t endure the tickling sensation, I would be caught in Lee Jihoon’s grip. I couldn’t do anything but look down at him without even being able to move.
“Seon-uk-a… everywhere I suck….”
“…Ugh, just, a bit, slowly….”
“I feel like I’m going crazy because I smell you.”
Lee Jihoon’s eyes were hazy. As if he could no longer hold back, Lee Jihoon gathered my right breast with his hand. Because he was touching the area where nothing was coming out as if squeezing it, it felt like all my senses were focusing on my nipple.
“I remembered the color of your nipples… and the color of your dick. I’ve been holding my dick and shaking it while thinking about that.”
“…Huth.”
“But I didn’t know that my body wash would smell on your nipples… fuck.”
“Haa-ukh….”
I tried to catch my breath. I tried my best to move my hand that was holding Lee Jihoon’s dick up and down, but even that was hard the moment Lee Jihoon’s finger had slid inside my briefs and entered my crotch. The feeling of his long finger groping around the entrance of my hole felt too strong.
My hand was slippery with semen since I had been ejaculating in Lee Jihoon’s hand the whole time. Even if that wasn’t the reason, my hole was already ready for penetration. I could feel my swollen hole reacting as if panting every time Lee Jihoon’s finger brushed against it. Lee Jihoon stopped as if he had felt it too. The finger that had softly entered my hole came out again. The man who had lifted his face from my chest looked at me. As he chuckled lowly.
“…You loosened up here as well?”
It was like he was asking if I had prepared even that, not just showering for sex. As if reading the answer in me, who couldn’t answer, his black eyes in his red-rimmed eyes trembled even more.
“…….”
“…….”
The man, who had lost even the composure to smile and was staring at me as if to devour me, was clearly lusting for me. Just meeting his eyes, which clearly showed his desire, made me feel like I was being stripped naked. Even though I was already naked because of him, there were no more clothes that I could take off. At the same time, Lee Jihoon’s dick, which I was holding clumsily in my hand, trembled. The semen that had been released from the tip of his glans soaked my hand, and then kept dripping down.
Lee Jihoon slowly lowered his head. As if realizing just now that he had ejaculated.
“…Ah.”
Strangely, it felt like he had come to his senses at that moment. His face, as he was letting out a shallow moan, even seemed embarrassed. I was worried that he might stop the act again, like he had done earlier, but thankfully, Lee Jihoon grabbed my waist again. However, what happened next was different from what I had expected. Lee Jihoon lowered me from his knee and laid me down straight on the bed. While I was strangely looking at him, who had even put a pillow under my head, our eyes met. Lee Jihoon pressed his lips against my forehead. His lips gradually went down. He was carefully trying to make sure that his lips touched every part of me, from my face down, without any gaps. It was a completely different attitude from when he had been greedily sucking and grabbing my body, wherever it was. I hesitated for a moment before reaching out and grabbed Lee Jihoon’s shoulder. Lee Jihoon, who had been carefully trying to bring his lips to the scar on my abs, stopped and looked up.
“…You aren’t going to do it?”
My voice was a little hoarse by then. I felt embarrassed since I must have been moaning too much, but I held back and opened my mouth.
“Just do it.”
“…….”
“Let’s just do it now without having to wait anymore. I’ll tell you if it feels too much, so don’t worry.”
No matter what a mini sex was, it couldn’t be as good as insertion. Even the things we had done so far had been focused on getting me aroused rather than him. I knew that from the way Lee Jihoon’s dick was spraying semen that was dripping down below his hand, unlike my dick that had nothing more to squeeze out. Looking at the man, who was looking at me without answering, I wordlessly spread my legs open a little more. It was a little embarrassing, but I felt like this was the only way Lee Jihoon would do it without hesitating. Lee Jihoon, who looked down and checked me first, ran his tongue lightly over his bottom lip. As if he was thinking about it.
Lee Jihoon lowered his hand and took his dick completely out of his briefs. It was erect even though he had just ejaculated. I tensed up, thinking that insertion was about to begin, but my body froze at the moment, as he did the opposite of what I expected. Instead of grabbing my legs and spreading them wider, he had pulled them towards each other. Because the man was squeezing my hips and bottom with force, my legs were put together.
“Hey, what are you…”
“Let’s just get the feeling. Just the feeling.”
After saying those incomprehensible words, Lee Jihoon bent his body. He took out some lube from the third drawer next to the bed, which I didn’t even know existed. Lee Jihoon meticulously applied that lube between my thighs. Even when his hand slipped and penetrated the space between my thighs and crotch, his movements didn’t waver as if he had planned that.
The moment I roughly guessed what he was about to do, Lee Jihoon stopped applying the lube and lifted me up. He made me grab the headboard while turning my back to him, and then hugged me from behind. I could feel his hard dick touching my inner thighs along with the touch of his hands on my chest.
“Bend your knees.”
The moment Lee Jihoon bit my ear and spoke those words, I felt a strange sensation on my thighs. The flesh inside my thighs, which had stiffened in shock, tightened and contracted. Because of that, every time Lee Jihoon slowly thrust his dick between my thighs, it made a sound similar to the one we made during sex. The muscles even felt as if they were getting crushed because I had put so much force into my thighs, but I clenched my teeth and endured it. Every time Lee Jihoon’s dick brushed against the soft flesh, I felt a tingling sensation. It felt like pain, but it also resembled pleasure.
“Ha, aah, aah….”
Every place his dick touched felt as if I was being electrocuted. After using his dick to barely brush against the space between my thighs, Lee Jihoon twisted my nipple and pierced through my thighs all at once. When I lowered my head, I could see Lee Jihoon’s veined dick. When we were inserting it into my hole, I couldn’t even see it, but the fact that I was watching his engorged dick going in and out below made me feel strange.
I swallowed a moan and tilted my head back. I could feel sweat dripping down my face and falling. The body of Lee Jihoon, who was behind me, was as hard as a rock.
“Ugh… uht….”
The speed of Lee Jihoon, who had been thrusting his dick between my thighs, gradually decreased. After thrusting a few more times, Lee Jihoon pulled his dick back after not too long. His hand parted my thighs and roughly kneaded the sensitive inner flesh, groping it.
“Ah-hugh….”
I unintentionally let out a groan as if enduring the pain. It was sore as if it had been brushed against by his dick. At the same time, Lee Jihoon clicked his tongue softly.
“I can’t do this. You need to gain some more weight on your thighs.”
My body turned around gently. Even though I hadn’t done anything much, I felt like I was about to collapse from exhaustion. Lee Jihoon seemed to have noticed that as he laid me down carefully. He leaned against me, almost collapsing, and put his arms around me, putting my hands between his. It felt like I could hear his heartbeat through our chests that were pressed together.
My breathing gradually calmed down. I had no strength to stop Lee Jihoon from licking my cheek with his tongue, so I just let it be. It felt like I had just finished a very long race. When I thought about it, could this also be considered exercise? If it was, the doctor was right. I was still too overwhelmed for now. Even though we hadn’t even done insertion.
“…….”
The moment I lowered my head slightly and saw the red marks, I changed my mind. If we had just inserted it and come after that, I wouldn’t have been this exhausted.
This is what… I’m not a dog…
I was dumbfounded because Lee Jihoon had left his marks everywhere on my body where there was flesh.
“Seon-uk-a.”
“…….”
“Ji Seon-uk.”
“…Why.”
While feeling the man’s hand stroking my back, I also awkwardly raised my upper body. The moment my vision was a bit higher, I could finally see the messed up sheet all at once. Lee Jihoon was supporting his head with his arm, and was turned half way towards me. His left hand was gently kneading my waist. As if he was giving me a light massage. The muscles, which had been so tense because of Lee Jihoon just a few minutes ago, felt as if they were relaxing.
It was a peaceful atmosphere, even though what we had just done was ridiculous. Lee Jihoon, who had met my eyes, opened his mouth quietly.
“I know you must be annoyed with being treated like a patient… Thank you for enduring it so well.”
His hand, which had come up from my waist, was now patting my chest.
“I know that I’m being a bit dramatic. And that you’re enduring it because it’s me.”
“…….”
“The reason why I’m doing this even though I know that, is because I know that you’ll become healthy if we get through this period. Because I know that you won’t get sick again and will become even stronger.”
Strangely, I felt like I was about to cry. When my grandfather had passed away, Lee Jihoon had become my guardian. It was something that we had both accepted as a matter of course, but it was only in this moment that I fully realized what that meant. It was that no one would worry and care about me more than him. As I could tell from the fact that he had been so mindful of the feelings that I thought I had been enduring and hiding, instead of showing them.
I forced my eyes to focus and swallowed. I had something that I wanted to say to Lee Jihoon.
“…Lee Jihoon.”
As I faced the man, who was staring at me and waiting for my answer, even though my voice had lacked confidence, I took out the words that I had been keeping in my heart for a long time.
“It’s also true that I tried to have sex with you because I didn’t want to be treated like a patient anymore….”
Even though I had simulated it several times as if I was practicing, it wasn’t easy to say when I was actually trying to. But I still had to say it. Because he wouldn’t know if I didn’t say it.
There are things that even a perceptive man like him wouldn’t know unless I said it. It hadn’t been that long since I had realized that I had to say those things with my own mouth. It was still hard, to the point that I had to hesitate for a long time in order to take out the words that I had been keeping in my heart for over two months. But I still thought that I had to make an effort. Because I really didn’t want to hurt him again by thinking and making judgments on my own.
“The words that we said after we last slept together… I kept thinking about it.”
“…….”
“I… said things that I didn’t mean about regretting it and stuff.”
“…….”
“I… I felt sorry as I kept thinking about it. I thought I should say it before too much time had passed and things had become vague, but things ended up like this… I wanted to say that that wasn’t true. That I also liked sleeping with you on that day.”
I was looking at the sheet because I didn’t have the confidence to make eye contact, but I could definitely feel that Lee Jihoon was surprised. Just the fact that the man who would have said something by now was silently listening to me, was enough.
“…….”
“…….”
It felt like I had said everything that I wanted to say, but there was still no reaction from Lee Jihoon. I was worried about the silent man, so I lifted my head and glanced at him. I was about to turn my head back awkwardly, but stopped. I had forgotten about my embarrassment as I stared in awe at the strange sight in front of me. A flustered voice burst out.
“Hey, your face…”
Lee Jihoon’s face was bright red. It was the first time I had seen it, so I couldn’t believe it even as I was looking at it. To the point that I was staring at him like I was observing something.
“Ah, stop… stop looking. Just for a moment.”
Lee Jihoon belatedly covered his face with his hands, but I couldn’t take my eyes off him. His ears, which were not covered by his hands, were bright red as if they were about to explode.
So… was he blushing? Suddenly? Why?
As if realizing that I wasn’t going to look away, Lee Jihoon took away the hands that he had been using to cover his face. But his face was almost back to its original color, perhaps because he had taken the time to catch his breath. He roughly brushed his hair up and continued speaking, as if grumbling. His gaze was subtly avoiding me.
“What am I supposed to do if you come at me like that suddenly. I wasn’t even ready….”
“…….”
“Ah, fuck. I’m so embarrassed….”
The man, who had mumbled, glanced at me at the end of his sentence. The moment I saw the man doing exactly what I had done a while ago, I couldn’t help but chuckle. I often felt this way. That Lee Jihoon and I were doing things that we had never done before in our lives. That the man, who didn’t even flinch when saying things that would make anyone scared if they heard it, reacted like that to my late confession.
I reached out towards Lee Jihoon’s face. I put my hand on his jaw and made him turn his head towards me. Lee Jihoon, who had paused, followed obediently, as if being pulled. As if he knew what I was about to do.
After kissing his lips lightly, I finished it with a peck. Because it seemed like Lee Jihoon liked that. The moment I took my lips off him, Lee Jihoon’s chest heaved.
“Ha….”
The man, who was breathing shallowly as if he was releasing the breath that he had been holding back, had his eyes fixed on mine. I lowered my head and put my forehead against his. I felt like this posture would allow us to say what we wanted to say, while also being appropriately embarrassed.
“About you trying to change jobs….”
“…….”
“I wish you wouldn’t do it if it’s because of me.”
Lee Jihoon didn’t ask how I knew. Instead, he spoke as if confiding in me, along with a sigh.
“Every time I go overseas, I worry about you. I also don’t like not being able to be by your side.”
“I know. That’s why I also wanted to get better faster.”
“…….”
“I’m getting better, and I’ll keep getting better, so just worry about me as much as you are now. You were happy at the company and did well, right? I looked it up, and it’s a loss for you if you change jobs.”
The man, who was looking at me silently, still looked as if he wasn’t relieved. To the point that I had no choice but to open my mouth and speak as if promising it.
“I’ll just focus on recovering for the remaining month as well. So that you won’t have to worry about me.”
Lee Jihoon, who had been looking at me silently, reached out his hand.
“Promise?”
It was embarrassing to do something that I hadn’t even done when I was little, but the reason why I was doing this childish act was because it was a way of showing him that I was being sincere. Unlike how I had refused every time he had asked to link our fingers, I linked my pinky finger to his pinky finger this time.
“Yeah.”
I mumbled awkwardly as I looked at the man, who was smiling as if he knew the reason why I did that.
“…Still, stop treating me like a patient, little by little. There’s only a month left until D-day.”
It felt like now was the perfect time to say those words. As expected, Lee Jihoon smiled and raised his eyebrows as he proposed playfully.
“How much should I stop? Give me a number.”
“…Around 2?”
“It starts from 100?”
“Then 20.”
“5.”
“15.”
“5.”
“…Are you a gangster?”
The moment I asked with a frown, Lee Jihoon burst out laughing. After laughing out loud with his mouth open, Lee Jihoon pulled me close and hugged me tightly. Where I had put my head, as if being pulled, I could hear a thumping that felt like a real heartbeat. It was a sound that I heard every time I slept with Lee Jihoon. I had been surprised at first, but I was used to it by now. Sometimes, it even felt like a lullaby. Maybe that’s why I toss and turn a little more and wake up in the middle of the night when I sleep alone in this bed on the nights that he isn’t there.
Instead of refusing, I closed my eyes and put my hand on his back, where he had buried his head into my shoulder. I could see the yellow light coming through the blackout curtains. Even though we had been rolling around naked as if it was the middle of the night, it was still daytime. My body felt so lazy that I felt like I could fall asleep right now. Lee Jihoon seemed to be the same, as he was hugging my shoulder and rubbing his face against it. The man, who had exhaled deeply and was close against me, whispered into my ear slowly.
“Let’s also try stuff like that during the remaining month. Like strip poker.”
“…Strip poker?”
“Yeah. The first person to say ‘no’ has to take off an item of clothing. Wouldn’t that be fun?”
Even in that situation, it was ridiculous that he was suggesting a game that would clearly only be in his favor. I swallowed the words that I had been about to say out of habit and clenched my fist.
“I swear, I’m going to kill you….”
The moment I pushed the man’s shoulder with my fist, Lee Jihoon took a step back as if overreacting. When he saw my bewildered expression, he smiled with his eyes and kissed me. As I felt his tongue tracing around my teeth, I wrapped my hand around his neck. For the first time, I was happy about the fact that there was still a long day ahead of me.
“Eat well.”
“Yeah.”
“Sleep well, too.”
“…You promised that you wouldn’t treat me like a patient as much.”
It was the fifth time I had heard him say the same words while standing at the door. Lee Jihoon, who had been putting his hand on the handle of his suitcase and then letting go of it, and kicking his already worn shoes off for no reason, finally straightened his back and faced me when he realized that he couldn’t stall any longer.
“Okay. Then this time, I’ll do the version that you give to your beloved lover.”
“……”
“Eat well.”
“…Yeah.”
“Sleep well, too.”
His actions showed me that there was no real difference between the two. I felt a little embarrassed at the man’s actions. When Lee Jihoon saw me scratching the side of my head, he grinned and held out his cheek.
“Okay, now a kiss.”
I thought it was amazing that he was saying those things so casually, even though it was the middle of the day. Even though I knew that we were inside the house and that no one could see us, I hesitated before bringing my lips to his cheek slowly. The moment my lips parted from his cheek, Lee Jihoon held out the other cheek as if it was obvious. There was a simple reason why he was making such a shameless request.
“Honestly, one kiss just doesn’t feel like enough.”
Ha… Even if I let out a sigh that could be heard by anyone, I would only get confirmation that the man, who was pretending to not hear me, wouldn’t back down. Since I wouldn’t be able to see him for at least five days after his flight today, let’s just do everything he wants while thinking about that. And let’s not regret it after he leaves. I closed my eyes tightly and brought my lips to Lee Jihoon’s cheek. I pulled my head back along with a soft sound, ‘peck’. Or at least, I was going to pull my head back, when my neck was suddenly grabbed and pulled in.