MTMIO Chapter 93
by VolareChapter 93: Igniting a Whole Heart of Fluttering
The plane ticket was bought by Yun Zhu, and it was first class, as compensation for not accompanying her.
Lu You didn’t stand on ceremony with Yun Zhu either; she desperately needed a relatively private space to digest the thoughts that had accumulated.
The folder was spread out on the tray table, and she had taken all the sheet music out of the clear plastic sleeves.
Next to her, the phone screen was stuck on the paper flower tutorial that Jian Zhi had sent earlier.
Lu You picked up a piece of sheet music and looked at the orange annotations on it.
Sometimes they were excerpts from famous quotes, sometimes they were emotional notes and thoughts derived from the emotions flowing within the musical notes, scattered around the harmonies or structure at specific locations.
Just one look was enough to make someone remember the corresponding musical phrases and measures.
Indeed, the more profound something is, the more unforgettable it becomes.
It was an excellent method for memorizing music.
The notes seemed to be an accompaniment to her emotions.
So much so that it almost made her forget that the emotions recorded on the sheet music were merely anchors to deepen memory.
And from the moment she opened the sheet music, these anchors precisely and deeply hooked into her heart.
——“I suppose you haven’t looked at that blue folder of mine…”
——“Never mind, it’s not important anymore.”
The way Yue Yunxi looked when she said those words flashed through her mind—disappointed, helpless, desperate…
Like a gambler who had gone all in, losing her last chip.
Snapping back to reality, Lu You folded the sheet music in half.
At this moment, she finally understood why Yue Yunxi initially wouldn’t let her touch this folder, but later generously handed it over.
If she had seen the contents too early,
all she would have discovered was that her mature and steady lover had such a cute side with “dialogue sheet music.”
All she would have done was feel a little heartache and describe Yue Yunxi’s former emotional outlet as being shaped like a cartoon moon, coaxing Yue Yunxi to be happy and telling her that it was all in the past.
Then this folder would only have served to add a bit of fun.
It should have been seen by her before that night they argued.
That would have been Yue Yunxi’s chance to turn the tables in the gamble.
Because to her, it was a shot of adrenaline, inducing heartache and prompting her to soften.
She finally understood why Yun Zhu wanted her to read the folder before going to see Yue Yunxi.
Giving her a shot now, although late, was not too late.
She would still feel heartache.
And she could no longer dwell on the long-expired and ineffective scheme.
She dozed off in this half-awake state, startled awake for no reason. Lu You pressed the power button on her phone and involuntarily opened Yue Yunxi’s chat window.
The chat history was still from before the argument.
Her fingers hovered over the screen. There were so many things she wanted to say, but she didn’t know how to start, what kind of opening to use to break their silence of so many days.
In the end, she tapped Yue Yunxi’s profile picture twice.
[I patted “Yue Yunxi” and said: “I love you.”]
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When the plane landed at Peretola Airport, Lu You had folded the first nineteen sheets of music in the folder into bouquets.
The process of preparing the bouquets made her feel like the two of them had never had a conflict.
But the fact that she still hadn’t received any feedback from the pat on the head that evening reminded her that this was just an illusion.
Perhaps Yue Yunxi was recuperating and simply didn’t have the energy to look at messages.
Perhaps Yue Yunxi had cut off the internet because she didn’t want to see any more strangers.
Lu You told herself that there was a reason for everything and that she shouldn’t be demanding of someone who was injured.
At the same time, as she got closer to seeing her, her mood became more complicated and uneasy, beyond her control.
It was just that she hadn’t received a reply, a small matter, but it was like a tiny pea under layers of mattresses, making her uneasy.
Outside the airport, there was a Chinese driver arranged by Yun Zhu waiting to pick her up, and he drove her directly to Yue Yunxi’s residence in Florence.
Lu You asked the driver to help her find a flower shop and had the sheet music bouquets nicely decorated.
Back in the car, she felt her phone vibrate. Lu You quickly took out her phone.
Chen Xiguan had sent a message: [Are you there?]
Lu You’s shoulders slumped heavily with disappointment.
She didn’t reply to Chen Xiguan immediately, but instead, knowing there were no new messages, couldn’t help but open the chat window that she had pinned to the top.
Unsurprisingly, the record remained—
[I patted “Yue Yunxi” and said: “I love you.”]
She once again recalled the scene when she first tapped that prompt, her heart beating as if it had skipped a beat, just like back then.
The difference was that now, her suspended heart couldn’t return to its original position, but was falling heavily downwards, into an abyss with no bottom in sight.
Taking a long, slow breath, Lu You switched over and replied to Chen Xiguan: [I was just about to look for you, I have a few questions I want to ask you. 1. I saw you and another figure taking pictures in the elevator, why did you take pictures of us? 2. Who is the other person? 3. Who sent out that video using your phone?]
Three or four minutes passed before Chen Xiguan replied: [Because I like you, I don’t know what I was thinking, maybe I felt like that might be the last time we ever saw each other, so I went to take pictures.]
Chen Xiguan: [2 and 3 are the same person, it’s Ningmeng.]
Lu You was stunned for a moment. She had thought the latter would be Tao Xin.
Chen Xiguan: [The elevator photos were taken by Ningmeng after she saw me taking them. Later, she gossiped with Tuoba and sent the photos to Tuoba, and Tuoba sent them to someone else… and that’s how they spread. The second video was sent out when she thought you had betrayed Taotao first. She happened to see the video I had saved on my phone and sent it out to vent Taotao’s anger.]
Chen Xiguan: [Although I didn’t send them out, I can’t escape responsibility. If you resent me, that’s understandable, but I still hope you don’t resent me too much.]
Lu You didn’t know what to reply for a moment.
It would be a lie to say that she didn’t mind at all.
But…
Her lowered gaze fell on the sheet music flowers in her hand. She could still vaguely see the orange text lying quietly within the layers of petals, between the winding gaps of the sheet music.
But she couldn’t bring herself to harshly blame Chen Xiguan, who had once shared the same feelings as Yue Yunxi.
After an unknown amount of time, Lu You slowly typed and sent: [Thank you for liking me, thank you for helping me speak implicitly, and thank you for coming to me today and being willing to answer my questions.]
Chen Xiguan: [I came to you today for another matter.]
Chen Xiguan: [The song “Shiye” was something I saw in Taotao’s notebook, and then I expanded on it with her.]
Lu You’s eyes widened slightly: [I’m sorry, I don’t quite understand, could you be more specific?]
Chen Xiguan: [I should say that I composed the music, except for the chorus. The remaining lyrics, the last verse was hers, and the rest was written by me.]
Lu You was stunned. She was still digesting this information when the next line of text from Chen Xiguan came over.
Chen Xiguan: [I am a very gloomy person. I haven’t had much of a presence since I was a child. I am very grateful that Taotao formed the band, grateful that she discovered me in the crowd, grateful that she invited me to join the band, and grateful that she brought you to listen to us sing, allowing me to hear you say “Xigua on stage is a very dazzling person,” allowing me to more bravely break away from my original family and pursue my musical dreams. I kept telling myself this, so that I wouldn’t mind that Taotao didn’t write my name in the lyricist and composer credits.]
Perhaps it was something she had prepared a long time ago, one paragraph after another, coming out of the left side of the screen without stopping, arranged on the screen.
Chen Xiguan: [But this matter has been bothering me so much, especially after Taotao became popular. Every time I see her sing “Shiye,” thinking about how she gained love and career with this song.
And I am still struggling to make ends meet, I feel particularly unwilling. At the most unwilling time, I questioned her, I said I wanted to expose her, and then she gave me the opportunity to go on the show.
So I chickened out again, I needed this opportunity too much.
But I felt even more uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that I couldn’t digest it at all, and then I confided in the fans who had been with me all along.]
Chen Xiguan: [She let it slip when she confronted Taotao’s fans online. My manager, who is also Taotao’s manager, came to ask me what was going on, and I told her everything.]
Chen Xiguan: [Now, the manager thinks that Taotao has too many uncertain factors. She plans to discuss with the leader to give me justice.]
Chen Xiguan: [Before the final.]
It was said quite euphemistically. If it weren’t for the added sentence at the end, Lu You wouldn’t have understood the deeper meaning.
Giving justice before the final would inevitably affect Tao Xin’s popularity. Now, on the show, Tao Xin and Chen Xiguan are facing off. As long as Tao Xin makes a mistake, the champion will definitely be Chen Xiguan.
This means that the company plans to abandon Tao Xin and promote Chen Xiguan.
Chen Xiguan: [Although you broke up, I know that Taotao grew up with you, and I know that she used to be very good to you. You illuminated the dark times in my life, and she also illuminated yours. I know you are very good friends. I’m afraid you’ll think I’m stabbing Taotao in the back at this time without conscience, I’m afraid you’ll hate me…]
Chen Xiguan: [But compared to you hating me, I’m more afraid of going back to living in the basement, going back to a time when the future was dark. I thought about it for a long time, and I decided to confess everything to you. I have a clear conscience, and it can be regarded as notifying you in advance so that you can be mentally prepared.]
Chen Xiguan: [No need to reply to me.]
Outside the car window, pink balloons broke away from the hands of pedestrians and floated higher and higher, farther and farther away in the receding scenery until the car turned a corner and entered a new section of the road, disappearing from sight.
Lu You felt that the emotions brought out by Chen Xiguan at this moment were like that balloon.
Stripped away outside the car window, frozen in the scenery that had already passed.
She still replied to Chen Xiguan: [I don’t really like you using liking me as one of the reasons why you didn’t dare to fight for your rights at first. These two things are not directly related.
Secondly, I support you taking back what belongs to you.
Finally, I hope you don’t do as she did. If you reveal the news, remember to note everything except the chorus part.]
Chen Xiguan: [You are right, I am too cowardly myself. I will tell the company to make a note.]
Chen Xiguan: [But there is one thing, I am not sure, I feel like it is sowing discord to say it, but I will tell you anyway.]
Chen Xiguan: [The first time I saw the chorus part of “Shiye” in her notebook, I casually asked if she wrote it. At first, she replied that she didn’t, and saw it in her sister’s music. But when I said I wanted to try to expand it, she said again that she remembered it wrong, and she wrote it.]
Chen Xiguan: [She didn’t write my name in the lyrics and composition of “Shiye”, so I always think that her initial answer was the real one.]
After a while, Chen Xiguan said: [Maybe I am being petty.]
Just as Lu You finished reading, her phone vibrated.
Her heart once again experienced a rollercoaster ride, her heartbeat raised by expectations, and quickly dragged down by disappointment.
It was a call from Yun Zhu.
Lu You answered the call and moved the phone to her ear.
“Have you arrived?” Yun Zhu asked.
“Not yet.” Lu You asked the driver how long it would take.
The driver glanced at the navigation and said: “There are still ten minutes.”
“There’s something.” Yun Zhu said, “Regarding the online stuff, my plan is this: the first step is to expose that the chorus of ‘Shiye’ was written by Lao Yue, first shut up those brain-dead fans. If they don’t shut up, we won’t save face and sue for infringement directly.
The second step is that Tao Xin called and said she liked Lao Yue. I accidentally recorded it with the recorder. Expose it to solve the Chu Xiao thing.
The third step is the police issuing a notice.
The fourth step is that the guy who has been spreading rumors online has been found out, his name is Li Rui. Sue him!
The fifth step is Lao Yue’s former class monitor, and the person who previously photographed Li Rui entering the women’s toilet. Coincidentally, their children want to learn the piano and want to join our orchestra. They will help clarify.
Three, four, and five can solve the rumor problem.
The sixth step is to expose Lao Yue’s previous school bullying.”
Hearing this, Lu You interjected: “Is this sixth step necessary?”
Yun Zhu teased: “Oh, feeling sorry for her?”
Lu You pursed her lips and didn’t say anything.
Yun Zhu said: “Lao Yue doesn’t care anymore.”
Lu You: “Oh.”
Since the person involved doesn’t care, she can’t say much.
Yun Zhu said: “If the sixth step is taken, the seventh step will be easier. The seventh step is to have an online army lead public opinion.”
With such a comprehensive plan, how come there is no sign of reversal at all?
Lu You asked: “Which step are we at now?”
Yun Zhu: “Stuck at the first step.”
Sure enough.
Yun Zhu: “You have something in your hand that can prove that she wrote the music.”
Lu You: “…”
Yun Zhu: “Auntie Yue said that since the last time you were harassed by a stalker, Tao Xin hasn’t been talking nonsense in the fan group. She also posted on Weibo emphasizing that she doesn’t want the lives of relatives and friends to be disturbed.”
Lu You was not particularly touched.
Because she and Yue Yunxi had reminded Tao Xin a long time ago not to say too much in the fan group, as it was a mixed bag.
If she had done this earlier, nothing would have happened.
Yun Zhu said: “The artists in the same company as her said that she herself wanted to help you and Lao Yue clarify, but the company made her shut up.
And her fans, I heard that since she started appearing on the show, the big fans have been pointing fingers at her, always nitpicking her, and asking her how to do things. I feel like her big fans don’t really love her, they treat her like a puppet.
Now that it has become like this, it is all the fault of the fans. These two days, they have started scolding her company and agent.
Don’t tell me, even I, who don’t like her, feel a little sorry for her when I see her fans’ behavior.
Then these things, I told her before Lao Yue had the accident.”
Lu You asked: “What did she say?”
Yun Zhu said: “Lao Yue’s meaning is that no matter what happens now, Tao Xin used to be pretty sincere to you, and she treated her better than she should have. So she is hesitating whether it is necessary to be so ruthless.
Because if the things about Tao Xin in the plan are exposed, um, you know.”
Lu You closed her eyes and didn’t say anything.
Once everything is exposed, together with the last message sent by Chen Xiguan,
plus the time when the company gives Chen Xiguan justice,
Tao Xin may never have the opportunity to stand on the big stage to sing again in this life. The flames of her dreams have not yet burned to the most passionate state, and will be submerged by what she has done on the eve of soaring…
But what belongs to Yue Yunxi can be truly returned to its rightful owner.
Yun Zhu: “Now, it’s not good for me to ask Lao Yue again, to make her worry and worry about this. Since the first chess piece is in your hand, why don’t you make a decision? Are you going to kill the opponent without leaving a trace, or wait a little longer?”
Lu You: “Wait for what?”
Yun Zhu: “The Internet has no memory. When time passes, things will naturally pass.”
Yun Zhu was afraid that she would not choose Yue Yunxi, so she added: “Protect the ex or protect the current one?”
Chen Feifei interjected from the side: “Is there even a choice! Hey, by the way, I found the original words of what I said yesterday that was especially suitable for you! I’ll send it to you later!”
Lu You didn’t reply to Yun Zhu, she hung up the phone directly.
She took screenshots of Chen Xiguan’s chat history, then took out the folder from her bag, took pictures of the last sheet of music that was kept, and sent them to Yun Zhu together.
Yun Zhu: [Although I agree with it, I still have to remind you that if you really send it out like this, she will be finished.]
At the same time, Chen Feifei’s words popped up on the screen above.
[Love is never democratic, love is often crazy biased.]
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The car drove into the manor hotel and stopped in front of a detached villa. The driver opened the car door lock and said: “We’re here.”
Lu You jumped out of the car, leaving the warm environment. The cold air instantly invaded, making her shiver.
The driver helped unload the luggage and said: “This place is far from the suburbs, it’s very cold, please go back quickly.”
Lu You rubbed her hands, took the luggage, thanked her, and walked straight to the villa gate.
Password lock, she pressed the password that Yun Zhu told her in advance.
With a “click”, the lock opened.
Lu You poked her head in and looked around, feeling like a sneaky thief, especially when she heard voices, the feeling of thievery became even stronger.
Because that soft voice did not belong to Yue Yunxi, but to another woman.
After all this time, there was a beautiful woman by her side and she had no time to pay attention to her.
She should ask “Is anyone there?”, but her throat seemed to be blocked by something.
Leaning the suitcase against the wall, Lu You loosened the pull rod. She was still silent, as if possessed.
There were new plain slippers in the shoe cabinet. She opened a pair and put them on, and walked lightly towards the inner room in the direction of the sound.
The decoration of the villa is in the Tuscan style, with a sense of warmth and comfort away from the hustle and bustle of the city. There is nothing special on the first floor.
Up to the second floor, there is a terrace with a view of the distant Cathedral of Santa Maria del Fiore.
But now, she has no leisure to appreciate the scenery outside.
The woman’s voice became clearer and clearer, perhaps speaking Italian, or perhaps the language of another country.
In short, gibberish, Lu You couldn’t understand a word.
Lu You took a step forward, just as the other person came out from around the corner.
The two faced each other and were stunned for a moment.
The young woman was beautiful beyond words. She had curly blonde hair, blue eyes, bright and rich Italian features, and a high-quality mix of other nationalities.
Normally, Lu You would have simply admired the other person’s looks.
But now, she intuitively felt that the other person had a close relationship with Yue Yunxi, to the point that she had an unspeakable feeling.
This feeling made her feel something akin to inferiority, prompting her to unconsciously hide the hand holding the music bouquet behind her back.
Seeing Lu You, the other person said two more sentences into the phone, hung up, tilted her head and looked at Lu You, her eyes full of doubt.
Noticing that the other person was carrying a violin case,
Lu You guessed that she should be Yun Zhu’s senior sister, and introduced herself in English.
“Oh~ You are that Little Deer!” The other person said to her in fluent Chinese with a slight accent, “Hello, my name is Elena, I am Yunxi’s… good friend, good partner.”
The pause in the middle was either to think about how to say it in Chinese, or to think about how to define the relationship.
Lu You twitched the corners of her mouth into a polite arc: “Is she in the room?”
Elena said: “Uh-huh, she just fell asleep.”
This should just be stating a fact.
But the profundity of Chinese made her unable to help but overthink, was this sentence euphemistically reminding her not to disturb someone who was already resting.
Lu You tightened her grip and asked: “I want to see her, can I?”
They clearly didn’t break up, and she was still Yue Yunxi’s girlfriend, but now she had to ask another woman if she could see her.
“Of course!” Elena said, “I’m so relieved to have you here. I have something to do, so I’ll leave first.”
Lu You nodded. Elena’s friendliness and straightforwardness relaxed her tense nerves.
Yue Yunxi was sleeping in the second room.
Lu You stood at the door, slowly exhaling, taking countless deep breaths, hesitating whether she should knock on the door or go straight in.
After a long while, she knocked on the door twice.
Very lightly, for fear that the person inside was really asleep and would be woken up by her.
After waiting for a long time, she didn’t hear any movement from inside.
Only then did Lu You grasp the doorknob, gently pressing down with force, and pushing it open little by little.
It was a time when the sunlight was still soft and warm, more than three o’clock in the afternoon, but the heavy curtains in front of the window were closed, shrouding the entire space in dimness.
The door was closed, leaving only a little sunlight shining through the crack.
Lu You lightened her footsteps and walked to the bed.
The dark-colored four-piece set made the person’s face in the quilt even paler. She didn’t know if she wasn’t sleeping well, or if the wound would ache faintly. Yue Yunxi’s eyebrows were lightly furrowed, and the hand resting on the side of her cheek moved slightly.
But there was no sign of her opening her eyes and waking up.
Lu You took off her shoulder bag and placed it on the bedside table together with the music bouquet.
The movements were so light that they seemed to be played in slow motion.
After putting it down, Lu You rubbed her cold hands and breathed hot air into them in front of her mouth. After the temperature of the back of her hands returned to normal, she bent down and reached out to touch Yue Yunxi’s forehead.
The temperature was slightly higher than her body temperature.
It was difficult to judge whether it was within the normal range or a slight fever.
Lu You breathed a sigh of relief, retracted her hand, slowly squatted down by the bed, gently placed her hand on the side of the bed, propped up her head, and quietly stared at the person on the bed.
In the silence, she could faintly hear the sound of time ticking in her wristwatch.
In every second, with that dim light, she used her eyes and gaze to caress Yue Yunxi’s features over and over again.
She had lost a lot of weight.
It had only been a dozen days since they had been together, how could she have lost so much weight.
How could she have made herself so embarrassed.
If the phone was gone, it was gone. Why chase after it so hard?
Her vision became more and more blurred. Lu You blinked her watery eyes, stood up, and held the edge of the quilt in her hand.
She really wanted to lift the quilt and see where Yue Yunxi was specifically injured, and what the injury was like.
But she couldn’t, at least, not now.
After a pause of no more than two or three seconds, Lu You pulled the quilt up, gently grabbing Yue Yunxi’s hand next to her cheek, intending to tuck it into the quilt.
As soon as her fingertips touched her skin, the other person suddenly turned her hand over and grabbed her wrist.
Lu You’s heart stopped suddenly.
Before she had time to look to see if this person was having a nightmare or had woken up, her wrist was suddenly pulled down, and her body instantly lost its balance and leaned forward uncontrollably.
Afraid of pressing on Yue Yunxi’s wound, Lu You hurriedly stretched out her other hand to support her on the other side of Yue Yunxi’s head.
A soft arm brushed past her ear, gently stroking the skin on the back of her neck with a light but heavy force.
“Lu You.”
Rarely, she called her full name.
An indescribable tone.
And she thought of the first page of the sheet music, at the bottom, Yue Yunxi wrote her name in orange pen.
——Your name has flowed through my thoughts countless times, nourishing the tip of my tongue, in the lips that open.
Lu You awkwardly supported her body, as if she had been pressed the pause button. She couldn’t move or speak. Only her eyes could still control.
Her eyelashes trembled twice, and her gaze fell, falling into Yue Yunxi’s deep and dark pupils.
“…Why are you here?”
Not a question. Yue Yunxi looked at her, her watery eyes containing a kind of desire.
“Yun Zhu said you were injured, I…”
Lu You didn’t finish her sentence.
“So you came to see me.” Yue Yunxi said softly, her fingertips gently stroking the back of her neck.
Lu You was like a gently stroked animal, obediently “hmm”ing.
“…In what capacity are you here to see me?”
Lu You rolled her throat.
Yue Yunxi narrowed her eyes slightly. Before she could speak, the hand on the back of her neck pressed down heavily.
Lu You almost couldn’t hold on, and used her entire forearm to support her body instead of her palm.
Their noses touched, and the two were extremely close, so close that their breaths and body temperatures intertwined, squeezed into the narrow space.
So close that in the dim atmosphere, she could clearly see the lines of the other person’s iris.
Yue Yunxi released the force on her wrist, raised her hand, and stroked her cheek.
“What should I do, I just want to hear an answer.”
Her fingertips slowly wandered over her brow bone, the corners of her eyes, the bridge of her nose, and stopped on her lips.
“…Girlfriend.”
It was the answer she wanted to hear, and it was also a way to address her. Yue Yunxi called it cautiously.
Lu You immediately felt as if something had pinched her heart, and it softened into a sour mess.
Her fingertips stayed on her lips for only a brief moment. Yue Yunxi raised her chin slightly, and her thin pink lips parted slightly, biting her lower lip.
There was even a pulling force.
The slight stinging sensation from being pulled stimulated Lu You’s breath and her heartbeat quickened.
An involuntary moan escaped, swallowed between her lips and teeth.
Then her tongue probed in, completely disrupting the rhythm of her heartbeat.
Lu You’s whole body softened. She subconsciously used her hands to support herself on the bed because her tongue was sore from being sucked, wanting to pull away. But she was suddenly turned over by Yue Yunxi.
By the time she reacted, she was already lying on her back on the bed, with her hands held to the side of her head.
And Yue Yunxi was above her, her eyebrows slightly furrowed, looking at her with watery eyes.
It was like she had been pulled to the wound, the pain bringing tears to her eyes.
Or perhaps it was just because the intensity of her emotions was too deep, wetting her eyes.
A kiss quickly fell, landing on the corner of her lips, slowly circling to her lips.
Gently, carefully.
As gentle as a dull knife.
She was being slowly tortured.
And she felt pain, not because the kiss was forced.
It was because in the kiss, she truly felt the fluctuations and desires of her emotions.
On the way here, she had thought of many ways to meet Yue Yunxi.
Maybe they would be speechless and feel a subtle awkwardness.
Maybe they would argue again.
She just never thought it would be like this.
That it would be like this—a kiss, like a prairie fire, falling on her desolate and cluttered heart.
Igniting a whole heart of fluttering.
Reaching her neck, Yue Yunxi caressed her ear with her lips and whispered: “…I miss you so much.”
Lu You’s emotions were like a string plucked by a breathy sound, and at the moment when it resonated, it couldn’t hold back.
“I miss you so much, I really want to tell you seriously what I couldn’t say that day.
I don’t want to break up, so I’m not preparing to break up, but preparing not to break up.
If we have to break up, then I hope there is more possibility to get back together.
So I want to use the stimulating feeling of contrast to stimulate your senses towards me.
I want to use my panting in the silent night to tease your sensitive hearing.
I want to use the happy things we have done together to occupy your memory.
I selfishly want you to remember me, remember my crazy and seductive look.
I want you to toss and turn in bed when you lose me, and involuntarily think of me.
Remember how my body and soul were out of control in your hands.
Remember that it was how I loved you.
I want you to remember your undisguised possessiveness towards me when you can’t sleep.
Remember, that was proof that you loved me.”
Lu You’s tears kept sliding down, and even her body was trembling, for the words Yue Yunxi said.
It wasn’t fear of such a paranoid love.
It was that she had feelings, a strange emptiness. She knew it was a dangerous and gentle web, but she wanted to fall into it, to be wrapped in the sticky silk of love, to be filled with the feeling of being permeated with love.
Yue Yunxi’s kisses went from her forehead to the corners of her eyebrows to her thin eyelids to her wet eyelashes.
Lu You was kissed to the point where she almost lost her ability to think. She only remembered scolding her for not caring about her injuries at all, and by the way, counterattacking the influence that her words had on her, sobbing: “You’re really… crazy.”
The kiss slid to the tears at the corner of her eyes. Yue Yunxi said softly: “…I’m crazy, and I’m not lightly crazy. I actually rejoice at this time, thinking that the most intimate thing is not kissing, but crying in front of the other person.”
Lu You heard the obvious sob in Yue Yunxi’s voice, and felt the moment her voice fell, there was scalding heat falling on her cheeks, and she cried even harder, unable to control the sobs that overflowed.
Yue Yunxi helped her sit up, straightened her hair, tucked it behind her ears, and gently wiped the tears from her face.
The gentle and meticulous movements made Lu You’s tears flow like a dam that had burst, unable to stop.
After a long period of silence, Yue Yunxi opened her mouth. Her voice, soaked with tears, was hoarse and soft, but the content was heavy.
Like dense rain in the wind, it all floated into Lu You’s ears, soaking her heart and softening all the emotions inside.
——She said: “Youyou, I was wrong. I apologize to you. Let’s make up, okay?”