MTMIO Chapter 86

Chapter 86: No One Will Love All of Me (Revised)

[Full Moon]: [Where are you?]

[Deer]: [Your house, study]

The skin on Lu You’s face felt tight from the lingering dampness, a numbness that seemed to bind her emotions as well.

Yue Yunxi wasn’t home.

But having sent the message, she should be back soon.

She put her phone on airplane mode and slipped it into the pocket of her discarded coat.

The coat was draped over the armrest of the rocking chair. Lu You switched on the floor lamp beside the piano.

The crystal piano body glowed with the warm yellow light, but it was cold to the touch.

In the mingled sounds of hesitant and sharp wind and rain, the past flickered like a grainy old film, frame by frame.

The first night here, talking about music, opening her heart.

–“If your mother came to find you at this time, would you… would you be willing to repair your relationship with her?”

Her palm cooled until it was icy. Lu You withdrew her hand, moved to the bar, opened a drawer, and found a lighter and a pack of cigarettes.

Another night, she found a beauty under the moonlight sitting here, burning away loneliness with a single cigarette.

–“I… will invest everything in understanding you.”

The half-opened cigarette pack in her hand, the celadon green color, made her eye twitch uncontrollably.

She lit one. The initial taste was a cool menthol, with a hint of matcha.

It was as if she was inhaling the cold, astringent night into her lungs.

Leaning against the bar, Lu You smoked, looking at the potted epiphyllum beside the piano, on the verge of blooming.

As if foreshadowing that tonight was destined to be restless.

When the cigarette was a third of the way down, she heard the “beep” of a car locking outside.

Lu You looked up, seeing a familiar tall figure through the blurred rain, approaching, stepping onto the platform, and entering the house.

She bit down on the filter.

The ember at the end of the cigarette glowed brightly, and a certain feeling burned intensely.

In the warm yellow light, Yue Yunxi wore only a thin, soft white knit dress, a fitted style, her dark, damp hair draped over her shoulders, her eyes lowered as she held a slender cigarette between her lips.

A little unfamiliar, yet directly stimulating her visual senses.

Yue Yunxi had never seen a woman more alluring than Lu You when she smoked. No extra movements were needed, just her pale red lips biting the filter, already contradicting her clean, beautiful aura, creating a strong sense of world-weariness.

“I took one of your cigarettes,” Lu You said with a smile, her clear, soft voice mixed with a touch of low, husky sadness.

The tone was intimate, yet it clearly delineated the boundary between them, making her seem distant.

“If it makes you happy,” Yue Yunxi picked up a velvet blanket from the sofa, “two, three, the whole pack, it’s not a problem.”

Still the same calm and indulgent attitude.

But today, she was particularly sensitive, and every word made her feel rebellious.

In an instant, it shattered most of the psychological defenses she had built.

The slight curve at the corner of Lu You’s lips straightened, and she didn’t say anything.

Yue Yunxi continued, “But there are no ifs, right?”

At least tonight, at least at this moment, no matter how many cigarettes, they wouldn’t make her happy.

Lu You took the cigarette from her mouth, exhaling a shapeless smoke ring.

Just then, Yue Yunxi walked in front of her, squinting as the smoke stung her eyes. “I thought you wouldn’t want to talk to me today, but you’re here. Can I take that to mean you’re willing to communicate with me now?”

Her eyes seemed even gentler in the smoke.

Yue Yunxi unfolded the blanket and draped it over her shoulders.

It should have been warm, but Lu You couldn’t feel any warmth at all.

In their relationship, she was particularly fascinated by Yue Yunxi’s ability, as an older woman, to exhibit such rational, calm, and comprehensive control.

When she hesitated, she could be more rational than emotional, temporarily withdrawing to let her see her own heart clearly;

When she lost an important competition, she would tell her that this was just the beginning;

And she completely controlled the progress of their relationship at the pace she wanted…

She was lazy, didn’t mind being controlled, and even thought it was a kind of fun at times.

But now, these characteristics that fascinated her made her feel a little irritated in this situation.

“Youyou, talk,” Yue Yunxi’s warm hand touched her soft, cool cheek.

A gentle command.

She wasn’t a fellow herbivore, but a hunter who gently baited her at the end of a trap.

Her fingers could already feel the thin heat of the cigarette. It was about to burn to the filter.

Lu You raised her arm and extinguished the cigarette in the ashtray on the bar, saying softly, “You can understand it that way. I don’t like a cold war that’s… senseless.”

A subtle pause.

Yue Yunxi frowned very slightly, slowly withdrawing her hand.

Hesitating and silent for a long time, Yue Yunxi said cautiously:

“Actually, there weren’t supposed to be so many people there today. But Teacher Zhong was worried about Auntie. Mimi was originally taken out to play by her grandmother, but she threw a tantrum, insisting on seeing you. Even before she met you, she admired you very much. Grandma Zhong thought you were so sensible, that you could think from countless perspectives, and understand the elders’ intentions…”

“So you just took it for granted that I could understand your good intentions, and wouldn’t mind all of you, under the banner of being good for me and loving me, scheming against me, deceiving me… just because I’m sensible, so you don’t need to consider that I might have selfish emotions, that I should just be led by the nose, right?”

It wasn’t a question, nor an accusation, but a damp, pervasive grievance.

Yue Yunxi cleared her throat, her lips moved, but no sound came out.

As if she had something to say, either an explanation or a rebuttal, but she swallowed it down.

After a long while, Yue Yunxi sighed, then said gently, “I apologize to you. Don’t be angry, okay?”

Saying it was an apology, it was more like offering a step, coaxing her to come down.

The sigh was filled with a rare helplessness.

Was she helpless that they were too idealistic, and that things had ultimately been messed up?

Or was she helpless that she understood everything, but still reacted so strongly?

Or something else, something deeper she couldn’t fathom.

Lu You’s throat felt blocked, and she couldn’t say “okay” to Yue Yunxi’s show of weakness, even if the apology was essentially a perfunctory coaxing.

But she couldn’t ignore her own emotional needs and say “okay.”

Anxiously, she took another cigarette from the pack and lit it.

The space was dim, and a flame illuminated her cold face, the light flickering in her eyes that were suppressing emotion.

She spoke with a barb: “It really is a gradual, thorough implementation from beginning to end… Sister Yunxi.”

Her voice paused in the middle, because Yue Yunxi suddenly reached out, as if wanting to touch that flame, startling her, and she immediately released her thumb from the lighter.

And Yue Yunxi’s eyes suddenly darkened upon hearing that. Her clean, slender hand directly clamped her chin, forcing her to turn her face and meet her eyes. “What do you mean by calling me that?”

“…Nothing,” Lu You lowered her long eyelashes, avoiding her gaze. “Having a lot of people around makes me feel oppressed, but that’s not what disappoints me and makes me angry the most. That’s not what I want to hear.”

After a long silence, Yue Yunxi sighed, “What you want to hear, Auntie has already told you the reason.”

Her tone was gentle and her voice a little tired.

Lu You’s heart sank.

Why did it now seem like she was being unreasonable?

Was she wrong?

Of course not.

She should have exploded.

But because she caught that hint of fatigue in Yue Yunxi, she was like a balloon that had been loosened, softly deflating a part of her anger.

But there were still many complex emotions transformed from intense feelings that she couldn’t digest.

The cigarette between her fingers burned silently, the ember flickering rapidly, and she wanted to use nicotine to numb her nerves, forcing herself to ignore those details, not to quibble and increase internal friction.

There was a more important issue, that was what she really wanted to argue about.

“Don’t smoke like that,” Yue Yunxi’s slender, fair hand reached over, pretending to take the cigarette away.

Lu You was a step faster, pinching the cigarette between her fingers, turning it around, and putting the wet filter to her lips, looking directly into her eyes, saying, “But I need it to relieve my emotions, or… will you help me?”

Her voice was so low and light that it had a bewitching magic.

“Help me” meant not only helping her smoke, but more importantly, relieving her emotions.

Yue Yunxi’s heart tightened, she lowered her eyes, a faint lipstick mark on the damp filter.

Like some kind of scarlet temptation.

She felt vaguely uneasy about the exchange of dominance between them.

“I have a few questions I want to ask you,” Lu You deliberately softened her voice.

She was sensitive to sounds.

So she knew clearly to what extent a gentle tone would make people feel comfortable.

But she never thought that one day, she would need to use this point in something other than sex.

Yue Yunxi’s eyes flickered slightly, and she parted her red lips to take the filter that she had wet.

Lu You’s eyes darkened. After a few seconds of silence, she asked, “You’ve been testing my feelings for her all along, haven’t you?”

“Yes.”

The expected answer. She was just morbidly wanting to open the wound to confirm whether it was really festering.

Even with mental preparation, it still made her heart contract.

Lu You placed her palm on the body of the piano and looked at the platform outside. Separated by the rain-soaked glass door, separated by a vast night, she couldn’t clearly see the boundary between it and the pool.

Returning her gaze to Yue Yunxi’s face, she asked: “From when we talked here? Or earlier? From when you introduced me to Teacher Zhong for tuning? Is that right?”

Yue Yunxi took the cigarette from her mouth and turned her head away, silent in the swirling smoke.

Lu You didn’t need to really hear her answer, because she already knew the answer by observing her expression.

“When we talked here, when we watched The Truman Show together…” Lu You closed her eyes deeply, a wave of sadness invading her heart. Opening them again, her voice was filled with a mocking smile, “What a Truman Show.”

“But you’re not Truman,” Yue Yunxi grabbed her hand, emphasizing in a hoarse voice, “You’re not him.”

“Of course I’m not. Truman at least had Loraine to tell him the truth!” Lu You broke away from her hand. “How could I be Truman? The people who are closest to me are not Loraine.”

Yue Yunxi was speechless.

“…You had countless opportunities to tell me this, but you didn’t, did you?”

Like the previous question, Yue Yunxi stood in front of her without speaking.

“Talk, will you?”

But Yue Yunxi just looked at her with struggling and painful eyes.

Lu You wanted to cry again, and because of her silence, she wanted to laugh.

“Why?” Lu You was momentarily saddened by her continued silence, and then suddenly realized, “Oh, I forgot, because you were afraid I couldn’t accept it.”

No wonder Zhang Wenying had given her the answer early on.

“But I remember, when you asked me here if I was willing to repair the relationship, I said I didn’t know. Why were you still so sure that I couldn’t accept it—” Lu You’s throat rolled heavily, the pain of something sharp cutting through it.

Because she suddenly remembered that Yue Yunxi had also given her the answer to this question long ago.

–“I understand you.”

“…”

Lu You lowered her head, her eyes falling on Yue Yunxi’s hand hanging by her side, the time on the watch circling her wrist slowly passing, the cigarette held between her slightly bent fingers, a wisp of smoke rising continuously.

The ember was extremely bright at one point.

Then, in her vision, it blurred into a red spot of light that flickered in and out of focus.

She felt a burning sting in her heart.

Many things suddenly became clear.

Not just these things that had been laid out in the open.

For the first time, Lu You felt disgusted, disgusted by Yue Yunxi’s certainty about her.

Her damp eyelashes drooped heavily to the end, blocking her vision. Lu You bit her lip, and her right hand, hanging below the blanket, slowly tightened, her fingertips digging deeply into the bloodstains that had been dug out before.

The sharp and piercing pain instead gave her a calmness that was stripped of her soul.

The air seemed to have frozen.

And the cigarette in Yue Yunxi’s hand burned in silence.

Until it burned her fingertips, Yue Yunxi extinguished it in the ashtray.

A very short stub, nestled next to the first cigarette, pressed into a small clump of ash, like the gray-black shadows of two cigarettes.

Yue Yunxi turned on the faucet of the island pool and rinsed her hand with cold water to cool it down.

Lu You glanced over.

After the sound of the water stopped, Yue Yunxi returned to her, her eyes falling on her tear-streaked face, rising, and gently casting into the watery mist gathered in her eyes, reaching out.

Lu You grabbed her wrist with her left hand, making sure that her fingertips weren’t burned by the cigarette before letting go.

The atmosphere was somewhat relieved by this subconscious concern.

As if things had been turned over.

Yue Yunxi went to take her left hand, caressed the pinky ring on her little finger, and asked her softly, “Have you eaten well? Are you hungry?”

Lu You’s eyelashes trembled, and she lowered a small shadow, her eyes gently touching the pinky ring in the blur, and finally fixed on the undisguised hideous scar.

After a moment, Lu You took the initiative to wrap her arms around Yue Yunxi’s waist, leaned closer, and went to kiss her lips.

Her right hand slowly released behind her.

It hurt a lot.

She couldn’t see it, but shallow bloodstains oozed out of the crescent moon mark.

Yue Yunxi’s response was also gradual.

From gentle comfort to long and passionate.

This mouth had said the most sincere words, spoken lies, and was silent like an ornament at times, always gentle, and only instinct was the most honest.

When they kissed, no matter how gentle the prelude was, it would eventually become particularly intense.

Like a spark lighting up the night, igniting her as well.

Feeling the moment of arousal, Lu You struggled to separate. She looked at Yue Yunxi with blurred eyes: “What question are we on? Seventh? Or eighth?”

Yue Yunxi couldn’t help but smile, her fingers stroking the scarlet corner of her eye, asking softly, “Are you still thinking about questions at this time?”

“Because it’s important,” Lu You leaned against the cold, hard crystal piano, leaning her head towards her heart, and saying in a low voice, “…Why don’t you want me?”

Her slightly hoarse voice had the texture of cold jade covered with cracks.

“…I don’t not want you.” Yue Yunxi pinched her chin, raised her face, and kissed her again, from the corner of her eye wet with tears, along the undried tear marks, to her slightly salty lips.

The gentleness was like a spring breeze wrapped in rain.

Lu You sighed softly in the gap, and Yue Yunxi’s lips slid to the small mole on her neck according to her actions.

Yue Yunxi couldn’t help but froze, not because of Lu You’s head tilting back to let her kiss her wrong.

But when she looked down, she realized that the buttons of the knit dress on Lu You were open for the most part, and she could completely see the white lace hugging the snow peaks.

She realized what Lu You meant by “want me”.

Lu You grabbed her wrist, from the front to the back, pressing it on the bra buckle: “Then let’s do it.”

“You’re not in a good mood today, let’s do it another day, okay?”

How gentle, how considerate of the back road.

“What does this have to do with mood? What are you worried about?”

Yue Yunxi didn’t speak.

Lu You laughed in a breathy voice, “Don’t want to answer? It doesn’t matter, then I’ll answer yours—no, there’s no another day.”

She unlocked the buckle with Yue Yunxi’s hand, and because of the cold, her shoulders shrank, and the thin and thick materials all fell to her feet.

She raised her leg and took away the last of them.

She climbed onto Yue Yunxi’s shoulder, and said in her ear: “If you want me, it’s today, it’s now, time is not waiting for anyone…there is no another day.”

As soon as she finished speaking, she was hugged and sat on the piano by Yue Yunxi.

The cold touch was not only the piano, but also Yue Yunxi’s hands that had just been rinsed with cold water.

Lu You couldn’t help but shiver, and instinctively hugged Yue Yunxi tightly.

“Do you feel cold now?” Yue Yunxi tightened her arms.

The feeling of shivering permeated her skin from her fingertips, and went down her spine.

“You should be able to make me not cold soon, right?” Lu You rubbed her ears and temples to absorb the temperature.

Yue Yunxi’s kiss fell quickly, a bit restrained, like coaxing her, so she took care of her feelings very patiently.

The crystal piano was covered with thin yellow light, which was dyed with warmth.

They were perfunctory on her favorite piano.

Lu You felt it coming very quickly, in a trance, her breathing was rapid, chaotic, a little at a loss, and she couldn’t help but call out: “Yue Yunxi…”

Her legs were dangling on the outside of the piano, and the slippers hanging on her toes fell to the floor with a bang.

Lu You glanced at it from the corner of her eye, “Yue Yunxi… the epiphyllum is blooming.”

Yue Yunxi paused slightly.

“Epiphyllum blooms, doesn’t it need a suitable temperature?” She asked intentionally, “Did we make it bloom?”

After that, Yue Yunxi’s patience was greatly reduced.

For a while, people couldn’t tell whether Yue Yunxi’s determination was not enough, or whether her pleasing and teasing was very successful.

On the edge of a scattered consciousness, Lu You’s expression had a kind of madness of giving up everything, which was far more crazy than imagined, and she no longer had any other emotions, no shyness, and no decadence that was worn down by trivial things.

The scarlet corners of her eyes were the background color of desire.

She frankly released herself, playing a radical symphony together, with ups and downs, all controlled by the cellist.

It was a look she had never had before, and Yue Yunxi liked Lu You like this very much.

But she was vaguely uneasy, perhaps because Lu You emphasized “no other day” twice, making this moment like a mixture of sobriety and dream, so she was a little too much, wanting to confirm reality and existence more.

Lu You wasn’t annoyed, at most she sobbed and begged her a few times, almost giving everything, indulging and cooperating.

The more it was like this, the deeper Yue Yunxi’s uneasy feeling was.

Yue Yunxi suddenly couldn’t help but think, did Lu You feel as uneasy in the crazy sinking in the previous times as she is now?

But this idea didn’t last long, and she soon fell into the matter at hand.

Lu You had a sense of trance.

She heard the wind roaring outside, and the rain was ethereal.

And nearby, it was Yue Yunxi’s voice lightly biting on her ear, either coaxing, or deliberately stopping and waiting for her to beg for mercy, and then guiding her to call out “Jiaojiao”.

One sound was not enough, but she also had to call out this pet name in various states, either low and light or high-pitched.

As if retaliating against her previous sentence “Sister Yunxi”.

Leaving the piano and lying on the sofa, in the numbness of her scalp, Lu You saw through the glass outside the study that the bluestone road was dyed black by the rain, and the gray night sky was like a deep sea.

This place was like an isolated island, with fierce wind and rain, and the shadows of the trees swaying.

Her body was covered with a layer of sweat, giving her a feeling of drowning.

When Yue Yunxi picked her up and put on her coat, she was like a fish that had been brought ashore.

Unfortunately, that shore was a reality like a tidal flat, inevitably covering her with thick silt.

Yue Yunxi stroked the long hair on her face that was soaked with sweat, “Go take a bath?”

“How many times?” Her throat was hoarse, and she could hardly make a real sound, but she still said it, “…Is it enough to pay you back for what you gave me before?”

Yue Yunxi froze, her expression gradually cooled down in the unbelievable astonishment, “What do you mean? You want me to be like this with you… just to pay me back?”

This was probably the most unkind time Lu You had heard her speak since she met her, and even her usual calm tone had fluctuated, with a laugh of being laughed at hidden inside, “What about after I pay you back?”

The glass door was blurred by the rain and swayed “Bang bang” by the wind, and the wind that drilled into the gap was long and stern, as if it was going to tear the door down.

After a short silence, Lu You raised her eyes and looked at Yue Yunxi, and said lightly: “It’s the ending you expected.”

Her eyes were clear and calm, and there was no longer the frenzy of sinking and turning upside down a few minutes ago.

Yue Yunxi froze, feeling that her whole body’s blood was frozen at this moment.

“You are so sure that I can’t accept it, and you guess that I may be angry, that I will be angry with you because of this, that it will be so serious that I will…” Lu You pursed her lips, and couldn’t say the two words with difficulty, “To the end…”

Yue Yunxi’s hands holding her shoulders tightened.

“But you still follow the rhythm of other elders and guide me to bring her to me at the time you think you can meet.

“You have countless opportunities to tell me, but you didn’t say it.

“It’s like you have many ways to make me realize that Tao Xin doesn’t really like me. But you chose the most extreme one, finding someone to seduce her, and then letting that person notify me, so that I could be trapped in pain in the most cruel way.”

Yue Yunxi’s eyes darkened, not surprised that she knew about this, but just unhappy that she knew about this now.

“Then you entered my life when I was vulnerable.”

Lu You looked at Yue Yunxi through the hazy water, and felt that she was really pathetic, and she was reluctant to use words like “take advantage of the weakness” on her.

“…Of course, I admit that I like you, and as long as I want to, I can ignore these.”

Yue Yunxi was shocked suddenly, looking at her eyes were dark and deep, as if there was a little incomprehension, not understanding why she had to do it to this point since she could.

Lu You’s voice was hoarse and bitter, “But you are with me, every day you are with me, you are preparing for a breakup!”

Yue Yunxi’s hands holding her shoulders unloaded her strength and fell down in frustration.

Lu You’s eyes were suddenly filled with hot tears, “Let me guess, you do it with me in various places in your room to leave yourself memories, right? If we can’t go back to the past, you can also have a thought?

“And I’m with me in the small building and in my car to leave me unforgettable memories, so that after we quarrel and break up, I can think of you in every place we have been intimate, and then change my mind, right?

“Also—”

Lu You paused and stretched her hands into the pockets of the coat she was wearing, which was Yue Yunxi’s coat.

Taking out Yue Yunxi’s mobile phone, Lu You didn’t turn on the screen, and just threw it between the two of them like a cold black brick.

Her tears fell on it, and the water stains that were soaked in it cooled down in the cold.

“You want me to record love words here, you want me to record what you said when you were drunk…” When her eyelashes drooped and looked at the phone, tears kept rolling down, and she suddenly thought of asking, “Are you really drunk?”

Yue Yunxi was speechless.

She knew before that Lu You was very smart, very detailed, and very keen.

She liked these qualities, but she didn’t expect that one day, she would use them on her in this way.

Lu You looked at the expression on Yue Yunxi’s face with tears in her eyes.

really……

“Everything you do is preparing for this moment, for me to explode, right?”

Without waiting for Yue Yunxi to admit it, she continued, “So what is our relationship in your eyes?

“Is it a chess game that you have worked hard to put to death and then live?

“Or a grand gamble that you have put all your heart into?”

In the dim light, Lu You still noticed that Yue Yunxi’s eyes were red, and immediately there was a tingling sensation of emotional and softhearted pulling.

She had never seen Yue Yunxi cry.

“You really know me.”

It should have been sarcasm, but it turned into weakness when it was exit.

–“I’m just afraid of a little more small situations, such as me not being in your expectation.”

Yue Yunxi closed her eyes, thinking of what Lu You said.

She calculated everything.

She didn’t forget that her Youyou was very smart.

It’s just that she was too self-righteous, thinking that the emotions were painted strongly, so that everything could be made a big deal and a small deal.

If it doesn’t work, there will still be room for reversal.

Just now, the warmth made her secretly happy, thinking that she had won this gamble.

Only at this moment did she realize that she was so wrong.

“Since you know me so well.” Lu You took a deep breath, “Let’s go to—”

Suddenly, the hand that was covered there made her breath Stagnant, and her eyes widened slightly.

“Didn’t you want to pay me back?” Yue Yunxi’s face was extremely cold, and her eyes looking at her were scorched by the water mist, “Don’t say those words, there are still five times, after doing it, just pay me back.”

“Yue Yunxi!” Lu You’s hand to block it was grabbed.

The strength contrast between daily self-discipline fitness and three days of fishing and two days of drying the net is simply clear at a glance.

After experiencing too many things in one night, she hasn’t eaten yet, and has cried too many times, and has no strength to resist.

And Yue Yunxi already knew her thoroughly, and even without doing anything, just touching other places vaguely could make her feel it.

Yue Yunxi wiped it with her hand and fed it back on her legs.

As if telling her that your instinctive reaction is more honest.

Lu You asked her in a numb voice without ups and downs: “Are you not going to give me a way out now?”

Yue Yunxi suddenly Stagnant, let go of the hand that restrained Lu You, and finally understood what Lu You judged that she was preparing for a breakup.

“Yue Yunxi…” Lu You Asked murmurly, “Do you know what you are doing?”

Yue Yunxi’s figure trembled in the dim light, and she came back to her senses.

After another silence, Yue Yunxi just pulled her up and sat up, leaning on her gently and Fragilely, like the warmth after each end.

As if nothing had happened between them.

However, the fact is not like this.

“Then what about you? Do you know what you were doing just now?

“The retreat I left for you, the retreat for myself, has been blocked by you, where is there any retreat?

“As far as I am concerned, there is only one dead end, and the end of it lies in you, and you have already made a decision, haven’t you?

Otherwise, why would you want to pay me back in this kind of thing…”

There was a Crying that Lu You couldn’t bear in that voice, very weak, and she tried her best to restrain it in the false calmness.

Lu You opened her eyes and looked at Yue Yunxi’s eyes, like the rainy night outside the glass door, a silent night without a moon.

Even a night without stars.

She reached out and stroked Yue Yunxi’s wet corner of the eye, where there was a very light mole.

Many times, at close range, it floated in her eyes, occupied her heart and soul, and made her feel happy.

“Tonight, I really hate you.” Lu You choked and said.

Yue Yunxi’s wet eyelashes trembling, responding to her with a kiss, telling her: “It doesn’t matter, it’s always better than having no emotions applied to me. Since you want to pay it back, then pay it back more clearly.”

“…You are really a madman.”

Lu You heard Yue Yunxi laugh softly.

That couldn’t even be considered a laugh, it was more like a cry overflow out of pain.

There were hot tears falling on her cheeks, Lu You closed her eyes and felt her heart trembling for Yue Yunxi’s first tear.

Yue Yunxi’s left hand went to hold her, her knuckles wear into the fingers, clasping her fingers together.

It seems that in this way, she doesn’t have to endure the situation of letting go after tonight.

Tears kept sliding across the corners of her eyes, Lu You didn’t struggle anymore, indulging in the gentle Become in vain and this person’s distorted love.

She turned from the front to the back,lie on the sofa, her hair was grabbed behind her, and she was forced to lift her head, her eyes were blurry, after witnessing the Epiphyllum for a moment, she also watched them wither with her own eyes.

When she lay back, Yue Yunxi’s left hand clasped her fingers together again, and then spread the dead end brightly in front of her, “You guessed everything right. From the beginning, I have said more than once that I am not a good person.”

Lu You’s toes Curl up, took a big breath, and 급Urgently raised her legs and returned them with her knees, “If you are not a good person, can you Nothingme?”

Yue Yunxi Hush, and instantly unloaded her strength.

Lu You was able to Recover,Pliers her chin, “Say.”

“What to say? To say that I am wrong, will you be willing to accept it?” Yue Yunxi’s eyes were terribly red, with a bit of Demonic energy.

Lu You couldn’t say what she felt, her heart softened so badly when she saw her, and her words made her feel rebellious.

“Is the premise of your apology that I must forgive you?”

“If not, then it’s better to be wrong like this.” When Yue Yunxi said this, tears slipped from her red eyes.

The words were arrogant, but the voice and expression were gentle and Beautiful, showing a bit of Sick.

Lu You suddenly felt a futile weakness.

Yue Yunxi that night may not have been drunk, Yue Yunxi tonight is really crazy.

How can you talk to a madman about logic and reason.

Yue Yunxi’s voice Leisurely, “You told me that the reason why people are people is because of the Three-dimensionality of human nature, because people have The dark side.

“To do whatever it takes for what you want.

“I have made a lot of preparations and preparations so that you can always be by my side.

“Everywhere has my Be careful’s Preparation and Planning.

“These are all my The dark side.”

The voice gradually lowered, like using actions to prove that she is really not a good person.

Good people only move their mouths but not their hands.

She moves both.

Lu You was going crazy, grabbed her hair, pulled it hard, but she was reluctant to use force after Yue Yunxi hissed.

Yue Yunxi’s voice rose again,Slow: “I have always thought that no one will love all of me, so I dare not directly tell you everything.

“I like everything about you, your advantage, your shortcoming, your Rebellious,capricious,Don’t understand.

I can also accept your bad today, and I can accept you for paying me back, intentionally Tease, using this kind of thing to revengeme.

I can say that even if you really said those words, I would love all of you.

After tonight, I will comfort myself that at least I have had it.

Then what about you? Youyou, will you love all of me?”

Lu You’s heart string trembled, and then her whole body was trembling in the instinctive reaction under Yue Yunxi’s control.

She didn’t speak.

Yue Yunxi’s eyes slowly dimmed, “Or, you only like that gentle,Thoughtful, considerate me? What you want is only that side of me?”

Lu You moved her lips.

A finger stained with her scent was pressed on her lips, and Lu You blushed with shame and anger.

She knew that Yue Yunxi was doing it on purpose.

“That’s not important.” Yue Yunxi said.

Lu You Expose the: “It’s not important, or you dare not listen?”

“…That’s not important.” Yue Yunxi repeated, her tone Virtual already exposed everything, “Even if I know, I can’t always show the perfect side to you, even if I want the me in front of you to be the me in your ideal, but those The dark side, belong to a part of my body, they will always break away from my control one day, like a fox can’t hide its tail, and they will all be exposed in front of you.”

“My thoughts, what I do, are all Dirty things that can’t be wrapped in paper, and one day, you will know.”

Lu You’s heart was block.

The means of Induce her and Tao Xin to break up were really not good, but she felt soft-hearted again when she really heard Yue Yunxi belittle.

“…Do you believe me, I originally wanted to present these to you.”

Lu You trembled her eyelashes.

Believe it, but what about the facts?

She didn’t speak, Yue Yunxi closed her eyes in disappointment and continued: “Before presenting it, you need to lay the groundwork, because I hope that at least you can know everything with some buffer, and after that, you can choose whether we should continue, or… just to this point. This is the reason why I left a way out for you.”

Lu You looked at her silently, her eyes were even redder, and she gritted her teeth and said: “What’s the difference? Isn’t it still preparing for a breakup?”

After a slight pause, Yue Yunxi said: “I think you didn’t read my blue folder…”

Lu You’s eyes flashed, she really didn’t read it.

What’s in it?

“Forget it…it’s not important anymore.” Yue Yunxi’s voice was too low, the end of the tone was like Has been showered cold and Ice rain, with a kind of Cold and cool. It’s like she has already accepted