LGSG Chapter 37
by VolareThe black-haired youth still seemed to be out of the loop.
His features were stunning, but his eyes were incomparably clear, diluting what should have been a sultry appearance into a coolness.
Usually, those eyes carried too many emotions.
The youth’s usual joys, angers, sorrows, and pleasures were all hidden within.
Others didn’t understand.
But Xie He could read them all.
To like someone is to care about the smallest details.
The emotion in the youth’s eyes right now was confusion.
After understanding it, Xie He felt even more stifled.
After his desire had been infinitely amplified, he could no longer use a mask to conceal his sharp edges.
At the moment Xia Ran refused him, Xie He couldn’t help but remove his false, hypocritical smile.
His eyes were heavy, like the dark clouds before a storm.
Yet, the one person who could understand him was currently ignorant.
“Why?” Xie He knew that his grip was a bit too strong at this moment, and his voice was also a bit cold.
Normally, he would worry that this would frighten Xia Ran.
After all, Xie He knew that from childhood to adulthood, no one had been willing to love the real him. Therefore, even if he had to be fully armed, he would rather have Xia Ran like a gentle facade.
Xie He was afraid that Xia Ran would flee from the ugly fangs revealed by the real him.
So, hide it away.
Like me, like the fake me, it doesn’t matter.
He shouldn’t have drunk that wine.
Xie He had deliberately hinted at the phrase “original flavor” to the head chef.
Although he didn’t know which player was courting death, he guessed that after the head chef revealed this phrase, the other party would definitely restore even the taste of the Desire Potion to be on the safe side.
This was an equally matched confrontation with cunning and treacherous intentions.
But Xie He now vaguely felt regret.
He hadn’t thought that Xia Ran would refuse him.
Therefore, at this moment, what desire was pulling was not only regret, but also a hint of ambiguous anger. Anger at the loss of control of the progress of things.
Xie He noticed that the youth’s fingertips were a little red from being pinched by him. Actually, his strength wasn’t really that great. But the youth’s fingertips were so fragile and sensitive that they were easily pinched into red marks.
This subtle discovery saved Xie He from some of the unhappiness in his heart.
He restrained himself slightly.
“Sorry,” Xie He smiled, “I was just… a little confused. Ranran, I always thought we got along very well. Can you tell me if there’s a reason you’re unwilling?”
He lowered his eyes, completely suppressing all the rolling malice.
Since childhood, although he had never seen his parents living in harmony, he had also seen models of talented scholars and beautiful ladies in operas and stories.
He should respect the other person, be tolerant of the other person, and it was best to pamper his lover to the heavens.
Therefore, even now, as the liquor of desire flowed through his body, before his emotions completely erupted in a bad direction, Xie He took a step back first.
In short, it wouldn’t be Xia Ran’s fault.
It should be his problem.
But after all, he had already become a monster in the copy. When he was alive, he was just pretending to be a normal human being.
Xie He was now caught in a strange circle of emotional thinking, and a sincere and confused look appeared on his face.
Xia Ran: “…Mr. Xie?”
The black-haired youth suddenly spoke.
Causing Xie He to subconsciously withdraw his hand.
For the first time, he showed a clumsy sense of incoherence.
“Sorry… Did I scare you just now? Ranran, don’t be afraid…”
As Xie He spoke, his throat felt a little dry.
The effect that the potion could achieve had an upper limit.
After reaching the threshold, the brain would gradually become numb and clear.
Xie He thought that once he tore off the human mask, the monster’s true nature was indeed not likable.
But this was not Xia Ran’s fault.
It was his fault for not disguising himself well.
But the retracted hand was gently and solemnly held up again by the black-haired youth.
Xia Ran unconsciously did what Xie He had just done.
Neither of them were brave in the conventional sense.
When one coward tried to retreat, the other was able to inexplicably entangle him back.
Xie He’s Adam’s apple bobbed.
He tentatively raised his eyes to observe Xia Ran’s expression.
This cautious posture, when placed on a cold-blooded killing monster, should have been ridiculous.
But the eyes of the black-haired youth in front of him were filled with transparent concern.
He was not afraid, not disgusted, and even less wanted to escape.
Instead, he stared at Xie He nakedly with eyes like a deep pool, drowning him with focus.
“Are you drunk?” The youth, who was only looking at him, said, “Don’t touch it in the future. I’ll help you go and rest.”
Xie He: “…”
Xie He: “Okay.”
He was hypocritical and smooth, cunning and ruthless.
Xia Ran offered a step, and Xie He went down along with it.
Xia Ran breathed a sigh of relief.
No wonder Mr. Xie was so abnormal just now.
So it was the problem with the wine.
He was naturally missing a string in his emotions, and he was deadly slow.
However, when he received a severe stimulus, he would bury his head in the sand.
Even though his intuition clamored for other possibilities, Xia Ran easily found a scapegoat that was very suitable for avoiding responsibility.
“Don’t drink it next time,” he said, his tone finally a little relaxed.
Xie He: “Then where will you sleep tonight?”
Xia Ran felt that Mr. Xie, when drunk, always unconsciously exposed a different side of himself.
Such a Mr. Xie was full of a negative and pessimistic aura. If ordinary people wholeheartedly admired the bright and clear Mr. Xie, seeing Xie He like this, they would probably be disillusioned and lock up their hearts forever. But Xia Ran was different.
Gentleness and obsession, in his opinion, were not opposites. Some of the unknown character traits that Mr. Xie revealed made Xia Ran feel that he was more like a living human being.
It even vaguely satisfied some dark thoughts.
After all, only he knew about such a Mr. Xie.
He was Mr. Xie, whom he possessed alone.
Xia Ran was not afraid, and sometimes even vaguely longed for such a Mr. Xie to appear.
But these real thoughts could not be told to Xie He.
These thoughts were selfish, dirty, and carried a bit of obscure love that could not be seen in the light of day.
Xia Ran did think about it. He himself was not upright. If he slept with Mr. Xie again, feeling guilty was a small matter. What if he really tainted Mr. Xie?
He didn’t dare to believe in his willpower!
But he didn’t expect Mr. Xie to react so strongly after getting drunk.
Since Xie He was drunk, Xia Ran naturally couldn’t harden his heart and leave.
He thought that he would temporarily take care of Xie He for one night first.
He would try to communicate with Mr. Xie again tomorrow.
Mr. Xie seemed to be too drunk.
Even his eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of mist.
Xia Ran pulled him and came to the bedroom.
After sitting on the bed, the black-haired youth stretched out his hand and waved it in front of Xie He.
“Mr. Xie, what number is this?”
Xie He smiled and said, “I’m not drunk to that point.”
Xia Ran awkwardly retracted his hand.
He also wanted to try to elicit the cute side of Mr. Xie.
Xie He said, “I won’t drink this wine again in the future.”
He was very good at using methods that harmed himself to achieve his goals.
But today’s loss of control finally made Xie He understand that he shouldn’t do this.
Being extreme and cold-blooded were not major issues.
The most important thing was that it would hurt the people around him.
Xia Ran looked serious and earnest: “Mr. Xie had better do it seriously!”
Xie He smiled, couldn’t help but reach out and touch the top of Xia Ran’s fluffy head.
“Okay.”
Xie He said, “Can you tell me about your story?”
Xia Ran: “Huh?”
The topic jumped a little too much, causing Xia Ran to not react for a moment.
There was another emotion that interrupted his reaction.
What did Mr. Xie mean by this?
Did he want to understand his past?
Although he knew that his unrequited love was cross-dimensional and destined to end without results, so Xia Ran didn’t intend to really start, his heart still couldn’t help but flutter.
It was like a bird nestling in his heart and flapping its wings.
“I…” Xia Ran scratched his cheek, “What kind of things does Mr. Xie want to hear? I seem to be a very boring person.”
Xie He: “Do Ranran’s parents have any requirements for your marriage?”
Xia Ran choked.
He didn’t expect Xie He to deliver a critical hit right from the start.
Two little people immediately appeared in his mind and started fighting.
One said: “His hint is too obvious, could it be that he has some other thoughts about you?”
The other said: “How is that possible! You are such a boring and rigid person, Mr. Xie must have been blinded by lard to take a liking to you, right?”
The two little people were fighting fiercely in Xia Ran’s mind.
His thoughts were a jumbled mess.
Xia Ran quickly shook his head and said seriously, “Why is Mr. Xie asking this?”
Xie He: “You also know that my biological mother died early, and my father is like that. I like men, which has made them almost disheartened about my marriage. But I still…”
He only said half of his words, like covering his face with a pipa, which could easily be interpreted with other meanings.
Xia Ran thought that even though Mr. Xie had a weak relationship with his relatives, based on the last time they pretended to be a couple to meet Xie Youdao, Mr. Xie was superficially unfeeling and indifferent, but in fact, he still cared extremely much in his heart. Because he never possessed it, that’s why he wanted to maintain and obtain it.
So, Mr. Xie asked him this question, did he also want to understand his parents’ love for their children?
“My parents don’t have any thoughts on this aspect,” Xia Ran touched his nose, “Mr. Xie, in my hometown, it’s very common for men to be in love with men.”
Xie He: “So you like men?”
Xia Ran: “Cough cough!”
How did he get to that conclusion!
Xia Ran had never liked anyone since he was a child, not even the basic hormonal impulses.
Before meeting Mr. Xie, he thought he was asexual. But when he saw Mr. Xie for the first time, Xia Ran realized what it meant to be captivated at first sight.
He only liked Mr. Xie alone. Did that count as liking men?
Xia Ran mumbled vaguely and said with a guilty conscience, “I don’t know… I guess so.”
“However, I probably won’t have a lover in my life,” Xia Ran said. “Regardless of whether it’s a boyfriend or a girlfriend, as long as it’s a person, if I bring them home, my parents should be very happy. They didn’t expect me to have a partner whom I love and who loves me at all.”
“If there really is such a person that I bring home, my parents would be overjoyed, right?”
Xie He smiled and said, “That’s good.”
Xia Ran: “Huh?”
A puzzled expression appeared on his face.
Xie He: “I mean, such a person will definitely appear in your life.”
Xia Ran said dryly, “Thank you for your blessing, Mr. Xie.”
He lowered his eyes in disappointment.
He thought that he didn’t need anyone else.
Only if Mr. Xie appeared in his life would he bring him home.