Spend Summer Chapter 44
byAfter eight years of dating, he committed suicide by jumping into the sea.
Later, people in the scientific research institute discovered that their “Desperate Paper King” Shen Wan suddenly started going to and from get off work normally.
She personally selected the furniture and decorated the house beautifully. The sky blue carpets and curtains exuded an air of freedom when they floated in the wind.
The soft and comfortable sofa is also covered with pink and white sofa covers. Ji Zhao’s favorite colors are everywhere, making it look particularly warm and beautiful, like a cabin in a fairy tale.
Shen Wan stayed in this house, sometimes turning on the TV, sometimes playing the tape recorder and the video. For a moment, she felt as if she was back.
But within a few days, she sobered up. Even if she was noisy, it was not Ji Zhao after all.
So, Shen Wan sent away the furniture bit by bit, restoring the room to its original appearance, deserted and gray, without a trace of fireworks.
She became the “King of Desperate Papers” in the scientific research institute again, never returning to this house except when necessary.
But compared to these, what shocked them even more was that their little genius had changed. She turned from a cold goddess into a gentle and smiling person!
After graduation, Shen Wan changed from a scientific research member to a person in charge, and was officially responsible for the drowning detection and rescue project. In her spare time, she studied heart disease. If she wanted to get closer to that person, just a little bit would be enough.
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The world is still developing, but some people are trapped in a day when they are seventeen.
Shen Wan never celebrated her birthday again. The eight-year agreement trapped her and even prevented her from going to Ji Zhao.
She seemed to have really become a coward, paralyzing herself with work and not daring to relax.
Because she knew that as soon as she woke up, she would think of that day and Ji Zhao’s death.
The heart feels like it is being eaten by cavities, and the pain is dense, never-ending, and can last for a long, long time…
The dream was not stable, it was intermittent, and the surrounding scenes suddenly changed and turned into a complete white.
Dots of light and shadow suddenly gathered together, revealing a familiar yet unfamiliar back.
Shen Wan’s fingertips trembled, her heart beat suddenly, and a strong sourness surged up from the tip of her nose, making her eyes turn red.
The figure in front of her suddenly turned around. She was wearing a light yellow skirt with a high ponytail, which was swaying as she turned around. She was black and smooth.
She was still smiling and her eyes were bright.
Shen Wan looked at her blankly, not daring to blink.
As if attracted by her stunned look, Ji Zhao’s smile became even brighter. She waved her hand quickly, and the small mole on her hand bone shone brightly.
The voice was cheerful: “Wanwan, long time no see~”
It wasn’t until these familiar words reached her ears that Shen Wan dared to believe that the person in front of her was really her.
Crystal tears flashed from the corners of her eyes. Shen Wan’s eyes were filled with tears, her fingertips trembled, and she replied with nostalgia and confusion: “Zhaozhao, good… long time no see.”
Ji Zhao nodded slowly, and could not help but feel a bit sour in her throat, but her voice was still pleasant, and she said with a smile: “Wanwan, I want to see the scenery of the world, can you help me see it?”
Tears stained the clothes on her neck, and veins popped up on Shen Wan’s forehead. She was excited and collapsed: “No! No… Zhao Zhao, I miss you. I miss you so much. I don’t want to see it alone. I want you to accompany me!”
She staggered forward two steps and grabbed Ji Zhao’s clothes tightly, her fingertips shaking uncontrollably and her knuckles turning white.
Like a “naughty child” who collapsed because he couldn’t get any sugar, his throat was full of sobs, he cried until he couldn’t control his breathing, and his whole body was shaking uncontrollably.
Her voice was full of pleading, her eyes were soaked with water and she couldn’t see clearly: “Let’s come together, okay?”
Seeing her like this, Ji Zhao felt uncomfortable in her heart. She didn’t want to. She originally wanted to give Wanwan a new hope so that she could continue to live.
But now, Ji Zhao suddenly couldn’t bear it anymore. There were a few red bloodshot eyes in her eyes, and she quickly changed the topic, trying to make her happy: “Wanwan, let’s play a little game?”
Shen Wan agreed, as long as she can accompany him, no matter what he does, it will be fine.
“Okay! Okay!” Shen Wan said “yes” twice in a row, choking and nodding.
Ji Zhao smiled: “Wanwan, let me tell you a secret – do you know? I like the starry sky, the universe, the sycamore leaves, and my parents, so…”
As she said that, she raised her eyebrows and motioned for Shen Wan to continue.
Shen Wan smiled slowly, bitter and nostalgic, and replied as before: “So?”
“So, I love you.”
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In an instant, the sky suddenly appeared, the figures were scattered, the dream was broken, the memories rushed back, and Shen Wan woke up from her dream.
The heart was still beating violently, whether it was throbbing or grief.
She raised her hand and slowly blocked the light shining on her face. She was stunned for a long time before she realized how long she had slept.
After regaining consciousness, Shen Wan raised her eyes and looked around. The cold bedroom was not stained with a trace of dust. White light shone from the top of her head. Even the air was soaked with cold. It was so quiet that she could hear her own heartbeat.
“Ha…” Shen Wan lowered his head again and chuckled, but the laughter was full of bitterness.
Tears kept flowing, soaking the entire face, and no one noticed or noticed.
The phone screen suddenly lit up, reflecting on Shen Wan’s face, distracting her from her thoughts.
Shen Wan picked it up and took a look. It was a message from Lin Jiayue. There was only one sentence: Sister Shen, I dreamed about Sister Zhao. She said that as long as you are happy, you can do anything, no matter how.
Shen Wan suddenly bent his eyes, his eyes filled with relief.
Is Lin Jiayue’s dream true?Shen Wan doesn’t know, maybe only she and Ji Zhao know.
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On the way back to the countryside, the red maple leaves on the roadside were particularly dazzling and the wild flowers were fragrant.
Ji’s mother and Ji’s father had been waiting at the door of the courtyard early in the morning. They moved to the countryside after Shen Wan was admitted to college.
The elderly often say: Fallen leaves return to their roots, and their souls are at peace. They didn’t believe it before, but since Ji Zhao was born, they have believed a lot of these words.
They prayed for Ji Zhao a lot when they were children. Although it was useless, they were reluctant to let their daughter stay here alone.
Anyway, they had enough money, so they came back directly to stay with their daughter.
After seeing Shen Wan get out of the car, the two of them immediately stepped forward and said kindly: “Xiao Wan is here.”
Shen Wan nodded, her eyes softened, “Auntie, uncle, hello.”
“I told you to just call me parents, why did you call me aunt again?” Ji’s mother smiled kindly, her tone was intimate and natural.
Shen Wan smiled, pursed her lips and shook her head.
Seeing Shen Wan shaking his head, Ji’s mother didn’t force it and changed the subject and said, “Have you had breakfast?”
Shen Wan hummed, “I’ve eaten, don’t worry, Auntie.”
“Well, Auntie won’t keep you. Let’s go see Zhaozhao.” Ji’s mother nodded and patted Shen Wan on the shoulder gently.
Shen Wan’s eyes overflowed with soft light. After saying “goodbye”, she turned around and took out a cup of coconut milk oatmeal and a bouquet of flowers from the car, and walked step by step towards the cemetery in the distance.
She bent down and slowly placed the flowers and coconut milk oatmeal in front of the tombstone. Shen Wan sat in front, leaning against the tombstone, turning her head slightly to stare at the words on the tombstone.
The sunflower bouquets are warm yellow and gorgeous, and the petals quiver in the wind, adding a touch of soft color to the gray tombstone.
After watching quietly for a long time, until her neck became stiff and achy, Shen Wan slowly spoke: “Zhaozhao, I’m here again…”
With a roll in her throat, she continued, with a bit of a joking smile in her voice, “Do you find me annoying?”
No one responded, and Shen Wan got used to it. She lightly touched the petals of the sunflower with her fingertips, and her fingers were dyed with a light fragrance.
“Zhaozhao, you said that we met in the cold, when the world was still covered in wind and snow. Slowly, the snow melted, but you left with the scorching summer sun, grand and brilliant.”
The gentle breeze beside her brushed against Shen Wan’s cheek, bringing with it a faint itch. Shen Wan slowly raised her hand and touched her eyes lightly with her fingertips, her expression tinged with nostalgia.
At some point, her voice gradually became choked and her eyes became wet.
“Zhaozhao, I am very honest. Because of our eight-year agreement, we have spent night after night in this desolate and boring world, but you…why did you break your promise? Zhaozhao, how can you bear it? Can you bear to leave me alone?”
At this point, Shen Wan curled up into a ball and cried until her body was shaking. Tears covered her face. She wiped her face randomly, feeling wronged and broken.
“You…didn’t you tell Jia Yue that you want me to be happy? Then I want to find you, okay? I don’t know if you are waiting for me?”
Suddenly, Shen Wan lowered his head and smiled, looking sideways at the word “Ji Zhao” on the tombstone, his voice slightly hoarse, with a hint of stubbornness and unwillingness.
She continued: “You can’t wait, otherwise I will cry. Don’t you hate my tears the most?”
No one responded, the cemetery remained deserted, and it seemed that only Shen Wan, who was huddled in a ball, was left in the world.
Tears gradually wet the tombstone, and before it dried, it was soaked with new tears.
After a long, long time, the bright glow of the sky covered Shen Wan’s body, and she slowly opened her red, swollen, bloodshot eyes.
After moving her stiff body, Shen Wan stood up and turned her back to the tombstone. After being silent for several minutes, she whispered: “Zhaozhao, see you next time.”
When we meet again, we will always be together.
She didn’t notice that when she turned to leave, a fiery red maple leaf floated in the wind and landed gently on Ji Zhao’s tombstone.
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After saying goodbye to Ji’s mother and Ji’s father, Shen Wan returned to the house and slowly walked out of the house carrying a small suitcase that she had already packed.
Before leaving, she took one last look back at the house, curled her lips, and closed the door.
There was a clear sound of “bang”, which seemed to separate two different worlds.
Shen Wan bought the ticket alone, checked in, and entered the station. After sitting on the plane, she turned to look outside the cabin. The sky outside was bright and the clouds were blowing in the wind.
After getting off the plane, the temperature dropped slightly. This is a world-renowned place and their destination for eight years – Iceland.
Shen Wan did not sign up for a tour group. She was just one person, looking at the scenery of Iceland with her eyes and measuring it step by step with her feet.
Since Ji Zhao left, Shen Wan once again felt other emotions besides pain, which was a kind of broad-mindedness after seeing the vastness of the world, and more importantly, satisfaction.
She was satisfied that she could walk and see this place instead of Ji Zhao.
As Shen Wan walked south, she saw clever and cute Arctic foxes, huge whales, and various birds…
She even touched the reindeer that Ji Zhao showed her.
Glaciers, land, and so on.
At the end, she came to a deserted place alone. The wind in Iceland kept blowing, which stung her cheeks.
But Shen Wan just remained silent, standing beside the glacier and staring down at the sea.
It is bitingly cold in Iceland at night. Because it is far away from human habitation, there are no lights here. The sea is pitch black, and only the biting wind rolls around the finely broken ice, making a constant rustling sound.
After staring for a long time, Shen Wan slowly raised her right hand and glanced at the time.
Today is October 18th, 2026, the ninth day of September in the lunar calendar, and Shen Wan’s birthday.
“Zhaozhao…” She suddenly raised the corners of her mouth, smiling brightly, happy and satisfied.
But her eyes were red, her eyes were covered with a layer of fog, and her voice was hoarse and soft.
“I’m here to find you…”
“Bang——”
The sound of falling into the water was particularly clear. Shen Wan’s thin body smashed into the glacier and fell into the sea water.
She didn’t struggle, and looked extremely calm. A biting coldness swept through her body, but Shen Wan only felt warm.
Finally, I can finally come to see you, Zhaozhao. It’s just a pity that I couldn’t see the aurora you like for you.
The water buried her, and Shen Wan seemed to see her in a trance. She was reaching out to herself, smiling as beautifully as ever.
Shen Wan rolled her eyes, her fingertips trembled, raised and lowered, along with her bright eyes.
Shen Wan didn’t see that at the moment she closed her eyes, the most beautiful and rare aurora of the year lit up in Iceland.
Although the aurora is short, it reaches eternity in a moment, just like the love between them.
We met in the cold spring and left in the midsummer. In the end, Shen Wan still didn’t get through that summer, and she was buried in that midsummer forever.
——Full text ends——
2026.3.3
Banxia novel, a lot of fun