Spend Summer Chapter 35
byWhat’s the use of self-esteem?
As she said that, she patted her leg, her tone full of regret, “It’s my fault too. If I had known, I would have asked Aunt Shen to give him the money. Who knew he was so heartless? She was his own mother! Now, alas!”
Aunt Wang sighed deeply. If she knew this would happen, who would care about the little money.
A sinister light flashed in Shen Wan’s eyes, and she could only suppress the urge to kill Shen Jianye by pinching her palms tightly.
She took a deep breath and comforted Aunt Wang, “Auntie, this has nothing to do with you. It’s all that beast’s fault. You go back first!”
Aunt Wang also had deep anger on her face. She glanced at Shen Wan several times, gently held Shen Wan’s hand, and comforted her kindly, “Then Auntie has gone back. Xiaowan, don’t feel too uncomfortable. I believe Auntie Shen will always be with you in heaven.”
Shen Wan nodded, her eyes turning red, “Auntie, I know.”
Aunt Wang left uneasily and looked back several times.
Shen Wan quietly took out her mobile phone and turned off the recording button. She lowered her head and didn’t know what she was thinking.
Ji Zhao came to her side silently and put his hand on her shoulder.
“Zhao Zhao, I…” Shen Wan suddenly spoke out. She did not turn around to look at Ji Zhao. She was still looking down at the ground, her expression unclear.
It’s just that the tone is very complicated, confused, determined, and scared…
Ji Zhao didn’t turn his head and silently affirmed her, “Just do whatever you want to do. Remember to tell me when you find it useful.”
Ji Zhao’s words were sparse and ordinary, as if he were talking about a very small and insignificant topic.
But both of them knew in their hearts that this was a very serious matter.
Li Yuanfang was leaning against the wall outside the door, looking up at the sky helplessly.
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Even though my heart is crying, life still has to go on.
Li Yuanfang returned to school, but would visit the two of them every night, and every time she came, there would always be two followers behind her.
Shen Wan followed the advice of the old man in the village and held a funeral for Grandma Shen, and Ji Zhao accompanied her silently.
It’s not quite right to say that she accompanied him silently, because most of the time she would always make Shen Wan happy and prevent her from being immersed in sadness.
On the day of the funeral, it finally started to rain in Chuzhou, and the leaden sky seemed to be covered with a layer of mist, which made people feel heavy.
Shen Wan was dressed in black, holding an urn in both hands, and walked up the stairs step by step. Next to her were countless other relatives and friends who were missing her.
The rain wet her hair and clothes and clung to her body, showing off her slender figure. The raindrops flowed down her hair and into her eyes, causing a stinging sensation.
Shen Wan ignored it, and the raindrops splashed on the urn, making a muffled sound.
Walking all the way to the cemetery, Shen Wan knelt down and shakily put the urn in. The urn collided lightly with the granite, making a crisp sound.
As if it hit everyone’s heart, they let out low, whimpering sounds, weeping and complaining.
Shen Wan knelt on the ground and looked straight at the staff sealing the box until the edge of the box was invisible.
There was a strong astringency in her eyes, but Shen Wan still didn’t want to blink. She just kept silent, silent…
It wasn’t until the funeral master announced the next item that she suddenly woke up and raised her head, blinking her eyes, her tears were washed away by the rain and no one knew.
I watched an acquaintance pay homage in front of my grandma’s grave, and then watched them leave one by one.
Lin Jiayue and Sang Zhiyu also came and followed Li Yuanfang to worship. After worshiping, they looked at Shen Wan worriedly, sighed silently in their hearts, and left.
In the end, only Shen Wan and Ji Zhao were left.
The rain seemed to be falling a little less. Shen Wan looked up and saw Ji Zhao standing behind him, lowering his eyes and holding an umbrella for her.
Shen Wan smiled at her, as if to say don’t worry about me, but her pale and bloodless face, chapped lips, and red, bloodshot eyes all revealed exhaustion.
Ji Zhao pursed his lips and said nothing, but his hands did not move at all.
Seeing this, Shen Wan turned around and continued to look at the tombstone.
The cemetery was chosen in an open grassland, surrounded by colorful flowers and beautiful scenery, but Shen Wan hated this place.
The first time her mother passed away, she faced death. Later, her mother was turned into ashes and buried here. She began to come every year to pay homage to her mother;
This time my grandma passed away, and her ashes were buried here, under a cold stone slab, silently…
Shen Wan’s two closest relatives stayed here.
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“Grandma, Mom, are you okay over there?” Shen Wan murmured in her heart.
No one responded…
Has the winter in Chuzhou passed?
Can’t find the answer…
Ji Zhao looked down at her, with overflowing heartache in his eyes, as if his heart was being pinched tightly, unable to breathe or break free.
I don’t know how much time passed, but the sky became even more cloudy, dark clouds enveloped the entire Chuzhou, and there was no trace of light.
After kneeling until the end, Shen Wan’s legs lost all feeling. She smiled at the tombstone and tried to get up, but stumbled.
Ji Zhao caught her in time to prevent her from falling and helped her straighten up.
Shen Wan said in a hoarse voice, “Let’s go.”
Ji Zhao nodded, “Yeah.”
There was almost no one in the cemetery on a rainy day. In the empty environment, the two people supported each other under an umbrella and were very close to each other.
Li Yuanfang and Lin Jiayue had been waiting below, and they all exhaled when they saw the two people coming down.
The five people left the cabin in a car together. The car drove very slowly. Shen Wan turned to look behind her, her vision blurry. The house became smaller and smaller until it finally turned into a black dot.
Shen Wan slowly withdrew her gaze and looked down at her hands silently. This glimmer of light that could avoid suffering in the past was finally covered with dust, even if it was not what she wanted.
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Return to the city and come to the old house.
Shen Wan stared blankly at the room in front of him. It was obviously the same furnishings, but after not coming back for a few days, it felt like a lifetime ago.
She turned to look at the three of them and said in a low voice, “Thank you teacher for these days…” Her eyes met Lin Jiayue and Sang Zhiyu, “And you.”
Lin Jiayue waved her hand and said boldly, “What does this mean? We are friends!”
Sang Zhiyu nodded in agreement, “Yes, we are friends!”
Ji Zhao also stared down at Shen Wan, his eyes firm and gentle.
Shen Wan was stunned for a second, then suddenly smiled, the most sincere smile in these days. She murmured, “Yes, we are friends.”
Li Yuanfang looked at this scene with a mixture of distress, relief and pride in her eyes…
Knowing that Shen Wan needed time to digest, Li Yuanfang offered, “Wanwan, Ji Zhao, I’ll take them and leave first. Remember to have a good rest and ask the teacher if you need it.”
Shen Wan coughed and replied, “Okay teacher.”
After Ji Zhao sent the three of them away, Shen Wan unloaded everything and lay on the bed, looking straight at the ceiling.
Ji Zhao glanced sideways and walked out to make a phone call.
“Zhaozhao, has the matter been settled?” Ji’s father’s voice came.
Then there was a gentle slap, and Ji’s mother complained, “I told you not to ask like this, you are too heartless!”
She leaned closer to the phone and asked, “Zhaozhao, how is your little deskmate?”
Ji Zhao looked slightly gentle, “She’s much better, but…Dad, I want to ask you for a favor.”
Father Ji’s serious voice was filled with tenderness, and he agreed without hesitation, “Baby Zhaozhao actually asked daddy for help?! Then daddy will definitely help!”
Ji’s mother is more sensible, “It’s about your little classmate’s father.”
Ji Zhao nodded slightly, realizing that they couldn’t see and immediately answered, “Yes, mom, dad, I have a little bit of evidence here, can you help me take a look?”
Ji’s father didn’t speak, probably looking at Ji’s mother’s face.
Ji’s mother smiled helplessly, “Okay, I didn’t say I disagreed, it’s just – remember not to hurt her self-esteem while helping.”
Ji’s father immediately agreed, “Of course! I love my wife the most!” Then he turned to Ji Zhao and replied, “Zhaozhao, please send the evidence to my email, and I will give you an answer after reading it.”
Listening to the two people’s loving words, Ji Zhao had a helpless smile on her face. Until Ji’s father answered, she immediately nodded with a coquettish tone, “Thank you, Dad!”
After hanging up the phone and returning to the room, Shen Wan had already gotten out of bed and was reading a book on the table.
That’s how she is. No matter how big the situation is, she will only allow herself to be vulnerable for a while and will not give up on her studies and plans.
Ji Zhao is also used to it, or she can understand Shen Wan. Shen Wan will not panic until she is confident. Learning is the only way she can enrich herself at this stage.
Ji Zhao walked over, leaned against the table, and said, “Wanwan, my dad can help.”
Shen Wan’s writing hand paused, leaving a scratch on the paper. She turned to look at Ji Zhao, her voice hoarse and difficult, “Thank you, I’ll send you the recording.”
She did not reject Ji Zhao’s kindness. Ji Zhao had already seen everything about herself – a bad, dilapidated and miserable life.
Self-esteem?What’s the use of self-esteem?For myself now, it cannot be exchanged for money or fairness.
The most important thing is that she has already lost her self-esteem in front of Ji Zhao.
Seeing Shen Wan’s appearance, Ji Zhao’s eyes soured and he almost shed tears.
But she held it back and nodded with a smile: “It’s okay. By the way, Wanwan, let’s go see a movie tomorrow?”
Shen Wan looked at her quietly for a while and hummed in a low voice for a long time.
Ji Zhao didn’t speak anymore, just stayed with her quietly and continued reading with her, as if this would make her feel better.
It was still dark at two o’clock in the morning. Shen Wan pulled away from her studies and turned to look at Ji Zhao. The light shone coldly on her face, which made her look a little pale. She closed her eyes and put her hands on the desk.
Shen Wan frowned, feeling annoyed that he didn’t notice her and angry that she didn’t care about her body.
Standing up carefully, Shen Wan leaned over and slowly picked up Ji Zhao. Probably because he was too tired, Ji Zhao didn’t wake up. He just whispered “hmm” and then huddled in Shen Wan’s arms.
The corners of Shen Wan’s lips finally curved slightly, then flattened out in the next second. The person in her arms was as light as a feather, and seemed to scatter when blown by the wind.
Shen Wan looked down at Ji Zhao with dissatisfaction. She can make me fat, so why can’t she take care of herself?
Banxia novel, a lot of fun