ASSHKHME Chapter 100

Chapter 100: Don’t Blame Yourself

Cheng Tangyu’s face was pale. The stimulation had led to poor uterine contractions and premature birth. She lost too much blood during the surgery. The hand that stroked Xie Yu’s cheek was exceptionally cold.

Xie Yu was stunned for a moment, his emotions instantly collapsing. Tears gushed out like a dam had burst, as if he were the same child from over a decade ago who would wail if he woke up and couldn’t find his mother.

He lowered his head, large drops of tears hitting the floor, suppressing a sob, “Mom, I’m sorry, I’m really sorry.”

Cheng Tangyu’s hand, with an IV drip attached, rested on Xie Yu’s head, gently patting it.

The oxygen mask was fogged up by her exhaled breath. She sighed, “You’re going to be a big brother… and you still cry so much, aren’t you ashamed? Even your sister… can’t cry as much as you, right?”

Xie Yu raised his arm and wiped his face haphazardly, staring at the white hospital bed, his eyes bloodshot.

Cheng Tangyu had just woken up from the anesthesia and didn’t have much energy. Her gaze fell on Xie Yu’s swollen left cheek, and she glared at Xie Liangjun with a hint of reproach, “Why did you hit the child? Can’t you talk things out properly? What if I…”

What if I hadn’t made it off the operating table, what would have happened to Xiao Yu?

He would have to bear the pain of losing his mother, as well as the guilt and accusations from his family. He’s still so young, how would he live the rest of his life? This father is just… careless!

But looking at her husband’s red eyes, she swallowed the rest of her words. Luckily, she survived, otherwise she was afraid that Xie Liangjun would do something reckless and follow her.

Xie Liangjun opened his mouth, the words “he deserved it” circling his lips, “Your mother is right, I’ll talk to him properly in the future.”

This disappointing son of his had been mischievous since he was little. When he was three or four years old, he was just annoying, but when he reached his rebellious teenage years, he could really drive people half to death. But even a child has self-esteem, and he had never hit his child in the face.

He was truly stunned this time.

He never would have imagined that his son, Xie Liangjun, would take a man to a hotel to book a room! And get caught! If anything had happened to his wife, he really… didn’t even dare to think about the possibility.

Xie Yu was crying messily.

He hadn’t shed a single tear since junior high school, but today it was like a flood, unstoppable.

Xie Yu choked up, “I deserved it, it’s my fault, it’s my fault that you suffered, and that my sister had to stay in an incubator at such a young age…”

Cheng Tangyu was very tired, but forced herself to say, “Baby, Mom is just… unable to accept it for a moment, I don’t blame you. When I was being pushed into the emergency room, Mom wanted to tell you not to blame yourself, but I was in too much pain at the time, I couldn’t speak.”

She had some difficulty breathing and paused for a moment, continuing, “Luckily, I made it through, otherwise my son would be so sad. When Mom was lying on the operating table, I didn’t think about anything, I just hoped that you would live happily.”

Xie Yu’s lips trembled slightly, “Mom…”

Cheng Tangyu had said too much and couldn’t hold on any longer. She touched Xie Yu’s face, “About you and Chen Zhuo, let’s talk after Mom takes a nap, after I wake up.”

Xie Yu nodded, “Okay, you rest well.”

Having said what she wanted to say, Cheng Tangyu finally closed her eyes in peace.

She was considered an open-minded parent, willing to accept new things, and could talk to young people completely. She never felt that she and her son had a generation gap.

Cheng Tangyu usually liked to read BL novels with two male protagonists. She respected and understood everyone’s different sexual orientations.

But novels and reality were different after all, especially since Xie Yu was her own son. As a mother, she only hoped that her child could live a safe, healthy, and successful life, but she couldn’t calmly accept that her son was gay.

Under the effect of the pain pump, Cheng Tangyu quickly fell asleep. Xie Liangjun tucked the quilt around his wife and gave Xie Yu a look, signaling him to come out and talk.

Xie Yu knew what he wanted to say, and walked out of the ward with heavy steps, gently closing the door.

The father and son walked one after the other into the adjacent stairwell.

With his wife and daughter safe, Xie Liangjun’s tightly held heart finally landed. He looked at his disappointing son and said sternly, “Do you know how much your mother loves you? Can’t you let her worry less? Can you do less ridiculous things?”

In the current situation, admitting his mistake was the best option, but Xie Yu knew very well that one step back would lead to only more steps back.

Xie Yu said in a hoarse voice, “Dad, you and Mom taught me since I was little that I must never mess around with relationships just because my family is well-off. I have to be responsible and take responsibility for the other person. Did I do wrong by having a proper relationship?”

Xie Liangjun looked away, his expression complicated, “I told you not to mess around with relationships! So you went to mess around with a man???”

Xie Yu looked at him with red and swollen eyes, correcting, “Dad, watch your language.”

Xie Liangjun closed his eyes in anger, pointing at him with his index finger, “How did I give birth to something like you! You little rascal!”

Xie Yu looked down at his sneakers and weakly interjected, “Mom gave birth to me.”

“…………”

Xie Liangjun kicked him, scolding, “Stop giving me nonsense! You listen to me! You and Chen Zhuo break up immediately! You call that a proper relationship, you’re full of crap! Who are you, Xie Yu! Even if it was an ordinary family’s child, doing something like this would be criticized! Moreover your last name is Xie! You are Xie Liangjun’s son! If this gets out! Where am I supposed to put my face!”

Xie Yu didn’t dodge, taking the kick head-on, not even furrowing his brows, “Dad, which is more important, my happiness or your face?”

Xie Liangjun was stumped by his soul-searching question, the raging fire stifling him until his face turned red, “You! It’s not you! Do you have to be with a man to be happy?”

Xie Yu brushed off the shoe print on his pants, “It’s not that I have to be with a man to be happy, it’s that I can only be happy with Chen Zhuo. It has to be Chen Zhuo, it can only be Chen Zhuo, just like your wife has to be my mom.”

It took Xie Liangjun a long time to speak, “Xie Yu, you’ve been coming home lately whenever you don’t have class. I thought you had grown up and knew how to care for your parents, but I didn’t expect you to drop a bomb on me.”

He pinched his brow, “You’re young and don’t understand, but as your own father, I can’t allow you to act so recklessly! Your mother just had surgery and her body is weak. Her hormone levels will drop sharply after childbirth. You know what you should and shouldn’t say in front of your mother.”

Xie Yu clenched his fist, then released it, lowering his eyes, “I know, I won’t make Mom unhappy, but Dad, I’m serious, whether you believe it or not, Chen Zhuo and I, we are both serious.”

Xie Liangjun frowned and was about to say something when his phone suddenly rang, echoing in the empty stairwell.

It was Secretary Tian’s call.

He tapped to answer, listening to the other side, his tone heavy, “It’s him? Are you sure? Okay, I understand.”

Xie Yu heard that Secretary Tian had found the anonymous sender and asked anxiously, “Dad, did you find out? Who is it?”

Xie Liangjun glanced at him coldly, “Idiot, you handed the handle to people. Who did you offend? Don’t you know?”