AGMATSWHLMAR Chapter 76

At this point, Auston had to admit that he was far from being as noble and great as he had imagined.

After Ruan Tang had been rejected by him time and time again, exhausted and finally choosing to let go, even if he knew he shouldn’t harbor such narrow, obscure, and dark thoughts, that it wasn’t good…

He still couldn’t control the indescribable, inexplicable feeling of bitterness and astringency that was blocking his heart.

He couldn’t control himself from having bad, inappropriate thoughts…

An inexplicable emotion grew in his heart, releasing a beast, and the beast roared and howled. At that moment, he almost wanted to question Ruan Tang: “Why did you choose to give up so easily? Didn’t you say you liked me?”

“Madam, you’re drunk.” But Auston still forcibly suppressed his bad emotions, and very calmly put his arm through Ruan Tang’s armpit to help him up.

But Ruan Tang lost control of his emotions and brushed his hand away, losing his balance and falling to the ground again. He tried hard to stand up, but couldn’t, laughing more miserably than crying: “I’ve decided to let him go, and let myself go too.”

“Madam…” Auston couldn’t describe what he was feeling, and went forward again to help him.

But this time, Ruan Tang didn’t push him away, but chose to throw himself into his arms, breathing heavily with the strong smell of alcohol into his ear: “Seth, if I divorce the Duke, would you be willing to marry me?”

“Madam, what are you saying?” Auston froze on the spot, almost thinking he had misheard.

Ruan Tang had just agreed to divorce him, and then asked a male servant if he would be willing to marry him? What the hell was going on?

Ruan Tang fell completely onto him, embracing him tightly. Auston was embarrassed and wanted to push him away, but seeing Ruan Tang’s drunken state, unable to stand still, he was afraid of accidentally dropping him, so he had to constantly adjust his awkward position with Ruan Tang.

Trying to distance themselves slightly.

“I said, the Duke doesn’t want me anymore. He’s in such a hurry to divorce me, he must be annoyed with me, afraid that I’ll continue to pester him, right? In that case, I’ll do as he wishes. He divorces me, and I’ll marry someone else, so he won’t have any worries, and won’t have to worry about me pestering him anymore…” Ruan Tang seemed to suddenly become attached to the warmth of his embrace, resting his head on his shoulder, and said with lowered eyes: “So, after I divorce him, would you want me and marry me?”

His voice was somewhat choked, appearing wet from the alcohol.

Like someone who had been abandoned by their beloved, giving up on themselves and just wanting to settle down with someone.

“Madam, what are you saying? How can marriage be such a child’s play? How can you give up on yourself like this and ruin yourself just because the Duke doesn’t want you?” Auston pushed Ruan Tang away abruptly, his tone like an old father watching his child being hopeless, insisting on sticking a flower in cow dung, hating that iron can’t become steel.

Ruan Tang stared at him, but said: “I’m not giving up on myself, ruining myself, I’ve thought it over carefully. I’ve told you, I don’t care about a person’s appearance, because I’ve seen many people with gorgeous exteriors but hearts as poisonous as snakes, inner kindness is the most important…”

“We’ve known each other for so long, and you took such good care of me the night I was sick… I think you’re very good.” He said, word by word, with utmost sincerity.

Since Auston insisted on messing with him, he would play along to the end.

“Madam, I’m just a humble male servant, and my appearance is flawed.” Auston could hardly express his feelings, as if he was watching his own well-raised cabbage being arched into the mouth of an ugly, fat pig: “There are so many outstanding young talents on Imperial Star, with your current status, even if you divorce, there would be plenty of Alphas for you to choose from, why are you in such a hurry to remarry?”

What was going on with Ruan Tang taking a fancy to a male servant? Auston wanted to divorce him because he felt he was running out of time, and wanted Ruan Tang to find a wider sky and a better lover.

If Ruan Tang divorced him and planned to just casually find a ‘male servant’… Auston felt he was better than him?

“Even if there are more young talents on Imperial Star, they are not the Duke, they can’t be the Duke.” Ruan Tang stared blankly at Auston: “No matter how many good Alphas there are in the world, I can only see the Duke in my heart.”

Auston frowned, not knowing how to persuade him not to be so obsessed: “Madam, you…”

“I already saw through it when I was notorious and despised by everyone. The Alphas on Imperial Star, these so-called young talents, don’t have any real feelings in their hearts, right? What they care about and can see is only the power and interests represented by an Omega.” Ruan Tang said, word by word: “Back then, when I had nothing, they might have seen the truth or not, they all echoed what others said, completely unwilling to listen to my explanation or investigate the truth, just because I was the least favored son of the Ruan Family… And now they can see me, and think I’m a marriageable object, but it’s only because I have status and power, and the forces behind me are helpful to them…”

He said, word by word, coldly and clearly: “What kind of person I am, whether my character is good or not, has nothing to do with it.”

He didn’t know where Auston’s inferiority complex came from, but he had to let him know that those Alphas who he thought were better than him, with all their limbs intact, were actually very unbearable in his eyes…

Auston didn’t expect Ruan Tang to say this, and was immediately stunned.

Although he wanted to refute, he had to admit that Ruan Tang was telling the truth… Not only were the Alphas on Imperial Star like this, unless someone loved another person deeply, or that person was a saint, who wouldn’t be realistic?

Who would be unreserved and selfless to another person to that extent without looking at their background?

“But Duke Auston is different, Duke Auston is different from them.” Ruan Tang took a deep breath, and his voice became firm when he mentioned Auston: “When I first married him, I was entering this marriage as a failure, with the intention of jumping into a fire pit, but he stood against everyone when everyone was targeting me and bullying me, even if he didn’t love me, he always stood on my side, pulling me out of despair time and time again, giving me hope, and helping me pick up the broken, trampled dignity bit by bit…”

“I can’t help but love him, although many people say that a person will fall in love with many people in their lifetime, but I think I may never fall in love with anyone other than Duke Auston in my entire life…”

He had to tell Auston that no matter how many Alphas there were in the world, he was the best in his eyes.

Auston wouldn’t necessarily believe him if he said it directly, so he would tell him again indirectly.

Auston was the one who pulled him out of the mud, out of the abyss, and gave him hope. No matter how much he was rejected, he couldn’t give up on him.

“Madam…”

Auston took a deep breath, looking at Ruan Tang with a slight daze.

He initially helped Ruan Tang simply because he was unlucky and pitiful and was bullied too much, and he couldn’t stand to see it. After all, Ruan Tang was his partner in name… Although he never wanted Ruan Tang to see his inner self, and consciously tried to scare him when they first met, he really couldn’t stand to see Ruan Tang being bullied.

He didn’t expect it to have such a big impact on Ruan Tang.

He didn’t even know that Ruan Tang thought about things between them this way.

“Since the Duke doesn’t want me to continue to pester him, if I remarry, I don’t want to choose those so-called young talents, aristocratic families… Because they are always harsh on Omegas, even if it’s a marriage of convenience, those darlings of heaven will demand more, and won’t tolerate their Omega having someone else in their heart.” Ruan Tang bit his lip lightly, clearly and drunkenly: “But I think, even if the Duke doesn’t love me, I still want to silently reserve a place in my heart to love him.”

From the moment he met Auston, he was destined to not be able to be anyone else’s partner.

Auston frowned slightly, not knowing what to say for a moment.

“Seth, I know this may be unfair to you, but I still want to ask you to marry me.” Ruan Tang said clearly: “Because you are the only friend I can confide in right now… As long as you are willing to marry me, and allow me to keep a place in my heart for the Duke, no matter what requirements you make, I will try my best to satisfy you.”

The higher a person’s position, the fewer friends they have. What they have are only partners.

Perhaps they get along well, but they can never reach the sincerity of those they met in poverty, and there are always some things mixed in that are related to interests.

Auston frowned, flustered and not knowing what to do, his back straightened into a stick, stiff to the extreme: “Madam, my appearance is flawed… Why are you doing this?”

Even if Ruan Tang had to do this, he didn’t have to choose an ugly male servant like him, right?

It’s not like he was into that. Who would like a face like his that had been burned by Zerg venom?

“I said, I don’t care.” Seeing him belittling himself like this, Ruan Tang suddenly reached out and touched the scars on his face as if he were drunk, and said softly with slurred words: “Moreover, I don’t know why, but I always feel like there’s a sense of familiarity about you, and many times, I feel like you’re very similar to the Duke in many ways.”

His fingertips brushed over Auston’s features: “I never noticed it before, but you’re actually very handsome, your features are very good, even if you have scars on your face, it doesn’t affect anything in my opinion.”

He didn’t know where Auston’s inferiority complex came from, but in his eyes, the person he loved was the best in the world.

He had never wanted to engrave a person’s appearance in his heart more than at this moment…

Auston was shocked by his touch, and his whole body trembled.

“I’ve never seen the Duke’s appearance, but I don’t know why, I think maybe he looks like you when he takes off his mask, maybe I’m dreaming.” Ruan Tang didn’t give Auston a chance to react, as if he was really drunk, imagining the appearance of his beloved, and kissed the male servant’s lips, which were close at hand, with a domineering attitude.