AHFAFTGTTT Chapter 65

Chapter 65: Doubt

“Don’t you all think he’s become a completely different person…?”

[Inland Entertainment Boy Group Forum]

1st Floor: Seriously, isn’t our forum supposed to be the jinx queen? Fu Yang actually wasn’t jinxed to death?

2nd Floor: I’m speechless. After the official photos leaked, the whole forum bet that Fu Yang would be the next top idol. I said he was definitely just a pretty face in pictures, and the result… okay, I was wrong.

3rd Floor: He’s even more handsome in the video, but why did he come to the entertainment industry? Is money in the entertainment industry so easy to make that everyone wants to come?

4th Floor: Fu Yang is definitely a rich second generation. He wouldn’t just want to earn a bit of money in the entertainment industry. The question should be, why did this young master have a whim to come play around in our entertainment industry?

5th Floor: Compared to Fu Group, his title as a physics genius from B University is even more impressive, right? He’s a genuine academic, a top student even in the elite environment of B University.

6th Floor: And wasn’t it rumored before that he was sick?

7th Floor: He just woke up a month ago, barely recovered, and then ran to the entertainment industry.

8th Floor: …Is this okay? Has anyone investigated?

9th Floor: I investigated, and also asked friends from B University. I’d never heard of Fu Yang having any interest in the entertainment industry before. Oh, he minored in sociology, and his thesis topic was related to boy groups in the entertainment industry.

10th Floor: Erm…are today’s academics willing to come to the entertainment industry for research just to do their thesis??

11th Floor: I get it. He came to participate in the show for sociology research. What terrifying initiative.

12th Floor: What do I do? I have zero resistance to good students. I really want to stan him. Who can teach me how to vote and support him?

13th Floor: …The Chinese people’s inherent admiration for the strong.

14th Floor: Why is everyone upstairs talking about B University? Those few seconds of interaction between him and Xu Chengyue were a bit… hulk-like, isn’t anyone discussing it? (Heavy breathing)

15th Floor: I wanted to say the same thing! The sexual tension is off the charts! When will the full version be released?! I want to see it!!

16th Floor: No, it’s just an interaction, it’s normal, right? Honestly, Xing Yue is still the best pairing. I was really hooked on that deserted island.

17th Floor: Wait a minute, I watched it again. Why does it feel like the part where Xu Chengyue and Fu Yang dance is a bit familiar…?

18th Floor: Ahhh! Watson, you’ve found the blind spot! Crap, crap, crap, this seems to be the last part of the *Po Jun* practice room version!

19th Floor: Holy crap, isn’t this the sweet spot that Xing Yue fans were desperately craving…?

20th Floor: It’s over, it’s over, it’s over… Fu Yang is really going to be jinxed to death by us. Xing Yue fans are already sharpening their knives and are furiously scolding and demanding their rights in the supertopic.

21st Floor: …Damn it, I haven’t watched survival shows in years. I finally found one that I liked and was preparing to invest in it, but it’s about to be ruined before it even starts…

22nd Floor: Damn it, *Apex Era*, which stupid little toe of a person came up with the idea of creating a shura field? Isn’t this guaranteed to be criticized?

23rd Floor: I have to say, it got popular… but it looks like this poor little trainee is going to be sacrificed…

24th Floor: It really is a jinx queen. This looks like a script for sacrifice. It’s over. Before I spend any money, I’ll quickly switch to another contestant to support!

25th Floor: Let Xing Yue fans scold all they want. The more they scold, the more popular it gets. I’m optimistic about Fu Yang.

26th Floor: No matter how optimistic you are, you can’t be a homewrecker. If the actual show is really like this, I can’t accept it.

27th Floor: Is the person upstairs obsessed with the Xing Yue pairing? Don’t you really think Xu Chengyue and Shangguan Yaoguang are gay? It’s obviously just the group creating a CP, what’s wrong with you!

28th Floor: What’s wrong with *you*? If you don’t ship it, why are you stopping others from shipping it? You’re nosy!

…

369th Floor: Holy crap, why is there a fight here too?

370th Floor: The Xing Yue supertopic is arguing even more fiercely. I went to watch the battle.

…

The Xing Yue supertopic was already in a mess—

[Damn *Apex Era*, are they treating our Xing Yue fans like Japanese people?!!!]

[Do you know who did the data for you?! You’re biting the hand that feeds you, aren’t you?!!! @ApexEraOfficial, re-edit it!!!!!!!!]

[I can’t take it anymore. I’m so angry right now that my chest is tight and I can’t breathe. They even made Yue Yue dance the *Po Jun* practice version with someone else, and then they just let Shangguan sit there and watch?! Are they crazy?]

[Everyone, can we calm down a bit? I think that with Shangguan’s personality, he wouldn’t just sit there and do nothing. Think about how he confronted Ye Xiao and tore up the script on the deserted island. It must just be the editing. It’s the editor’s fault.]

[Yeah, there will definitely be a slap in the face later!]

[That’s what they say, and of course I have confidence in Guang Guang, but I can’t have a good impression of that Fu Yang. Instead of honestly focusing on the stage, he’s learned how to create a CP. Is he so jealous of our Xing Yue’s popularity?!]

[I’m seriously speechless. I’ll see if he dares to be in the final lineup!]

[Sisters, let’s unite and boycott him!]

A discordant voice suddenly emerged amidst the accusations—

[That… I don’t think he’s that kind of person.]

Tang Tang saw that the situation was escalating to the point where the main idol was being cursed, and hurriedly posted a sentence.

Then she saw a familiar ID helping her boost the post, it was Ye Meng—

[LemonSours]: Yes, I and Da Wang saw Fu Yang when we were following the offline events, he was a really nice person… (Weakly interjecting)

[Holy crap, there are two traitors in the front]

Ye Meng continued to explain—[I think everyone is overreacting. This is just a trailer. The full version hasn’t been broadcast yet. Why don’t everyone wait another week? The full version will be released on Saturday.]

[Wait for what? The enemy is already slapping you in the face, and you’re still waiting? Waiting for him to finish eating this wave of popularity and debut? You traitors, get out of the supertopic if you don’t want to ship it]

Being scolded so directly, Tang Tang held back a surge of anger and began to type—[Call me a traitor if you want, but I have to say this. Yue Yue, Guang Guang, and Fu Yang were all there that time I went offline. I gave Shangguan a letter and a handmade phone charm. Shangguan probably wasn’t in a good mood at the time, so he didn’t take it, but Fu Yang saw it and kindly took it, saying he would give it to Yue Yue for me. And later, when I stalked the offline events, I did see Yue Yue change to the new phone charm I made, which means he really helped, so I think he’s a really nice person. Lemon was there too, she can testify.]

Ye Meng continued to boost her post—[Yeah, he’s quite sunny and generous, not as dark as you guys say.]

[Ha, you’re actually helping the rival to blacken our idol, you’re really eating inside and out.]

Tang Tang wanted to explain further, but suddenly realized she couldn’t post anymore.

[You have been kicked out of the supertopic by the administrator]

???

She quickly sent a WeChat message to Ye Meng, and the next second Ye Meng sent a screenshot.

She had also been kicked out of the supertopic.

“…”

Damn it, they’re really obsessed with shipping CPs…

…

“Captain!”

Hao Yun and Zhou Qingqing entered the private Japanese restaurant from the doorway and greeted Xu Chengyue.

The current stop of their travel show happened to be in C City, so Xu Chengyue immediately made a reservation at the restaurant. It was the first time they had been separated for so long since Spark’s debut, and Shangguan Yaoguang was also absent this time due to the production of his solo album.

“I’ve ordered based on your tastes. See if there’s anything else you want to add?”

Xu Chengyue handed the menu to the two people across from him.

“That’s about it,” Zhou Qingqing said.

Hao Yun puffed out his cheeks: “You’re ‘about it,’ don’t just knock me down with one blow, hehe Captain, I also want three servings of this signature fatty tuna!”

The two were still bickering and making a fuss. Xu Chengyue finally regained some of the sense of groundedness he had lost these days.

“Isn’t your show about to have a theme song assessment?” Zhou Qingqing asked casually while dipping her food in the sauce.

Xu Chengyue nodded: “Three more days.”

“We saw the trailer. You and Yaoguang-ge are super handsome!” Hao Yun picked up a piece of sushi and stuffed it into his mouth. “Captain, didn’t you also dance *Po Jun* with a trainee?”

Xu Chengyue poured tea for them and answered: “I danced a part of it.”

Zhou Qingqing said: “Fu Yang, I heard that name on the island. He really came to participate in the show.”

Xu Chengyue continued to nod, watching his teammates in front of him gobble down their food, but he didn’t have much of an appetite.

“He’s very hardworking,” Xu Chengyue thought for a moment and said.

“But Captain, with Lao Si around, you still danced with someone else,” Zhou Qingqing teased. “Lao Si didn’t get jealous?”

“No, don’t joke like that,” Xu Chengyue’s fingertips, holding the teapot, were slightly pale. “He’s just a friend.”

Zhou Qingqing and Hao Yun exchanged a look and lowered their heads to send WeChat messages.

[GoodLuckHasArrived]: What’s wrong with the captain?

[Qing]: He’s a bit strange.

[GoodLuckHasArrived]:? I know he’s strange, I’m asking you *where* he’s strange.

[Qing]: Forget it, I can’t really explain it either.

Hao Yun looked up, speechless. Zhou Qingqing was the originator of meaningless literature.

“Captain, are you feeling unwell? Your face has been particularly pale since just now,” Zhou Qingqing said with some concern.

Xu Chengyue shook his head: “Just a bit of insomnia.”

Because of the filming of the show, he and Shangguan Yaoguang had been living in the temporary apartment in C City arranged by their assistant these days, but they were almost like strangers and hadn’t said much to each other.

“Because of Lao Si?” Zhou Qingqing raised her eyes. “Are you worried about him, right?”

Xu Chengyue hesitated: “Don’t you think he’s become a completely different person?”

“No,”

Zhou Qingqing pondered. “To be precise, he was the one who seemed to have completely changed a while ago, right?”

Hao Yun stuffed his mouth with food, saying vaguely: “Yeah, yeah, during that period, Yaoguang-ge suddenly became particularly easy to get along with. Although he still looked high and mighty, but hiss… how do I say it, before he was aloof, but at that time he was just being a tsundere, now he’s just gone back to being aloof.”

“For a while, he kept asking us about you and Ye Xiao-ge…” Accidentally mentioning that name, Hao Yun paused for a moment. Seeing that Xu Chengyue’s expression hadn’t changed, he continued, “It was quite strange. He clearly knew more than me and Zhou Qingqing, right?”

“When we were filming the show, too. He never cared about winning or losing before, but during that time, his desire to win was very high,” Zhou Qingqing added.

“And also! When we were on the island! That whole drilling wood to make fire, building shelters, and filtering clean water thing, he suddenly turned into a physics expert. He even knew how to solve problems that even Qing Sha-dalu couldn’t solve. If it hadn’t been found out later that Ye Xiao-ge had a script, I would have thought he was the one Zhao Qian was really pushing.”

These were, of course, things that Xu Chengyue had thought about countless times but still couldn’t understand. He murmured: “Why…”

Zhou Qingqing saw the even paler look on her captain’s face and hurriedly covered Hao Yun’s mouth, who was still counting the things, and said to the person across from them: “Captain, have you been under too much pressure recently?”

Xu Chengyue had indeed been under a lot of pressure recently, with two dreams shattered at the same time.

Spark existed in name only.

The once mutually loving partner was engaging in a cliff-like cold war.

A double blow to his career and his relationship.

The key was that he always felt strange, but he couldn’t find the reason.

“Captain, some things don’t need to be traced to the source. It’s much easier to let nature take its course,”

Zhou Qingqing took a business card from her wallet, “If you can’t figure it out, why not ask an expert.”

…………………

“Number 032, Mr. Xu.”

The air in the hospital always had a faint medicinal smell.

The door was gently pushed open, and a doctor in her 40s, wearing a clean white coat, put down the pen she was recording with and looked up with a smile.

The consultation room was filled with a faint chamomile fragrance, and the blinds filtered in dappled afternoon light.

“Good afternoon, please sit down. My name is Su, you can call me Teacher Su or Doctor Su—whichever you’re more comfortable with.”

Doctor Su sized up the young man wearing a baseball cap and mask in front of her. Only his beautiful peach blossom eyes were exposed, with long, slender eyelashes and eyes that were clear and clean.

Pushing the warm jasmine tea in front of the other person, she opened a leather notebook, “I saw on the registration form that you filled in ‘pressure relief’?”

Xu Chengyue took off his mask and said: “Doctor Su, I’m not here for treatment, I want to ask a question.”

Doctor Su had already seen the name on the registration form, but thought it was a coincidence. Seeing that the person who came in was indeed a celebrity after he took off his mask, she immediately and considerately closed the curtains.

She wasn’t surprised. There were quite a few celebrities who came to her for treatment.

Celebrities were always accompanied by flowers and applause, but also by scolding and pressure from all sides after expansion.

“Okay, go ahead.”

“Excuse me, what are the reasons for a person’s sudden change in temperament?”

“There are many reasons for a sudden change in temperament. There are physiological ones, such as brain damage, hormone or endocrine disorders; there are also psychological ones, such as post-traumatic stress disorder, acute stress disorder; or mental illnesses, bipolar disorder, BPD, schizophrenia, etc…” Doctor Su looked at his eyes with a gentle gaze, “Can you talk about it in detail?”

Xu Chengyue took a light deep breath, and his clear voice told the whole story in detail.

Doctor Su’s gaze fell on his slightly clenched hands, integrating the events and recording them in the book, “Your friend, I’ll call him A for now, suddenly seemed like a different person almost three months ago. I’ll temporarily call him B at this time. You experienced many things with B and fell in love with him during this process, and you realized that B also liked you, but after B confessed to you, his personality changed back to A and he avoided you like the plague.”

“And there is objective evidence to support A’s change in temperament.”

“You guessed that A has a dual personality, and B is his sub-personality?” Doctor Su stared at her notebook, organizing her thoughts, “Why did you give up on this guess?”

Xu Chengyue’s lips were a little dry: “He denied it, and said that he was the only one from beginning to end, that he was just deceiving me.”

Doctor Su: “So now you think that his B period before was just him joking with you.”

“Right…”

Doctor Su closed her notebook and said sharply: “If you already thought that, you wouldn’t be here. You like B, and even hope that the other person really has a dual personality, and you don’t want him to be lying to you, right?”

Xu Chengyue lowered his head a little helplessly: “I…”

“You now feel very guilty about these thoughts.”

Xu Chengyue nodded.

“Okay, I have a general understanding of the situation. First of all, this is not your fault, you are the victim in this relationship.”

Doctor Su lightly brought the patient back from the dead end he had drilled into.

“If there is no history of genetic diseases or mental trauma, the possibility of dual personality is not high. According to your description, A may be an extreme version of avoidant attachment. As for whether B, who you are most concerned about, really exists, from a psychological perspective, B may represent the person that A subconsciously longs to be, including his true emotions and needs, but those warm interactions are isolated by defense mechanisms, and are essentially still a part of A.”

Xu Chengyue’s heartbeat seemed to stop for a beat: “So…B…is a part of A?”

He wanted to refute, but didn’t know what to say.

“This is just a shallow psychological analysis based on the story you told, and it’s not completely correct. What exactly happened may only be determined by seeing A in person, but I think the focus now is not your confusion, but taking care of your own trauma. Your hands have been shaking physiologically since you came in.”

Doctor Su focused her gaze on a certain place.

Xu Chengyue quickly put his hands behind his back, “I don’t know why, they’ve been like this recently, sorry for the awkwardness.”

“Just recently? Before, would you have persistent tension headaches, involuntary muscle twitches, palpitations, panic, rapid breathing, sleep disorders, etc.?”

Xu Chengyue nodded, “I did have them, but they weren’t very frequent before.”

“You have them all?” Doctor Su sighed and began to write a prescription, “My suggestion is, don’t overthink other people’s problems for now. Does Mr. Xu have time recently? Let’s stay in the hospital for half a month first.”

Xu Chengyue: “Ah?”

“Your anxiety has reached the level of somatization.”

Xu Chengyue was stunned, “I’m not very available recently.”

“Then can you come back for a check-up in half a month? Try to keep a calm mind during this time.” From the conversation, Doctor Su had a general understanding of the other person’s personality, and repeated one more sentence, “I hope you can pay attention to your physical condition.”

“Okay, thank you doctor, sorry for the trouble.”

After leaving the hospital, Xu Chengyue folded up the medical record. He just wanted to ask a question, but he didn’t expect that he was the one who was sick.

He covered his chest, which had been beating irregularly recently, and took a deep breath.

Fortunately, it wasn’t anything serious.

Besides, he was really busy recently.

Just as he thought of this, the phone screen lit up.

It was a call from the production team—

“Teacher Xu, can you come to the production team’s office?”