A Doll Made By One’S Own Hands—— Chapter 39
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The check-out procedure was handled very quickly.
Originally, the landlord was extremely unhappy when he heard the news. After all, it was the off-season, and the community was old and small, so it was difficult to find suitable and obedient tenants.
If Chi Xianyu hadn’t said with a smile that the deposit would not be refunded, the landlord would never have agreed so easily, and even sent the two of them downstairs with a smile on their face.
Before leaving, the landlord noticed that they had almost no luggage with them. Out of a greedy mentality, he asked, “What are you going to do with the items you bought upstairs?”
They are all large items such as washing machines and air conditioners that can be sold at second-hand prices.
It has been raining all night recently, and the outdoor temperature is close to subzero. The cold wind is biting people. Chi Xianyu hugged the silent young man next to him tightly, turned his head slightly to the landlord beside him and said, “I don’t want any more. You can deal with it as you like.”
The landlord calculated in his mind that this was a large sum, and the joy on his face was beyond words. Even Chi Qing, who had always been considered dull and gloomy by him, now became extremely pleasing to the eye.
So much so that he glanced at Chi Qing, who was tightly wrapped in Chi Xianyu’s arms, with some rare humanistic care, and asked in a false and half-hearted manner: “Is he sick? He hasn’t spoken all the time. Why does he feel something is wrong? His face doesn’t look good…”
While he was talking, he poked his head toward Chi Qing curiously. The next second his direct gaze was blocked by Chi Xianyu, and when he moved his eyes upward, he saw a cold but gorgeous face.
The smile from the previous communication was still on the lips of the other party, but the landlord did not dare to peek any more. He scratched his nose uncomfortably and pretended to say: “Are you having a cold? The temperature has dropped significantly recently, so you must keep warm…”
After Chi Xianyu nodded in agreement, she hugged Chi Qing and drove away together in the car. When the dilapidated community building was getting farther and farther away from them, and the outline of the community could no longer be seen from the rearview mirror in the car, Chi Qing clenched the corner of Chi Xianyu’s clothes until her fingers turned white and loosened some.
The breath that he had been desperately holding finally eased from the tip of his nose, and then Chi Qing’s gills opened and closed like a live fish caught ashore.
The fear of the rental house and the surrounding environment still remained in his eyes. This kind of fear could even make Chi Qing unable to say a word in front of the landlord.
“Okay.” Chi Xianyu lowered her head and kissed Chi Qing’s hair in a comforting manner, “It’s okay. We have moved to a beautiful new residence, exactly as you want. Everything will be different.”
Although Chi Qing looked pale and frail, he buried his head in Chi Xianyu’s chest with great trust and responded in a low voice: “Yes.”
As soon as he finished speaking, the young man felt more concise. He raised his head slightly and rubbed his cheek against Chi Xianyu’s, and then added: “I will (yes) love you.”
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The new residence the two moved to was a villa relatively close to Chi Qing’s school.
The decoration design and objects inside were all done by Chi Xianyu, which should be a big expense in terms of the overall luxurious style. However, Chi Xianyu almost didn’t let Chi Qing waste any attention, or Chi Qing simply forgot about this matter.
In the past half month, he has been like a waste. Chi Xianyu does everything for him. Sometimes he even does things like bathing and dressing for Chi Qing.
Over a long period of time, Chi Qing’s dependence on Chi Xianyu was like a dodder. The only benefit was that Chi Qing would no longer be so frightened by other people’s sights and voices.
He could finally go to class normally without asking for leave again and again. After all, he would also get credits and graduate normally.
However, Chi Xianyu would pick him up and drop him off every time he went to and from class. Those students who used to be very fanatical and frantically pushed Chi Qing became restrained and no longer stared at him with those sly eyes. However, they still pursued Chi Xianyu as before and made sincere and passionate confessions to him.
In the past, Chi Xianyu would mostly ignore it, but now he had a casual smile in his eyes and casually told the other person, “Don’t say such disgusting words to me again.”
Chi Xianyu’s eyes always fell on the beautiful and lovely Chi Qing in the classroom, and she solemnly and clearly announced, “I already have a lifelong lover.”
His eyes and demeanor when he said these words were not hidden in any way. Fan Fan’s face turned pale when he heard these words, showing a bit of gloomy gray, and he glared at Chi Qing with unwillingness and resentment.
In front of Chi Xianyu, they only dared to do this.
However, a few days after the news spread, there were still a few people who couldn’t help but want to provoke Chi Qing. They deliberately chose a node where Chi Xianyu was not around and said extremely mocking words to Chi Qing: “If I remember correctly, it was you who announced that you two are brothers, right?”
“You actually took the initiative to seduce your own brother and developed this kind of relationship. Don’t you find it disgusting? Or is it that you, a rat, have been in the smelly ditch for so long that you have forgotten what it means to be called a slut?”
It was the same conversation again with a different medicine.
If it had been before, I would probably have suffered them for no reason, or in order to actively integrate and please them, and thus obey their orders like a dog being led.
Seeing Chi Qing stunned, the other party thought that the stinky rat had listened to his words. Just when he was about to continue speaking, Chi Qing slowly came back to his senses and asked in a calm and confused tone: “Have you forgotten how you begged me before?”
Chi Qing’s tone and expression were very quiet, without any hint of sarcasm. He was very much like a student who was stumped by a question and full of doubts but was not ashamed to ask.
The other party’s facial muscle lines were slightly distorted, and the pale facial features seemed to be squeezed into a ball.
Chi Qing didn’t seem to notice how bad his face was, and continued to remind him: “At that time, you begged me to take you to see Xianyu, and chased you all the way to the snack street in front of the school.”
Chi Qing paused for two seconds as if recalling the scene, and then spoke again: “If I remember correctly, in order to beg me, you stuffed a bunch of food into your mouth, all made of waste oil and synthetic rotten meat. Your lips were covered with a layer of greasy food residue, and your cheeks and clothes were covered in vomiting. There was a sour smell of putrefaction -”
As soon as the young man finished speaking, someone next to him vomited out the words. The sour water on the ground was really the same as the scene at that time.
This scene was extremely stinging and humiliating to the other party, who glared at Chi Qing with red face and anger.
His knuckles crackled, and just when he was about to rush up and slap Chi Qing in the next second, Chi Xianyu appeared behind Chi Qing gracefully and at the right time, immediately suffocating the other person’s urge and inclination to commit violence.
The boy, who was still unrecognizable at first, lost consciousness for a moment when he saw that beautiful face. As if he was confused, he only said quietly: “Xianyu.”
Chi Xianyu didn’t look at him, not even a look or a smile. He just explained to the others with a smile that they were not related by blood.
“So that’s it.” The person who just didn’t stand out just now became envious when he heard the previous implicit discriminatory look, “It’s really good.”
They began to chat amiably with Chi Qing, and isolated the boy who had been excluded by Chi Xianyu and whose face was drained of blood from their social circle.
The remaining group of people were not as straightforward and dull as that idiot. They unknowingly divided into two groups and deliberately separated the shakigan couple. After ensuring that they were not far away from each other, the girl who used to be inseparable from Li Nan finally came up with the idea of encouraging Chi Qing to break up.
The girl was worried about being heard by Chi Xianyu and lowered her voice very low, “Chi Qing, didn’t you dislike Xianyu at first? How could you develop such a relationship with him? Or is it actually not voluntary for you?”
The recording on her mobile phone in her pocket was turned on silently, recording all of this very quietly.
The female classmate did not wait for Chi Qing’s expected answer. Instead, the young man raised his eyebrows in confusion and asked softly: “Who said that?”
“Who says I don’t like him?”
Chi Qing almost bit his tongue when he said this, but he spoke stubbornly and stared directly at the girl: “Who said I don’t like him?”
There was a frightening stubbornness in his dark pupils, and such a straightforward look made him shudder. She resisted the discomfort and used another kind of rhetoric mixed with sarcasm, her tone pretending to be sincere: “If that’s the case, do you really think you two are compatible?”
You must feel ashamed.
Just as stupid, embarrassed and at a loss as before, he stood there as stupidly as a quail, feeling extremely humiliated after realizing his identity and status.
Unexpectedly, Chi Qing looked at her with a confused expression, “So?”
“Even if they really don’t match, so what?” His tone subtly paused for a moment, and then he said: “I will not leave him, and I will not separate from him. Do you know the reason?”
After Chi Qing asked the question, he said the result without waiting for the other party’s answer: “Because I love him.”
“I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him.”
He was afraid that the other party wouldn’t believe her, so he moved closer to her and kept repeating these words. The muscles in his cheeks continued to tighten and straighten, and his face was dark and overflowing with a weird look that only a fake person could have.
In particular, he kept chewing that sentence back and forth, which frightened the girl so much that she screamed and collapsed to the ground, and immediately attracted the attention of a group of people a little further behind.
Chi Qing didn’t feel that his behavior was weird or threatening. His dark eyes were filled with long-suppressed madness, and his bloodshot eyeballs were as red as soaked in blood. He was still mumbling to himself, obviously in a state of complete self-stress defense.
The situation of the young man was something they had never seen before. The girl who was still aloof at first looked terrified and stepped on the ground, shrinking back step by step. When she was trying to distance the two of them, Chi Xianyu’s voice came from behind, “What are you talking about?”
His eyes first wandered to Chi Qing, his fingers pinched the young man’s fragile back soothingly, and he continued: “Can you tell me?”
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“Can you tell me something?”
In the supermarket.
Chi Qing watched Chi Xianyu carefully selecting food one by one in the fresh food area, digging his fingers back and forth on the armrest of the cart. After hesitating for a few times, he finally stopped and asked the question that had been hanging on him for a long time, “What on earth did you say to her in school later?”
She actually apologized to Chi Qing while sobbing in fear.
Chi Xianyu selected a piece of tender beef that clearly suited Chi Qing’s preference and put it into the cart. He looked at Chi Qing with a smile and a teasing look, “But before Ah Qing told me before, what secrets did you whisper to others?”
“This is not fair to me at all.”
In the past, it was difficult for Chi Xianyu to say anything fair or unfair, or Chi Qing’s slap had already come down when he said half a word.
But now Chi Qing not only did not slap him, but also accepted it meekly.
However, Chi Qing really didn’t want to state those words to Chi Xianyu again. After all, his state at the time was too strange. What if he told Chi Xianyu that he would have other questions after listening and he couldn’t answer them himself.
For example, ask Chi Qing why she didn’t like him at first?
And so on.
It was difficult for him to answer easily, so he remained silent and lowered his head without saying a word.
Chi Qing’s honest and pitiful appearance seemed to be bullied by Chi Xianyu, which was a bit unbearable, so Chi Xianyu intimately put her head on the young man’s neck and said in a gentle tone: “I told her that beautiful girls cannot talk nonsense.”
“So that’s it.” Chi Qing nodded.
But yes, only Chi Xianyu has such deterrence and influence.
Chi Xianyu played with Chi Qing’s black hair that was almost shoulder-length with her fingertips, and twisted it around a few times. She couldn’t help but kiss Chi Qing, who looked extremely cute and obedient at the moment. She stared at Chi Qing’s face that turned from white to red, and wanted to lick it with the tip of her wet tongue, “Of course.”
“After all, you looked so scared and your lips were shaking so much.”
Especially when Chi Xianyu’s palm gently touched him, he trembled even more fiercely. It was surprising that the other party said some words that made Chi Qing uncomfortable and humiliating. Even though the other party fell to the ground in a state of weakness, it did not prevent Chi Xianyu from drawing the correct conclusion.
So he walked to the other person’s side without hesitation, bent down and showed a faint smile, so charming and beautiful that the scenery in the world lost its color for an instant.
The girl mistakenly thought that Chi Xianyu wanted to help her up in a gentlemanly manner, so she subconsciously stretched out her hand, but the other party just lowered her voice and said softly: “Even if you are a beautiful girl, if you talk nonsense, my tongue will be cut off neatly.”
Finally, the two of them picked some vegetables and meat products suitable for hot pot before heading home.
Chi Xianyu took care of all the preparations for cleaning and cutting vegetables after returning home. He didn’t even let Chi Qing touch a vegetable leaf. However, Chi Qing was not good at cooking. After all, he had three meals a day in the school cafeteria.
Simple, convenient, and cheap.
But the only drawback is that Chi Qing doesn’t know his own dietary preferences in the long run.
Due to poverty all year round, he would eat whatever dish was cheap. For Chi Qing, food was just for filling his stomach. He was not even sure which cuisine his taste favored. Moreover, Chi Qing found that he preferred hot pot and other eating methods. Chi Xianyu helped him distinguish them one by one.
The white mist rising from the hot pot obscured the face on the other side, making Chi Xianyu’s facial features become vaguely visible in Chi Qing’s eyes. The eyebrows and eyes that originally seemed sharp and clammy now looked extremely soft.
From time to time, he would put some boiled beef for Chi Qing. After a while, the small plate in front of Chi Qing was full. He raised his fair face and said without thinking for a second: “That’s enough, that’s enough. Don’t keep putting it with me. You should also eat some.”
After Chi Qing finished speaking, he instinctively moved his chopsticks to pick up food for Chi Xianyu, but soon his movements stopped abruptly in mid-air, and he suddenly realized something –
This kind of human food can’t be eaten even a little bit.
He actually made such a common-sense and unforgivable mistake. In an instant, Chi Qing’s delicate face suddenly turned white without any trace of fresh blood.
“Are you a normal person?”
“If you take me to this restaurant, can you eat these things?”
“Do you understand people’s feelings? Do you know what liking is?”
The young man obviously thought of the malicious insult he had received in the restaurant not long ago.
“Clang-” a sound.
Chi Qingling’s slender fingers couldn’t hold the silver chopsticks, and they fell on the dining table with a soft sound. His palms began to sweat slightly, and he swallowed unnaturally, as if he was worried that the other party would regard this as a deliberate insult like last time.
The originally warm atmosphere was ruined by Chi Qing’s words. He began to bite his lips anxiously and was thinking about whether to say something – for example, if I have a chance next time, I will definitely build a body that can eat, drink and be beautiful with you.
There was a coolness like snow particles on his lips. Chi Qing blinked. Unexpectedly, Chi Xianyu, who was opposite him, had arrived in front of him and was stretching out his fingertips to save the bloody lips bitten by him.
“A Qing.” He called out Chi Qing’s name as if sighing, but then said nothing. He just took a pair of clean chopsticks for Chi Qing and placed them in his hand: “Keep eating.”
After hearing what he said, Chi Qing continued to use his chopsticks.
However, he didn’t have a big appetite. After finishing the small plate of beef in front of him, he couldn’t eat anymore, but Chi Qing still kept stuffing it into his mouth.
The stomach bag was completely filled, swollen as if it was about to burst through the thin layer of skin and bulge out. His own physiological reaction made him convulse and want to bend over and vomit, but subconsciously he still stubbornly opened his mouth and stuffed it inside.
This kind of behavior is like trying to swallow the portion that Chi Xianyu can’t eat.
Fortunately, Chi Xianyu discovered it quickly. After noticing something abnormal, he stopped it in time. Later, he found some spare digestive tablets in the living room and asked him to take them. From time to time, he pressed his palms against Chi Qing’s uncomfortable areas and gently rubbed them.
During this time he did not say a word of reproach or impatience.
After the swelling pain in Chi Qing’s stomach subsided, Chi Xianyu turned to clear the dining table. He seemed to be outstanding in everything he did. In an instant, he had the living room and kitchen clean and bright, and all the furniture and objects looked as new as if they had just been bought back.
The young man found a comfortable position and curled up on the sofa, his two dark eyes staring back and forth at Chi Xianyu’s figure almost without blinking.
Chi Qing stared with pleasure at the other person’s busy schedule for him. This rare sight actually gave him a long-lost sense of happiness that he had never experienced before.
A very strange emotion overflowed and spread from his chest, allowing him to taste a little of the so-called fireworks of the world. This wonderful taste was like an infectious disease that penetrated his lungs from his limbs.
It was obviously still a bone-chilling winter, and the heater was not turned on indoors, but Chi Qing actually felt the indescribable warmth from the bottom of his heart.
He was fascinated by this strange and bizarre warmth, and his eyes lingered on Chi Xianyu’s back extremely greedily, intending to seize every inch of Chi Xianyu.
happiness.
This is really an unfamiliar word.
He was about to drown in this subtle sense of happiness.
Chi Qing doesn’t know exactly when this kind of happiness that normal people have took shape.
I just remember that when they first moved into this villa, Chi Qing had no sense of security at all. Whenever there was a slight disturbance in the surrounding environment, he would flutter like a frightened bird.
Moreover, they are very repulsive to walls with windows, water pipes, and spaces with large gaps, and are afraid to avoid them.
Chi Qing didn’t get a good night’s sleep in the first two days after arriving, and it was common for him to be woken up by nightmares in the middle of the night.
At this time, it was Chi Xianyu who held him forcefully in her arms, clasping the sensitive back of Chi Qing’s neck with her palms, forcing Chi Qing’s cheeks to be buried in his chest, and she was so pressed that she almost couldn’t breathe.
He seemed to like this intimate gesture of trying to rub Chi Qing into his own flesh and blood, like an anaconda trying to entangle its prey.
Chi Qing has also changed a lot over time, and he actually becomes addicted to the feeling of being forcibly imprisoned by Chi Xianyu, even if he can’t hear any heartbeat with his ears pressed against the other person’s chest.
But he just felt unsafe for no reason.
After admiring it for long enough, Chi Qing withdrew his satiated and prying eyes with a smile. Then he frowned in surprise, lowered his head and tugged on his collar and sleeves and sniffed, smelling a pungent hot pot smell full of spicy spices.
Disgusted.
So Chi Qing turned around and went upstairs to change clothes and wash up, but even when he was taking a shower in the bathroom, that pleasant and reassuring feeling of happiness still spread throughout his body.
However, this continuous and abundant warmth and sweetness did not last long, because while Chi Qing was waiting after taking a bath and going to bed, Chi Xianyu, who was supposed to accompany him to sleep, did not appear at a specific time.
Normally this would never happen.
Chi Qing was lying in the heated bedroom, but a chilling chill rose up his back, as if a wriggling caterpillar was crawling up his spine. A bean-sized drop of cold sweat slid down his forehead, dripping with sweat.
He must have done or said something wrong, otherwise Chi Xianyu would not have done this to him for no reason.
Chi Qing anxiously tore at the barbs on his nails and even dug them bare. He seemed not to notice the slightest pain, and his brain was quickly recalling when Chi Xianyu was offended.
Was it the humiliating remark that I accidentally made during dinner?
Or was it that the way he was eating so much and looking a little embarrassed made him feel indecent and off-putting?
No.
Chi Qing denied himself.
He began to recall the scenes that happened during the day frame by frame, but he racked his brains and couldn’t come up with any clues. He stared at the room without Chi Xianyu in great panic, and ran out of the room when he couldn’t bear it for a second.
Outside the corridor.
Chi Qing’s slender figure walked quickly along the corridor, turning the handle of each door quickly and flexibly to check the situation inside. Maybe he didn’t find what he wanted, and left in the next second with great disappointment.
The villa chosen by Chi Xianyu was spacious, and its overall layout and design style were Western-style. It was already half an hour after Chi Qing searched all the large and small rooms on the second floor.
He was panting and leaning on the handrail at the entrance of the stairs, wiping the sweat from his head anxiously. He vaguely guessed that Chi Xianyu thought he was hopeless and simply abandoned him.
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Chi Xianyu went out for a trip.
After eating the few digestive tablets he had prepared, he was still worried that Chi Qing would accumulate food before going to bed, so he went out while Chi Qing went upstairs to take a shower.
On the way back, there was a series of rear-end car accidents, which blocked the entire road. It took nearly an hour to get home from a drive that should have taken less than twenty minutes.
During this period, Chi Qing called him several times to prevent him from worrying, but none of them could be answered.
This is not good.
This premonition was confirmed when Chi Xianyu saw the empty and eerily quiet bedroom. There was no sign of Chi Qing in the entire villa.
He repeatedly searched for the place where Chi Qing might be staying, but to no avail. Just when Chi Xianyu was about to leave, he extremely keenly caught a trace of a sobbing sound like a cat meowing.
Helpless, panic, and collapse.
Chi Xianyu’s steps paused, and she walked towards the source of the sound with a solemn expression. Finally, she opened the slightly narrow utility room and stopped in front of the locker where the young man’s weak crying voice could clearly be heard.
After being stunned for two seconds, he stretched out his slightly protruding fingers and opened the cabinet door. Immediately, extremely complex emotions appeared in his usually cold and inorganic pupils——
The young man was curled up in an extremely insecure posture, with several pieces of clothes piled in his arms that were obviously not Chi Qing’s size. The materials were so rough and cheap that they were obviously bought by Chi Qing for Chi Xianyu before, but now they were held tightly in his arms by the young man as if they were only treasures.
Even though there was no Chi Xianyu’s scent on these low-quality fabrics, he still couldn’t bear to throw them away.
Chi Qing’s light and fluffy eyelashes were stuck into several clusters due to tears, and his cheeks that should have been porcelain white were covered with wet tear stains. His soft black hair was sticky and stuck to his face, making his whole person look particularly pitiful and terrible.
His eyelids were red and swollen from crying, and he was choking. He hid in dark and cramped corners to seek that precarious sense of security, for fear that those delirium-like monsters would find him again.
Suddenly a hazy light appeared in front of his eyes, and then a cold fingertip gently wiped the tears on Chi Qing’s face. There was obviously no warmth, but Chi Qing felt warm.
“Xianyu.” Chi Qing pronounced the syllables with great difficulty.
Immediately, he vaguely lost control and hugged Chi Xianyu violently, burying his crying cheek on the other person’s chest, wishing that his flesh and blood would merge with Chi Xianyu’s, and from then on, blood would merge with blood, flesh with flesh, and bone with bone.
“How could you leave me alone? You know I’m most afraid of this.” Warm tears fell from Chi Qing’s cheeks, and finally penetrated Chi Xianyu’s thin shirt and stuck to his chest, burning to death.
“I really know I was wrong. After all, we have the closest relationship, so there is nothing I can’t tell you.” Chi Qing stated from the bottom of his heart, and then recited everything he said to the girl during the day, every word correct.
His tone was trembling and pitiful, “No matter what you ask me to say from now on, I will say it. I will never make you angry again. Please don’t do this to me again. Besides, you know that I can’t leave you at all.”
Chi Qing described the scene just now in a very miserable way, saying that he was extremely frightened when the other party did not appear in the bedroom on time, and his voice choked up: “You know I am most afraid of this.
“Aqing.”Chi Xianyu lowered her head and kissed his wet cheek, with a deep apology in her voice, “I’m sorry.”
“I didn’t abandon you.”He explained everything clearly to the young man in his arms, and finally said: “If I knew you would be in this situation, I would never leave you alone.”
After hearing what he said, Chi Qing’s mentality gradually improved. Because she was too tired from crying, she finally curled up in Chi Xianyu’s arms and almost fell asleep.
But did Chi Xianyu really not know that this situation would happen?
He should also acquiesce.
After all, he should be the best at using such despicable means to repeatedly test people’s hearts, and he would take the trouble to test every opportunity to ensure that the feelings given by the other party are not false.
It is said that a person is the least defensive when he is drowsy, and will give the most sincere reply to anything he says unconsciously.
“Do you really love me?Ah Qing.”Chi Xianyu stared at Chi Qing’s beautiful face and asked softly: “Is it true?”
Chi Qing seemed to feel extremely comfortable sleeping in his arms. She rubbed her cheek against Chi Xianyu’s arm and gave a soft reply unconsciously, which was understood as the most authentic answer in Chi Xianyu’s ears.
So he smiled, lowered his head and rubbed Chi Qing’s with the tip of his nose.
This is probably the most heartwarming scene before, now, and even in the future.
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