TTOA Chapter 40
by VolareKwon Jae-jin groaned painfully, swallowing his sobs. His deeply furrowed eyebrows showed no sign of relaxing. What was even more horrifying was that Seo Eui-woo didn’t stop thrusting even as the tears streamed down.
Rather, even more aroused, he thrust deeply into the tightly constricted inner walls, shrunken with shame. It was as if he was unleashing all the desire he had been holding back inside, letting it rampage freely.
With each thrust of Seo Eui-woo inside, the fountain of fluid erupting from Kwon Jae-jin’s tip stuttered and stopped. After several bursts, Jae-jin reached an indescribable, sticky, sinister, and bizarre climax. Seo Eui-woo was the same.
Only then, as if finally satisfied, did he fill Kwon Jae-jin’s depths with himself, releasing his milky ejaculate. It was as if he had truly devoured Kwon Jae-jin’s body, monopolizing and grasping him tightly.
“Haa…”
Letting out a long, deep sigh, Seo Eui-woo gently turned Jae-jin’s face towards him. Smiling calmly without a hint of embarrassment, he kissed Jae-jin’s lips. Exhausted and limp, Kwon Jae-jin barely managed to reciprocate the kiss, panting.
“…Jae-jin-ssi, do you still think it’s not possible? Am I not…?”
As if unable to bear the pleasant excitement, Seo Eui-woo, with a puppy-like face resembling a pink peach, licked Kwon Jae-jin’s lower lip. His cool, shimmering gray eyes were alluring and beautiful.
Omnipotent and beautiful.
Irrevocably and completely insane, and Kwon Jae-jin was already a victim swept away by that Seo Eui-woo.
Just like the first timeline’s Seo Eui-woo, the second timeline’s Seo Eui-woo… never leaves Kwon Jae-jin alone.
“Ah…”
What should I do with this bastard…?
What am I going to do with my baby…?
“Haa, Jae-jin-ssi’s eyes… the pupils are deep, and the whites are clear. They’re wet with tears now… licking them won’t hurt much.”
“…”
“It’s not weird. We’re doing it together. It’s all good.”
“Woo, eu…”
“Now, let’s Guide.”
Seo Eui-woo kissed Jae-jin’s eyelids. His lips met the tear-soaked eyelashes, and Jae-jin sobbed, his eyes trembling.
Fucking bastard. You goddamn son of a bitch. Seo Eui-woo, you crazy bastard.
Repeating similar curses like a mantra in his head, Jae-jin weakly nodded. It was such a faint affirmation that it would be unnoticeable unless closely observed.
Of course, Seo Eui-woo, who was always obsessively scrutinizing Kwon Jae-jin, immediately noticed the nod.
“Open your eyes.”
Kwon Jae-jin fluttered his eyelids open.
Perhaps this is what the life of a late-blooming Guide is like.
Neither a Guide’s Guiding, nor an ordinary person’s expression of affection, but a complex mixture of everything… perhaps it’s some kind of messy amalgamation.
Seo Eui-woo kissed Jae-jin’s inner eyelids.
Then, he gently, very politely and softly, licked the wet membranes with his tongue.
Certainly, his eyeballs stung a little, he felt a foreign sensation, and it was an abnormal contact that Kwon Jae-jin couldn’t possibly accept according to his common sense… but still, it wasn’t so terrible that he could hate it outright.
It was okay because Seo Eui-woo blushed and was overjoyed, and immediately gave Jae-jin a series of kisses in return.
*
Peaceful days, neither too long nor too short, passed by.
The beginning of winter. On a certain night when colorful autumn leaves had fallen and the bare black branches stretched their arms towards the sky.
Kwon Jae-jin was sitting in the neatly furnished, wood-toned living room of the newly moved mountain villa.
This mansion had a magnificent fireplace made of white bricks. Not an old-fashioned fireplace that uses firewood, but a modern gas fireplace for interior decoration.
To Kwon Jae-jin’s left, the fireplace was blazing, and in front of him, a large screen TV was broadcasting the news. And to his right was Seo Eui-woo.
While Jae-jin was leaning comfortably against the beige sofa, watching the news, Seo Eui-woo was lying on his lap to the right.
As they bid farewell to autumn and prepared to welcome winter, the two settled into a relationship that had solidified in its own way.
‘What exactly is this relationship?’
Kwon Jae-jin didn’t precisely define what their relationship was.
In fact, he couldn’t define it.
‘It’s not a typical Esper and Guide relationship, nor is it a typical lover relationship, and it doesn’t seem like a business partner or colleague relationship either…’
When you think about it, it’s an ambiguous half-measure of everything.
It should be 불안하고 위태로워야 정상인데, strangely, Kwon Jae-jin was adapting well to the current situation.
Even thinking that living like this wasn’t so bad.
Unlike the first timeline’s Seo Eui-woo, the second timeline’s Seo Eui-woo had no past to regret or tasks to repent for Jae-jin. Perhaps that’s why he was bright and dazzling.
He liked Seo Eui-woo’s twenty-year-old expressions that he sometimes saw, and he also found it cute that he was curious about the future four years from now and was a little impatient. Guiding had become several times rougher than before, but once he got used to it, it was actually quite… honestly, he didn’t dislike it.
Seo Eui-woo said he liked everything he did, and Kwon Jae-jin was roughly becoming like that too.
If he could spend the rest of his life alone with Seo Eui-woo like this, it wouldn’t be such a bad life. He wanted that.
“…Seo Eui-woo-ssi.”
Kwon Jae-jin called out to Seo Eui-woo in a casual tone.
For some reason, words that hadn’t been thought through blurted out.
“About my memories. Do you still want to see them?”
The white flames burning in the fireplace were reflected in Jae-jin’s pupils. His deep, dark eyes shimmered faintly.
It felt as if a dam that Kwon Jae-jin had built up in his heart over his long life had collapsed. Many things he had believed impossible had become possible, and the rigid fixed ideas and ways of thinking had melted away to the point where their shape was unrecognizable.
He wanted to stop fussing, thinking, setting standards, being picky, drawing lines and pushing away, whether it was about being a normal person or an Awakened, whether it was about common sense or lack of it…
He seemed to have agonized enough alone, and now it seemed like it was time to open up to Seo Eui-woo even more.
That’s what Seo Eui-woo wanted from Kwon Jae-jin as well.
The reason why Seo Eui-woo kept asking Jae-jin questions, observing him, and trying things was probably because Kwon Jae-jin hadn’t fully revealed himself to Seo Eui-woo yet. Instinctively knowing that fact, he wasn’t satisfied and was trying to dig into Kwon Jae-jin more forcefully, trying to break Kwon Jae-jin down.
“Of course. Of course, I do.”
Seo Eui-woo immediately replied, looking up at Jae-jin.
“I want to know everything about Jae-jin-ssi.”
Pure desire was evident on his youthful and handsome face, resembling a large, innocent dog. It was an absolute longing directed only at Kwon Jae-jin.
“…Before that, there are a few things that Seo Eui-woo-ssi needs to hear first.”
“Yes, what is it?”
Seo Eui-woo got up and straightened his posture. He sat right next to Kwon Jae-jin, fiercely gazing at Jae-jin’s face, which revealed his complicated feelings, as if he wanted to devour it.
Jae-jin swallowed a sigh and continued.
“I mean, we, well, our first meeting wasn’t very desirable. Originally, I hated Seo Eui-woo-ssi very much, and I vehemently refused Guiding.”
It had become a past that had already passed, and it felt like a distant memory, but when he recalled it, he felt bitter and complicated.
“For almost three years, we fought precariously, as if walking a tightrope, and we only did things that each other didn’t want. Seo Eui-woo-ssi handcuffed me, and I, well… I tried to escape countless times. I even tried to die.”
The emotions of that time, which had been condensed for four years, seemed to still be piled up inside Kwon Jae-jin. It was stuck like scorched marks, blackening the inside of his head and heart, and he couldn’t forget it.
According to Seo Eui-woo, this kind of past wouldn’t disappear unless the memories were completely removed and deleted. It would continue to echo around Kwon Jae-jin forever.
Just like how Kwon Jae-jin still occasionally thinks about the first timeline’s Seo Eui-woo and can’t let him go…
“At that time, Seo Eui-woo-ssi and I were really a mess. It was a war. If you still want to see that kind of past, you can see it.”
Kwon Jae-jin met Seo Eui-woo’s gaze calmly, with a determined look in his eyes.
Seo Eui-woo’s lips twitched as if he was slightly shaken by Kwon Jae-jin’s story, but he quickly regained his composure as if he had expected it to some extent.
“I, I don’t care. I want to see it.”
Well, considering Kwon Jae-jin’s personality and situation, it was an obvious problem that could be easily figured out with a little thought about what their first meeting would have been like. Seo Eui-woo must have guessed that their meeting wouldn’t have been smooth.
He must have noticed it because he heard that he himself had knelt and begged with tears in the future, and even the second timeline’s meeting between Seo Eui-woo and Kwon Jae-jin hadn’t gone so well in the beginning, so it wouldn’t have been difficult to derive the correct answer.