SWG Chapter 67

Chapter 67

The moonlight flowed by inch by inch. Zhao Wen reheated the cabbage stew with tofu in the pot, watching her child, who had finally learned to come home and complain, finish eating. Then she assigned someone else to do the dishes, and the two of them sat together in the living room, preparing to chat.

After Xiao Wenyu grew up, they hadn’t had a heart-to-heart talk like this for a very long time, and it had been even longer since they’d discussed the profound yet simple issue of love.

No matter how sad or angry Xiao Wenyu was tonight, as an outsider, she naturally knew that beneath the dense layers of sadness was the genuine and passionate love between the two people.

This was an argument that could only happen between two people who loved each other.

This was good.

It would be even better if they hadn’t argued and had handled the problem calmly.

Zhao Wen spoke first, saying, “Xiao Yu, I’m actually quite happy.”

“I’m very happy that after you went through your independent adolescence, after more than a decade, you’re finally sitting next to me again, chatting with me so quietly.”

“Remember? When you were little, whenever you encountered a problem you couldn’t understand, you would sit next to me so obediently and innocently, chatting with me, trying to find a solution.”

Xiao Wenyu thought that it had been many, many years ago. Later, she matured and naturally became independent. After that, she went to school, fell in love, worked, and got married. There were hardly any opportunities to sit down with her family and have such in-depth conversations. She even missed this kind of conversation.

Zhao Wen gently took her hand and said in a low voice, “Actually, I also blame myself.”

Xiao Yanyue happened to come over after doing the dishes. Hearing this, she slowed her steps, leaned gently against Zhao Wen, and gently patted her back, conveying warmth and reassurance.

Xiao Wenyu was surprised, “Why?”

“Because, I always feel that if I hadn’t taken you to take pictures when you were little, or hadn’t supported you in studying design, or hadn’t let you go to that school, would you not be so miserable now? And when I think of your hardship, I think of that time in late summer. You were clearly already so miserable, and it was when you were most vulnerable and helpless, but the family didn’t provide you with any help. Instead, it was all opposition and indifference…”

“We’ve also been waiting for an opportunity to say to you, ‘I’m sorry, Wenyu.'”

The long river of time flowed tick-tock, and the sound of water flowing slowly from the distant past appeared in the ears of everyone present, just like every regular sound heard in life, like clocks, like water droplets, like heartbeats, like the sound of conversations. These mixed together, little by little, constructing the entirety of life.

Xiao Wenyu was stunned for a moment, lowered her head, and gently wiped away her tears.

Even the most perfect families have disputes, and there are even more long-standing regrets and apologies, but most families don’t have the opportunity to express these. Fortunately, her family was an exception.

She sniffed and said, “How could this be your problem?”

When she was in school, she was the envy of her classmates because her family loved her completely, never interfered with her, and fully supported her. But she didn’t expect to hear such a conclusion one day, to hear the people who loved her say sorry to her with so much guilt.

How could this be?

As for that argument, she could completely understand the feelings of her two mothers. If she were in that position, she would also couldn’t help but force her child to abort that child, who was completely a burden or even a nuisance to her. How could there be a need to apologize?

Why is everyone apologizing so much!

Zhao Wen held her hand, gently kneading the face of her child, who was just beginning to grow up in the realm of love, and said softly, “Yes, this isn’t our problem, and it’s not your problem.”

“But Ama will feel that I didn’t do enough, that I didn’t do well enough. If your Ama and I could provide you with better living conditions and let you see a wider world, you might not have been deceived by the Lin family, right?”

“No!” Xiao Wenyu shook her head vigorously, leaned into her arms, and sobbed, “You’ve already done enough, don’t blame yourselves, okay?”

“You see, even between us, we have this feeling. You’re a perfect child, and we’re relatively good parents, but we still feel like we haven’t done enough.” Zhao Wen gently cupped her face and said softly, “Because that’s love.”

Xiao Wenyu’s lips moved, and she murmured, “Because love is always feeling indebted… right?”

“Yes, love is always feeling indebted.” Zhao Wen smiled and pinched her daughter’s earlobe. “So I was originally very angry tonight, but after listening to you, I’m not so angry anymore.”

“Love is hard to explain. Once it pops up, maybe it’ll take a few days, maybe a few months, or even less than a day, and it’ll sink deep into your bones. Then it’s about slowly getting along and slowly figuring things out, finding a balance. In this process, you’ll definitely encounter many, many problems, and then slowly solve them.”

“So, I’m not surprised by your relationship with the little boss, and I’m even happy that you’re genuinely arguing about who loves who more today.”

Xiao Wenyu’s face flushed instantly when her little thoughts were exposed by her close elder, and she coughed lightly twice.

Zhao Wen smiled slightly: “Isn’t that why you mother and daughter are copied and pasted? When your mother was young, hehe…”

They never avoided talking about their youthful love in front of their children. Some parts could be understood with a single mention, such as how a certain big cat had ruined her body even more than she had when she was young. For the sake of the so-called agreement that the next class could be the best with her, she found out she was pregnant during the most urgent time of senior year, but she stubbornly kept it a secret until she was a little pregnant in June before telling her.

Hehe.

So a strong body is the most excellent genetic inheritance in their family.

But such devastation is also extremely bad; otherwise, this sick leave probably wouldn’t have been handled so smoothly.

Therefore, for a certain period of time, they would also reflect on whether they had shaped the world too beautifully, whether the mothers’ stories were too warm, which caused this silly child to fall so hard.

But this was also what she should experience. No one could replace her. On the contrary, maybe it was their beauty and warmth that gave this child the courage to stand up again instead of resigning herself to lying down completely.

That was pretty good too.

Zhao Wen sincerely said, “Isn’t it said that young people’s love is fiery? It’s good to see this child loving you so hard, unlike that one… we can also relax a bit.”

Xiao Wenyu said forcefully, “I don’t want to forgive her. It’s true that she didn’t care about her body.” It’s also true that she was using her as a cornerstone to redeem herself.

She didn’t want to forgive her so easily.

Zhao Wen looked at her strangely, then looked at Xiao Yanyue: “Did I say that our daughter should forgive that person?”

Xiao Yanyue shook her head, “I didn’t hear it.”

Zhao Wen: “She can forgive or not forgive. It’s best if the two of them have conflicts for a longer period of time. She can stay at home for two more days.”

Xiao Wenyu was even more stunned: “Mom, you… you’re so casual?”

Did this conversation just end like this?

Zhao Wen shrugged: “The reasons have been explained, and there’s no more emotion that needs to be vented. What else is there to say? Hey, what does the little boss like to eat? I’ll prepare it in advance.”

“Ama!”

Xiao Yanyue didn’t object this time, but chimed in: “It’s too awkward to get involved with you young people’s liking and loving. Remember to bring her home to meet us when you make up.”

“Mom!!”

Zhao Wen smiled and rubbed the top of her head: “You’re really getting younger and younger. There are many things you need to consider. You always have to explain the Lin family’s matters clearly to her. You can not bow your head to other things, but you can’t be too stubborn… Forget it, I won’t nag. You figure it out slowly.”

Smart children don’t need to have everything explained to them clearly. She patted Xiao Wenyu’s head, leaving the entire living room, including her own room, to her, and pulled Xiao Yanyue back to the master bedroom together.

Closing the door, Xiao Yanyue turned around to change her clothes. She couldn’t help but hug the person who was taller than her from behind, and tears stained her smooth back, feeling a little cold.

Xiao Yanyue smiled, “Why did you make yourself cry?”

“I really wronged you when I was young, making you suffer so much.”

“You tell our daughter one thing after another, but with me, everything is back to zero?” Xiao Yanyue reluctantly turned around, hugging the person in her arms completely and warmly, deliberately raising her voice a little, and said, “It’s only with love that you consider how much, and it’s only with love that you feel heartache. Without love, there’s only right and wrong.”

Of course, she wasn’t just saying this to Zhao Wen, but also to the silly girl sitting in the living room.

After speaking, she took Zhao Wen’s arm and sat down, saying in a low voice, “Haven’t you been inquiring about that little boss recently? What’s she like? How could she be so good?”

“Tell me about her.”

*

But a loving family is fortunate. They can comfort their children together, they discuss love and life, and smoothly turn a fit of anger into a pleasant conversation.

But that’s only something that a loving family can do.

In the empty large room, Ruan Shengyi turned over, looking up at the ceiling, only to feel that the hidden light strip was really not suitable for installation in the bedroom. Without a higher bedroom, it felt so empty, and the ceiling was really big and boring.

She blinked her eyes and said to herself in her heart: See, I told you this is the master bedroom. This room is really too big.

So big that she really felt a little uncomfortable lying here alone.

She dragged her exhausted body back to her room, which was separated by three heavy curtains. The heavy, dark black instantly swallowed her up, but the sense of security it brought was something that the other room could never compare to.

She could accurately find her spot in the pile of dolls without even turning on the light, familiarly curling up her body and finding the old little rabbit in the pile of toys, placing it in front of her.

She poked the rabbit’s nose and said softly, “But she’s already done so much for me, and I’ve done so little. I also feel sorry for her.”

Her finger brushed across the rabbit’s body, and only then did she realize something was wrong. She quickly turned on the desk lamp, and after seeing the change clearly, tears fell down her face.

The rabbit’s belly was stuffed with a lot of cotton, no longer shriveled. The clumsy stitches on the wounds on its body had been replaced with delicate patterns. It didn’t have new clothes yet; maybe they were still being made…

Ruan Shengyi sniffed and hugged the rabbit into her arms, saying in a low, trembling voice, “If I don’t do a little more, how will she persuade her mothers when she goes back? I can only do more, I must do more, right…”

“Am I doing it wrong?” She hugged the rabbit tightly, as if she was hugging another person through the layer of delicate patterned stitches, her voice low and hoarse, asking another person as if whispering in their ear.

“Someone like me must be very annoying to the elders.”