SWG Chapter 35
by VolareRuan Shengyi was in a daze the entire ride in the car. It was rare for her to be so out of control, but she was absentminded and wooden, as if her soul had left her body.
When the doctor asked about her past medical history, she could only stutter blankly, “I don’t know, I’m not sure.”
It wasn’t until the ambulance that the doctor, after pulling up Xiao Wenyu’s medical records, roared about why she hadn’t said so earlier, and whether the baby would still be viable if the medicine was used, that Ruan Shengyi snapped back to her senses and coldly asked, “Shouldn’t we save the adult first? Is the child that important?”
The doctor said in a deep voice, “There are equally effective medications that can reduce the harm to the body, so we should try to minimize it as much as possible.”
“We are not trying to save the child, but to protect the mother, otherwise, the mother will definitely be more miserable.”
Ruan Shengyi suddenly felt that this world was too absurd.
Mother.
How could this word bind a person for no reason? Even when receiving treatment, they have to hold back because of this identity?
The shadow of that tree seemed to be always in front of her eyes, as well as the neatly arranged photos, one by one, converging towards the black and white photo in the very center.
Even the dumbest person would understand what that black and white photo was, so…
Was this what Xiao Wenyu had been unable to say all along?
Did Xiao Wenyu want to hide it from her?
It didn’t seem so.
That day when they went to eat that strange congee hotpot, the day their relationship got a little better, and just now, Xiao Wenyu kept asking her if she wanted to go upstairs to take a look, if she wanted to go upstairs…
To see her secret.
Ruan Shengyi suddenly found it a bit ridiculous.
Looking at it this way, she couldn’t blame her “beloved” Teacher Xiao for this matter, but had to blame herself, blame herself for being a “romantically inept” fool at this time.
Heh.
No wonder she said thank you.
Her heart felt a little cold, and as a result, she calmed down.
She gradually came back to her senses. When she looked up, she was outside the emergency room, and a doctor across from her was staring at her.
Ruan Shengyi leaned back and mocked herself, “Are you also here to see me make a fool of myself?”
Seeing that she was still torturing herself until just now, and still thinking about how to treat Xiao Wenyu.
Heh.
The doctor waved her hand, indicating that she didn’t mean that, found a place to sit down beside her, and calmly said, “My name is Huang Zhiqi, an obstetrician and gynecologist.”
“Then you should go in, not sit here.”
“There’s no need. She’s already awake and doesn’t need me right now. I want to talk to you. We’ll write a prescription later. The patient may need to stay in the hospital for two days. Her fainting spell was a bit long this time. For her safety and the baby’s health, we need to do some comprehensive tests.”
Ruan Shengyi didn’t want to listen, but her ears still helped her receive the information.
Seeing that she didn’t speak, Huang Zhiqi continued, “She has a file with me, and I happen to be on duty today. Let’s chat.”
Ruan Shengyi cut her off, looked up at the pale ceiling light, and said coldly, “I’m not the child’s other mother, it’s useless to talk to me.”
“Are you her friend?”
“Neighbor.” She sat up straight, clasped her hands in front of her, and her eyes were red from the light. “A neighbor I’ve only known for a few months.”
She bit those two words hard, as if doing so could vent all the pain and annoyance in her heart.
No.
Absolutely not.
Huang Zhiqi was silent for a moment, tapped the chair, and sighed, “Then do you know her friends? She’s unwilling to provide any information about her family, but I can’t just stand by and watch things continue to develop.”
Ruan Shengyi’s breathing trembled, and she resignedly closed her eyes and said, “Tell me.”
“I can’t reveal the patient’s privacy.”
I could just…
Ruan Shengyi’s anger was completely ignited by this sarcastic doctor. She jumped up and rushed in front of Huang Zhiqi in one step, grabbed her clothes, and roared in a low voice, “Tell me, I’m her girlfriend, okay? Okay!!”
Huang Zhiqi looked up at her and smiled slightly, “I guessed it was you, her phone wallpaper.”
Ruan Shengyi was stunned, and the hand that was tightly gripping her sleeve slowly loosened.
When was that photo taken?
Huang Zhiqi had been working for more than ten years and had seen many things between young couples. Seeing Ruan Shengyi’s series of reactions, and thinking about Xiao Wenyu’s usual state, she could guess what was going on.
She smiled warmly and quickly found a way to start the conversation.
Huang Zhiqi: “She hid this from you, you must be very angry, that is your right. However, sit down first and listen to me talk about some precautions, so that if you want to reconcile with her later, you don’t have to watch her faint again. If you don’t want to, you can pass it on to her mother.”
“…When am I qualified to talk about reconciliation?” Ruan Shengyi said with a sneer, and sat down beside her, “Tell me.”
“First of all, you have to quit smoking,” Huang Zhiqi said seriously.
Was that also seen from the phone wallpaper?
Ruan Shengyi tilted her head in confusion.
When had she ever smoked in front of Xiao Wenyu?
Seeing that she didn’t answer, Huang Zhiqi stopped struggling with the topic. She glanced at the emergency room door, lowered her voice slightly, and said, “This fainting was because she has severe pregnancy malnutrition, and therefore also has severe hypoglycemia and anemia. I reminded her when she came for the last check-up.”
Ruan Shengyi thought to herself: Wasting her body like that, not eating anything when no one is watching, or just fooling her stomach, how could she not be malnourished?
Huang Zhiqi: “At the same time, she should have trouble falling asleep. According to the patient, she should have been sleeping for less than five hours for quite some time.”
Yes, after the Mid-Autumn Festival, she adjusted her working hours and got off work after midnight. Every night when she got off work, Xiao Wenyu had just fallen asleep, and when she got up to look for breakfast, Xiao Wenyu had been awake for a long time.
She thought Xiao Wenyu was an iron man.
She couldn’t help but belittle her in her heart, but her heartache gradually spread.
This silly woman, why is she just enduring it here by herself? Would it kill this silly woman to say one more word, to ask her for help?
Her eyes turned red again, and Ruan Shengyi needed to support her head with both hands to keep from falling off the chair.
But her body was already shaking like a sieve.
Huang Zhiqi gently patted the shoulder of the person who was still a young girl in her eyes and said in a deep voice, “But these two are not the most urgent things right now.”
Ruan Shengyi clenched her fists tightly.
These two are not important? Then what else is important?
She heard the other person continue, “The most important thing right now is her prenatal depression. If this can’t be resolved…”
Ruan Shengyi suddenly looked up at her, looking at the lips of the person so close to her opening and closing, slowly saying, “…the other treatments won’t have much effect.”
*
After a simple treatment in the emergency room, she was transferred to the obstetrics and gynecology ward.
County-level hospitals were not trusted, and there was the developed city of Beishi near Chuncheng, so not many people chose to stay in Chuncheng for hospitalization. Therefore, this multi-person ward was empty, like a single-person ward.
Whether it was the quiet environment of the hospital or the rare replenishment of sufficient nutrition, the nurse told the two people at the door when she came out of the ward that the patient was already asleep.
Huang Zhiqi did a simple examination, told Ruan Shengyi to keep an eye on the IV drip, and to ring the bell if anything happened, then went to attend to her other patients.
No one cared about Ruan Shengyi’s mood tonight.
Even she herself was a little dazed.
Was she angry?
She was angry, angry that Xiao Wenyu had hidden such a big thing from her. Where did this woman get the face to say that she was hiding things? Oh, that’s right, she seemed to have said it herself at that time.
Then did she feel sorry for her?
Of course, she felt sorry for her.
When Huang Zhiqi led her up, the two talked a little more.
Ruan Shengyi asked her, couldn’t she persuade Xiao Wenyu to give up the child?
Huang Zhiqi flicked her hair, “I am an obstetrician, abortions are not my responsibility. What’s more, how could I not have said it? But the patient loves her child very much, and it could even be said that if there was no child, the depression might be even worse.”
Ruan Shengyi was silent.
Did a mother’s love for her child begin with a tiny embryo?
Was it worth it?
She didn’t know.
She leaned against the door, squeezed her fingers, and listened to her fingers crackling, trying to smooth out the messy thoughts.
She couldn’t smooth them out.
Even the phone ringing made her even more annoyed. It was Xie Yu.
Xie Yu: “I looked at the surveillance, and it was indeed her own fault. The refrigerator next door short-circuited and took both of our circuits with it. It was really a coincidence.”
“I also checked on that person. The surveillance couldn’t see it, but she kept walking straight out of this street. I’ll keep an eye on both sides in the coming days.”
Ruan Shengyi gave a light “uh-huh” and listened to the static when she wasn’t speaking, trying to find a trace of peace.
After a long time, Xie Yu tentatively opened her mouth: “Boss, are you okay? Xiaowan told us everything. If you can’t accept it…”
“Don’t go out and talk nonsense.” Ruan Shengyi straightened her back, put down her leg propped against the door, and repeated, “Don’t go out and talk nonsense. There must be a reason why she’s hiding it.”
Xie Yu was stunned and hummed.
Ruan Shengyi: “Her condition is still good, but she needs to rest in the hospital for two days. I don’t have Xiaowan’s number, please tell her to arrange things for later.”
“Hang up if there’s nothing else.”
Ruan Shengyi hung up the phone on this side and called another person.
“Teacher, I need you to do me a favor.”
Chen Yuexin responded with a hmm.
Ruan Shengyi: “Help me keep an eye on Lin Simu. If she shows up in your store again, call me.”
Chen Yuexin: “She hasn’t come for a long time. I heard she hasn’t gone to other stores either.”
Ruan Shengyi casually hummed and pressed her fingers again, “Just keep an eye on her. I’m only asking you for this one thing.”
When did she find a trace of peace?
It was when Xie Yu said, if she couldn’t accept it.
Accept what?
The child?
But she quite liked children. If it was Xiao Wenyu’s child… she seemed to like it too.
Xiao Wenyu had a baby?
It seemed okay too.
What she couldn’t accept seemed to be only why Xiao Wenyu hid it from her like this, and hurt herself like this.
Unconsciously, she had walked to the innermost hospital bed. The nurse had considerately drawn the curtains, and there was only a little bit of pale light from the hallway and a little bit of cold moonlight reflecting on Xiao Wenyu’s already pale and bloodless face. Even her chestnut brown long hair couldn’t save her temperature.
So cold.
Was she asleep? Ruan Shengyi looked at the frown that was furrowed even when she was asleep, couldn’t help but gently raise her hand and rub it, trying to rub away the cloud of sorrow.
What she couldn’t accept was that she was obviously unhappy, obviously sad even when she was asleep. Xiao Wenyu, why did you pretend to be happy, why did you force yourself to pretend to be happy?
She put her hands in her neck to warm them up. After her hands were warm, she tremblingly pulled up Xiao Wenyu’s sleeve.
The doctor said that the patient said she had a pain fetish and needed to rely on pain to fall asleep.
Where could the pain come from?
From the neatly and densely scratched wounds under her sleeves, the newest of which still had fresh bloodstains and had definitely been scratched no more than a day ago.
Ruan Shengyi broke down.
She cried silently, tremblingly gently stroking Xiao Wenyu’s already somewhat rounded abdomen, which was definitely not visible unless you looked closely, and said in a hoarse voice, “Your mommy really loves you, you have to love her too, you must love her…”
You must not leave her.
Because, you may really be her only support.
At that moment, it wasn’t just Ruan Shengyi who was crying, it was also Ruan An.
And, Xiao Wenyu, who was lying there quietly, but a tear silently slipped from the corner of her eye.