Silver Leaf Whale Chapter 58

Happy birthday (2)

Chapter 58·Happy Birthday (2)

As soon as he got home, Qi Zhixuan couldn’t help but lie down on the toilet and vomited. It felt like his dinner and bile were gone together.

While vomiting and feeling dizzy, I thought that this scene seemed a bit familiar.He seemed to have vomited the last time he ate here, and Qi Zhixuan wanted to never eat there again, as if he was under a curse.

Pang Jing knelt down beside him with his eyebrows knitted and patted his back gently with his palms. He remembered that Qi Zhixuan didn’t drink at all that night, but he just left for a short while and not only did he drink, but he also vomited.

When the person was almost done vomiting, Pang Jing handed him a bottle of water.

Qi Zhixuan took the water and rinsed his mouth, then washed his face. His head seemed to be clearer. He walked out holding on to the wall and asked Pang Jing, “Why are you here?”

Pang Jing followed him without saying a word, but his eyes were firmly locked on the swaying back in front of him. The two walked into the bedroom. Qi Zhixuan smelled the smell of alcohol on his body, frowned, and took out a clean set of home clothes from the closet.

His movements in undressing were still a bit slow, and he unbuttoned the buttons awkwardly. The silk shirt was staggered under his feet, and his round toes shone on the silver-white material.

Pang Whale’s Adam’s apple rolled uncontrollably, but people didn’t dare to come forward, standing on the ground like a stake to look at him.

In fact, Pang Jing returned to the dormitory very early in the evening. When he came back, he found that Jing Yao had used some tricks to make Jing He stop making trouble. He watched with his brother as quietly as a chicken for a while and was coaxed to sleep.

The three of them turned off the lights early so as not to wake up Jing He, but Pang Jing lay on the bed, tossing and turning, always thinking of Qi Zhixuan holding his hand.

In fact, he doesn’t want to let go at all, he wants to hold on, he wants to hold on, it’s best to be together all the time, and he can’t wait to have the person melt into him.

But he knew that this was impossible. He was too confused and couldn’t organize his thoughts in his mind. He could only choose to escape, to escape from the timidity of wanting to possess but fearing to drag him down.

After baking cakes on the bed for a long time, Pang Jing couldn’t lie still anymore. He got up and wanted to go to the balcony to get some air. When he opened the door, he found that Jing Yao had come out at some point and was puffing away smoke with his back to him.

Pang Jing didn’t know that he could still smoke, so he gently knocked on the balcony door and walked out.

Jing Yao looked over, raised his head and said hello, then held the cigarette in his hand, opened the door a little and poked his head into the bedroom.

Seeing his unlucky brother sleeping soundly on the bed, he returned to the balcony and handed Pang Whale a cigarette.

Pang Whale shook his head and asked him what happened today.

“It’s just that I had a good design before and sold it to a company. They asked me to look at it in person. I wanted to take a break from school for a while and come back. He was not happy.” Jing Yao pointed to the dormitory with a cigarette between his fingers, feeling a little helpless.

“Then you…” Pang Jing hesitated to speak.

“I don’t know yet. Let’s talk about it. Anyway, we have coaxed the person first.” He stretched out his hand and flicked the cigarette ashes. “Oh, don’t talk about me anymore. It’s annoying to talk about it. Let’s talk about you. Why are you up in the middle of the night and quarreled with Boss Qi?”

Pang Jing looked up and looked a little surprised. He hadn’t told them about He Qi Zhixuan yet.

Jing Yao laughed when he saw his expression, “What? You think I am a heartless person like Xingxing? It’s so obvious, no one can see it.”

Pang Jing smiled bitterly and said: “Well… we didn’t quarrel, it’s just… he is now at a very important decision point in his life, but he happened to meet me…” Then he sighed, “I… can’t give him much help, so I don’t really want to influence his decision.”

Pang Jing said it was very difficult. In fact, he has never been willing to talk to others. He felt that it was better to think more and do more if he had to listen to others talk about any problem. But today was different. He wanted to speak out. He felt that his heart had been weighed down by a stone. If he didn’t find a way to vent, he would be pulled into the abyss.

Jing Yao was a little surprised. In his eyes, Pang Jing had always been a very confident person, and he never expected that he would feel like he was holding others back.

“Then you just ignore me?” Jing Yao took another puff, the cigarette butt flashing brightly and dimly in the night.

Pang Jing said nothing, and Jing Yao pointed to a wooden box on his table: “I see you didn’t even bring a birthday gift.”

Through the glass door of the balcony, you can see the wooden box tied with a ribbon on the table. This is several mineral pigments that he borrowed tools from Lin Yan and bought the raw materials himself. He originally wanted to give Qi Zhixuan as a birthday gift, but when he finished it, he felt that this was putting more pressure on himself, as if he was trying to force people to lean towards him, so he did not give it out.

“I’ll give it away later.” Pang Jing withdrew his gaze. The summer wind blew in waves, but it couldn’t dispel the boredom in his heart.

“What kind of birthday gift should I give him in the future?” Jing Yao frowned and gave him an elbow. “I’m not talking about you. You are really weird. If you like someone, you still have to worry about your influence on others. What you should worry about is that you can’t influence others.”

He put out the cigarette butt and his tone suddenly dropped, as if he had touched some memory. “I advise you to communicate if you have any problems. Don’t leave others alone. Otherwise, one day when you look back, the person may not be here.”

After hearing this, Pang Whale’s mind went blank for a moment.

Jing Yao saw his sudden change of expression of bitterness and hatred, and shook his head speechlessly and said: “It is now eleven-fifteen, there are still fifteen minutes before the access control, and there are still forty-five minutes until Boss Qi’s birthday is over, you can think about it yourself.”

He patted Pang Whale on the shoulder, opened the door and walked into the dormitory. He found that his good brother was awake and looking at him with his head propped up. He was startled. He immediately climbed onto the bed and hugged him, patted him, and told him to continue sleeping.

“You smoked again?” Jing He’s voice was cold, but also had a little nasal sound as if he had just woken up.

“No, it was Pang Jing who smoked it.” Jing Yao joked casually, hugged him and patted him, “He was having trouble with Boss Qi and was upset. I advised him that it smells like cigarette smoke. Go to sleep.”

“Really?”

“Of course, how can I lie to you? Go to bed quickly.”

The two chatted in small words, Jing Yao coaxed him to sleep, and Pang Jing also came in from the balcony, staring at the box on his desk. Jing He’s alarm clock in the bedroom ticked, minute by minute, reminding him of the passage of time.

His heart was beating like a drum, Jing Yao’s words kept echoing in his ears, and his heartbeat seemed to slowly coincide with the rhythm of the second hand, and then gradually faster than the second, until finally it would break the limit.

Finally he couldn’t stand it anymore, so he picked up the box and ran out.

Jing Yao glanced down when he heard the movement, raised the corners of his mouth, and let out a long sigh of relief. It seemed that his words were not in vain.

For more than a month, Pang Jing squatted on the balcony whenever he had free time to work on his box of paints. He bought a lot of lapis lazuli, ocher, malachite, and hammered and polished there every day. Several copies of the paint were scrapped and he also got a huge tan. If he hadn’t been more fond of woodblock painting, Gao Lu would have asked Jing He to grind a box for him. But it’s such a pity that such a thoughtful gift would not be delivered to anyone!

Fortunately, although people are a little stupid, they still listen to advice.

“Why are you laughing?” Jing He was not asleep. He poked his head out of his brother’s arms and found Jing Yao smiling like an old uncle.

“I’m laughing at you. Go back if you don’t sleep. I can sleep alone without being so crowded!” Jing Yao slapped his brother’s butt hard. After saying this, his brother closed his eyes and fell into a coma at the speed of light. He also hugged his brother until he couldn’t move.

Pang Jing rushed all the way, but he didn’t expect to run into Liang Yuansheng pestering Qi Zhixuan. Fortunately, he came. To this day, he still regrets not leaving with Qi Zhixuan at night.

Qi Zhixuan changed his clothes and sat on the edge of the bed. Pang Jing moved to stand next to the bed with him like a shadow.

“What’s wrong?” Qi Zhixuan looked at him with his head raised. This man didn’t say a word when he came. He walked wherever he went, as if he was standing still.

Pang Jing had a lot of words in his heart, but when he met Qi Zhixuan’s eyes, he didn’t know how to speak. He turned his head away, not daring to look directly, and dug his fingers into each other unconsciously.

Qi Zhixuan sighed softly. His body was a little tired and his heart was a little annoyed. He didn’t understand why he just didn’t speak.

Forcibly suppressing the irritation in his heart, he could only try to keep his tone as calm as possible: “Pang Jing, if you don’t tell me, I won’t know what you are thinking. This can’t solve any problem.” He paused and asked again, “You have been avoiding me like this and not talking to me. I want to ask you, do you mean to break up with me?”

After hearing what he said, Pang Jing felt as if his heart had been stabbed by a needle. He explained in pain and panic, “No, I’m not. I don’t want to break up.”

“Why is that?” Qi Zhixuan asked.

The look on Pang Jing’s face turned painful for a moment, “I… I just can’t control myself. I know you are going back to Haicheng to study, and you may have to go back to work in the future. Haicheng… Haicheng is very good, and your family is also very good. I’m afraid you won’t come back, and I’m afraid you won’t leave because of me. As long as I’m around you, I always want to… want to tie you up. I know it’s not good for me to do this. I shouldn’t influence you. I should respect your ideas… but I… I don’t know what to do…”

He spoke incoherently, and in the end, his head bowed deeply. He stood in front of Qi Zhixuan, as if he was admitting his mistake, and as if he had lost all his strength.

Qi Zhixuan was stunned.He thought about many possibilities, whether he was too clingy when getting along, or Pang Whale was under too much pressure, or there were some details that he didn’t notice.

But I never thought that it was because of this. After talking a lot, the fool ended up thinking about the drama of bread or love.

“So you are avoiding me because you think you will affect my decision?” Qi Zhixuan asked him.

Pang Whale said nothing and continued to hang his head.

“Do you think you can influence me?” Qi Zhixuan suddenly became serious.

Pang Whale raised his head, met his gaze, and said hesitantly: “I…I…”

“Of course you can.” Qi Zhixuan interrupted him with a firm voice, “From the moment you appeared in my life, from the moment you came to me, from the moment we stood together, you have already influenced me.”

“So, do you want to withdraw this influence?” Qi Zhixuan looked at him and said, but did not wait for his answer.

“Forget it, I can’t take it back. What you said is not a problem at all.” Qi Zhixuan didn’t know whether it was because of drinking, but he felt that his emotions were a bit uncontrollable, and he was very angry at Pang Jing’s idea.

“First of all, I have only been back to study in Haicheng for a year. Because you are still in school, and I have nothing to do for the time being, so I haven’t thought of the follow-up plan yet. But if you want to arrange it in advance, we can also discuss it, but you didn’t. You didn’t say anything, just thought about it alone, didn’t communicate, and avoided me. Do you think this is the right way to deal with the problem?”

Question after question fell on Pang Jing’s heart, and his head that had just been raised lowered again, like a puppy that had done something wrong, like an aggrieved kitten, or like those children who had tried their best but still failed to get good grades.

The room suddenly became very quiet, and then I realized that it had started raining outside the window at some point. Summer rain always seemed to appear in an instant, very urgent and fierce. It crashed on the window and splashed water marks like the tail of a comet. This force also hit the hearts of the two of them, and no one felt comfortable.

Qi Zhixuan looked at the frustrated big boy in front of him, and then remembered how high-spirited he was in the water, and his heart suddenly softened.

If you fall in love with someone, will you become afraid and cowardly?

It shouldn’t be like this.

“Come here.” Qi Zhixuan sat on the edge of the bed and suddenly opened his hands.

Pang Whale suddenly raised his head, Qi Zhixuan’s eyes were very gentle, rushing over like a clear spring. He was a little at a loss, and his heart suddenly beat very fast.

“Hurry up.” Qi Zhixuan urged again.

This time he didn’t hesitate at all. He quickly stepped forward, lowered his body, and hugged Qi Zhixuan’s waist tightly.

Pang Jing sat on his knees on the ground, his whole body buried in Qi Zhixuan’s waist, as if he was immersed in a hot spring with abundant vegetation under the moonlight, greedily smelling his favorite fragrance.

“I’m sorry, Xiaoyu.” Qi Zhixuan felt that he was much calmer. He touched the furry head in his arms, and suddenly his heart felt astringent.

When Pang Whale heard this sorry sentence, he raised his head from his arms and wanted to say something back, but was stopped again.

Qi Zhixuan’s index finger gently pressed on his lips, and then said: “Is it because I don’t give you a sense of security enough, that’s why you are so nervous, I think it will be difficult for you to stay by your side.”

Qi Zhixuan looked at him, the corners of his lips slowly curved into a gentle arc, and his fingers carefully stroked his cheek. In fact, there was nothing that he could not leave behind. Without Pang Whale, he might still be stuck in the past and unable to get out, so when he was thinking about the future, every outcome would inevitably surround Pang Whale.

“Xiaoyu, we may have a lot of problems together, but don’t think about it. You just need to know that I will always choose you willingly, you know.”

Making the choice willingly, Pang Jing blinked at him obediently, repeating these words in his heart, feeling that his hands were so gentle, as if all the uneasiness and entanglements were smoothed away in an instant.

“Well…” Pang Jing stuffed his head into his arms and answered in a muffled voice. His arms tightened. Qi Zhixuan was almost out of breath, but he still hugged him back and patted his back gently.

“What a fool.” Qi Zhixuan smiled and pinched his exposed ears.

“That’s right.” Pang Whale suddenly jumped up, startling everyone, and then took out a wooden box tied with a ribbon from his clothes.

“This… is a birthday gift.” Pang Jing held the box in both hands, with a hint of nervousness and expectation in his eyes. He quickly glanced at the clock on the wall. It was 11:57, and there was still time.

Qi Zhixuan took it and opened it to see a row of exquisite small porcelain bottles.

“I polished it myself, and it may not be as delicate as the ones sold, but I have tried many methods, and manual work can only go so far…”

The porcelain bottles contain various mineral pigments, with fine powder and pure colors.

Qi Zhixuan has been painting for so many years, and of course he knows that it is very troublesome to do this. Moreover, Pang Jing is not an art major and has no experience. He doesn’t know how much time and energy he spent to achieve this kind of quality.

This person is so stupid. He is always so kind to others. Who would be willing to leave him?

“Why is it so good? Are you an angel?” Qi Zhixuan put down the things, held his face and kissed him from side to side.

Even though they were already so close, Pang Jing suddenly felt embarrassed when he praised her like this. His ears turned red from being kissed and he shrank back in embarrassment.

Qi Zhixuan refused, straddling him from the edge of the bed and kissing him on his lap, his eyebrows, eyes and lips…

It had been too long since he had been so close. Pang Whale’s kiss made Pang Whale breathless and his chest heaved violently. During the interval of breathing, he saw from the corner of his eye that the hands of the clock were about to point to zero, and he quickly hugged the person and separated them slightly.

“Xiao Xuan…” His voice was hoarse, with a lingering breath, and he whispered against Qi Zhixuan’s ear at the last second when zero o’clock arrived:

“Happy birthday.”

The moment the clock reached zero, his kiss fell again, domineering and lingering, integrating all his longing, anxiety and cherishment into this long kiss.The heavy rain outside the window was still falling, but the warmth inside was surrounding the two people hugging each other tightly.