SYLM Chapter 65

Chapter 65 “Can we not end here?”

Chapter 65 “Can we not end here?”

Since entering the third year of high school, high fevers, severe colds, and migraines have become commonplace for Chen Lu, but no matter how severe they were, she never asked for leave. Why is she asking for leave today?

She was so eloquent in the office at noon.

Gu Wan Jun pursed her lips into a straight line, her eyes revealing a hint of seriousness.

The class bell rang on time, and the first class in the afternoon for Class 12 was Politics.

Tang Ying, who was preparing to enter the class to teach, and Gu Wan Jun, who was about to leave, bumped into each other at the classroom door.

“Watch where you’re going, you almost killed me.”

Tang Ying clicked her tongue lightly, rolled her eyes at Gu Wan Jun with a cold face, but the other person said perfunctorily, “Sorry, didn’t see you,” and turned to leave.

“Where are you going in such a hurry?”

“Something came up.”

Something came up? What could be so urgent?

Tang Ying drew a question mark in her mind, but when she looked up again, Gu Wan Jun’s figure had already gone some distance away and disappeared around the corner of the corridor the next second.

Not turning left to go upstairs, but turning right to exit the teaching building.

Leaving work right after starting? Gu Wan Jun must have a screw loose.

Whatever, even if this person is so exhausted from being a homeroom teacher that she skips work, she can smooth things over for her if it really gets investigated. It’s a small matter.

Thinking that class was important, Tang Ying didn’t get distracted and turned to enter the class.

After standing in front of the podium, Tang Ying asked the students to take out the comprehensive liberal arts paper that hadn’t been finished yesterday and asked the Literature Representative to check who didn’t have it.

While Fu Yi Wen was checking, Tang Ying broke off a piece of chalk to copy the multiple-choice answers onto the blackboard, but when she turned her head, she inadvertently glanced at the absence column in the upper right corner of the blackboard, which had Chen Lu’s name on it.

Chen Lu didn’t come today?

That’s not right, that little follower was there during class this morning, and she even had her get up to analyze the materials.

Looking at the empty seat in the third row by the window, Tang Ying threw the half-piece of chalk into the chalk box after writing the multiple-choice answers, and lightly tapped the podium with her fingers, a half-smile on her face.

No wonder Gu Wan Jun was in such a hurry to leave school just now, this all adds up, doesn’t it?

Fu Yi Wen, who had finished checking whether all the students had their papers, was about to report to Tang Ying that two people couldn’t find their papers and whether she should get two more copies from the office, but before she could get close, she saw the undisguised joy on Tang Ying’s face.

As if she had thought of something, Fu Yi Wen’s heart bubbled with jealousy, and the corners of her mouth, which had just turned up, immediately drooped.

Isn’t she usually cold-faced? What happened today that made her so happy, she’s smiling so much that her eyes are almost gone!

Could it be because of that Jiang guy!?

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Rose Garden. 301.

The leave of absence message that she @Gu Wan Jun in the group sent, once sent was never read. Chen Lu who was busy drilling through questions didn’t really care.

If she wasn’t glancing at her phone every two minutes… no, she should say every less than a minute.

She didn’t purposely ask for leave. She understands the importance of every minute before the college entrance exam. It was just that the conversation at noon had given her a great emotional impact in some ways. Although some of Gu Wan Jun’s reactions made her very satisfied, even secretly pleased, after coming out of the office, she couldn’t help but feel a sense of sadness and loneliness suppressed in her heart.

Gu Wan Jun likes her, but that coward doesn’t dare to admit her own heart, and doesn’t believe her, she treats her like a child, and doesn’t believe her feelings at all.

On the way home, the more Chen Lu thought about it, the worse she felt. As soon as she entered the community, the old problem of migraines, though late, came knocking on her door. After taking medicine at home, the headache symptoms were relieved a lot, but she hadn’t sorted out her chaotic emotions and mood.

Well, she wouldn’t be able to concentrate in class if she went to school anyway, so she might as well take the afternoon off to do some practice questions, and take a good rest to adjust her emotions, and then make other plans later.

That’s what Chen Lu thought when she decided to send a leave of absence message to the group.

But it’s been almost twenty minutes since she pressed the send button, and Gu Wan Jun still hasn’t replied to her.

Could it be that she is busy and hasn’t looked at her phone?

Chen Lu sighed and decided to concentrate on doing the questions and stop getting distracted. She had just turned her phone screen face down on the table when there was a burst of urgent knocking on the door.

From seeing the leave of absence message Chen Lu sent in the group, to hesitating for less than two seconds before leaving the school, and now knocking on Chen Lu’s door, Gu Wan Jun could clearly feel that she wasn’t calm, not calm at all.

She even felt that she sometimes seemed to have completely changed into a different person, doing things that she would never have done before.

And these abnormal emotions and behaviors only appeared frequently when facing Chen Lu.

This is nothing like her at all.

While her thoughts were racing, the door opened.

When Chen Lu saw that the person standing outside the door was Gu Wan Jun, a look of surprise flashed in her eyes. Honestly, she didn’t expect Gu Wan Jun to come to her door directly.

Seeing that the person who came looked fierce and imposing, with none of her usual gentleness, Chen Lu’s heart pounded, but she maintained a calm and composed appearance on the surface:

“I asked you for leave in the WeChat group.”

“What’s wrong? Where do you feel unwell?”

“I had a bit of a migraine earlier, and I’ve taken medicine.”

Hearing this, Gu Wan Jun carefully looked Chen Lu up and down, confirming that the other person didn’t seem to be uncomfortable at the moment, and only then did she secretly breathe a sigh of relief in her heart, but she replied in a stubborn tone, “I didn’t agree.”

“What?”

“I said I didn’t agree to you taking leave.”

Chen Lu was choked for a moment, and her tone was a bit helpless: “You didn’t reply to my message, I thought you tacitly agreed.”

“I didn’t reply to you in the group, why didn’t you send me a private message again?”

“The teacher wants to avoid suspicion, why should I go looking for trouble?”

“So in the future, you don’t plan to discuss anything with me, and my opinions and attitudes are not important to you anymore, is that right? This time it’s asking for leave, what will it be next time?”

The words blurted out, and Gu Wan Jun really wanted to wrap tape around her mouth a couple of times.

What on earth is she saying!?

But it was also until that sentence was asked that Gu Wan Jun realized the reason why she was so uncalm.

As long as Chen Lu wants, she seems to be able to decisively and cleanly peel anyone out of her life at any time.

This also includes Gu Wan Jun.

Just thinking about this, Gu Wan Jun felt as if her heart was being pierced by thousands of needles.

She couldn’t accept Chen Lu excluding her, and she couldn’t stand Chen Lu not caring about her, no matter how small a matter, as long as it was related to Chen Lu, she wanted to be involved.

What kind of feeling is this?

What kind of feeling would make her have such almost crazy jealousy and possessiveness towards Chen Lu?

Gu Wan Jun subconsciously wanted to shield some kind of idea that shouldn’t exist in her brain, just like she used to, but she didn’t know that some kind of emotion that had been locked in her heart and deliberately not delved into had long been hidden in her gaze every time she looked at Chen Lu.

In Chen Lu’s opinion, Gu Wan Jun’s series of reactions at the moment were simply unreasonable and extremely awkward.

She was the one who left first, she was the one who took the initiative to avoid suspicion, and she was the one who even hid her true feelings, but now she actually came to her door to “interrogate” her?

Chen Lu likes Gu Wan Jun, but she can’t stand this kind of ambiguous “ambiguity” that is neither near nor far.

“If the teacher came to confirm the reason for my leave of absence, then she has already seen it. If there’s nothing else, please leave.”

“Wait a minute.” Gu Wan Jun took a step forward and held the door, her tone urgent: “You haven’t answered my question just now.”

The back of her left head started to ache faintly again, causing Chen Lu to furrow her brows slightly. She didn’t understand what Gu Wan Jun wanted to do: “What do you want me to answer?”

“I treat you like a younger sister, wouldn’t it be nice for us to get along like sisters like before?”

“Sisters?” Chen Lu tugged at the corners of her somewhat stiff mouth, “I’ll say it again, ask yourself, do you really treat me like a sister?”

“I…” Gu Wan Jun’s throat was dry, and her mouth, which was usually eloquent, couldn’t say a word at this moment.

“Gu Wan Jun, I have never treated you like an older sister.”

A calm and firm sentence, which made the last string in Gu Wan Jun’s mind snap. She just listened to the little girl state her attitude word by word, sincerely and firmly:

“The college entrance exam is coming up soon, I understand your concerns and bottom line, I have never thought of making things difficult for you, and now I implore you not to make things difficult for me. If you really only treat me like a younger sister, then there’s no need for us to torture each other anymore, it’s not good for either of us, let’s just end it here.”

Chen Lu said this very resolutely, with no room for maneuver.

In fact, it was precisely because Chen Lu understood Gu Wan Jun’s character, knowing that the other party, as a teacher, would definitely not violate her moral bottom line, that she said the most heartless words.

As for whether there was a gambling element in these words, gambling that Gu Wan Jun cared about her more than her inner concerns, gambling that Gu Wan Jun dared to be brave once and reveal her true feelings, gambling that Gu Wan Jun was reluctant to lose her just like that…

Honestly, Chen Lu didn’t have the courage to imagine it at all. Her voice couldn’t help but tremble when she said that sentence “Let’s just end it here.”

Less than a second of silence felt like an eternity. Chen Lu felt like she was suffocating, and she felt her legs getting weak. So when Gu Wan Jun suddenly took half a step forward and pushed her in, she wasn’t prepared at all and almost didn’t stand firm.

The door slammed shut, shaking two fragile hearts.

“Don’t end it here.”

Chen Lu heard Gu Wan Jun say.

“Can we not end it here?”

“…”

Eyes met, those peach blossom eyes that usually looked like they contained spring water were now like a lake shrouded in mist in winter, seemingly calm and composed, but with too many unspeakable emotions surging beneath the surface. A silent but strong sadness surged like a tide, about to drown Chen Lu, who was reflected in her eyes.

The eyes that revealed the most emotions were being stared at, and some words couldn’t be said no matter what. Before Chen Lu could speak, Gu Wan Jun took half a step forward on her own, and her hands gently stroked the back of the person in front of her, giving the little girl an extremely restrained hug, her voice hoarse and muffled:

“Chen Lu, I know there are many things between us that can’t be sorted out. These things are all too sudden, and my heart is very chaotic right now, so I can’t give you a precise answer. Can you give me some more time? Let’s talk about the problems between us after the college entrance exam, okay?”

Gu Wan Jun’s overly gentle tone almost made Chen Lu burst into tears.

She knew that this was the maximum answer that Gu Wan Jun could give at the moment.

This was the kind of answer she wanted.

Chen Lu wasn’t an ignorant child, and she never expected Gu Wan Jun to immediately accept her feelings. She just hoped that Gu Wan Jun could face her intentions squarely, face her own intentions squarely, and not avoid them blindly.

Fortunately, she won the bet.

—

In the last few months before the college entrance exam, time seemed to be wound up tightly, and every minute and every second passed quickly like an hourglass.

After that conversation, Gu Wan Jun moved back to Rose Garden. There was no further intimacy between her and Chen Lu, nor was there any deliberate alienation. Everything was developing naturally.

In early April, Gu Wan Rong, who had been pregnant for ten months, finally reached her due date.

With the college entrance exam imminent, the homeroom teacher of the third year of high school was so busy that she wished she could hit the back of her head with her feet. Gu Wan Jun knew that asking for leave now could be described as harder than climbing to the sky, but she didn’t want to miss her sister’s important moment.

When Gu Wan Rong was in labor, Gu Wan Jun found Tang Ying to help her substitute for two days, and then she insisted on begging the school leaders to grant her two days of leave.

Yunjiang City.

Outside the operating room, the moment the doctor announced that the operation was successful and that the mother and daughter were safe, everyone in the corridor breathed a sigh of relief and couldn’t help but burst into tears.

Not to mention Gu’s father and mother, their daughter was an elderly mother, and they were responsible for taking care of the pregnant woman every day, so they saw and felt how much she suffered from pregnancy to childbirth;

Watching her closest relative being pushed onto the operating table, Gu Wan Jun’s hands and feet were cold the whole time, and her legs were so weak that she couldn’t stand. She kept praying in her heart that the operation must go smoothly. When she heard that her sister was fine, she realized that the corners of her eyes had already become wet at some point;

Zhou Hai Bin, the husband of Gu Wan Rong, who had been pacing back and forth at the door of the operating room, a tough guy with an iron backbone of 1.8 meters, also rarely had tears in his eyes after repeatedly confirming several times that his wife was really safe…

The child was taken out first, weighing 6.6 pounds, a fair and lovely little girl.

According to Gu Wan Rong’s wishes before entering the operating room, Gu Wan Jun became the first person to hold the baby.

“Ah? Let me hold her? Or should my brother-in-law do it?”

“Let Wan Jun do it, this is what your sister specifically told me before entering the operating room, she wants you to be the first person to hold the baby.”

“…”

Since the child’s father had said so, Gu Wan Jun had no choice but to nervously rub the corners of her clothes and cautiously took her little niece from the nurse’s hands.

The newborn little girl’s thin skin covered her blood vessels, with delicate arms and legs. Gu Wan Jun didn’t dare to use any force when holding her, for fear of breaking the little porcelain doll in her arms. Holding this child made her even more nervous than when she took the college entrance exam that year.

Blood is really a wonderful thing. From the moment she saw the child, Gu Wan Jun felt that she loved her so much.

This is her sister’s long-awaited precious daughter, her little niece. This child has some of the same blood flowing in her body as her, and she will cherish this child for the rest of her life.

After holding her carefully for a while, the child was taken away by the nurse and sent to the incubator. A few minutes later, the door of the operating room opened, and Gu Wan Rong’s hospital bed was pushed out.

After asking the doctor and obtaining permission, Gu Wan Jun gently held her sister’s hand on the hospital bed with red eyes.

“Sister, you’ve worked hard.”

“Silly sister, what are you crying for? Have you seen the baby?”

“I’ve seen her, she’s so small, very beautiful and cute, and I was the first person to hold her.”

“Well, I hope she can be as smart and cute as her beautiful aunt in the future, and just as likable.”

Gu Wan Rong smiled, her body was still very weak after giving birth, and at the doctor’s suggestion, she was soon pushed back to the ward to arrange for good recuperation and recovery.

With the matter of her sister’s childbirth settled, Gu Wan Jun got up early the next morning to catch the high-speed rail back to Ningcheng.

When she arrived in Ningcheng, it was already afternoon. Gu Wan Jun went to the comprehensive liberal arts office to find Tang Ying to understand the class situation in the past two days, but as soon as she entered, she saw Fu Yi Wen squatting on the ground checking the papers.

“You’re back.”

“Yeah, thank you for helping me substitute for the past two days.”

“How’s your sister?”

“Mother and daughter are safe, the little one is so cute.”

Mentioning her little niece, Gu Wan Jun smiled tenderly, and the fatigue gathered between her brows after the long journey faded a lot.

The two briefly discussed the situation of Class 12 in the past two days, and after a while, the topic turned back to the child.

When she heard Tang Ying say something similar to how she didn’t plan to get married or have children in the future, before Gu Wan Jun could express her position, the corners of Fu Yi Wen’s mouth, who was squatting on the ground checking the papers not far away, were almost grinning to the back of her ears.

She knew it, what Jiang guy, what roses, all for naught!

When school was over that evening, on the way home, Gu Wan Jun kept telling Chen Lu how cute her sister’s child was. Chen Lu listened attentively, as if that fair and lovely little face was right in front of her.

“Although you can’t tell what the child is like when she’s just born, I don’t know why, but I just feel like she’s especially close to me. You don’t even know, she—”

When she got to the entrance of the community, her gentle and cheerful voice stopped abruptly. Chen Lu blinked her eyes and turned her head to look at Gu Wan Jun, only to find that she was turning her head to look behind her, not knowing what she was looking at.

“What’s wrong? What are you looking at?”

“It’s nothing, I must have seen it wrong.”

Gu Wan Jun said this, but her gaze continued to stare intently behind her for a few seconds before turning back to look at Chen Lu.

“Right, where was I just now?”

“You were saying how cute Duoduo is.”

“Oh, right, you didn’t see her little appearance, she’s really especially cute. When there’s a chance in the future, I’ll take you to see her.”

“…”

In the future.

Gu Wan Jun was talking to her about the future.

A gentle breeze brushed her face, and the temperature of the night breeze in April was just right, blowing on her heart, which was itchy and very comfortable.

Everything seemed to be developing in a good direction.