Nanke Yifu Chapter 59
byA smile comes naturally (2)
Yan Laixi really wanted to stay paralyzed at home all day, and he knew that even if he made this trip, it would most likely be in vain, but he still relied on the thought of “If it’s too late, Chi Fu will go home, and he would have missed it if he could have encountered it.” He forced himself to pack up and go out quickly.
He didn’t know whether Chi Fu’s shop would still be open on the first day of the new year, or he didn’t know how Chi Fu would spend the New Year without him.
He might be at home alone, he might ask friends to go out to play, or he might go to his parents’ house together – Yan Laixi later took the initiative to contact Chi Huan, and the other party promised him not to reveal the existence of “Yan Laixi” to Chi Fu, so he didn’t have to worry about exposing the secret.
Chi Huan did not apologize to him on behalf of anyone, which made Yan Lai breathe a sigh of relief, but Chi Huan thanked him and said he had wronged him.
There is obviously nothing to be thanked for, and nothing to feel aggrieved about.Everything is your own choice.
In short, Yan Laixi didn’t think Chi Fu, with his lively temperament, would still go to work honestly on the first day of the new year. He originally planned to go out for a walk, check to make sure no one was there, then go back and come back tomorrow.
But he saw today’s recommendations written on the small blackboard hanging on the door, which meant it was open for business.The glass reflected light, and it was difficult to see clearly the figure inside. Yan Laixi’s breath was still stagnant.
A sincere relationship is never so easy to let go of.But life has to go on, you have to accept what you should accept, and you have to get used to what you are not used to.It’s just that the body has learned how to deal with it, and the brain knows how to protect itself.However, even the strongest armor has gaps, and a small ball of cotton wool drifting in from the gaps can make people unable to ignore it.
Yan Laixi checked the business hours and walked into a store opposite. Instead of sitting by the window, he chose a seat relatively inward but where he could see the entrance of the unique bar opposite.
He wanted to wait until it was about to close, but he was worried that Chi Fu would suddenly want to leave early, so he didn’t dare to go anywhere else.
After eating something, sitting for a while, I went to the stationery store next door and bought a pen and a notepad. I opened a page and wrote a few lines, then tore it off, folded it and put it in my pocket.
You need to be able to see the store entrance at all times, but you can’t always hang around the door like a suspicious person.We persisted until the sky was completely dark, and we were almost freezing.
“Hello? Are you still open?” Yan Laixi opened the store door and leaned half in.This is the first time he has been here only as a customer.
“Of course.” Chi Fu asked with a smile on his face and bright eyes, as if his expectations had come true, “Would you like a hot drink?”
Yan Laixi was stunned for a moment, nodded, came in, closed the door, and found a seat at the bar to sit down.
Chi Fu didn’t ask him what he wanted, but directly made a cup of hot cocoa. After asking, he handed it over and said it was for him.
“You are so beautiful. I have noticed you for a long time.” He held his chin and sat on the other side of the bar. He praised him without hesitation and did not hide his affection for this “stranger”. “Are you waiting for someone?”
“Yes.” Yan Laixi picked up the cup, took a sip, and put his wrist back on the table. He had already made up his words, “But he had some temporary problems and couldn’t come.”
“Aren’t you angry?” Chi Fu asked.
“No.” Yan Laixi said, “It’s indeed an emergency, but it’s a bit of a pity. We originally agreed to go to the river together to watch the night view.”
The little fish in the pond was intoxicated by beauty and forgot about the sinister nature of people’s hearts. He took the bait and felt that he was lucky: “How about I go with you? I have to get off work anyway, and there is nothing to do when I go back.”
Sure enough, Chi Fu still had that kind of affection for him that he didn’t know the source of, and he was able to quickly let go of his guard against him.
“Okay.” Yan Laixi said, “If it’s convenient for you.”
Chi Fu hummed a song, packed up quickly, put up a small sign saying business was closed in advance, and asked Yan Laixi, “Where are we going?”
“Just around here.” Yan Laixi said.He didn’t know where he was going, he just wanted to take a walk with Chi Fu, it would be best if he could delay it longer.
Chi Fu disagreed and asked, “Where did you originally plan to go?”
“Originally…” Yan Laixi thought for a while and asked, “It’s a bit far, is that okay?”
Chi Fu nodded.
“I want to go to Chaoyi.”
Although the most lively night has passed, the aftertaste of the New Year is still there. The performances on the water-friendly platform came one after another. The two of them sat on the steps and watched for a while, feeling a little cold before continuing to walk along the river.
“You haven’t had dinner either, right?” Chi Fu looked at the stalls on the roadside, his eyes shining, “Want to buy some snacks?”
Yan Laixi smiled and said, “You can buy it yourself, I’m not hungry.”
Chi Fu was probably really hungry, so he told Yan Laixi to wait for him, then ran to buy a bunch of them, and even gave Yan Laixi a piece of grilled sausage.
“The last time I came here was many years ago. I was still in school at that time, and it was also evening. It was rare for me to come out to play. As a result, I had an assignment that I had to turn in, and I had to go back to catch up on it…”
He always seemed to have something to say, and he didn’t know whether it was like this with everyone, or just when he was with Yan Laixi, although to Chi Fu now, Yan Laixi was just a stranger.
The two of them walked along the river bank and saw children lying on the bank, trying to use small nets to catch fish in the holes in the ice. They bought a piece of bread, tore off part of it and fed it to the pigeons, and ate the rest. They looked at the map and found a small park next to it, so they walked around it again.It was late at night, and there were no lights or people in the park. Chi Fu suddenly let go of his natural instincts and ran up the rockery. He saw Yan Laixi looking up at him from below, and raised his hand to gesture, asking Yan Laixi if he wanted to come up and try too.
Yan Laixi shook his head and told him to be careful not to miss the mark when he came down.
Chi Fu said that he also wanted to go for a walk by the river.
In fact, there was nothing to see anymore. Chi Fu had previously asked if he wanted to take a group photo, but Yan Laixi put him off. He had seen the scenery and taken pictures. He and the pigeons had already filled their stomachs, so they just walked around and chatted in the cold wind.
Chi Fu hit him, and Yan Laixi looked at the time. It was already late. The people around him seemed to be in good spirits, but it was hard to tell whether it was really not time to go to bed, or whether they were having fun and were energetic.
“Can I say goodbye to you first?” Yan Laixi asked.
Chi Fu stopped, winked at him, and asked, “Why do we have to say goodbye first?”
“I’m afraid we’ll be scattered by the crowd and won’t have time to say anything.”
Obviously the street has gradually become deserted and no longer crowded.
“Just shout…that’s right.” Chi Fu suddenly remembered, “I don’t know your name yet. I also forgot to tell you my name. My name is Chi Fu.”
“Nan Ke.” Yan Laixi said, “My name is Nan Ke, the Nan Ke of Nan Ke Yimeng.”
Continuing to walk along the river bank, Yan Laixi was always half a step behind and quietly put the note into Chi Fu’s coat pocket.Until Chi Fu no longer looked back frequently, no longer raised various topics from all over the world, no longer cooperated with Yan Laixi’s pace, and deliberately slowed down.
Yan Laixi stopped where he was, watching him walk away silently and calmly like every passerby.
“Goodbye, Chi Fu.”
The lights on both sides of the river bank were dim, and the dark water reflected the tranquility of the world, unable to steal the spotlight from the stars.
In the new year, Yan Laixi is preparing to change jobs. The new job will earn less than before, and he will have less time than before. He even has to go to bed early and get up early, but the money is enough to spend. He also has some savings, and it is good to spend time with his brothers and sisters every day.
Just like the name of Nanke, the new work that suddenly arrived is also the final work – “Su”.
The wind that must exist in the protagonist’s name is gone, replaced by flowing water that no one can detect.
It’s obvious that we love each other, and it’s obvious that neither of us is wrong.Love that is destined to never end well, where is my place?
My place may be in the not-too-distant future, it may be right in front of me, or it may always be around me.
Just like Yan Laixi found Fengsu, just like Yan Laixi always has a home that he can go back to at any time, just like Yan Laixi has been loved by someone from beginning to end.
For a love that is destined to never end well, only letting go is the best choice. How should we deal with the traces left behind?
The traces left behind are either treasured, buried, or seem to disappear, but in fact they are evaporated lake water that will eventually return to its origin, and they are insects in amber that will not decay for thousands of years.
It’s like paper carrying fate and love, like memories that can’t be forgotten, instinct that can’t be erased, like Nan Ke and Chi Fu staying in that past together.