Nanke Yifu Chapter 31
byLiving in the Wind and Staying in the Rain (3)
“The you in my dream…” Yan Laixi cleared his throat and said, “In each different dream, the past experience, the situation at that time, and the relationship between us will be different, which means that you in each dream are not exactly the same.”
“But there will be the same places, such as…”
“Is anyone here?”
A female voice interrupted the conversation, and Feng Su then remembered that there was a little guest who was locked in a cage outside, waiting for his parents to pick him up. He let go of Yan Laixi’s hand, motioned for him to wait, and got up to go out.
Looking at the leaving figure, Yan Laixi suddenly changed his mind.
He originally wanted to say, for example, although you always look so gentle and talkative, in fact you will not back down on anything that will affect your ability to achieve your goals.Just like you can allow me to take medicine without eating, or allow me not to go to the hospital temporarily, but you will definitely not agree to me not eating, taking medicine, or going to the hospital, even if I am just a stranger you picked up from the roadside, because your “purpose” in this matter is to make me get better.
But when Feng Su sat back on his bed, Yan Laixi said, “For example, although you always appear to be gentle and talkative on the surface, in fact you don’t have that good of a temper, and you are frighteningly controlling. You also like to declare your sovereignty.”
He deliberately made his words ambiguous and vague, hoping to see the other party’s reaction.
A little surprised?Or do you frown?
However, Feng Su just kept that smile that was somewhat sincere and said, “Mr. Yan, even though I know that my words can’t change your mind, I think I still need to remind you again that you are not dreaming now.”
“No matter what your psychology is, what you want to test.” Yan Laixi’s words made him a little disgusted, not because of the content, nor because he thought the other party was frivolous. He said, “Please don’t treat me as someone who will automatically disappear as soon as you wake up.”
Yan Laixi shrugged and said: “No, besides, my dreams are not all one-time, and they can be repeated occasionally. Don’t call me that, just call me by my name. So, do you want to continue listening now?”
“Yes.” Feng Su nodded, “If you are willing to continue talking.”
“For another example, although you have great insight, a few words, a few actions, and a little bit of information can allow you to guess the whole story, but sometimes you are unexpectedly careless.” Yan Laixi looked around symbolically and said, “It’s like you haven’t even thought of telling me where this is.”
The person opposite was obviously stunned for a moment, smiled apologetically, and said, “I forgot in my hurry. This is my own store, not far from where I met you. You fell asleep. I don’t know where your home is, and I can’t just leave you there, so I brought you here first.”
Are you asleep? Yan Laixi thought. He felt that the word “fainted” would be more appropriate.
“Actually, you could just leave me there or call the police.”
No Fengsu he knew was nosy…well, to put it mildly, he was willing to help others to the point of casually picking up unconscious strangers he met on the roadside.
“Of course I thought about calling the police,” Feng Su said, “but I was afraid that I would be regarded as a pervert who had committed evil and got lost in the middle of it. Besides, the state you were in before you fell asleep… If the matter is not clear yet, you wake up and ask me if I have forgotten you again, like you are a heartless person. The more you describe it, the darker it will be.”
Yan Lai smiled faintly and said, “Ignore my silly words, just say that I saw someone on the roadside. It’s not you who knocked me out. By bringing me back like this, aren’t you afraid that I will blackmail you?”
Feng Su sighed lightly and said helplessly: “But it was indeed me who knocked you down.”
Under the doubtful eyes of the other party, he opened the phone and handed the abnormal information displayed on it to the person.
“My abnormality is soothing. Through touch, I can calm people or animals.” He thought for a while, and then said: “It’s a bit like a sedative? I can control the effect of soothing. The stronger the effect, the less awake the other person will be, unresponsive, confused, or even comatose. Looking at it this way, it may be more like a drug.”
Yan Laixi thought of the sudden sense of security he felt just now. Was that also Feng Su’s abnormality?
He looked at the time and saw that it was already noon. Since he didn’t faint before, but the other party’s abnormality made him fall asleep, could it be that the dream did not appear because of the abnormality?
“You’re awake too, and you don’t seem to be trying to blackmail me. It’s nothing serious. You just have a fever and you haven’t gone to the hospital yet.” Feng Su asked, “Where is your home? Shall I take you back?”
Suddenly he learned that he had been appearing in another person’s dream. Moreover, according to the other person’s description, the person in the dream probably had more than just the same appearance and name as him. If it were someone else, he would have tried every means to detain the person, suspected that he was being targeted by some strange person, or pestered the other person to understand this magical fate. Unfortunately, Feng Su was not that cautious, and his curiosity ended here.
In other words, for him, his curiosity about this person was abnormally high.
“I don’t have a place to go back to.” Yan Laixi asked in a somewhat unskilled manner with a hint of pity, “Are you still short of manpower here? Or can you rent this room to me? And I have something to ask you.”
“Yan Laixi, can I call you that?” Feng Su crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair. His expression suddenly became cold and he said, “Your dream is quite accurate. I really don’t have such a good temper. Now, do you want to verify whether the facts I guessed through the information in your words are accurate?”
Yan Laixi said nothing, clenching his fists tightly under the quilt.
“Before verifying it, I have to give you some common sense.” Feng Su said, “From what you said, ‘no place to go back to’ should not be caused by money problems, and you can still appear on the road openly, and it seems that you are not a fugitive criminal. Then if you submit the application now, you can have a place to live in up to five days. As for the five days in between, it doesn’t matter whether you find a hotel or stay at someone’s house for a few days.”
“Of course, what I want to say is the next thing. Why is there no place to go back to? Is it because of the person who forgot you? Who is he to you? A relative? A lover? It must be the person who originally lived with you. For some reason, he forgot you, and you can’t accept this reality and choose to escape by running away from home?”
Feng Su stopped talking and waited for Yan Laixi to respond to him.
“Well, it’s my lover.” Yan Laixi reluctantly raised the corners of his lips and smiled bitterly, as if he was about to cry. “It’s an escape, but it’s not running away from home. He won’t remember me anymore, he just becomes a stranger again.”
Feng Su should comfort him at this time, Feng Su knew, but comfort would only extend the problem that could be solved in one minute to an hour, so he decided to ignore the second half of Yan Laixi’s words for the time being.
“I was forgotten by my lover and ran away. It happened that I met… someone close to me in my dream. So you want to cover the past with a new relationship?”
“Let’s not mention that I am not the Fengsu in your dream at all. Even if I am, what is Fengsu to you?”
Yan Laixi lowered his head and bit the inside of his lip.
What is Fengsu to him?
All along, no matter how real the dream is, no matter how unforgettable the experience in the dream is, Yan Laixi has been telling himself that dreams are just dreams and have nothing to do with reality. Nothing in the dream will become true, including Feng Su.
Feng Su is a person who does not exist in reality. Everything in the dream is not real, so he can escape into the dream with peace of mind.
But what now?A Fengsu really appears in reality. Even if it is not reality, to the people in the dream and to the Fengsu in the dream, isn’t the dream just reality?
He didn’t want to use a new relationship to cover up the past about Chi Fu, and he couldn’t cover it up, but he did deliberately want to get closer to Feng Su.Whether you deliberately use ambiguous words to test the other person’s attitude, or you deliberately show your familiarity with the other person, or you try to use the other person’s sympathy to stay by his side.
Yan Laixi was afraid of being alone, or afraid of facing the reality of being suddenly pushed off a cliff.If Feng Su was here, even as a stranger, it would make him feel more at ease.
At least he could still lie to himself, and everything would be fine when he woke up from the dream.
He said to Feng Su – to the person in front of him, and to Feng Su in the dream: “I’m sorry.”
“No need to apologize.” Feng Su said. As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he felt that he had said a bit too much. He wanted to use the movement of standing up to make a slight difference, so he raised his hand halfway and put it back again.
The winter clothes were already tightly covered, and Yan Laixi’s hands were still hidden under the quilt. It was not suitable for a child to touch his head suddenly, and it was even more inappropriate to touch his face. He had no choice but to give up. His anomaly was only effective when his palms were in direct contact with the other person.
“I just… just want to get along with you and be friends with you. I don’t have that intention. Isn’t it okay?” Yan Laixi asked, his tone was very weak, for fear of making the other party unhappy again.
No matter if you are misunderstood or rejected, you must at least fight for it first.
That was the person who had been with him in his dream for twenty-seven years. Even if nothing happened and he saw the person while walking on the road on an ordinary day, he would definitely go up and ask.
“As long as you don’t regard me as the person in your dreams, you can chase me if you want. I’m still single anyway.” As if he was not the one who warned others righteously before, Feng Su made a little joke to ease the atmosphere, and took the opportunity to rub Yan Laixi’s head. “We can exchange contact information, and you can come here to find me at any time. Do you have any family or friends nearby? Ask who is convenient, and I will send you there.”
“No need, I can do it myself.” Yan Laixi said, lifting the quilt and trying to get out of bed, but Feng Su pushed him back.
He reached out and touched Yan Laixi’s forehead and said, “Don’t worry, think about where you want to go first, call and ask if anyone is home or something. You are still sick, so don’t go out to enjoy the cold wind.”
“I’ll just go out and find a hotel.” Yan Laixi said.Whether it’s family or friends, he doesn’t plan to go anywhere. He just ran out to blow the cold wind after falling in love and accidentally caught a fever. There is no need to bother them and make them worry.
“I’m not driving you away.” Feng Su sat back on the chair and said softly, “If you don’t want to go anywhere, you can stay with me. If you have a bad fever at night, there will be someone to take care of you.”
Yan Laixi shook his head. The person facing him was just a stranger who looked very similar to someone he knew well. He had clearly expressed his displeasure with his inexplicable attitude before. At this time, he was probably just being polite – although the Feng Su he knew would not be polite at this time.
“I feel better, it’s okay.”
His feeling was correct, but what was correct was that coupled with his own feeling before inferring, Feng Su was indeed not being polite to him.Ultimately, the previous emotion was more like “jealousy” than “boredom.”He didn’t resent Yan Laixi’s attempt to build a relationship with him using some small means that he wasn’t necessarily aware of, and even felt happy about it, even if the other party’s methods were not clever and the results were disastrous, and every step was secretly testing his bottom line.
What made Feng Su unhappy was that Yan Laixi subconsciously regarded him as a non-existent person and subconsciously used him to escape from his relationship with another person.
This emotion came too suddenly and was inexplicable. There were too many inexplicable situations today, and Feng Su was a little confused. He didn’t have time to understand the cause of it, and the words to vent were out of his mouth. Looking back at the person with his head hanging down, it was too late to take it back.
Within a few words, his attitude had completely changed. He hoped that the other party would not think that he had any mental illness.
Just like that inexplicable emotion, Feng Su had an inexplicable fondness for Yan Laiqi. At first, he just felt that he was indescribably familiar. But now, to be honest, he has slightly regretted his merciless and angry words, and this good feeling is still spreading in his body.
“Stay at my place for a day first. You should have nothing to do today?” Feng Su said, “If you are in good condition at night, you can leave.”
“It’s okay.” Yan Laixi still refused and said, “I won’t disturb you anymore.”
Feng Su suddenly apologized and said, “I’m sorry, I just spoke too much.”
As he expected, Yan Laixi shook his head like a rattle and said in a panic that it was his fault.
“Let’s wait until the illness is better before leaving, or simply wait for the new residence to be applied for.” Feng Su said, “Or are you actually angry with me?”
“No, but no need…not angry…”
Yan Laixi didn’t understand what caused the two people who “wanted to leave” and “wanted to stay” to suddenly fall apart. After refusing several times and finding out that the other party was really planning to take him in, Yan Laixi thought he had shut up in time.
Of course he wants to stay if he can, and he really has nowhere to go now.
The phone rang. Yan Laixi looked at the caller ID and turned the phone upside down on the bed.Before buckling it down, Feng Su caught a glimpse of the words on it, Chi Fu.
When Feng Su opened Yan Laixi’s phone to check abnormal information, he saw many unread message reminders on the lock screen, and the sender was also Chi Fu.It’s not difficult to guess the identity of the other party, but Yan Laixi clearly said before that “I won’t remember it again.”
“Won’t you answer?” Feng Su asked.
Yan Laixi hesitantly reached out to the mobile phone that was buckled by the bed, but Feng Su said, “If you don’t want to answer it, don’t answer it. I’m just asking casually.”
I don’t want to pick it up, but I should pick it up. Chi Fu will be worried about him… He has to go back secretly to clean up the things that need to be cleaned up, and…
“What do you want to eat? I’m going out to buy something. Tell me what you need and I’ll bring it back together.” The call was automatically hung up. Feng Su planned to leave a phone number for Yan Laixi and go out on his own. Just as he was thinking about bringing some daily necessities to others, he suddenly remembered an obvious and important piece of information that he had ignored.
When he was looking for his mobile phone, he touched the pocket of Yan Laixi’s coat. There was nothing else in it. Yan Laixi probably rushed out when he lost control of his emotions and only had a mobile phone with him.
In order to prevent errors in anomaly management and lead to the use of anomalies to impersonate others, there will be a special sensor device on the ID card to verify whether the user is himself.Whether you are applying for an apartment or checking into a hotel, you need to use your ID card, and the replacement of your ID card requires other documents with the same function.
He avoids asking for help from family and friends. His documents are probably still at his previous home, but another person in that home, Yan Laixi, is unwilling to even answer his phone calls, let alone go back.
In other words, Yan Laixi said that there was no place he could go and asked him if he could take her in. He really didn’t know where else to go, but he misinterpreted it to mean that!
In his mind, Feng Su, who imagined Yan Laixi as a homeless little pitiful person, stood there in a daze. If he hadn’t dealt with his emotions in time and left Yan Laixi alone, would it be possible that this person would have a fever and find a corner to huddle up and spend the whole night outside like he did this morning?
“Come and stay at my house.”
Feng Su thought that he might have had a brain convulsion, or that he felt that his brain had been having convulsions today and he was not feeling well. He was already having convulsions, so he might as well continue to have convulsions.
He made excuses for himself and said: “I don’t feel comfortable leaving the patient here alone. I am the only one at home, and I am not at home during the day. It just so happens that you can help me take care of Xiao Xi, saving me the inconvenience of carrying it around every day.”
It’s a poor excuse. Xiao Xi is very good and won’t fight with other kittens and puppies. Yan Laixi can’t think of any inconvenience in bringing her pets to the pet beauty salon.Feng Su glanced at his coat unconsciously, and Yan Laixi noticed it. He said tentatively: “Thank you, I will apply for accommodation as soon as possible. But I may have to go out soon… to get something.”
He deliberately put on an inconspicuous but perceptible embarrassment, waiting for Feng Su’s answer.
“Let’s go after you get better. I’ll see if I can buy you anything you need. There’s no need to move out in a hurry.”
Yan Laixi muttered in a low voice: “It’s too troublesome for you.” But what he thought in his heart was “That’s great.”
In fact, it was not what Feng Su thought at all. Yan Laixi could return to his childhood home and go to Qiu Ye to ask for shelter, but he didn’t want to.He could also go back secretly, squat outside the door, and wait until Chi Fu went out to quietly go back and get his things. In the past two days, Chi Fu had been thinking about him sitting outside the door waiting because he couldn’t open the door, and urged him to re-enter the information into the door lock. If he didn’t fool him, he wouldn’t be unable to get in.
No Fengsu that Yan Laixi knew would soften his heart so easily, sympathize with a stranger, and then let him live in his home without any precautions.He didn’t know whether the Fengsu in front of him would be like this to everyone, or just to him.If it’s just for him…why?Not in a dream.
Is it really not a dream?
Feng Su didn’t know why, but his reaction, emotional changes, and decisions when facing Yan Laixi were all so strange to him, even scary. It was scary that when he realized that his decision was unreasonable, instead of correcting it, he would deliberately ignore it.