Nanke Yifu Chapter 2
byWhere can I find the pond again (2)
In the abnormality department of the Third Hospital, Chi Fu felt that he was standing here a little bit out of place.
Abnormalities that seriously affect the daily lives of oneself or others will be taken care of by specialized institutions. Most of the rest of the people can basically find ways to live with their own abnormalities as they grow older. This is almost half a pediatrician. There are not no adult patients who come for consultation, but the proportion is very small.
There were only two numbers in front, and there weren’t many people, but things were going by very slowly. Yan Laixi was standing against the corner, and Chi Fu was standing next to him. The air was terribly quiet. Chi Fu wanted to talk about something to relieve himself. He couldn’t remember how he addressed the other person before, so he chose a polite one to try first: “Mr. Yan?”
He checked his phone to confirm that today was not a rest day and asked, “Is your work okay? Will it delay you too much?”
He wanted to say, “If something happens to you, I can do it by myself, and I will notify you of the result as soon as possible.” It was purely out of concern and to find something to talk to.However, if you really say this, it will be like chasing people away, and it is easy to be misunderstood. Moreover, people who can sleep until two or three o’clock in the afternoon and then get up slowly have a high probability of being in a relatively free profession like me.
“Don’t call me that.” Yan Laixi said, “It’s okay, don’t delay.”
He first corrected his name before answering the question. It seemed that he was very dissatisfied with this way of calling him. Chi Fu asked: “Then what did I call you before?”
Yeah.
Chi Fu once again despised himself in his heart.
Although he usually doesn’t talk too seriously to others, he definitely won’t be so lively and “ah”, why are he pretending to be cute?
Yan Laixi: “Just call me by name.”
Okay, I didn’t react at all to this “Yeah”. It seems that I have been pretending a lot in the past.
But then I thought about it, the other person was a few years older than me, and he seemed to be a relatively quiet and steady person, but he had mistakenly thought that he was joking before and he was very happy to cooperate. He can be with me, maybe he likes this kind of childish liveliness?
Chi Fu thought, if he really liked this, he could always pretend to be cute. No, he didn’t even have to pretend, he could automatically become cute.
“Then, come on.”
“Yan Laixi” is a given name, and removing the surname and leaving only the two characters “Laixi” is also a given name. Of course, Chi Fu chose the more intimate one. He said, “Can I ask you a few questions?”
Yan Laixi nodded.
Chi Fu didn’t want to waste the time he spent talking to the other party on sorting out the issues. It was meaningless. He asked whatever he thought of: “When is your birthday? Is it over this year?”
“Well, last month.” Yan Laixi glanced at him and said, “No. 7.”
“Okay.” Chi Fu was a little disappointed. Just a month ago, he had to wait a full eleven months to celebrate Yan Laixi’s birthday, but he soon started to look forward to it again. Anyway, the New Year is less than two months away, and he can celebrate the New Year with Yan Laixi. Moreover, “My birthday is not here yet, you will spend it with me, right?”
“If you want.” Yan Laixi neither refused nor explicitly agreed.
Falling into Chi Fu’s ears means complete agreement.
“Of course I want to!” He answered immediately, and then moved on to the next question, “What do you like, Laixi? By the way, don’t you like cooked egg yolks, and lettuce and tomatoes in sandwiches?”
A question turned into a declarative sentence, Chi Fu felt that his intuition would not lie to him, just like he felt that he liked this person so much, this person was really his lover. The part about Yan Laixi in his memory seemed to have been integrated into his body and became an instinct. Backups were hidden everywhere, and there would be no mistakes even if the original copy in his brain was lost.
“Do you…remember a little bit? About me, anything is fine, even a little bit.” Yan Laixi didn’t answer him. He looked at Chi Fu, and their eyes happened to meet.
Chi Fu saw a hint of hope in Yan Laixi’s eyes, which disappeared in an instant. This hope was hidden deeply. Chi Fu knew that he was afraid of disappointment, so he didn’t dare to let himself have hope.
How much he wanted to respond to this expectation that could only be glimpsed by coincidence.
“My body remembers you.” This was the best answer he could give.
Chi Fu wanted to quickly turn over these few sentences of conversation, and soon began to ask questions again.He asked a lot about Yan Laixi, not about Yan Laixi when he was getting along with him, but about Yan Laixi himself.He asked Yan Laixi what his hobbies were, what habits he had, and what he did for a living.
After getting the answer from “the author of the novel”, Chi Fu immediately reacted: “Nanke is your pen name! Right?”
“Yeah.” It happened that Chi Fu’s name was called on the radio at this time. Yan Laixi raised his hand and moved it twice as if he didn’t know where to put it. Finally, he took his hand back and held it in front of his belly, and said to Chi Fu, “It’s time.”
They were a pair of very good lovers, they were a couple of ten hours ago and they are now.Chi Fu feels that although he remembers nothing, their relationship should not be affected by his memory.And for Yan Laixi, the way of getting along between lovers must be more accustomed to him than this kind of polite and distanced way of getting along.Didn’t he just refuse to let him call him “Mr. Yan” and asked him to call him by his first name?
Okay, putting aside these messy excuses, he just wanted to hold hands with Yan Laixi. Such a good-looking person, such a good-looking hand, he was thinking about holding it at home. His boyfriend, what’s wrong with holding her hand?
And he really couldn’t see Yan Laixi’s cautious and embarrassed look. Not to mention that he didn’t dislike it at all, or that he especially liked to be in contact with him. Even if he didn’t like it, Chi Fu had lost his memory without permission, so why should Yan Laixi accommodate him?
Chi Fu walked half a circle around Yan Laixi, took the initiative to hold his hand hanging by his side, and walked briskly to the consulting room. He was obviously here for a check-up, and he was as happy as if he had picked up a treasure.
As expected, the result is indeed abnormal. The specific situation needs further observation, because the symptoms have no impact on life safety and self-care ability. You can go home after the examination.As for restoring memory, there is nothing doctors can do, and the abnormality is incurable.
On the way back, Yan Laixi suddenly said to him: “I’ll clean up the study when I get back. I’ll sleep in the study first.”
Where to pack?Where to sleep?Is his long-standing but nascent love ending so soon?Yan Laixi can’t be allowed to sleep in the study until the knot is over.
“I’ll go to the study and sleep.” Chi Fu said. He thought for a while and asked, “Should I sleep on the sofa?”
If Yan Laixi doesn’t want to sleep with him, he can’t force him. The living room is closer to the bedroom than the study, and anyone who goes in and out can see him. When the time comes, he curls up and sleeps. Maybe people see him as pitiful and let him in out of soft-heartedness?
“Look at you.” Yan Laixi said.
Trying to make the most of your limit is sometimes a good virtue. Even if you are allowed to sleep at the door, maybe sleeping next to the bed is okay?
Chi Fu asked again: “Is it okay if I lay the floor in your house?”
Yan Laixi frowned and asked, “Don’t you want to sleep separately from me?”
“Why would I want to sleep with you separately?” Chi Fu didn’t understand how he behaved so that the other party had such a misunderstanding.
“You don’t know me now.” Yan Laixi said, “You should be… somewhat resistant to this kind of relationship.”
Whoever said he didn’t know him had already known each other for several hours. Yan Laixi was already very familiar with him, and he also got to know a part of Yan Laixi just at the door of the consulting room. They were already familiar with each other again.How could he resist? Now he just felt like a huge pie fell from the sky and hit him in the mouth. Moreover, it was “this kind of relationship”. Is it difficult to express the relationship between lovers?
“What relationship? Do we have any other relationship besides being lovers?” Chi Fu joked, “Is it possible that you are keeping me?”
Yan Laixi: “Get lost.”
It was a very soft sound, not even serious. Chi Fu was very happy to be scolded. If he didn’t get scolded, it would lose its meaning, but Yan Lai rarely cared too much about his mood.
“I’m sorry.” Yan Laixi said. He probably wanted to explain something else, but Chi Fu didn’t wait for a long time.
“Why are you apologizing?” After holding hands and not being rejected, Chi Fu began to act unscrupulously when he tasted the sweetness. He wrapped his arms around Yan Laixi’s hand and said, “You don’t think that just now was considered a curse, do you? There is no need to apologize. Aren’t we lovers? If you don’t curse me, who will curse me?”
No one can deprive him of the right to be scolded by the person he likes, not even the other person himself.
Yan Laixi brought the topic back: “As long as you don’t feel awkward, you can sleep anywhere. If you want to live separately, you have to wait a few days. I don’t have any other place to live now, so I can only say as soon as possible.”
“I don’t want to be separated. If we can go anywhere, I would like to sleep on the same bed with you without any discomfort.” Chi Fu said.
After a few hours of getting along, he had found the right way to chat with Yan Laixi. He had to say everything directly without any detours.This boyfriend of his is too measured. Now he is completely worried about treating him as a stranger and will not cross the line even a millimeter.
“I fell in love with you again as soon as I opened my eyes today. You don’t want me to chase you all over again, do you? That’s okay.” Chi Fu saw Yan Laixi stunned for a moment, and then the tips of his ears began to turn red. Taking advantage of the momentum, he continued, “You don’t know, when I first woke upI was stunned when I looked at you, how could there be such a good-looking person!I wanted to go up to see if you were sleeping with makeup on, but you woke up before I could, and then I realized that this amazing face is the least attractive thing about you.”
“Stop talking!” Yan Laixi blushed to the point of his neck and almost covered his mouth with his hands, “I didn’t see you being so good at talking with your mouth when we first met.”
“I speak from the bottom of my heart.” Chi Fu said, “I hadn’t caught up with you when we first met, so of course it wouldn’t be like this.”
“But we met because you thought I was good-looking.” Yan Laixi said.
“You are just good-looking. What’s wrong with liking good-looking people? Who doesn’t like good-looking people? But can anyone make good-looking people like themselves? I can.” When he mentioned acquaintance, Chi Fu remembered that he didn’t know anything about their past, “By the way, how did we meet?”
Yan Laixi said: “If you think I’m good-looking, then come be my sponsor.”
Although the other party suppressed his laughter and was very perfunctory, these words were still a huge bolt from the blue for Chi Fu, who was completely immersed in the joy of falling in love at first sight with his boyfriend.he?Fund owner?So he relied on money to chase Yan Laixi?It doesn’t matter, as long as Yan Laixi likes him.
Chi Fu said seriously: “I will work hard to make money.”
“Actually, it’s a book signing.” Yan Laixi said with a smile, looking much more relaxed than before, “No matter where it is, you will come to every show. Later I found out that you had never read my book when you first met me. You just passed by by chance and thought I was good-looking. You wanted to see me closer, so you lined up with me.”
Great.Chi Fu thought to himself, it was just a matter of sex, there was no need to worry that Yan Laixi didn’t like him but he was embarrassed to dump him due to money.
Yan Laixi: “It’s so far away, I don’t know how you can tell whether it looks good or not.”
If the next step of a bolt from the blue is a rainbow after rain, then it doesn’t matter if you chop a few more times.I was attracted from a distance that I couldn’t even see clearly. Isn’t this destiny?And does this count as a fan chasing his idol?In such a perfect life, it seems that losing his memory once is not unacceptable. Didn’t Yan Laixi not want him because of his memory loss?
“What happened next?” Chi Fu asked, “How did we start to contact each other privately?”
“How long do you think we have known each other?” Yan Laixi asked him.
Chi Fu will not turn twenty-four until his birthday next month. This time should not be too long, but it is obvious that the two of them have been accustomed to living together, at least for a while, and it cannot be too short. He said: “Two or three years?”
Yan Laixi said: “This is the fifth year.”
In the hospital, Yan Lai rarely saw Chi Fu standing with him. He originally wanted to change places, but he thought that people with amnesia might be more sensitive and uneasy than usual. He was afraid that he would be misunderstood that he wanted to avoid him, so he stayed where he was.
There was an unprecedented silence between the two of them. Perhaps because the atmosphere was too awkward, Chi Fu took the initiative to talk to him: “Mr. Yan? Is your work okay? Will it delay you too much?”
Politeness and politeness, every word is engraved on Yan Laixi’s heart.
“Don’t call me that. It’s okay, no delay.” Yan Laixi said that he couldn’t ask Chi Fu, who had no memory, to get along with him as usual, but it wouldn’t be too much to just ask for a change of title.
Chi Fu asked him: “Then what did I call you before?”
Before?Tell him directly, you said before that it was because I was writing a book and that we met because of my book, so you insisted on calling me Little Book?Say that to a person who is three years younger than you and has amnesia?Yan Lai was afraid that Chi Fu would be disgusted.
He thought for a moment and said, “Just call me by name.”
Anyway, he usually calls Chi Fu by his name, and it is normal for two people who have just met to call him by name.
“Then, come on.”
Yan Laixi didn’t expect that Chi Fu understood the name without a surname.
“Can I ask you a few questions?”
He nodded and shouted, but now it was inappropriate to say that the name refers to the full name.He thought Chi Fu would first ask about something between them, which was his missing memory.
Unexpectedly, the first question Chi Fu asked was: “When is your birthday? Is it over this year?”
“Well, last month.” Yan Laixi saw that he was still waiting for him to finish his words, and then continued, “No. 7.”
“Okay then.” Chi Fu made no secret of his disappointment. His puppy ears seemed to be drooped, but he quickly asked him with bright eyes, “My birthday hasn’t come yet, you will spend it with me, right?”
Spend time with him?Let yourself be a stranger?He should be more willing to celebrate his birthday with his relatives and friends now.
“If you want.” Yan Laixi said.
“Of course I want to!” Chi Fu almost rushed to agree, and immediately changed the subject as if he was afraid that he would regret it, “What do you like, Laixi? By the way, don’t you like cooked egg yolks, and lettuce and tomatoes in sandwiches?”
Oh, that sandwich in the morning.
“Do you…remember a little bit? About me, anything is fine, even a little bit.”
Yan Laixi warned himself that it was impossible, so don’t have hope.Even so, I couldn’t help but feel disappointed when I got the answer.
“My body remembers you.”
He knew that Chi Fu wanted to use euphemisms to make him feel better. Yan Laixi didn’t want him to have to take care of his own feelings while facing the sudden loss of memory. In the following conversation, he tried to be calm.
When Chi Fu’s name was called on the radio, Yan Laixi subconsciously wanted to hold his hand. Fortunately, he realized it was inappropriate before touching it, and raised his hand in time to put it on his shoulder. But he also thought that he didn’t know whether the other person would resist physical contact with him. He was a little panicked and didn’t know where to put his hand. He moved twice like a convulsion before taking it back to him and verbally reminded him: “It’s time.”
Then Chi Fu took the initiative to hold his hand and walked to the consulting room.
Although he is a little younger than him, Chi Fu has always been a very considerate person.Even if she doesn’t remember him at all now, she is still willing to take care of his unhidden little emotions.
The expected result delivered the final verdict to Yan Laixi, and Chi Fu would never think of him again.
It would be inconvenient to live with a stranger.
Yan Laixi thought that he could apply for a new place to live first, and then slowly get in touch with Chi Fu. He didn’t want to end the relationship just like that, and always wanted to find a new way to get along with each other.However, he had to give in to the other party and live with him these days. He said to Chi Fu, “I’ll clean up the study when I go back. I’ll sleep in the study first.”
“I’ll go sleep in the study.” Chi Fu said. Before he could refuse, he asked again, “Can I sleep on the sofa?”
Yan Laixi didn’t understand. After all, there was a single bed in the study, which was at least more comfortable than the sofa. Moreover, if Chi Fu wanted to sleep in the living room, wouldn’t it disturb him if he went in by himself?
Maybe he thought it would be awkward if they bumped into each other suddenly, so it was better to stay in the living room.
Yan Laixi said: “Look at you.”
If you don’t want to meet unexpectedly, just try to stay in the bedroom.
Yan Laixi didn’t expect that Chi Fu’s next words would be: “Can I lay the floor in the house?”
Now Yan Laixi really couldn’t figure out what he was thinking. Although he didn’t think it was reasonable, there seemed to be only one possibility left that made sense: “Don’t you want to sleep with me separately?”
“Why would I want to sleep separately from you?” The confusion on Chi Fu’s face didn’t seem to be fake.
“You don’t know me now, so you should be…” Yan Laixi paused, feeling that directly talking about a romantic relationship might make the other party uncomfortable, “There is some resistance to this kind of relationship.”
Chi Fu’s actions told him that he was thinking too much.
“What kind of relationship? Do we have any other relationship besides being lovers?” He was even in the mood to joke, “Is it possible that you keep me?”
“Go away.” He habitually cursed when the other person had no way to stop him. After he finished cursing, he remembered that the person next to him could be said to have just met him today. Yan Laixi immediately apologized, “I’m sorry.”
He wanted to explain, fearing that Chi Fu would misunderstand that he had a bad temper, and he didn’t want to leave a bad impression on the other party, but he couldn’t make up a suitable excuse for a long time.
“Why do you need to apologize?” Chi Fu held his hand again, “You don’t think that you just cursed, do you? There is no need to apologize. Aren’t we lovers? If you don’t curse me, who will curse me?”
As soon as the steps came, Yan Laixi returned to the previous question: “You can sleep anywhere if you don’t feel awkward. If you want to live separately, you have to wait a few days. I don’t have any other place to live now, so I can only say as soon as possible.”
“I don’t want to be separated. If we can go anywhere, I would like to sleep on the same bed with you without any hassle.” Chi Fu said, “I fell in love with you again as soon as I opened my eyes today. You don’t want me to chase you all over again, do you? That’s okay.”
The sudden confession made Yan Laixi’s ears feel hot, while Chi Fu was still talking endlessly about his “love at first sight”.
“Stop talking!” Yan Laixi couldn’t get used to his straightforward way of expressing himself, so she interrupted him with a blushing face, “I didn’t see you being so good at talking with your mouth when we first met.”
Chi Fu was still in school when they officially met, and he had just graduated. They were not modest, cautious and polite to each other, at least they couldn’t do such a thing as grabbing someone and suddenly confessing to them.
“I speak from the bottom of my heart.” Chi Fu said, “I hadn’t caught up with you when we first met, so of course it wouldn’t be like this.”
Speaking from the bottom of my heart, he is obviously a pure face-controller.
“But we met because you thought I was good-looking.” Yan Laixi said.
“You are just good-looking. What’s wrong with liking good-looking people? Who doesn’t like good-looking people? But can anyone make good-looking people like themselves? I can.” Chi Fu raised his chin, not knowing who he was showing off to.
He asked Yan Laixi: “How did we meet?”
Yan Laixi suddenly became playful and wanted to tease him, saying, “If you think I’m good-looking, then come be my sponsor.”
“Signing” is also “selling”. It does cost money, but it doesn’t count as cheating on him.
Seeing Chi Fu’s wide-eyed look of shock, Yan Laixi couldn’t hold back the smile on his lips.
Then he heard Chi Fu say to him seriously: “I will work hard to make money.”
So cute.
Yan Laixi explained the actual situation to him. Chi Fu always said that he was good-looking. The two times he met him and fell in love with him were all because of his face, but once at a distance of more than ten meters, and once when a large living person suddenly appeared next to him where he had slept all night. No matter which time, he could not see what kind of face the other person had.
Maybe it’s some kind of radar unique to facial control.
“What happened next?” Chi Fu asked him, “How did we start to contact each other privately?”
Later.
Yan Laixi did not answer him directly, but asked another question: “How long do you think we have known each other?”
“Two or three years?” was the expected answer. After all, he was only twenty-four years old, still very young, and he and I were not just classmates who met each other on campus.
Yan Laixi said: “This is the fifth year.”
Not counting the brief meetings before, this is the fifth year since he learned the name Chi Fu.After more than five years, just one night, the memory of Chi Fu’s place can never be found again.