Mixed Chapter 61

Inexplicable alienation

Lin Zi changed her view on love and waited painfully for Zhu Shutong’s response.But Song Shixue changed her attitude towards Chi Nuan, making Chi Nuan suffer in the unknown.

Song Shixue was no different from usual after returning from Milan, and her relationship with Chi Nuan could be said to be ordinary and happy.However, since Song Shixue returned from an exchange program at a university outside the province half a month ago, Chi Nuan had vaguely felt Song Shixue’s gradual alienation.Not only the alienation in attitude, but also the physical intimacy will be found to find various reasons to avoid it.

It was September, and Chi Nuan parked her car in the secret alley where she and Song Shixue were crowded.

She absentmindedly looked out the window at the various small shops that were crowded; she saw scattered half-yellow and half-green fallen leaves floating on the windshield wipers; she watched the boss open a huge stall umbrella for the customers sitting outside the shop.

The gray clouds were the culprits, but they happily gathered in the sky to join in the fun, and then big raindrops fell down along with the lively laughter.

Chi Nuannong in the car couldn’t join in the “fun”, so she eagerly took out her phone and asked someone outside the fun.

“It’s raining. Do you need me to bring you an umbrella?” I am in that street now.Chi Nuan tried to delete this sentence but still didn’t choose to send it out.

“No, there’s a spare umbrella in the office.” It took a while before she got Song Shixue’s reply.

“I have to deal with some documents at school tonight, so don’t wait for me. You can go to bed early.”

You go to bed early.There is no title as embellishment in front, just the word “you”.

“Yes.” After replying, Chi Nuan turned off the phone screen and then started the car in despair.

Finally, he stopped in front of the door dejectedly and entered the date of their love anniversary, 1-2-2-5.

The door opened, and Shining was still sitting at the door taking the same trouble as every day to greet her with Samoyed’s signature smile.The difference is that Shining has transformed from a doll-sized snow dumpling into a giant fluffy “marshmallow.”

Puppies are the most aware of human emotions.

It rubbed the denim fabric on Chi Nuan’s legs, barked twice, turned around, and sat back in front of her.

Chi Nuan kneaded it into the extremely soft marshmallow: “Okay, okay, can I go get us something to eat now?”

Winky tilted her head and followed.

As if to say, did I mean this?I don’t think that’s what I mean. Let’s eat first. The biggest thing in the world is eating!

Chi Nuan poured a lot of dog food into the shiny basin and then walked leisurely to the kitchen. With Song Shixue’s thoughts in mind, she made a table of Song Shixue’s favorite dishes.Even if Song Shixue said there was no need to wait for her.

She arranged the dishes and chopsticks as usual, sat down, and watched the time slip by. The original aroma of the food gradually disappeared, the warm plate gradually became cold, but the two bowls were still empty.

Even so, Chi Nuan still has to wait for her. When she comes home, they can have a good chat about the recent past and their current thoughts on this relationship.

The time came to ten o’clock in the evening, and there was still no movement outside the door.Chi Nuan put the dishes in the refrigerator and walked into the bedroom followed by Xing Xing.After all her worries were washed away, she threw herself on the bed and buried her whole face into Song Shixue’s pillow, trying her best to absorb the scent of her left on the pillow.

Chi Nuan thought a lot while waiting for Song Shixue, from the initial acquaintance to falling in love and finally to the current estrangement.

During the time the two of them got together, there were many small frictions, but they didn’t get into big fights over trivial matters. Moreover, even if there were small frictions, they would basically solve the problems in time, so there was no chance for these small frictions to grow into big problems that could not be solved.

Of course it’s more than that.

Chi Nuan also thought about whether she met other people who made her heart beat when she went on a business trip.

In fact, this is the most likely situation in the current situation, although Song Shixue does not look like someone who would cheat during a relationship in any way.But who dares to be 100% sure?

After all, people change and get bored.

Even if this person is Song Shixue.

Chi Nuan didn’t want it to end unclearly.She covered her face with the pillow harder and harder until a wave of warmth wetted the pillowcase.

She has been patient.

Chi Nuan told herself from beginning to end that Song Shixue was too busy.After all, Song Shixue is not only a painter, but also an associate professor at the university. She also needs to lead graduates to defend their thesis, write thesis, and complete graduation works.

Chi Nuan thought so, and Song Shixue told her the same.

Chi Nuan knew everything and was willing to make excuses for Song Shixue.But she had been holding it in for too long, and she couldn’t bear it anymore and finally broke out on a September night.

The chaotic emotions turned into sad red that spread over the tip of the nose and over the eyes, and finally overflowed and soaked Song Shixue’s pillowcase.

Song Shixue was right, she really loved to cry, but every time she shed tears it was for Song Shixue.The happy tears are for her, the excited tears are for her, and the sad tears are still for her.

She doesn’t cry that much.

At least not before meeting Song Shixue.

The door to the bedroom was half open, and Twinkle came in quietly, lying on the edge of the bed with its forelimbs and rubbing its fluffy head on Chi’s knees, which had warmed up.

Seeing that Chi Nuan didn’t respond, he silently lay beside the bed to accompany her.

She was tired from crying, her eyes were swollen from crying, the clock pointed to twelve o’clock in the evening, and Song Shixue was back.

The moment the door opened again, Chi Nuan clearly felt that his heart had stopped for several seconds. During these seconds, his hearing was infinitely amplified.She heard Twinkle running out to greet her, the light switch in the living room was pressed, and footsteps were approaching.

Chi Nuan opened his mouth in the darkness and finally spoke with a trembling voice in the darkness: “Teacher Song, let’s talk.”

If in the past Chi Nuan could have a heart-to-heart talk with Song Shixue at night, he could openly say let’s talk.But now I have to go through it in my heart and finally speak out with great fear.

“What are you talking about?” Song Shixue’s clear and indifferent voice sounded in the darkness.

If the first time I heard Song Shixue’s voice was likened to a clear spring under the moon, then at this moment the clear spring under the moon has long since dried up.

“Let’s talk… let’s talk… about us.”

Neither Song Shixue nor Chi Nuan turned on the lights. Even if Chi Nuan didn’t turn on the lights, Chi Nuan could probably guess Song Shixue’s expression, which must be colder than an iceberg.

Because this was her most common expression during this period of time.

So no need to guess, you all know.

“What do you want to say?” In the past, Song Shixue would definitely get closer to her, but now she didn’t even want to sit on the bed, she just stood at the door as if she was entering.

“Have I done anything to make you unhappy recently? If so, you can tell me.” Chi Nuan sniffed and said.

“No.”

“Is that the last time Teacher Song went on a business trip and met someone who made her heart beat?” Her voice became smaller and smaller. “If so, Teacher Song can tell me…”

“No.”

“Then…does Teacher Song not like me anymore…” As soon as he said the first word of this sentence, Chi Nuan’s voice was choked with sobs. “If you don’t like me anymore…I, I…”

“You what?”

“I don’t know. If you don’t like me anymore, I really don’t want to know what to do.” Chi Nuan cried and was out of breath.Song Shixue was the first person she fell in love with, the only one she fell in love with at first sight. If Song Shixue really didn’t like her anymore, then Chi Nuan would probably never fall in love with anyone else in her life.

She thought that if the person she spent the rest of her life with was not Song Shixue, it would not matter even if she died alone.

“Can you give me a hug? Can you come over and give me a hug?” Chi Nuan had no choice.

Later, she heard Song Shixue’s familiar footsteps approaching her, carrying the familiar woody fragrance that she had not seen for a long time, and hugged her gently.

“Sister, please don’t let me go, okay?” Tears were like endless jets of water flowing from the water pipe. After wetting the pillowcase, they wet Song Shixue’s shoulders.

“It’s not that I don’t want you, nor that I don’t like you, it’s just that I’ve been really busy recently.” Song Shixue stayed briefly, only staying for a while before pulling away.

“Then why…”

“No reason, just go to sleep.” Song Shixue interrupted Chi Nuan’s next words and reached out to turn on a lamp on the bedside. “You go to bed first, I have to wash up.”

“Don’t wait for me, I’m a little tired,” she added.

Tired, is it the relationship between them or the fact that she is very tired recently.

Chi Nuan couldn’t figure it out, so she hummed softly as the bathroom door closed.

The dripping hot water slid over every part of Song Shixue’s skin. She wiped her face. Her eyes were red in the mist, and her eyebrows were drooped, showing a painful look.

“It’s time to finish.”