Mixed Chapter 49

Future or love?

For someone like Lin Zi, how could Song Shixue not know what she was thinking?She laid out her plans for Chi Nuan directly in front of her, and the beads in her abacus fell off Song Shixue’s face.

Can this be tolerated?I can’t bear it!

Even though the pure art direction Song Shixue focuses on has little to do with their fashion circle, she is not a vegetarian.Rabbits will bite when they get angry!What’s more, she’s not a docile rabbit.She has been navigating complex social relationships for several years, and she is still more or less admired and appreciated by her seniors and similar circles. As long as she opens her mouth, how can she not have resources and connections?How could she not be as good as Lin Zi?

“Lin Zi, I’m afraid you don’t understand what it means, so let me add one more thing. You don’t deserve it! Not only do you not deserve Chi Nuan’s resources, you also don’t deserve to take her away from me!” Song Shixue dropped these words and glared at her coldly.

Lin Zi crossed her arms in front of her chest and approached Song Shixue step by step with an angry look on her face until she reached the door.

“Then if we tell reporters that our powerful Teacher Song fell in love with a student of our school and had a relationship…” Lin Zi turned her phone, “Do you think you will still have those so-called resources?”

Based on Song Shixue’s understanding of Lin Zi, she could do such a thing.Not only that, but they might even add fuel to the fire. When public opinion ferments, and the trend becomes one-sided and netizens follow the herd, the consequences will be really unimaginable…

Even if he could bear it, what about Chi Nuan?

“How long can Chi Nuan insist on loving you for someone like you? When you have nothing left, you will only cause trouble for her with your unstable emotions all day long. Can she stand you? Will she still love you?” She laughed sarcastically. “It will not only be you, but also Chi Nuan, her room for advancement, and even her graduation!”

——”Song Shixue, you are really annoying! Can you stop clinging to me all the time!”

“Song Shixue, it’s all because of you! I suffered a lot of rumors. Now it’s better, but the influence has been so large that my future studies and career will be affected! I shouldn’t have chosen to be with you in the first place!”

“Lin Zi is absolutely right. Being with you is really a bad luck for eight lifetimes!”

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Lin Zi always knows how to hurt Song Shixue; knows how to break her defenses; knows how to make her let go of her pride and turn back into a timid turtle with low self-esteem.

Her heart was riddled with holes and she no longer had the strength to suffer another cold shoulder and insult from her lover.

Song Shixue’s psychological defense gradually appeared cracks and finally collapsed.

“Enough…enough!” Song Shixue roared.His whole body felt like he was being choked into deep water, his eyes were filled with confusion, his breathing was rapid and chaotic, and his body was shaking uncontrollably.

She is now panicked, crazy, emotional, and irrational.He is completely different from Associate Professor Song who taught the students gently just now, and he is completely different from the usually indifferent iceberg beauty.

“Think carefully, Song Shixue, I’m leaving.” Lin Zi put on her sunglasses again, “Oh, by the way, don’t go hungry, haha.”

Song Shixue was not in the mood to have lunch at all. She apparently finished her afternoon professional course as usual.Even though she felt very unhappy in her heart, she still tried to be as gentle as possible to her students, trying not to let them notice anything was wrong.

“Goodbye, Teacher Song!”

“Goodbye, Sister Xue!”

“Well, goodbye.” After the last student left the classroom, she looked at Chi Nuan’s messages on her phone.

“Teacher Song, I have to work overtime tonight, please go home first, and remember to make a bowl of goat milk for Shining.”

“Yeah, okay.”

As the phone screen turned off, a tear appeared silently on it.

Sorry, Chi Nuan.

Song Shixue walked into the convenience store downstairs and bought a pack of cigarettes for the first time in a long time. When she opened the door, she saw Shining Pidianpidian staggering towards her to greet her.

“Good baby, I’m going to make some milk for you.” She kneaded the cotton ball on Shining’s head.

It swayed its little feet and walked to the corner obediently, stretched out its small tongue and licked the breasts.Song Shixue looked around at the intact house and the liquid on the urine pad.

How could there be such a sensible angel baby?

After breaking up, who will Shining follow?

The flame burned through the tobacco. Song Shixue tilted her head and took a deep breath, and the coolness of blueberry mint rushed into her nose.

She suffered in her momentary lucidity.

As time passed, the ashtray was half-filled with cigarette butts, and after pressing out another cigarette, the unlocking sound sounded.

“Teacher Song, I’ll go back…” The smell of cigarette smoke in the room first took over her sense of smell.Looking up again, I saw the changing mat in the trash can, the closed curtains, a floor lamp working alone, Shining at my feet, Song Shixue on the sofa looking up to the ceiling, and the smoke in the air.

“Woo…” When he came back to his senses, Shining was already sitting in front of Chi Nuan.

She turned on the light and half-opened the curtains; carried Twinkle back to her nest; threw away all the cigarette butts; put on a new garbage bag, and finally sat silently next to Song Shixue.

Chi Nuan wanted to ask Song Shixue, why did he look so decadent?Why do you look so upset?And why do you look so sad?

“Teacher Song, let’s smoke less, okay?”

In the end, he just said something concerned about smoking less.

She looked at Song Shixue, who turned her head away and continued to remain silent, and her heart twitched in response to the movement of her head.

“Did you encounter anything troublesome today? Can you tell me?” Chi Nuan asked her with her eyebrows tightened.

“Do I have to tell you everything? I just want to smoke, can’t I? Can you stop caring about me so much, Chi Nuan?” She didn’t look at Chi Nuan, and still kept her head tilted to the other side.There was a hint of pain in the roar that was hard to detect.

I’m sorry Chi Nuan, forgive me for the harsh words I said to you.You hate me, hate me, it’s good for you and me.

“Teacher Song, is it because of the unsatisfactory work situation?” Chi Nuan kept the smile on her face and wanted to reach out and hug her.

“Let’s break up.” Song Shixue firmly grabbed the corner of her clothes behind her, dodged directly, and then spoke calmly.

The foreign body sensation caused by sadness is blocked in the throat, and the throat shrinks every time you swallow saliva.

She was almost out of breath, and even her heart hurt so much that it was about to tear apart.

What does the pain of cutting flesh mean when you have to let go of your lover’s hand in person?

“What did you say?” Chi Nuan trembled at the end, and hot and transparent tears slid into his mouth along the curvature of his face.

So salty.

It’s so salty that it’s bitter, and it’s so bitter that it’s astringent.

“I don’t like you anymore. You are childish, crybaby, and always care about me… I don’t like you anymore…” Her eyes were red and her lower lip was bitten by her teeth. She shook her shoulders and took a deep breath.

That’s not the case, Chi Nuan.I love every time you are childish; every tear you shed; every time you discipline me.I love you so much that I’m going crazy…

But in the face of your future, I am willing to take the initiative to give up this relationship in exchange for your bright future.

I am willing to go back to the original position and be the most familiar stranger.I am willing to give you everything I have silently behind your back, whether it is resources, connections, status, or even my life.As long as it is what you want, I will give it to you.

Chi Nuan, I just hope you don’t hate me.

“Then I’ll change it. I can change anything you don’t like!” Chi Nuan held Song Shixue’s hand and sweated in panic, “Don’t let me go.”

She heard Song Shixue’s tiny whimpering.

Song Shixue, you are obviously reluctant to let go, so why are you still saying sarcastic words?

He was fine even when he went out in the morning, so why did Song Shixue become like this in one day?

“Mr. Song, tell me, did someone say something to you? Was it Lin Zi? Did she threaten you?” After a long time, Chi Nuan still chose to speak out the only answer in his heart.

Song Shixue’s character has always been to hold back her words.I would rather feel uncomfortable, I would rather say something sarcastic than let myself know, I don’t want to let myself bear it.

You can always only guess, but fortunately, Chi Nuan is patient enough to play guessing games with her one after another.

Song Shixue was stunned.

Chi Nuan, how come you always guess right?

“Chi Nuan…I beg you, don’t be with me anymore, really.”

“Well, I understand. You take care of Twinkle first.” Chi Nuan stood up and went out, closing the door softly.

Song Shixue, I won’t let others interfere and ruin our relationship.

The moment the door was closed, Song Shixue finally released all the accumulated emotions.

Chi Nuan, you really left me…