IM Chapter 5

Alpha raised his head and cursed under his breath. He must be going crazy. Shen ChiTai probably thinks he’s a lunatic now.

But then again, he lowered his eyes and chuckled to himself.

This scratching and clawing feeling in his heart probably meant he wasn’t far from becoming a lunatic, he thought self-deprecatingly.

Shen ChiTai fled back to his room, locking the door behind him. Only when he was sure he had completely cut off that too-hot gaze from behind him did he dare to take a slight breath.

He suspected he might really be sick, and not just a little.

Shang Jue had done that kind of thing to him, so logically he, as the older brother, should be showing a very angry face. But this wonderful and indescribable feeling in his chest, the accelerated pulse, the palm of his hand covering his chest, could clearly feel the heart beating violently inside his chest cavity.

Under the same roof, you can hide from the first day, but not the fifteenth.

He couldn’t keep himself locked in his room forever.

The omega leaned tightly against the door, his eyes tangled in pain.

Shang Lu came home from work in the evening, and Shang Jue was still in the living room playing games. Shen ChiTai, with an apron tied around his waist, casually came out of the kitchen, wiping his hands.

Since that incident just now, he and Shang Jue hadn’t spoken another word.

In order not to reveal any flaws in front of Shang Lu and let the man notice the abnormality between them, they had reached a unanimous tacit understanding, as if the matter just now had never happened at all.

Shen ChiTai glanced up at Shang Jue several times.

The alpha’s reaction was calm and natural.

He couldn’t help but peek at the other person. Every time their eyes met unintentionally, the omega was always the first to look away.

On the surface, he pretended that nothing had happened, but he was extremely sensitive, cautious, and extremely concerned about the alpha’s seemingly unintentional gaze on him.

Perhaps it was psychological, the more he cared, the more chaotic his heart became, and the more unable to calm down. Shen ChiTai didn’t even dare to raise his head, for fear that he would accidentally meet Shang Jue’s gaze.

Only Shang Lu took the initiative to talk to the two of them at the table.

If he was asked, Shen ChiTai would look up and answer, and when he looked away again, as soon as he touched Shang Jue’s slanted gaze, just two seconds of eye contact in the air, this long process became an ordeal for him.

He would panic, frantically wanting to escape.

He must be sick, it must be like this.

He clenched the chopsticks in his hand, buried his head, not knowing how many times he chewed the food in his mouth. When he swallowed it, he realized that he had swallowed a mouthful of air.

Shang Jue was just eating wholeheartedly.

The dishes on the table were three pieces of pork liver that Shen ChiTai bought on the way back from the vegetable market. For tonight’s dinner: stir-fried pork liver with onions, stir-fried pork liver with ginger and scallions, pork liver with spinach salad, and even the only soup dish was green vegetable and pork liver soup.

Shang Lu ate two pieces in a row, and every time he picked up the pork liver, “Why are all the dishes pork liver today?”

Shang Jue stopped chewing, raised his head and glanced at Shen ChiTai lightly, then buried his head again, eating quietly without saying a word.

“There were only three pieces left when I bought them, so I bought them all.” Shen ChiTai’s tone didn’t sound anything unusual, almost the same as usual. “Pork liver doesn’t last long, so I stir-fried them all.”

The man was stunned, and smiled amiably: “Pork liver nourishes the blood and qi. Eating some appropriately is beneficial and harmless to the body. Speaking of which, it’s been a long time since I’ve eaten pork liver. ChiTai’s cooking skills have improved a lot.”

Shen ChiTai just laughed twice without saying a word.

Shang Jue focused on eating, eating three large bowls of rice with pork liver, and drank a bowl of soup after the meal.

Shen ChiTai buried his head in his rice without saying a word. He picked up a spinach leaf with his chopsticks and put it in his mouth, chewing slowly four or five times, swallowing it slowly, feeling inexplicably uncomfortable.

He was the one who did that kind of thing to him, but some people acted as if nothing had happened. He was the only one here feeling sorry for himself, his mind was in a mess, and he was about to go crazy.

Shang Lu didn’t notice the subtle strangeness between the two at the dinner table.

After dinner, Shang Jue took the initiative to wash the dishes. After so many years, this was the only thing he knew how to do. Living under the same roof, it was extremely necessary to have a clear division of labor.

Shen ChiTai collected the trash in the living room, and conveniently replaced it with a new plastic bag. When he went to the kitchen to collect the trash, he also turned his back to him.

The two of them didn’t say a word throughout the whole process, and he carried the two bags of trash straight out the door.

The person who was washing the dishes gradually slowed down, his eyes a little cold. In a place where the omega couldn’t see, his face was as ugly as an unfertilized egg.

When Shen ChiTai came back after throwing out the trash, he saw Shang Jue standing by the door with his arms crossed, as if he was waiting for him on purpose. The boy was leaning against the door, his knees half-bent, lazily looking over at him.

The foot that the omega had already raised froze in mid-air, and his body paused slightly, not moving forward.

“Aren’t you coming over, Brother? I can’t eat you.” Shang Jue said with a smile.

Shen ChiTai gritted his teeth and walked over with a brave face.

“What are you doing standing at the door?” His tone was still gentle, sounding no different from usual, trying to suppress it.

“Getting some air, and seeing how long you’re planning to avoid me, Brother.”

Shen ChiTai glanced away, bit his lip slightly, and even with a brave face, he didn’t dare to look him directly in the eye. “Avoid you? Why would I avoid you? You’re not a wolf or a tiger, there’s no need for me to be so childish.”

Shang Jue only asked, “Then why don’t you dare to look at me?”

Shen ChiTai gritted his teeth, raised his head to meet his eyes, “Shang Jue, Dad’s at home!” He was warning someone not to mess around, and betting that Shang Jue would have some scruples, and half of it was a plea.

Shang Jue chuckled, not taking it seriously, knowing that he was afraid that he would mess around.

“So what? Doesn’t Dad just want you and me to get along harmoniously? We’re just fulfilling his wishes by being like this.”

These words came out of Shang Jue’s mouth lightly, and Shen ChiTai’s chest felt suffocated.

“A Jue, ChiTai, I cut some fruit, come in and have some.” The man’s voice came from the living room.

Shen ChiTai’s expression froze for a few seconds, and there was a moment of panic on the omega’s face.

“I suddenly remembered that I still have something to do, so I’ll go back to my room first.” He was very guilty, like a child who had made a mistake, and didn’t dare to look at the other person’s reaction when he spoke in front of the man.

Shang Lu didn’t think much about it. Shen ChiTai walked to the door and suddenly stopped, hesitating for two seconds.

He reached out and touched the doorknob. As soon as he pushed open the door to the room, a hand reached out from inside and pulled him in forcefully. The door behind him was closed casually.

Shang Jue lowered his head and looked at the person in front of him who was about seven or eight centimeters shorter than him, and raised his chin with one hand without allowing him to explain.

“What’s the point of avoiding me? Besides making Dad worry and think too much, why not just say what’s on your mind? Do you hate me? Or don’t want to see me? Hmm?”

Shen ChiTai met his gaze without dodging, suppressed the fire in his heart, and said in a hoarse voice, “I thought you should know, Shang Jue, I’m your brother.” They were brothers, how could brothers do this kind of thing.

“I know you’re my brother,” Shang Jue’s smile made people feel horrified, and his tone was somewhat self-deprecating. “I originally thought that I was different to you, Brother, but it seems that you hate me more than I expected.”

Shen ChiTai turned his head away, silently silent for a long time, his lower lip bitten until it turned white, “If you mess around like this again, I won’t see you again in the future.”

Shang Jue’s eyes froze, he hooked his lips, and laughed softly twice. “Aren’t you afraid that I’ll tell Dad everything about us? Just tell him, what’s it like for his two sons to be kissing?” The alpha pinched his chin, straightened his face, “Brother, don’t be silent, answer me.”

Shen ChiTai’s hands hanging by his sides clenched tightly, his eyes red with anger, “Are you threatening me? Don’t forget that you forced me.”

“What do you think Dad will think if I say it?”

Shen ChiTai was speechless.

If he hadn’t considered Dad’s feelings, he might have really done something irreparable because of a moment of impulse.

He didn’t know when Shang Jue had become like this. He was clearly someone he had watched grow up since he was a child, but now he felt that something was wrong no matter how he looked at him.