Difficult To Raise Chapter 38
byChapter 38 Misunderstanding Jiang Jin almost ran outside,…
Jiang Jin almost ran outside. The concert had just ended, and many fans had not dispersed yet. They were holding wine glasses and talking loudly. Unexpectedly, he saw the lead singer reappearing. His eyes lit up slightly, and he enthusiastically walked forward to ask for autographs.
The crowd was surging, and noisy and screaming could be heard. Jiang Jin struggled to move through the crowd for several times, but never saw that familiar figure. Feeling a little upset, he reached out to push away a few fans who wanted autographs, and walked back without saying a word.
Suddenly, his eyes paused, his peripheral vision glanced at the corner of the bar, and he froze in place as if petrified.
Two people were sitting there, leaning against the countertop leisurely, each holding a glass of orange wine and chatting in a low voice. He could recognize the tall and thin silhouette on the left even if he closed his eyes.
They were very close, and one of them leaned over and said something unknown, which made the other laugh and hit his shoulder, their gestures and movements were particularly intimate.
It’s so intimate that it’s blinding.
In less than five minutes, several members of the band noticed that their lead singer was back. Compared with when he left, this time there was obviously a lower pressure on his body, his face was slightly calm, and he seemed to be in a bad mood.
The three of them were silent, not wanting to provoke him at this time.
After coming out of the bar, they planned to find a restaurant to have something to eat.As I was walking, I saw a tall and thin figure standing under a streetlight not far away. The man’s face was hidden in the backlight and his appearance could not be seen clearly.
When they walked over, they could clearly feel that Youdao’s gaze had been following them closely. His eyes were bright, and it was obvious that he was waiting here specifically.
This kind of situation has not been encountered before. Usually these are irrational fans. The four of them had more or less irritation on their faces. They were thinking about whether to change directions when the man suddenly spoke: “Xiao Jin…”
The moment he heard this voice, Jiang Jin paused, his eyebrows furrowed but he did not relax. He thought of the scene he had just seen, and his heart was blocked. Naturally, his tone was not good: “Didn’t I tell you not to come to me again?”
A trace of embarrassment flashed across Jiang Ran’s face, but he still insisted on speaking out.
“I…I heard that you hadn’t eaten yet, so I ordered some food, thinking…”
“No need.” Jiang Jin interrupted him coldly.
“I’ve ordered everything, take it, it’s still hot…”
Jiang Jin stretched out his hand and hugged Chen Qing, who was standing next to him, and said angrily: “I said no, no, no. I’m going to have dinner with my girlfriend later, where can I fit these things of yours?”
Chen Qing was stunned for a moment, not understanding what the fuss was about. She glanced sideways at Jiang Jin, but felt the hand holding her tighten a little.Chen Qing had a flash of inspiration and suddenly reacted, smiling sweetly at Jiang Ran in cooperation.
“Handsome, you really don’t need it. You can take it back and eat it yourself.”
Jiang Ran looked at the two of them with complicated eyes. This girl obviously looked different from the one he saw last time. He didn’t expect Jiang Jin’s personal life to be so chaotic now. He was clearly not like this before… The more Jiang Ran thought about it, the more uncomfortable he became, and he put the lunch box aside in despair.
“I’ve eaten. You don’t want to just throw it away, or you can give it to your friends.” He lowered his head, trying not to look at Jiang Jin, and said with a bit of urgency in his tone: “Then…I’ll leave first.”
As soon as he finished speaking, Jiang Ran raised his legs and hurried away in the other direction, as if he couldn’t stay any longer.
It wasn’t until his back completely disappeared that Jiang Jin sighed almost inaudibly and let go of Chen Qing’s hand.
Chen Qing said with a smile: “Did you discover me? You want to try with me.”
Jiang Jin didn’t say a word, his eyes kept falling in the direction Jiang Ran was leaving, and he didn’t give her any of it at all.
“Why don’t you speak?” Chen Qing teased and pushed him, “Are you shy?”
“Okay, stop making trouble.” Jiang Jin looked away, his expression a little ugly.
“Hey, you’re weird. Something’s wrong today.” Chen Qing glanced at him suspiciously, “Maybe it’s because of that boy just now. Who is he?”
“Don’t worry about it.” Jiang Jin felt agitated and wanted to smoke again. He put his hand in his pocket and touched the cigarette case inside. He held it in for a long time before he could not take it out.
He usually doesn’t smoke much, and he can only smoke one when he is particularly irritable. After all, smoking is not good for the throat. He has planned to quit smoking a long time ago, but has never succeeded.
Li Yunzhou, who was watching the show for a long time, suddenly had some doubts. He felt that the boy just now looked familiar. He thought about it for a long time and couldn’t remember where he had seen it before, so he simply gave up.
He has never been very interested in these things, and he is not as sensitive as others.At this moment, he was standing bored against the wall, holding his mobile phone in one hand to play a small game. He inadvertently raised his eyes and suddenly saw the lunch box Jiang Ran had just left.
Li Yunzhou quickly stepped forward to pick it up and opened it curiously, “Huh? Let me see what’s in here. Wow, sweet and sour pork ribs, cola chicken wings, braised beef, and stir-fried vegetables, they are all my favorite dishes!”
The aroma of the food penetrated his nose steadily, making Li Yunzhou a little greedy. He turned to look at Jiang Jin expectantly, “Speaking of which, I’m really hungry. You don’t want it anyway, so give it to me.”
Jiang Jin grabbed it with a dark face, “Ganggungun, is it for you? You just want to eat it.”
“Didn’t you just want it?” Li Yunzhou said unwillingly, “Why don’t you throw it away later? I’ll help you eat it? You can’t waste food!”
“If you give it to me, it’s mine. Even if you don’t want it, it’s still mine.” Jiang Jin lowered his eyes and hugged the things in his arms tightly. Jiang Ran didn’t lie. The lunch box was still hot, and he could clearly feel the warmth through his clothes.
“It’s really overbearing.” Li Yunzhou complained in a low voice with dissatisfaction.
He Siyu chewed on his cigarette, glanced at them expressionlessly, and spit out two words, “Childish.”
Jiang Jin glared at him, “Little Fatty, I’m telling you, don’t go too far.”
He Siyu turned his head and said, “That’s your brother, right?”
Jiang Jin was suddenly stunned.
“Ever since you were little, your brother is the only one who can make you look like you’re worthless.” He Siyu took the cigarette from his lips, took two steps into the night wind, and suddenly turned around, “If you care, chase him. How long will it take to be awkward? Five years? Ten years? Or… a lifetime?”
“Jiang Jin, don’t let yourself regret it.”
He Siyu recalled that when he first transferred to another school and bumped into Jiang Jin in class, the boy was sitting in the last row of the classroom, spinning a pen slowly in his hand. He was tall but thin, with an expressionless face. He was completely different from the talkative and cheerful child he had been when he was a child.
He hardly interacts with his classmates and spends all day alone. The most important thing he does every day is listen to music.In classrooms, dormitories, and some unknown corner of the campus, he waited quietly, immersed in various beating notes, as if that was all he had.
He was like a cocoon, completely closing himself off.
If the appearance and name weren’t familiar, He Siyu wouldn’t even believe that they were the same person.It wasn’t until the band was formed that the situation gradually improved.
As time went by, he became playful and noisy, just like before.But He Siyu can always hear clues from the songs he composed.Every song that passes through his hands, whether it is the written lyrics or the flowing melody, the lines between the words and the ups and downs of the melody, all have a layer of lingering melancholy, like water vapor that has not dried up on a rainy day.
He Siyu knew that he was not happy.
Until that day, he stayed up all night for the first time in history, without any news or explanation.But when He Siyu showed up at the rehearsal room the next day, he caught sight of the smile on his face. The smile came without warning and was even a little silly.But it makes people feel that he is really happy.
Even the most neurotic Li Yunzhou noticed it and asked people if they were in love.
“Escape can’t solve the problem, and neither can a cold war. It will only push people further and further away. No one will always have the patience to coax you.” He Siyu said with a cold face: “Can’t you be so naive? Otherwise, I will feel embarrassed to be your friend.”
Time is indeed a knife. It sharpened Jiang Jin from a child who loved crying and acting coquettishly to a bad and arrogant boy. It also turned the lively and round “little fat” into the cold and venomous He Siyu.
But no matter how cruel it is, some things will never change, such as the reunion of Jiang Jin and He Siyu, the encounter with Jiang Ran again, and the elder brother who he… cares about.
Jiang Jin stood there in a daze, looking at the scarlet spot on He Siyu’s fingertips.
When facing Jiang Ran, he was always torn between caring about him and resenting him.He still treats him as an older brother, but he doesn’t want to treat him as an older brother.
Jiang Jin didn’t know what to do, but he definitely wouldn’t let Jiang Ran get further and further away from him, and he definitely wouldn’t stay stuck with Jiang Ran for the rest of his life.
There is a hurdle in his heart. When will that hurdle be overcome?Jiang Jin didn’t have an answer, but how long could Jiang Ran’s patience last?
Jiang Jin didn’t dare to gamble.
Because he cared too much, he didn’t dare to bet on whether he would come up to her again after pushing him away again and again.
Jiang Jin turned around suddenly as if he had been burned by something, took off the guitar from his back, and stuffed it into He Siyu’s arms.
The young man’s words came from the wind, “Little Fatty, take it back for me. I have to leave first.” Before he could finish his words, the man had already turned the corner and disappeared.
He Siyu silently hugged the guitar, put out the cigarette that had burned to the end, and said with disdain: “It’s still the same as when I was a kid. It’s so stupid.”
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Jiang Jin chased after Jiang Ran in the direction he had just left, still holding the takeout bag with the lunch box in his hand.As he walked, he was thinking about what attitude he would use to talk to Jiang Ran later.
He thought about it, or he could soften his tone a little and say that he was indeed a little hungry, so he wouldn’t bother and let him eat with him.
Jiang Jin thought about it, feeling a little happy in his heart. A faint smile appeared on his face. However, the smile was only half raised when he suddenly saw two figures standing under the streetlight in front of him.
They were so close that they were almost touching. The taller one put his hand on the other’s face and touched each other intimately.
Jiang Jin squinted his eyes, and under the dim street light, he saw the face of one of them clearly, it was Jiang Ran who had just left.
Tonight, he seemed to have been with that strange boy, and he bumped into him twice.
A feeling of depression surged up from his chest. Jiang Jin clenched the bag in his hand and almost broke a silver tooth.
On the other side, Jiang Ran didn’t even realize there was someone standing not far away. He touched his face and asked, “What is it?”
He Qian deliberately scared him, “A spider, as big as a little finger, hahahaha.”
“It’s weird to believe you.” Jiang Ran slapped him away and felt something on his palm. When he spread it out, he saw a seven-star ladybug lying quietly on it. The black shell was dotted with seven bright red dots. It looked quite cute.Jiang Ran curved the corner of his mouth, blew lightly, let the bug fly, turned to He Qian and said, “Didn’t I tell you that I have something else to do and let you go first?”
He thought He Qian had already gone back and planned to take a taxi back to school, but he didn’t expect that He Qian was still here waiting for him.
“I’m not in a hurry anyway.” He Qian smiled at him and said nonchalantly, “I’ll just wait for you to go back together.”
Jiang Ran was helpless, “Have you been waiting for a long time?”
“No, just for a moment.” He Qian said, “But who did you order just now?”
Jiang Ran hesitated: “…a friend.” Thinking of Jiang Jin’s attitude just now, he couldn’t help but feel a little disappointed on his face.
In fact, Jiang Jin’s reaction was within Jiang Ran’s expectation, but he couldn’t help but want to be nice to him.That was the younger brother he had raised with his own hands. He had watched him grow from such a little kid to what he is now. How could he be willing to ignore him?
“Is that so…” He Qian noticed something was wrong with his expression and asked, “What’s wrong?”
Jiang Ran shook his head and said nothing.
He Qian stopped asking. He sighed and said distressedly: “It seems that you have been unhappy all night. I regret bringing you here…” Before he finished speaking, he laughed, “Forget it, let’s go back first. I drank some wine and can’t drive. How about we go for a while? Just pretend to be sober.”
Jiang Ran looked at the time and saw that it was not too late. Besides, he was in a really bad mood today and wanted to take some time to relax, so he nodded in agreement.
The two walked slowly along the asphalt road, their silhouettes stretched out by the street lights.
He Qian deliberately made him happy and told some interesting jokes from time to time, which made Jiang Ran laugh so hard that he almost burst into tears.
Not far away, Jiang Jin’s figure was hidden in the night. He silently watched the scene in front of him, his face getting darker and darker, as if there was a fire burning in his heart, which made his internal organs throb and hurt everywhere on his body.
He wasn’t happy anymore, and he wasn’t happy looking at what he was holding. He felt like a fool just now.
Jiang Jin sneered, walked to the trash can with a gloomy face, and was about to throw down the bag in his hand.After a long while, I finally couldn’t bear to let it go, so I took back my hand angrily.
C University and S University were not far away, but they were not together. When they were approaching the school, He Qian waved to Jiang Ran and walked in the opposite direction.
Jiang Ran walked alone on campus.It was dark now, and there was almost no one around. Although the street lights were on in the school, the atmosphere was still very dark.He had to pass through a trail back to his dormitory, surrounded by tall trees, displayed with arrogant teeth and claws, which looked a bit weird. Jiang Ran frowned and couldn’t help but quicken his pace.
Suddenly, a powerful hand reached out from behind and grabbed his arm.
Caught off guard, Jiang Ran was pulled so hard that he almost fell to the ground.He quickly turned around to look, and there was a tall and thin figure standing behind him, looking at him with a serious face. It was clearly Jiang Jin whom he had just met not long ago.
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The author has something to say: My younger brother will soon lose his arrogance.