Chew Slowly Chapter 86

Chapter 86 Chapter 86

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During the evening class, Yue Zhong went to the main hall to chant sutras, and Xu Qiaochuan followed others to meditate in the meditation hall.After sitting with four incense sticks, a novice monk came over during the break and said that the old Zen master wanted to see him.

There is a small room for people to rest behind the Medicine Master Hall, where the old Zen Master would sit in meditation and drink tea at night.The room is decorated with tea tables, incense cups, and several futons.The window opens very well, and the wintersweet tree occupies a corner of the framed view, followed by the treasure hall and the pagoda.Xu Qiaochuan came here for the third time, and he didn’t see Yuanyi this time.

He sat down, lowered his eyes and nodded, and took a small white porcelain tea cup.The tea cup was warm and slowly ironed the fingertips. Xu Qiaochuan held it tighter.The golden tea soup is as clear as a mirror, with a few wisps of hot air wafting out, but there is nothing special about it.The aroma is all collected in the water, and you only know the taste when you take it in your mouth.He didn’t understand tea, so he couldn’t taste the clear and sweet aroma, but it still felt bitter.

“How many days is it?”

“The seventh day.”

The order limit in the temple is three days. Yesterday, he went to the living room and did not get his ID card and mobile phone back, so he signed the book again.

Neither of them spoke anymore, smoke curled up in the room.The old Zen master maintained his auspicious posture, with his shoulders slightly clasped and his arms hanging naturally.Because he has a temperament in his chest, his spine is straight, and his back is not leaning back, he looks dignified even if his posture is relaxed.Xu Qiaochuan sat across from him and could feel his gentle and even breathing, but he was not asleep.If you open your eyes fully, you will be distracted, and if you close them, you will be tired and lethargic, so you only open them slightly.

“You are more patient than him.” The old Zen master said.

The words are unclear, but it is not difficult to guess who that “he” is.After finishing another cup of tea, half of the remaining fragrance disappeared. Xu Qiaochuan heard a sighing sound, and the old Zen master said, “Go back.”

Going is a purposeful action. Where are you going?It shouldn’t be the other side. He has never been to the other side, so how can he go back.Perhaps this sentence has no Zen meaning and no profound meaning. It just tells Xu Qiaochuan to continue to sit in meditation.He didn’t even hear the intention of expulsion, but he couldn’t stay in Zhaozheng Temple forever.

At the end of the incense burning, the blue smoke was too light to be seen clearly.

Xu Qiaochuan retreated to the door. He could leave with one step. He did not go out, but kept the door ajar.Yuanyi said that in order to seek Prajna, the old Zen master practiced painstakingly for decades, and his Taoist mind was like a diamond, unshakable.Prajna is the ultimate wisdom, the wisdom that can recognize all things and see the origin of all things.Who can obtain this wisdom?Obviously still in the mortal world.

The person being questioned smiled lightly, knowing that he was in the mortal world, so he continued to practice.

“Yuanyi asked me if I wanted to practice here all the time.”

“But you didn’t answer. You still don’t know what you want.”

Xu Qiaochuan seemed to be frozen. He wanted to refute something or ask something in return, but he could foresee how the other party would answer before he even spoke.

“You are very smart, and you may be able to know the answer one day, but you are also very stubborn.” The old Zen master lit another incense, turned the lamp, and the whole room suddenly became much brighter.Xu Qiaochuan was startled by the bright light. The old Zen master sat back and said, “All living beings on the earth possess the wisdom and virtue of the Tathagata, but they cannot achieve it due to delusional thinking and persistence.”

He knew what it meant and was silent for a moment.

“Yuanyi asked me if you would have a Dharma name if you stayed here.” The old Zen master paused and looked at Xu Qiaochuan. He knew that this young man had many names.

Xu Qiaochuan was shivering all over because of the wind that came in, and raised his head slightly.His hair was very long, and a piece of his hair fell down on the back of his head because of this movement. The wind blew over the back of his neck, as if a hand was caressing it.The Buddhists call the hair three thousand threads of troubles. To enter Buddhism, one must abandon worldly connections and purify the six roots. Of course, troubles are also eliminated.He thought of Yuan Yi’s green scalp, with a thin layer of stubble covering his forehead.

“What is my Dharma name?”

“Didn’t Yuanyi tell you?”

Xu Qiaochuan thought about it all night but couldn’t figure it out.Yuanyi is a carefree and casual person who also likes to talk to people.This means that he can say a few words to anyone and can stop his words at any place. Just like his name, he attaches great importance to “fate”.

Fate is such a vague thing that it’s hard to explain clearly.After hearing Xu Qiaochuan ask why, he thought for a while and said that maybe it was because he saw Xu Qiaochuan covered with injuries that day and staring at the Buddha in a daze.

“Isn’t that unusual?”

“It’s so normal. People sometimes can’t understand themselves.” Yuanyi smiled, and they went to the Medicine Master Hall. Outside, there was always a saying that the Medicine Buddha of Zhaozheng Temple was very effective. But Xu Qiaochuan didn’t ask for anything that day. “You casually worshiped Sunlight Bodhisattva, and then asked me what ‘Buddha’ is, but you don’t seem to care about the answer.”

Xu Qiaochuan wanted to know now. He asked what “Buddha” was.

“Treat it as a philosophy. It can help you figure out some problems.” Yuan Yi touched his heart. He had undergone two heart bypass surgeries. “But I can’t help you solve it. If you are beaten, call the police immediately. If you are sick, go directly to the hospital. This is more straightforward.”

Xu Qiaochuan didn’t sleep well tonight and woke up many times from his dreams.He couldn’t figure out what that dream was. His body was burning hot, but his hands and feet were so cold that he couldn’t sleep warm.He huddled under the quilt and closed his eyes until sleep disappeared.Without his cell phone, Xu Qiaochuan couldn’t tell the time. He opened his eyes and saw that there was no light outside the window.

It’s the eighth day.Xu Qiaochuan was lying in a very uncomfortable position. A quilt could press him down until his chest felt tight and he couldn’t breathe.He was so frozen that he didn’t dare to move, and couldn’t even remove the things that were tied to his body.There was an erection underneath me, and the thing was hard and painfully swollen.The wet fabric clings to the skin, and the cool touch makes one’s throat tighten.

He tensed up until his thigh muscles trembled and his legs spasmed.Xu Qiaochuan curled his legs back and pressed his back against the wall. The cold made him sober up a little.He still didn’t dare to vent his anger, and the cramping pain made him break into a cold sweat, which also gave him a little secret pleasure.His mouth was full of rusty gas and his throat was filled with sweetness. After realizing what was ejected from his penis, he leaned back in horror and hit the back of his head against the wall.

The balcony has a semi-open design and is not windproof. When Xu Qiaochuan is blown by the winter wind, the heat on the surface of the body is dissipated, but the inside of the body is still suffering from the burning pain. The fire cannot be extinguished by blowing or dousing.He lay on the side of the pool and vomited for a long time, until he couldn’t close his mouth. He watched helplessly as all the water in his body drained out.The tiles were slippery with water, and he was shivering from the cold. He couldn’t hold his hands steady and fell straight down.

Om – In the golden palace, the golden Buddha lowered his eyebrows and looked at him. One moment he was right in front of him, and the next moment he was separated by twelve divine generals and seven thousand Yaaksha followers. They were separated by endless time and space and were out of reach.

Xu Qiaochuan got up from the ground and poured water on his face. The illusion of Buddha suddenly disappeared.He was trembling all over, both from the cold and from the filthy lust.Ashamed in this pure place, he did not dare to look at the Buddha or himself, and suffered in silence.

Om – This time he saw Buddha and Bodhisattva again, formless and formless, and Xu Qiaochuan realized the eternal existence.The tangible and traceable things here are him, and the fleeting things are also him.A mortal composed of color, feeling, thought, action, and consciousness is born naked and born with obsessions and desires.

The water was too cold, and my face stung, and the wind made me numb and stiff.He washed his face and hands, and put most of his wet clothes on his body, wrapping him in the deep cold air.As if being prompted, Xu Qiaochuan paused as he held the doorknob. He seemed to know why he came here – he was afraid of death.

“Desire is born because of love, and life exists because of desire. All living beings love life and rely on desire. Love of desire is the cause, and love of life is the result. It is due to the state of desire. All disobedience, love and jealousy arise due to love, and all kinds of karma are created, so they are reborn as hungry ghosts in hell.”

If life is like a mote of dust that can be blown away, you must hold on to something to keep it.He remembered that he had caught Lu Xiaoyun and Chen Zongqian.Later, he let go first because he didn’t catch himself.

The light of the lotus lantern in the wind was so weak. He asked Chen Zongqian, but he did not dare to ask what his wish was.It was clear that all the sight that passed through him must first pass through him. Xu Qiaochuan did not look at himself, but remained terrified for a long time.

Everything was so complicated that he could forget it whenever he wanted, but he forgot himself first.What is the forgotten “I”?

Om—both the Buddha and the Bodhisattva were missing. He was in a small room with closed doors and windows. There was no light in front of him and he could not see anything clearly.

“The so-called foolishness is ignorance.”

Xu Qiaochuan covered his face with his hands, and his cold hands felt the tears that were so hot.His mind is dark, ignorant, and his thoughts, hearings, and visions are all upside down. What is he?Chen Xingran, who was expected and blessed during her ten-month pregnancy, Xie Mingxiao, who was playing in the seaside park, and Xu Qiaochuan, who was stubborn and stubborn, were all him.

The morning bell of Zhaozheng Temple rang, and at five o’clock in the morning, a call came from the building. The incandescent lamp suddenly lit up, and a ray of light penetrated through the fingers.

For the first time, he burned incense in the Medicine Master’s Hall and worshiped Sunlight Bodhisattva.At that time Yuanyi said to him: “Sunlight Bodhisattva breaks through the darkness. I hope you can have a bright mind in the future.”

Xu Qiaochuan took out a small book of notes and wrote only two pages in the many days he came to Zhaozheng Temple.A few days ago, he finished looking for the master in the living room and applied to stay in Zhaozheng Temple.Yuanyi smiled and told him that if he had been practicing here, he would also have a Dharma name.

But he won’t be here forever, so he didn’t say it directly, just skipped it and let him guess by himself.

He guessed it was “Ying Lan”.

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Sorry for being late. One of the exams was advanced. I was reviewing last week. During this period, my left eye condition was not very good, so I didn’t write much.

This article is actually almost finished. I will try my best to finish it within 14 chapters.

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“All living beings on the earth possess the wisdom and virtue of the Tathagata, but they cannot achieve it due to delusional thinking and persistence.” “Huayan Sutra”

“Desire is born because of love, and life exists because of desire. All living beings love life and rely on desire. Love of desire is the cause, and love of life is the result. It is due to the state of desire. All disobedience, love, and jealousy arise due to love, and all kinds of karma are created, so they are reborn as hungry ghosts in the hell.” “Sutra of Perfect Enlightenment”

“The so-called ignorance is ignorance.” “Kusashastra”