AHFAFTGTTT Chapter 55

Chapter 55 First Snow “Xu Chengyue, happy birthday.”……

Chapter 55 First Snow “Xu Chengyue, happy birthday.”……

The core condition for the formation of dissociative identity disorder is severe childhood trauma.

Children escape unbearable physical and mental pain by separating consciousness from painful experiences.

Xu Chengyue couldn’t understand why a person would have such a big change. Perhaps only dissociative identity disorder could explain the completely different changes before and after.

Since returning from the island, Xu Chengyue had always been on edge, and finally felt that the reason why the relationship between the two of them had reached this point was because he didn’t know Shangguan Yaoguang enough.

To figure out what’s going on, maybe it has something to do with this place.

Red Star Welfare Home.

Located in a small county in the next city, it takes nearly 4 hours to drive to get there.

So when they got out of the car, it was almost five o’clock in the afternoon.

It happened to be New Year’s Eve, and the welfare home was leading the children to make dumplings in the yard.

Seeing strangers at the door, they all timidly looked up at them.

Xu Chengyue distributed the gifts he had bought in advance to the children.

“Brother… the director said we can’t take things from strangers.”

The older girl protected the other children behind her.

Everyone stared eagerly at the beautiful Transformers, Barbie dolls, and all kinds of New Year’s goodies, their mouths watering, but they obediently didn’t come forward.

“Take it.” Shangguan Yaoguang took off his mask and said.

The children immediately rushed forward and said happily, “Brother Star is back!”

“Go and call Grandma Director!”

Several children ran to the inner room.

“They all know you?” Xu Chengyue asked.

“I send gifts back every year, and Grandma probably showed them my photos.” Shangguan Yaoguang lowered his head, a strong sense of inferiority wrapped around his body, making his face even more gloomy, “How did you know about this place?”

“Da da da” The sound of a bamboo pole hitting the ground sounded a little hurried.

Before Xu Chengyue could answer, he looked towards the direction of the sound.

The wooden door of the main house slowly opened, and an elderly woman with wrinkles all over her face, white hair, and crutches walked out.

She limped over, and Shangguan Yaoguang and Xu Chengyue quickly went to support her.

“Ah Xing, brought a friend back to play.” Grandma Director looked at Xu Chengyue kindly. Her whites of her eyes had become a little cloudy after years of rendering, but her expression was very clear.

Shangguan Yaoguang immediately replied, “Not a friend.”

Xu Chengyue glanced at him, lowered his eyes a little disappointed, and first helped Grandma to sit down at the table.

He went to wash his hands and made dumplings with the children.

In the cold winter, this welfare home was really dilapidated. A shed was set up outside, with a table underneath. The old and the young were gathered here to celebrate the New Year.

“Do you have to humiliate me like this?”

Xu Chengyue was mixing the meat filling with chopsticks when he suddenly heard a condescending voice behind him. He tilted his head slightly, “Why do you say that?”

“Xiao Xu, you put the wrong thing, that’s sugar, not salt.” Grandma said slowly, handing over the seasoning bottle, “Didn’t you taste it?”

Xu Chengyue was stunned, “I’m sorry, I didn’t notice.”

He was about to take the seasoning salt when Shangguan Yaoguang grabbed his wrist in the next moment. Instantly, the plate of dumplings was spilled on the ground, and he was dragged forcefully outside the welfare home.

“Who asked you to help?” Shangguan Yaoguang’s eyelashes trembled slightly, “Do you just want to see me make a fool of myself? That’s right, I grew up in this kind of environment, are you satisfied?”

“I didn’t want to see you make a fool of yourself, I just wanted to understand you better.” Xu Chengyue pressed his reddened wrist and turned to look at the group of people lovingly surrounding the wooden table.

Although poor, they are very happy.

“I’m very envious.”

Xu Chengyue’s eyes were clear, without any ridicule or disgust.

Realizing that he had misunderstood the other party, Shangguan Yaoguang opened his mouth, but still didn’t say an apology. He stubbornly turned his head, “What exactly do you want to do?”

“I like you.” Xu Chengyue’s weak voice was full of grievance, “I didn’t… want to do anything.”

The cold wind blew, and the lanterns hanging in front of the welfare home swayed crazily.

Xu Chengyue shrank his neck. If it was before, his younger brother would definitely put his scarf on him, hold his hand to warm it, and tickle him with a mischievous smile.

But now… there is only questioning, avoidance, and indifference left.

“I didn’t want to do anything, why are you suddenly so cold to me, what did I do wrong.” Xu Chengyue’s nose was a little red, and he continued to ask softly.

The black-haired youth in front of him had reddish eyes, and a drop of tear hung from the tips of his long and dense eyelashes. His lower lip was biting out a row of pale crescent-shaped marks.

Pitifully and hatefully asking him what he did wrong.

Being watched like this, Shangguan Yaoguang took two steps back unnaturally.

He wanted to reach out and wipe the tears from the corner of his eyes, but forced himself to put his hands behind his back.

“Do you remember when we first met?”

Xu Chengyue was stunned.

That was five years ago.

Shangguan Yaoguang was the last person to arrive among the trainees.

The most memorable thing about his first meeting with him was his eyes, as quiet and cold as a pool of water.

He was about the same age as Hao Yun, but he wasn’t noisy at all, and stood quietly to the side.

The scout teacher held his hand and said that he was a substitute for the team.

The competition among trainees who have not formed a team is very fierce.

And this sentence “substitute” made Shangguan Yaoguang seem to be inferior from birth.

No one was willing to take the initiative to talk to him, and even intentionally or unintentionally isolated him.

It happened that Xu Chengyue was carrying snacks and drinks and opened the door to reward everyone. At that time, he had already been valued by Li An, and everyone knew that his forming a team was a certainty. Seeing him coming, they all rushed to his side, enthusiastically saying some flattering and meaningless words.

The liveliness here formed a sharp contrast with the coldness there.

Across the crowd, Xu Chengyue and Shangguan Yaoguang looked at each other, and that was the first time they met.

“New partner?”

The snacks and drinks had already been divided up by the rushing trainees. Xu Chengyue took the last bottle of Coke from his pocket and walked up to him.

“Welcome you.”

Shangguan Yaoguang lowered his eyes and took the bottle of Coke with water mist on it.

The coolness of the iced soda in summer could not compare to the beauty of the person in front of him.

That was also the first time Shangguan Yaoguang met Xu Chengyue. Because of the sentence “substitute”, all the trainees called him around, directing him to do errands like an assistant. Only Xu Chengyue was different, and worked hard to help him catch up with the progress of others.

He asked, “Is it useful?”

Shangguan Yaoguang, who was only sixteen years old, was selected because of his face. He had no strengths and was completely inferior to those who had been practicing singing and dancing for a while. He even wanted to give up, return to the welfare home, and accept his fate.

But Xu Chengyue said, “As long as you want, nothing is impossible.”

So Shangguan Yaoguang stood out from the first school exam and got the place to stay. Among those who were eliminated happened to be those who once looked down on him and bullied him.

Looking at those unbelievable and exasperated eyes, he felt very happy.

That was the first time he felt that his fate was in his own hands.

But from then on, he couldn’t control his gaze and couldn’t help but fall on someone.

“Do you know why I hate homosexuality?”

The two of them sat on the mossy stone steps, one above the other. Shangguan Yaoguang suddenly opened his mouth.

“Why?”

“Because the father who gave birth to me was a gay man who married for deception and killed my mother.” Shangguan Yaoguang stared at the plum tree in front of him with hatred. A layer of snow and frost had condensed on the branches, “He was caught in bed in their marital room after ten years of marriage.”

Later, during the divorce, the two had an argument and died in a car accident at the same time. He also became an orphan and came to the welfare home.

“Your so-called liking will only remind me again and again that I have his dirty blood flowing in me.”

Shangguan Yaoguang’s eyes were bloodshot.

He wrote “I hate Xu Chengyue” in his diary over and over again, with such force that he almost pierced the entire book. He hated this person, not because he really hated him, but to warn himself that he was not gay, and he must never be.

The dirty monster born from his mother’s womb must never betray her.

If even he betrayed her, then what was her ten years of youth, what was her deceived life?

Xu Chengyue raised his eyes helplessly, “Then… you clearly said before…”

“Everything I said before doesn’t count.” Shangguan Yaoguang turned his head and said. His gloomy and world-weary profile looked even more ruthless when he didn’t make any expression.

“So you don’t like me, you’ve been… teasing me.” Xu Chengyue’s breath trembled slightly, saying each word one by one.

Shangguan Yaoguang turned his eyes, “You can understand it that way.”

“Even if the confession is fake, the liking is fake.”

Xu Chengyue’s eyes were filled with mist, and large tears fell from the corners of his eyes. He stubbornly wanted to get a result, “Then squatting down to tie my shoelaces, accompanying me to watch the stars, always taking care of me, and saying that I am the most important, and even risking his life to save me in the fire that day, is also… fake?”

“Yes, they are all fake.” Shangguan Yaoguang stood up, like a judge sitting high above, and announced with a final word, “The person you mentioned is fake.”

“Just pretend that he never existed.”

As the last words fell, Xu Chengyue instantly lost all his strength, and leaned weakly on the cold stone steps, looking at his back getting further and further away, his eyes blurred.

For the first time in his life, he offered his true heart, but it was brutally smashed to the ground and crushed.

It turned out to be a foolish infatuation.

Spots of white fell on the bluestone steps, gently as if to comfort him.

Xu Chengyue couldn’t breathe from crying, and slowly raised his head, he stretched out his trembling hand——

It’s snowing.

The first snow on New Year’s Eve.

It’s not a love, but a breakup.

…………

It’s snowing?

Fu Yang, who had been waiting all day, was still squatting at the entrance of the dormitory area. He wanted to see Xu Chengyue come back safely before leaving.

Didn’t Xu Chengyue wear a scarf when he went out? It seems like he’s wearing a little less. This idiot definitely didn’t take good care of himself again.

Fu Yang couldn’t help but think worriedly, but was interrupted by the “ding-dong” phone notification sound.

He opened WeChat and saw that Xie Wanwan had forwarded him a post.

Lung Mist Cousin: [There is news that Xu Chengyue’s next announcement is “Apex Era”. This is their official Weibo.]

Fu Yang’s eyes lit up, and he immediately found the program’s Weibo. The first pinned post was——

“Youth has no definition, dare to fight is the edge, the next group to debut is you! Come and sign up~”

The registration time was about to end, so Fu Yang quickly filled in his identity information. His fingers were a little frozen, and he almost clicked the wrong button several times. It took him a little effort to fill out the registration form and click submit.

Uncle Wang, the security guard, was right. Chasing stars must go through formal channels and use the correct method.

If he and Xu Chengyue met at the wrong time with the wrong identity, then this time he would use formal channels and meet him openly with the identity of Fu Yang.

Fu Yang stood up, the previous decadence swept away. He stretched out his hand to catch the cool snowflakes——

“Xu Chengyue, happy birthday.”