AGMATSWHLMAR Chapter 83

Ruan Tang’s breath hitched, completely unprepared that Auston was in such a condition.

He already felt that fate had been cruel enough to Auston, but he hadn’t expected it to be even crueler.

His heart skipped a beat, and he looked up at Auston’s eyes, not knowing how to comfort him. He could only stammer, “My Lord…you will get better, I believe you will get better.”

But the words he spoke clearly lacked persuasiveness.

“I know my own body. Whether it can get better or not, I’m well aware.” Auston mocked himself before he could finish speaking.

Looking at him like this, Ruan Tang felt a sharp pain in his heart. He wanted to comfort him, but felt that anything he said at this moment would be pale and powerless.

Auston gazed deeply at Ruan Tang, and suddenly began to take off his pants.

Ruan Tang was stunned by his sudden action, not knowing what Auston wanted to do. He couldn’t help but let his imagination run wild, nervously clutching his sleeve, his face suddenly turning red.

“Did you see it?” After taking off his pants, Auston looked at him intently and suddenly asked.

Ruan Tang’s face was flushed red, and he immediately asked, “See…see what?”

He was a typical case of wanting to do something daring but lacking the courage. When Auston was reserved in front of him, he would push his luck, but when Auston suddenly started taking off his pants, he regained his shyness…

He didn’t know how they jumped to this topic.

Nor did he know what Auston meant by asking what he saw.

Was it the size, or whether he was satisfied with what he saw?

“What nonsense are you thinking!” Seeing Ruan Tang’s blushing and shy appearance, Auston suddenly realized that Ruan Tang had misunderstood, and his face also turned red. He scolded in annoyance, “I’m talking about my legs.”

Ruan Tang came back to his senses and realized that Auston wasn’t as dirty-minded as he thought, and was completely innocent at heart. He immediately looked at Auston with some embarrassment.

Auston refused to talk to him anymore, and directly grabbed his hand, placing it on his own leg.

No, to be precise, it was a prosthetic leg.

His leg was skin-colored, made of simulated leather material, and even had a slight body temperature. It was connected to Auston’s brain by an intelligent central system. In this era of high-tech intelligence, all its functions were the same as a real leg, except for the lack of pain.

But it wasn’t a real leg after all.

Its existence declared Auston’s permanent disability.

At the moment he took off his pants, he decided to lift his last fig leaf and expose all his weaknesses in front of Ruan Tang.

Ruan Tang felt the touch of the prosthetic, which was different from real skin. He felt as if his heart was being twisted. Even with his usual eloquence, he couldn’t squeeze out a word from his throat. He could only look deeply at Auston: “My Lord…”

“Do you know? There have been countless people in this world who have shown goodwill to me and said they loved me, but I have never believed it. I know clearly that they are all after my power and status.” Auston looked at him intently, “I never thought that anyone would truly love me, not only because of my disability, but also because there seems to be nothing lovable about me as a person.”

“How can someone who is not even loved by their own parents be loved by anyone else?”

His voice was very soft, but the feeling it gave Ruan Tang was indescribably heavy.

Ruan Tang looked at him fixedly, and without thinking, said, “How can that be? My Lord, in my eyes, you are the most lovable person in the world. Even if no one loved you in the past, it was their fault, not yours.”

He didn’t know what to say to comfort Auston and touch and fill his fragile heart.

But he always felt that he should say something, even if the words were dry and lifeless.

Even if Auston was convinced that no one in the world loved him, he wanted Auston to know that he loved him.

“You said you liked me, wanted to be with me, and wanted to get me. I was actually very surprised, and even thought there was something wrong with your brain to say you liked me.” Auston mocked himself softly, no longer hiding his inferiority complex in front of Ruan Tang.

Ruan Tang immediately blurted out, “How could that be?”

“Now, I want to ask you again, now that you know and have seen that I am a disabled person who is not long for this world, do you still want to be with me and get me?” Auston looked deeply at Ruan Tang, his eyes reflecting as if only Ruan Tang’s shadow was there.

He looked calm on the surface, but his heart was extremely flustered and apprehensive.

Ruan Tang looked at him fixedly, holding his hand tightly, and said, word by word, “My Lord, you should know my answer. Even if your body is not perfect, even if you only have one day left to live, I still want to be with you and let you be my ALPHA.”

“Because, I love you.”

When he fell in love with Auston, he already knew that Auston was disabled and had flaws in his appearance.

He loved the true, complete Auston, so how could he give up because he had an illness he didn’t know about on top of his disability?

No matter what the future held, he had already decided to accompany Auston.

“Think carefully before you answer! If you make a choice today, even if you regret it in the future, I will never let you go. If we are together, unless I die, I will never let you leave my side…” Auston was somewhat burned by the sincerity in his eyes. He wanted to bite Ruan Tang’s nape and mark him, so that he would stay by his side from now on, but in the end, he still looked away, forcibly suppressed the desire in his heart, and asked again.

He gave Ruan Tang one last chance to back out.

If Ruan Tang didn’t leave, he was destined to belong only to him.

Ruan Tang lowered his eyes, and said with unparalleled firmness: “I couldn’t be clearer.”

Just as he had never liked someone as much as he liked Auston, he didn’t think that if he missed Auston, he could meet someone who would make his heart flutter like Auston.

“You…” Auston looked at his profile, somewhat dissatisfied with his quick answer, and wanted to say something more.

But Ruan Tang directly interrupted him: “My Lord, life is short, we should enjoy ourselves in time, and follow our heart to grab what we want most at the moment, don’t worry about anything else, or think about the future, that’s what you taught me.”

“And now I only know that what I want most at this moment is you…” Auston used to say that he was indecisive and looked before he leaped, but now he felt that Auston, who seemed to be free-spirited and reckless on weekdays, was actually the most indecisive and unable to be free and easy.

Auston stood there blankly for a moment, startled by his hot gaze, and his heart beat wildly. Suddenly, he didn’t know where the courage came from, and he hugged Ruan Tang around the waist.

His palms were full of sweat, and he didn’t know how he got entangled with Ruan Tang on the bed.

Auston used to treat Ruan Tang as a human-shaped aromatherapy lamp, a pillow, and a pet, and had been intimate with him countless times.

But it was the first time that he had been so close to an OMEGA in this way. Even in the dark night, he could clearly see the fine beads of sweat on Ruan Tang’s forehead, his red face, and his bitten lip and fluttering eyelashes that revealed unspeakable emotions because of nervousness.

And the pheromone smell that was unique to Ruan Tang, which usually made people feel calm and soothing, like an orchid but not an orchid, like a plum but not a plum, had also changed its smell, and suddenly became rich and slightly fishy…

Immediately afterwards, Auston’s own pheromone smell was also involuntarily released as if summoned…

The combination of the two people’s pheromone smells was like an overturned honey jar, making the air strangely sweet and greasy…

Auston was irritated and pained by the sweet and greasy pheromone smell on his body, as if a hundred ants were crawling all over him.

He had never done this kind of thing before, and his mind was highly tense. He was afraid that he would lose his mind due to the influence of the pheromone and inflict violence on Ruan Tang, without knowing the severity. He could only try his best to suppress himself and be as gentle as possible.

“…Are you, are you afraid? If you feel uncomfortable, tell me.” Auston breathed rapidly, his body covered in sweat, but he still pretended to be calm and said to Ruan Tang.

Ruan Tang was also very nervous at first, but he was suddenly silent when he heard Auston say this.

After a long while, he said: “…My Lord, why are you shaking? I’m not afraid, you’re the one who’s afraid, right?”

He also wanted to be as shy and afraid as other OMEGAs, but he really couldn’t do it in the face of such an ALPHA.

Auston: “…”

The two looked at each other in the dark, speechless. Ruan Tang suddenly regretted his quick words. He just wanted to say something to make up for it: “No, I…”

“I’m not shaking! I just saw that you were sweating profusely, and I was afraid you were scared!” Auston was immediately annoyed and angry, and used practical actions to prove to him that he was very calm and not afraid at all.

The two were entangled together in the darkness.

Just before the marking, Auston suddenly leaned close to Ruan Tang’s ear a little nervously and asked him, “Will you regret it?”

He didn’t know why, but Auston always felt that Ruan Tang would regret choosing to be with him in the future.

Because he was really a useless person.

“Stop talking nonsense here! Can you do it or not?” Ruan Tang took the initiative to put his arms around his neck and blocked his mouth with his mouth.

He used body language to tell him that he would not regret it.

And Auston also used practical actions to prove that he could…

At the moment when Auston’s canine teeth, carrying marking pheromones, broke through Ruan Tang’s glands, Auston’s lips were very hot, but Ruan Tang didn’t feel hot at all, but felt inexplicably warm and satisfied…

At the moment when their pheromones merged, Ruan Tang felt as if he had tasted the taste of Baileys Irish Cream, as sweet as Auston was.

Watching the person he loved entwine with him visually, every movement was the rhythm of love. Ruan Tang felt that he was not afraid or painful at all, but felt extremely enjoyable and grateful that there was such a distance in the world that was closer than an embrace.

Everything around was silent. After trying marking once, Auston was eager to try again.

Ruan Tang immediately widened his eyes and asked him: “My Lord, don’t you think this kind of thing is dirty? Why do you want to do it a second time?”

“I think other people are dirty, you’re not dirty.” Auston immediately gently kissed Ruan Tang’s forehead.

He had to apologize for his previous superficiality. He used to think that this kind of thing was dirty and violent, full of bestiality, but now that he had tasted it personally, Auston couldn’t help but feel that it was a happy thing for people to experience bestiality appropriately sometimes.

He was now a little addicted to it and enjoyed it.

The two communicated until dawn before stopping. They were both people with strong personal space awareness, and had never slept with anyone before.

But in the quiet space, the two hugged each other tightly, clearly hearing each other’s rhythmic, strong and powerful heartbeat, and the pheromone scent emanating from each other’s bodies.

The two, who originally thought that they would not be able to sleep well with someone else, both felt inexplicably calm in body and mind, and slept inexplicably sweetly.

The next morning, Auston woke up early.

He was as excited as a child, walking around in the room filled with Ruan Tang’s scent, running to Ruan Tang’s bedside to secretly kiss him, and gently touching his hair, like a bear child who had obtained some precious treasure.

Finally, he sat by the bed and stared at Ruan Tang motionlessly, as if he could never get enough of seeing him.

It could be said that Ruan Tang was finally woken up by his torture.