AGMATSWHLMAR Chapter 82

Ruan Tang looked at him steadily and said without hesitation, “Why would you think that way, my lord? You should know that no matter what you look like, in my eyes, you are the most handsome Alpha.”

He didn’t know how to comfort the Alpha in front of him, so he could only gently and lovingly stroke the scars on his face.

“But this face of mine has scared my own mother and countless maids into tears. Omega, some of them even cried out that I was a demon…” Auston didn’t know why he was saying this, but looking at Ruan Tang’s peaceful eyes, he inexplicably wanted to confide.

Ruan Tang immediately grabbed his hand, as if wanting to convey his strength and thoughts to Auston through the warmth in his hand, “But I am not Her Majesty the Empress, nor am I those Omegas.”

“In my heart, you have always been unique.”

In the eyes of the Empress and others, Auston may be a dispensable pawn that can be replaced at any time, but in his eyes, Auston is always the most special and irreplaceable one.

“Really?” Auston looked straight at him.

Before Ruan Tang could respond, Auston grabbed his wrist and pulled him into his arms with a slightly forceful gesture, kissing him deeply.

Ruan Tang had forcibly kissed Auston countless times, but this was the first time he had been kissed by Auston, and he couldn’t help but be stunned.

The Alpha’s kiss carried a strength and dominance that was completely different from that of an Omega, leaving Ruan Tang with no room to dodge, as he rampaged and entangled with him tenderly.

Ruan Tang stared at him blankly for a long while before he came back to his senses and slowly responded to the forceful and irresistible kiss led by Auston.

The two gradually became lost in each other, forgetting themselves and fully invested.

Just then, the hovering car’s vehicle system’s inappropriate mechanical voice suddenly rang out: “Ding! Destination reached.”

Auston woke up as if from a dream, realizing what he had just done. His face suddenly darkened, as if foreseeing something, and he immediately released Ruan Tang, stood up, his face flushed red as if wanting to escape, and strode out of the hovering car towards the mansion, “It’s getting late, let’s go back and rest.”

After exposing Seth’s identity, he was no longer obsessed with maintaining the wheelchair-bound persona in front of Ruan Tang, and his steps were so large they were almost comical.

“My lord.”

“My lord.”

He walked towards the room without saying a word, even ignoring the greetings from the servants in the mansion.

Ruan Tang took a deep look at him, hesitated for a moment, and immediately followed, keeping pace with Auston.

All the way to Auston’s room.

Auston, who vaguely felt a headache, a sign that he was about to have an attack, was like Cinderella who had to flee the ball when the clock struck twelve.

He wanted to be with Ruan Tang, to be happy and sweet with him, but his illness had to jump out and remind him at inappropriate times.

He couldn’t, he wasn’t worthy…

With this body, he didn’t even know how long he could live, so how could he give Ruan Tang happiness?

Auston’s heart was filled with mixed emotions, and he didn’t know what to feel. He finally managed to control himself and return to his room. Just as he was about to close the door, Ruan Tang squeezed in.

“Aren’t you going back to sleep? What are you doing in my room?” Auston looked at Ruan Tang unhappily, with faint red blood vessels seeping into his eyes, making him look abnormally fierce.

Ruan Tang was not afraid of him at all, and looked straight at Auston and said, “We are already married. Your room is my room. Of course I’m here to sleep with you.”

Everything had developed so well tonight. Auston had even taken the initiative to kiss him. Ruan Tang could feel that he was also moved by him.

Almost, just a little bit, just a bed…they could.

Ruan Tang didn’t know why Auston was so fickle, suddenly becoming like this as soon as he got home.

But after being in a stalemate with Auston for so long, and finally making such a big breakthrough, Ruan Tang was unwilling to give up like this, giving Auston another chance to dodge.

He knew that he had to strike while the iron was hot, so that the relationship between him and Auston could go further.

“Go back to your own room to sleep. We can talk about anything tomorrow. Now get back to your own room.” Auston didn’t know why this Omega was so clingy, able to take such a big step with just a little encouragement.

But feeling his head starting to ache, he couldn’t care about anything else, and only wanted to drive Ruan Tang out of his territory…

Lest he accidentally hurt him if he had an attack later.

Ruan Tang didn’t know what was wrong with him, grabbed his wrist, and stared at him, “Not that kind of sleeping. The sleeping I’m talking about is that I want to sleep with you. I want to sleep with you… don’t you understand?”

He really didn’t understand what Auston was still struggling with when an Omega had already taken the initiative to this extent.

“Sleep what? What are you talking about? How can an Omega be so vulgar and have such dirty thoughts?” Auston didn’t expect Ruan Tang to be so straightforward, and his face flushed red, even forgetting his headache, “That kind of thing is so violent, beastly, and dirty. Even as an Alpha, I find it disgusting and dirty. Don’t you feel dirty or scared as an Omega?”

The “that kind of thing” he was referring to was marking.

As an upper-class person in the Imperial Star’s aristocratic circle, and with such a promiscuous father, even if Auston didn’t like it himself, and had always kept himself clean, he still had many impressions of that matter.

The power imbalance between AOs and the fatal attraction of Omegas to Alphas meant that the relationship between AOs could not be equal. In relationships, Omegas were destined to be at a disadvantage. Auston had seen many injuries and misfortunes caused to Omegas by AO relationships.

Some Omegas were clearly in love with someone else, and were even preparing to get married, but due to a sudden heat and the failure of suppressants, they were marked by an Alpha with a very high pheromone compatibility but whom they did not love at all. They didn’t have the courage to undergo a painful marking removal surgery for Omegas, and were bound for life, living under the control and shadow of that Alpha for the rest of their lives.

There were also some proud and usually aloof Omegas like him, who found their partners to be decent before marriage, but after marriage, they discovered that their partners were hopeless straight-A cancers. During the Omega’s most vulnerable heat, they took advantage of their pheromones to do whatever they wanted, making demands that their partners could not resist on weekdays, demanding that the usually proud Omega kneel down and lick their feet, their shoes. If the Omega didn’t lick, they wouldn’t let them be rescued, or even let them drink water, insisting on subduing the Omega during the heat, perversely enjoying the humiliation of pride.

There were also those who forced Omegas to do everything to humiliate other Omegas during this special period… All kinds of Alphas who usually looked well-dressed seemed to expose their perverted nature during heat.

The power imbalance, pheromone suppression, and the special nature of the heat constitution meant that Omegas could not resist.

Many Alphas who looked normal on weekdays, when affected by Omega pheromones during heat, would become paranoid and perverted, completely releasing the evil in their humanity.

Auston knew that there were quite a few Omegas who were usually very proud, thinking they had found an Alpha they could control, but who were humiliated during heat. After the heat, they were driven crazy and depressed.

Therefore, even though he was powerful and could have anything he wanted, Auston had never thought about trying it.

He always felt that the reason why humans were humans and not beasts was because humans could suppress this desire. The combination of pheromones between AOs was no different from stimulating the beastliness in people’s hearts, making people become less human and more like animals during a specific period.

Auston always felt that that matter was very dirty and disgusting.

Although he was an Alpha, possessing greater power than BOs, Auston always felt that Betas, who were not affected by pheromones, were the ultimate form of evolution…

Although as an Alpha he sometimes found it difficult to control his desires, and it was difficult not to fantasize and lust after Omegas, it was also because he recognized himself as the abuser in AO relationships.

In his eyes, Omegas were completely victims, so unless it was for procreation, he found it difficult to understand why Omegas would rush to demand this kind of thing, and have expectations for it.

Ruan Tang didn’t expect that the reason why Auston was so self-respecting was so platonic and pure, and he felt that the Alpha in front of him was more girly than he could have imagined.

“I don’t think there’s anything dirty about this kind of thing. It’s just like eating and drinking, it’s a part of human nature. It’s all part of human desire,” Ruan Tang said bluntly after a long pause.

He was just a common person and didn’t have as many thoughts as Auston.

His love and desire were intertwined.

Auston simply couldn’t understand his thoughts, “But you’re an Omega.”

“So what if I’m an Omega? Alphas have desires, and so do Omegas. Why do you have to be so clear about it? Is that gender discrimination?” Ruan Tang asked him.

Auston didn’t expect him to think that way, and immediately asked in confusion, “Don’t you think that AO relationships would be a painful and torturous thing for Omegas?”

“If it’s with someone you don’t like, and you’re being forced, of course it will be painful and torturous.” Ruan Tang didn’t expect him to have so many questions, he was simply an Omega’s friend. He looked at him and said deeply, “But if it’s with someone you like, and you love each other, you can only be grateful that there is such a distance in the world that is closer than a hug.”

Auston looked at him deeply, completely not expecting that there would be such a saying.

Ruan Tang stared back at him.

“What do you mean you like me? I think you just want my body!” Auston snorted unhappily, avoiding his gaze.

Ruan Tang didn’t avoid it and said, “Yes, I just want your body.”

Meeting such a girly Alpha, Ruan Tang felt that he had no choice but to be an Alpha himself.

He sometimes couldn’t even tell who was the Alpha and who was the Omega between him and Auston.

“So, do you want to be slept with by me?” Ruan Tang grabbed Auston’s wrist, looked at him, and asked.

Auston was about to respond with half a push, but suddenly his face darkened, and he reached out and pressed his temples hard, his face also showing pain and mania…

“My lord, what’s wrong?” Ruan Tang was immediately startled and worriedly helped him.

Auston tried his best to restrain his mental power from going berserk, lest he hurt Ruan Tang in the slightest. While controlling the optical brain to send him medicine, he scolded Ruan Tang, “I’m having an attack, get out of here if you don’t want to die. My mental power is likely to go berserk later, I’ll go find you tomorrow.”

He didn’t want to tell Ruan Tang this, but since Ruan Tang insisted on not divorcing him, and he had decided to be with Ruan Tang like this, Ruan Tang would have to know sooner or later.

Therefore, Auston didn’t plan to hide it anymore.

“How can I leave you when you’re like this?” Ruan Tang grabbed his wrist even tighter. Looking at Auston’s terrifying expression due to the attack, he was not afraid at all, but was worried and distressed beyond measure.

He didn’t know what was wrong with Auston, he only knew that he couldn’t leave him alone at this time.

Auston looked at him in surprise, met the worry in Ruan Tang’s eyes, and was unable to breathe for a moment, but he still scolded Ruan Tang, “Get out of here, do you want to die? Or do you want your mental power to be completely destroyed? Do you know how many people the Empress has sent me when I’m like this? I’ve driven crazy with my mental power going berserk?”

Ruan Tang, of course, knew about the many terrifying legends about Duke Bluebeard in Imperial Star, and also knew that Auston’s advice to him at this moment was for his own good, but looking at Auston at this moment, he still gritted his teeth, “No, I won’t leave, I want to stay here with you.”

“I don’t believe you’ll hurt me.”

If you like someone, and you can’t be by their side when they’re struggling in pain, letting them struggle alone, then what kind of love is that?

Auston had never been treated like this before, and no one had ever approached him and refused to leave when he was having a terrible attack. Looking at Ruan Tang at this moment, he didn’t know how to handle it, and could only plead in a painful voice, “Be good, I’m begging you, go out first.”

Only when Ruan Tang went out could he dare to let himself have an attack.

But Ruan Tang held his hand tightly, his attitude firm. Just then, the medical robot brought the medicine that the doctor had prescribed for Auston every time he had an attack.

“Is this medicine? Hurry up and take it.” Ruan Tang immediately took the medicine, picked up the warm water cup, and brought it to his lips.

Auston wanted to drive Ruan Tang away, but he was in too much pain, and he was afraid that he would accidentally hurt Ruan Tang if he couldn’t control his strength at this time. He had to try his best to control himself, maintain his sanity, clenched his fists tightly, and when Ruan Tang handed the medicine to his mouth, he quickly took the medicine from his hand and swallowed it with water.

Although the medicine was taken, it was taking longer and longer to work, and the pain on Auston’s face was even worse.

Ruan Tang was heartbroken to see Auston like this. Seeing that the place where he seemed to be in pain was his head, he thought for a while, and immediately moved his hand to his head, running his fingers through his hair and giving him a head massage.

Auston was in a manic stage. When Ruan Tang suddenly pressed his head, he didn’t know how much effort it took to restrain himself from throwing Ruan Tang out.

He wanted to reprimand Ruan Tang, but gradually, feeling Ruan Tang’s fingers moving on his head, Auston’s headache slowly subsided, and he felt comfortable…

Auston fell into it unconsciously, even forgetting that he should tell Ruan Tang to leave.

He had been suffering from migraine headaches caused by disordered mental power for many years. Whenever he couldn’t control himself, he would do many out-of-control things.

That’s how he got the nickname Duke Bluebeard——

At first, the medicine still worked for him, but in recent years, the medicine was becoming less and less effective.

He was anxious and couldn’t find a more effective medicine. He couldn’t live a normal life or love anyone. Earlier, he even suffered from severe insomnia that kept him awake all night.

But he didn’t expect that Ruan Tang’s simple massage would relieve his migraine.

First insomnia and then migraine, is this Omega really his destined savior?

“My lord, are you still in pain?” Ruan Tang focused on giving him a massage, wholeheartedly reducing his pain. Feeling that Auston seemed to be feeling a little better and was not as painful as before, he asked carefully.

Auston heard his gentle voice, and the mania in his heart was swept away immediately. He reached out and grabbed Ruan Tang’s hand from his hair, shook his head, and said softly, “It doesn’t hurt anymore, thank you.”

“My lord, what’s wrong with your illness?” Seeing that he was no longer in pain, Ruan Tang asked worriedly.

Auston looked at him deeply, his tone very calm, “It’s a migraine caused by disordered mental power… If I can’t develop a special medicine in the future, I may not live long.”

In fact, in addition to special medicine, there was also a way to cure his illness by performing a two-way mark with an Omega and having the Omega help him channel his disordered mental power.

But he possessed double S-level mental power. Unless it was an Omega whose compatibility with him was as high as 100%… Otherwise, it would be extremely dangerous for any Omega to channel his mental power for him when he was having an attack.

Ruan Tang’s mental power compatibility with him was not that high. Even if Ruan Tang was willing, Auston didn’t want to see him take such a risk.

And he already had Ruan Tang, so he didn’t want to look for any Omega with 100% compatibility with him…

Therefore, he didn’t plan to mention this matter to Ruan Tang.