AWDC Chapter 60
by VolareMu Chuang subconsciously hooked his long arm and pulled him back, landing him squarely in his arms.
Lin Xi was stunned for a second, then hurriedly scrambled up, trying to escape his embrace.
However, Mu Chuang’s state of mind had changed. How could he bear to let go of the warm and fragrant jade in his arms?
He used a little force, and Lin Xi was unable to move.
“Don’t move,” Lin Xi was forced to lie sideways in his arms, his head resting on Mu Chuang’s shoulder, the warm breath tickling his ear. “This body is very strong, I’m afraid I won’t be able to control my strength and hurt you.”
As soon as he said that, he noticed Lin Xi’s earlobe was a little red, and mistakenly assumed that Lin Xi still liked him and was shy because he was being held. Little did he know that it was caused by embarrassment and anger.
“Lin Xi,” Mu Chuang felt a surge of warmth in his heart, and couldn’t help but tighten his arms, feeling the softness of the body in his arms. He couldn’t help but rub it once. “I think I understand Mu Fang a little bit now. Why don’t we just live a comfortable life in this county office, relying on each other, eating and waiting to die?”
“As long as you’re good, I promise I won’t make things difficult for you, and I’ll even take you out to play, okay?” He coaxed and enticed, still fantasizing that Lin Xi would return to his former well-behaved self, calling him “Brother Chuang,” following him every step of the way, like a clingy kitten.
But little did he know that the moment he jumped into the Nanxi River, his heart for him had already died.
“No,” Lin Xi finally deigned to reply, but not what he wanted to hear. “Unless you can let me come and go freely in this small courtyard, or even the county office, otherwise, I’d rather starve to death.”
He didn’t want to only be able to go out when Mu Chuang took him, with him watching wherever he went, and no freedom in general.
What’s more, Mu Chuang was different from before, seeming to have developed those kinds of thoughts about him. If he stayed here for a long time, he would eventually be defiled.
Whether he was sincere or just playing around, since he was once someone he looked down on, he shouldn’t even think about getting him now.
He just wanted to escape now, to leave him. He believed he would live a good life without his interference.
“Freedom is possible,” Mu Chuang stared at his face and replied, “First, you have to eat your food, otherwise, there’s no discussion.”
He was afraid that he would starve, and coincidentally, the original owner of this body seemed to be the same age as Lin Xi and was also at the age of growing. He didn’t want him to be affected in the future because of malnutrition.
As for whether or not to agree to his request after coaxing him to eat, it would depend on the situation.
However, Lin Xi’s trust in him had disappeared from the moment he jumped into the river. Now, to him, no matter what he said, it couldn’t compare to action.
So…
“You promise me first.” Even though he was already feeling hungry, he still wanted to use this as leverage to make him promise first.
Seeing him so stubborn, Mu Chuang’s face changed. “Why are you so disobedient? Doesn’t Brother Chuang have any trust with you at all?”
After he said this, he became a little emotional. From the time he transmigrated until now, no matter how he coaxed him, Lin Xi was unwilling to call him “Brother Chuang” again, or even acknowledge him, causing him to feel a burst of stabbing pain in his heart whenever he thought of this.
“I know you hate me, and I know I wronged you in my previous life, but I’ve changed now. Can’t you accept my apology? Can’t you give me another chance?”
“Look at me,” he suddenly turned Lin Xi’s face to make him look at him. “I’m your Brother Chuang, the one who spoiled you from childhood. You can’t deny everything about me just because I made a mistake. Don’t I have any good impressions in your heart at all?”
As he spoke, his eyes filled with misty tears, and the arms holding Lin Xi were also trembling slightly, showing that he was very sad.
Lin Xi turned his face away, as if avoiding him, or perhaps disdainfully. On his cold face, his thin lips parted, and he faintly uttered a sentence, “What is the master saying? I don’t understand.”
After all that effort, the reply was still like this, and Mu Chuang simply laughed out of anger.
“Hehe… Hahaha…” He laughed until his eyes were red, almost bleeding from all seven orifices. “…So, all I said was just to move myself?”
“Lin Xi, instead of saying that I have no conscience, why don’t you look at yourself? Why don’t you think you’re even crueler than me?”
“I admit that in my previous life, other than not wanting to have that kind of relationship with you, I didn’t do anything else to wrong you. You jumped into the river yourself, it wasn’t me who pushed you. I even went down to fish you out for a long time, and almost couldn’t get back up. Even if you don’t thank me, you shouldn’t hate me, right? Don’t you think so?”
He rattled on about his great truths, the more he spoke, the more he felt he was right, the more he spoke, the more he felt Lin Xi was being pretentious, and even his guilt lessened.
But was it really like this for Lin Xi?
No, if he could just stand in his shoes and think about this question, he wouldn’t think like this.
In fact, Lin Xi didn’t blame Mu Chuang entirely for his suicide. He just couldn’t bear the blow, so he decided to end it all.
He didn’t hate Mu Chuang very much either, he just didn’t want him to touch his wound, because with him around, he could never heal.
Some things, you can’t accurately say who is right and who is wrong, but he just caused irreversible consequences, making people unable to let go, making people unable to forgive, and even more unable to return to the beginning.
“I’m feeling a little dizzy, please leave, young master.” Lin Xi said, raising a hand to his forehead, lowering his eyelids, and feigning discomfort.
Mu Chuang: …
Okay, you refuse to acknowledge me to the death, right? It’s all my fault, right? Then I’ll let you see how you’ll live in this world without my protection?!
He released Lin Xi and went out angrily.
The gatekeeper and Qiushui didn’t dare to look up when they saw him come out like this.
He went out of the back office gate with a dark face, but unexpectedly ran into Zhao Yuming just as he stepped out.
“Young Master Mu,” Zhao Yuming greeted him first, but not in a polite and courteous way, but like two enemies meeting on a narrow road. “Coming out so angrily, did you have a falling out with Xiao Yu?”
“Forced melons are not sweet, it’s better to let go as soon as possible, it’s good for everyone.” As he spoke, he crossed his arms, deliberately blocking Mu Chuang’s path, as if he had come to pick a fight on purpose.
Logically speaking, Mu Chuang had just been angered by Lin Xi, so he should have agreed to let go at this time, but as soon as he heard Zhao Yuming’s tone, he felt that his precious darling was being targeted by someone else, and suddenly became jealous.
“What does it matter to you whether he likes me or not? I’m just keeping him in the mansion for viewing only, I won’t let you see him.” He put his hands behind his back and confronted Zhao Yuming, the two men were of comparable height. “Someone like you, no one would want you even if you were lying in the street, and you still want to covet my person, don’t dream.”