Top Of Glory[Esports] Chapter 38

Heart-to-heart

He Chen has seen eye rolls and heard too many insults since he was a child. Compared with the past, today’s quarrel was just a rumor-mongering quarrel among primary school students. It did not affect others. Normally, he wouldn’t even bother to give them a look. He would ask everyone clearly and understand, so he wouldn’t have to do anything else.

I don’t know if they mentioned the reason for Lin An today. After hearing those words, He Chen actually felt a strange anger in his heart.

The moment his emotions burst out, compared to Qiu and Curly’s reactions, he was more at a loss under his surface calmness.

Anger felt foreign to him.

What the anger couldn’t cover up was jealousy.

envy.

This emotion was very old to him. If he had to trace it back, he could only think of a palm-sized kitten that his father brought home when he was very young.

The yellow and white pattern looks very cute, and Hechen likes it.

But when Hechen teased it, it always became sleepy. After its father came home, even if he just touched the cat food bowl, it would pounce on his father.

At that time, Hechen felt a little unhappy.

But only a little, because daddy would hold him and the kitten together.

“The kitten is very pitiful, so it doesn’t matter if you give it daddy’s love.” Little Hechen thought with a good temper.

But at this moment, He Chen couldn’t help but think back over and over again what those two people said, all in his mind was Lin An custom-made jewelry for others.

He Chen clenched his fingers.

Qiu said that Lin An told her ID on the phone when customizing, but He Chen didn’t really believe it.

There are too many similar IDs, but what does he mean to Lin An?

Teammate?A newbie in the team who needs to be taken care of?The burden that has been holding him back?

Lin An had never said that, but He Chen couldn’t help but think about it.

After all, Qiu also said that he was saved by Lin An.

So those ambiguities, hugs, comforts, encouragements and cares he thought were all out of Lin An’s good intentions.

It’s because he’s pushing himself too far, and it’s because he can’t figure it out.

Stop, don’t think about it.

Hechen sat down along the steps, pressing his injured palm against the railing, feeling damp and tingling with the smell of rust in his palm.

Besides, he doesn’t like any jewelry, and he has never received any.

Does Chi Rui like it?Or some girl he’s never seen before. The person Lin An likes must be very beautiful.

It was different from the ignorant fight for favor when he was raising a kitten. Now he felt that his jealousy and loss were overflowing and could not be concealed.

Another figure came and went in the training room.

He Chen was huddled alone in the corner of the side stairs, a place where light and shadow could not reach.

We can’t go back like this, it’s too ugly.

Lin An didn’t know these details at all. After the broadcast, he chatted with the technical analyst for a while, so he went downstairs a step late to eat supper. He walked around downstairs, but didn’t even see He Chen’s shadow.

Where are people?

No one was seen at this time. Lin An recalled the time when he was sick and felt uneasy.

“Why are you going? Why don’t you eat? Are you feeling uncomfortable?” Seeing that he was going upstairs, Qiao Zhi asked inexplicably, “Don’t you have an appetite? I also bought something to drink and put it on the table.”

“No, have you seen He Chen?” Lin An asked absently.

“I…” Qiao Zhi was puzzled, “Didn’t he go to eat? I seemed to have seen him just now. No, why are you looking for someone to be so polite? People can’t have some space of their own.”

Lin An didn’t ask, ignored Qiao Zhi, and turned around to walk towards the dormitory.

He met two members of the second team halfway and nodded to each other. As they passed each other, Lin An noticed a subtle hint of embarrassment on their faces.

Lin An stopped and turned around, frowning slightly when he saw the two people leaving.

As expected, Hechen didn’t return to the dormitory.

Lin An knocked on the door for a long time, but only Old Tao who came back to wash up came out.

In the dormitory opposite, Lao Tao was puzzled, “What are you doing? Collection of debts. Fortunately, it’s not time for the players to go to bed. King Yama will wake you up from the underworld.”

Lin An went to the training room again without looking back.

But no, there was no training room, no restroom, no conference room. Lin An even looked for the recliner outside, and He Chen seemed to have disappeared out of thin air.

The base is such a big place, where can He Chen go?

Lin An finally went to the medical room. If the medical room wasn’t there yet… Lin An would go to the main control room to check the base’s surveillance.

Team doctor Chen was packing the medical box. When he saw Lin An coming in, he was stunned for a moment, “What’s wrong? What’s wrong with you?”

But although Lin An’s face was gloomy, his complexion was rosy and healthy, and he didn’t look like he was uncomfortable.

Lin An opened the curtain next to the hospital bed. There was no one on the bed. He said nothing, let go and walked out.

“Are you going back to the training room? If you see Dawn, tell him not to get water on his wounds…”

As soon as Chen Qi finished speaking, Lin An, who was hurriedly coming and going, stopped as if he was frozen.

“Where was he injured? How did he do it?”

Chen Qi faced Lin An’s question and did not feel offended. He and Lin An were in the same high school and had known each other for many years, so now he could see something about it.

“I said that last time Dawn had a fever, the doctor on duty saw you and you were still worried and called me back in the middle of the night. So that’s what happened…”

Lin An ignored his teasing and only frowned, waiting for his answer.

He Chen squatted on the stairs. There were fewer people using the stairs leading to the balcony. Now everyone was eating and chatting in the kitchen and living room, so there were even fewer people coming up.

Hechen’s mobile phone was casually placed in his hand. Because it was on mute, there was no sound, only the light beam that lit up and went out in the dim stair area.

He watched the screen light up, Lin An’s name appeared, and then he hung up because no one answered, and the screen went off again, repeating this over and over again, like a satirical silent film clip.

He Chen buried his face in his palms.

So much so that he didn’t notice that the mobile phone on the steps lit up again, and at the same time, someone stopped in front of him.

“Why are you sitting here?”

He Chen raised his head, and through the faint light projected by the mobile phone screen, he could see a layer of sweat on Lin An’s forehead.

Lin An didn’t ask why he didn’t answer the phone, but just sat down next to him.

“Are you hungry?” he asked Hechen, opening the paper bag he brought, “The store Qiao Zhi ordered has the best coconut milk cake. Try it.”

He Chen didn’t speak, he just looked at Lin An steadily. Various emotions were intertwined in his mind, causing him to overuse his memory and be unable to process the information.

Lin An didn’t get any response from He Chen and wasn’t in a hurry.

He put the paper bag containing the coconut milk cake into He Chen’s arms, reached out and touched He Chen’s right hand wrapped in gauze. He could see the faint blood coming out, and he couldn’t help but frown, “Where was it scratched? Why is it so deep.”

The screen went dark again. At the corner of the stairs, the voices of people upstairs and downstairs could be clearly heard, but almost no one paid attention here.

In the darkness, the two of them couldn’t see each other’s faces clearly, and could only smell each other’s breath, accompanied by the sweet smell of coconut cake and the faint, almost inaudible smell of disinfectant.

He Chen couldn’t say what he was feeling. He was just thinking about Lin An’s sweaty face just now. He raised his uninjured hand and touched a patch of warm moisture.

He Chen wiped the sweat from his face bit by bit.

He also knew very well that Lin An had so many questions, just because he wanted to know why he was unhappy.

From Lin An’s perspective, all he knew was that he played in an entertainment bureau event, said he was going out to take a call, and then ended up like this.

He knows nothing.

Hechen thought for a while and shared with him an incident from his childhood.

Not counting those things he couldn’t help but later, He Chen’s childhood still had many wonderful moments.

“When I was young, my dad picked up a kitten in the community. It was yellow and white in color, like an orange ball of wool.”

“Now that I think about it, when it arrived at my house, it was only as big as a hand.” He Chen stretched out his hand to make a gesture.

“It always waits for my dad at the door at a fixed time. When my dad comes home, the first person to greet him jumps on my dad’s trousers and meows in a milky voice. It’s very cute, but in comparison, it makes me look very unfilial.”

In the darkness, Lin An’s breath tickled the side of He Chen’s neck, which was a little itchy, but He Chen didn’t move away. He knew that Lin An was smiling, and he smiled too.

“I was just competing with it. Seeing that the time was about the same, I also moved my own small table and chairs to sit in the entrance hall, with one person and one cat blocking the door.”

“Later, when my dad got off work, he would lie down on my desk, put his paws on my homework, and brush his tail on my arm, like a towel hanging on it.”

Lin An looked at Hechen’s current appearance and thought about how he looked when he was a child. He pieced together a scene of a white dumpling holding a kitten, sitting at the door of the house waiting for his father. He felt as if his heart was softly wrapped by clouds.

“Later.”

“Then…” He Chen lowered his lips, “Then something happened to my dad and he couldn’t go home.”

“I mixed it with cat food and opened canned cat food, but it didn’t eat anything. It just kept squatting at the door and waiting.”

Hechen whispered: “I forced myself to hold it and feed it, but it wouldn’t stretch its paws towards me and would just look at me with wet eyes.”

“On the day my dad was buried, it was gone.”

This story had so much staying power that Lin An’s heart was clenched tightly and he couldn’t speak for a long time.

“Do you want to raise another kitten?” Lin An asked him, “If you wish, I can find a way…”

“I don’t want to, Lin An,” He Chen took advantage of the dim surroundings and said seriously what would have been impossible to say during the day, “I don’t like separation, separation in life and death, I’ve had enough of it.”

“I’m saying this to tell you,” He Chen pursed his lips, “I don’t want to be that cat.”

I don’t want to be that cat.

Being given warmth, it was taken back unexpectedly.

Let him be greedy, addicted, and caught off guard, unable to let go.

“It’s very cruel.” He Chen said softly.