This Question Has Been Taught 12 Times Chapter 14

Loop5 (3)

People are always in the dark. Over time, they think the world is like this.

When someone lends a helping hand, even if the first reaction is not to be pushed back by that hand and fall deeper, you will still doubt whether that hand can be of any help.

Furthermore, is it okay to go back to the way we were before?

What Bai Tong can clearly feel is a loss of meaning, that is, it seems that no matter what, it is difficult to distinguish between “good and bad”.

So she was very involved in writing those school test papers, because the scores were there, the answers were there, and they were real.But for everything else in the world, are there any real answers?

The strange thing is that most people believe that “tomorrow will be better”. In fact, in Bai Tong’s view, tomorrow will neither be better nor worse.

Tomorrow just exists, nothing more.

Of course it could not exist, but that’s another story.

Suddenly she was thinking very far again. Bai Tong didn’t like to think about these things, because there were no answers to these things. Normally at this time, she would force herself to do a few more questions.

There are no questions now, only a psychiatrist. Bai Tong no longer treats this consultation as a joke, but she doesn’t expect it to be of much help. Anyway, she will say whatever she thinks.

After it was over, the mother and daughter took the car home together.

Bai Jingru said to Bai Tong, “The doctor said that my desire to control you is too strong and it may be counterproductive.”

Bai Tong didn’t expect her mother to hit the point so directly, but she didn’t know how to answer the question.

“She said that there are many things that people cannot control, and they should learn to relax and let go,” Bai Jingru held Bai Tong’s hand and said, “But if one day, you want to leave me, should I let go too?”

After Bai Jingru finished speaking, she looked at Bai Tong.

Bai Tong doesn’t know what her mother means by “leaving”?

Bai Tong held her mother’s hand tightly and said, “I will never leave you.”

At least at this moment she was serious, she wanted to comfort her mother.

Bai Jingru said, “Well, sometimes I don’t know how to get along with you. If I don’t do something right, you have to tell me.”

What Bai Tong was thinking was, wow, it turns out that mother knows everything.

Recall that ever since they became close to their mother, they have been weaving emotional bonds in a “mutual intimidation” way, as if this is the only way to confirm their attachment to each other over and over again in times of crisis.

This should be regarded as a rather twisted intimate relationship.

Bai Tong has not had much contact with intimate relationships and normal intimate relationships, so he has no idea what it should be like.

A little guilt arose in my heart. In essence, my mother is a very arrogant person. After being in power for a long time, who will she treat favorably?

However, she was very kind to herself, shouting “Tong Tong” one after another, always patiently coaxing herself as if she were a very young child, and occasionally showing a look of panic.

Hey, maybe I was really wrong, and I should try to get along well with my mother.

Then just believe that things will develop in a good direction for the time being. After all, people have to hold on to hope in order to endure the pain day by day.

Bai Jingru and I were at peace at home, playing with the cat and eating. After the weekend passed, we went back to school.

Bai Tong had lost her enthusiasm for that damn math problem because a=-2 and someone had already told her the answer.The subsequent derivation analysis was very simple and boring to Bai Tong.

It’s all someone’s fault.

When I got to the class, I looked for the initiator, but I couldn’t find him.

Is it because it’s too early that you haven’t come yet?Then why did she come so early last time?

Today’s class schedule is for a group outing to conduct field research at an ancient celebrity’s former residence.After all the morning self-study students had arrived, the teacher led everyone to take the bus at the school gate.

Bai Tong still didn’t see her until she lined up to get on the bus.

What’s going on?What surprised Bai Tong was not that she hadn’t come yet, but that he had been looking for her.Obviously nothing happened, could it be because I have a bowl from someone else at home…

After getting on the bus, Bai Tong casually sat down in a double seat near the corridor.Although most people might choose a seat by the window, Bai Tong had a lot of worries in his heart. He always felt that if he sat inside first and left the seat outside empty, it would be like silently inviting others to sit on his behalf.She would rather sit outside by herself. If anyone wants to sit in, they have to ask her first.She hoped it would be best if no one asked.

At this age, almost everyone has friends who they can play with. Soon everyone found their seats, and Bai Tong’s place was always empty.

It wasn’t until the car was about to leave that Sun Daining caught up with her schoolbag and hit the spot accurately until the last second.

After the teacher said a few words to her calmly, she asked her to quickly find a seat and sit down.

Ever since Sun Daining got on the car, Bai Tong no longer looked at the door of the carriage. Instead, he kept staring at the grid on the back of the seat in front, his eyes blurred.

Now that there are no empty seats in the car, where will Sun Daining sit?

Soon Sun Daining walked to Bai Tong’s side.

Soon Sun Daining walked past Bai Tong.

Bai Tong couldn’t control his head and turned around to see where she was going to sit.

Sun Daining walked all the way to the very back of the carriage, where there were only empty seats in a row of four.

By chance, Bai Tong was lucky enough to sit in the back seat of a minibus. It was so bumpy and uncomfortable at all.

Why, isn’t the window seat in the middle front of the car next to me nice?Would she rather sit in that shabby place so far away than sit next to her?

As Bai Tong thought about it, he actually felt a little uncomfortable, although there was no reasonable reason.

After arriving at the destination, the leaders of the scenic spot and the school leaders gave speeches respectively, and then the tour guide and teachers led a general tour. Then they dispersed and everyone was free to move around.

The day was very hot, so everyone went under the shade of the trees, and soon they disappeared like birds.

Bai Tong found a courtyard with an ancient well. It was remote and cool, and not many people came, so she sat there by herself for a long time, feeling a little bored.

Usually during this kind of free activities, everyone either goes shopping in cultural and creative stores or visits museums, but Bai Tong is not used to traveling with everyone, and besides, she doesn’t think there is much to see here.

When it was time to eat at noon, the school might be worried about food safety issues outside, so they went out of their way to take them back to the school cafeteria by bus, although it was already a bit late compared to the normal meal time.

Bai Tong was not very happy when he was at the scenic spot. He didn’t deliberately look for Sun Daining. Now he came to the cafeteria, but accidentally, emphasized, really accidentally, he saw Sun Daining. She was also alone.

Bai Tong walked over with a dinner plate and sat down opposite her.

Sun Daining looked up and saw that it was Bai Tong. She pretended not to see her and lowered her head to eat her food.

Bai Tong said, “Why don’t you come to me?”

Sun Daining, “…”

“What are you looking for?”

“Didn’t you say that you want me to teach you how to write questions?” Bai Tong said.

Sun Daining poked at the rice on the plate. She really felt that Bai Tong was a bit strange.

Sun Daining is a person with strong acceptance ability. She has completely accepted the fact that Bai Tong no longer remembers her and everything they experienced in the last cycle.

Being forgotten is a very painful thing, especially being forgotten by someone who once liked each other.

In this case, Sun Daining could just pretend that what happened before had never happened, at least it would not be so uncomfortable.

Anyway, at the beginning, she never expected to be with Bai Tong.

“Why don’t you speak?” Bai Tong asked again.

“I can’t learn, forget it.” Sun Daining cut a meatball on the plate in half and said, “Thank you for asking me.”

Oops, why does she feel a little sad today? At least her mood is not as high as when she first met her.

Bai Tong asked, “Where is your friend? Why didn’t you see her?”

“Who is it?” Sun Daining asked, “You are not talking about Yin Yi, are you? She is not in our class.”

“That’s the person who dragged me last time.” Bai Tong confirmed.

“Oh, that’s her,” Sun Daining was really speechless, “Don’t you even know who is in our class?”

“Indeed… I don’t think I’ve seen her much.” As for Yin Yi’s arrogant look, if she had seen her before, she probably wouldn’t have had any impression of her at all.

Sun Daining sneered, “Who have you seen? Have you seen me?”

Bai Tong felt that Sun Daining’s words were unreasonable. What was going on? Was he still angry because he didn’t eat her yogurt and didn’t teach her how to write questions last time?

“If you really want to learn, you won’t be able to learn.” This was Bai Tong’s apology.

“You don’t understand.” Sun Daining said, “I have really given up, forget it, thank you.”

It was over. Bai Tong felt as if he had dampened a child’s eagerness to learn, extinguished her desire to make progress, and destroyed her bright future.

However, since others have said this, should I still rush to teach by force?This is not Bai Tong’s behavior either.

Bai Tong had no choice but to make his apology more straightforward, “I’m sorry that day. I was just joking with you. Your bowl is still at my house. I’ll bring it to you another day.”

Sun Daining looked into Bai Tong’s eyes.

This was when she was most afraid.

Not completely forgotten, as if it never happened.

But give her a little hope.

Is it really possible?Will she still think of herself?Will she still like herself?Can the loop be broken?Does the future really exist?

She was afraid that after passing through these hopes, she would eventually face endless disappointment.

Sun Daining said, “It doesn’t matter, you can keep it yourself.”

On the one hand, Sun Daining didn’t think clearly, but on the other hand, she suspected that she was always handing out choices. Maybe this was the fundamental reason why she couldn’t break the cycle.

Sun Daining stopped talking after that, and Bai Tong didn’t know what else to talk about with Sun Daining, although so far, she quite liked chatting with Sun Daining.