The Wind Blows Fallen Leaves Chapter 18

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Shen Luo dug out the leftover wine from the last time somewhere. When An Yu came out of the bathroom, there were several empty wine bottles and a staggering Shen Luo in front of him. An Yu held him, cleaned him briefly, and wrapped him up.

The little man in his arms late at night was not honest at all. He kicked off the quilt again and again and slowly opened his eyes. There was still hazy moisture in his eyes that he had not woken up. He groped around An Yu’s neck and took a bite on his chest. An Yu was not bigThe movement only trapped him tighter. Shen Luo broke away as if frustrated, then sat up and kicked him, which frightened An Yu. Half asleep, he pushed Shen Luo back onto the bed and fell asleep. Shen Luo made a groaning sound the next second.

“Hungry, I’m hungry, Anyu, I’m hungry.”

An Yu touched his belly, rubbed it and said, “Don’t make trouble, your belly is so soft.”

Shen Luo broke free from his restraints and kicked him again. This kick was on his stomach. Although there was no force, it still woke An Yu up. Seeing that he was awake, Shen Luo stopped just as he was about to put down his foot for the second time. He still said the same words as before: “I’m hungry.”

“Then I’ll cook you a bowl of noodles?”

An Yu knew he was drunk and asked tentatively.

Shen Luo was not happy anymore. He gasped very quickly and started to roll around. An Yu knew that he was angry, so he took him into his arms, nodded his forehead, inserted his fingers into his hair, rubbed his head and said dotingly, “Are you okay?”

“Am I only worthy of eating noodles?”

Shen Luo said these very aggrieved words in the loudest voice. He couldn’t listen to anything An Yu said to him now, so he denied: “No…”

Shen Luo interrupted him mercilessly before he finished speaking, “You still said yes, you are such a heartless person, get out, wuwuwu…”

After he finished speaking, he started to cry. His confused look made An Yu really unable to do anything to him, so he had to wipe away the non-existent tears from the corner of his eyes, and blocked his mouth. He didn’t let go until he stopped moving. Shen Luo stared at himself without blinking, smiled helplessly, and explained: “I said no, even if you want to eat delicacies from the mountains and seas, I can’t do it now.”

“Why don’t you learn? Aren’t you smart? You can’t learn this. You just don’t want to learn for me. You don’t like me at all. Everything you said before is false.”

As Shen Luo frowned and wanted to cry, An Yu pinched his cheek, not hard, just to stop him from crying, and then promised him angrily: “I will study tomorrow, and I will definitely let you eat the delicacies from the mountains and seas made by me.”

“Okay”

“Then do you still want to eat?”

“A little bit.”

“Wait a moment.”

After saying that, he got up and went into the kitchen despite being sleepy. Looking at the kitchen which was cleaner than the floor, he finally dug out a bag of noodles. He checked the shelf life first and saw that it was not expired. Five minutes later, he came in with a bowl of noodles that looked pretty good. When he came in, he saw Shen Luo curled up in the position where he was lying just now and fell asleep. He looked at the hot noodles in his hand and looked at the time again, and could only let himself eat.

An Yu woke up first in the morning. The bowl from yesterday was still in the sink. After washing the bowl, he asked Shen Luo to get up. When buying breakfast downstairs, An Yu only bought one portion. Shen Luo wanted to give him half of his share. An Yu waved his hand and asked him, “Don’t you remember what you did last night?”

“Is there anything I should remember?”

“Forget it if you don’t remember.”

An Yu’s words made him confused, but he was curious about what he did last night and kept asking him. An Yu refused to talk to him and just kept telling him that last night he kept calling himself a heartless man. Shen Luo’s guilt reached a climax and he immediately gave An Yu a kiss to express his condolences. An Yu felt that one kiss was not enough and insisted on symmetry on both sides, and then shamelessly asked him to put a seal on his mouth before he would give up.

The day before the mock exam, Shen Luo suddenly had a high fever. An Yu scolded him while getting him medicine, “I told you not to eat so much ice. Come on, it’s either a stomachache or a fever. It rained yesterday.”

Shen Luo didn’t want to hear him scolding him, so he covered his head with a quilt. After a while, the quilt was lifted, and An Yu appeared in front of him with a glass of water and medicine. Shen Luo didn’t want to drink medicine. The bitter taste always stayed in his mouth for a long time every time, and he couldn’t suppress it no matter what he ate. But An Yu’s serious look made him a little scared, so he was forced to rest at home.

Fei Zhu heard that Shen Luo had a fever and called Shen Meng out of responsibility. Shen Meng who answered the phone just said calmly that he would go take a look after get off work.

“Dong dong dong.”

Shen Luo, who had been lying in bed all day, thought An Yu was back when he heard the knock on the door. He happily opened the door but was stunned.

“Why are you here?”

“I heard your teacher said you were sick and asked me to come and take a look. The way you looked just now didn’t look like you were sick.”

Shen Luo returned to his usual distant look and said, “It’s no big deal, I can’t die.”

“It’s best,” Shen Meng passed him and entered the door. He picked up his phone and sent An Yu a message, asking when he would be back. An Yu responded to him instantly.

Shen Meng walked around his room, and as expected, An Yu came back soon, carrying the millet porridge that Shen Luo loved to drink. An Mingming was stunned when he saw Shen Meng, and Shen Luo took the bag in his hand as if there was no one else around.

Shen Meng looked at An Yu and asked, “Is this your roommate?”

Just when An Yu was about to say hello, Shen Luo said first, “It has nothing to do with you.”

“I’m your mother, why does it have nothing to do with me?” Shen Meng was very angry. “I see that you haven’t improved in other areas, but your ability to talk back has improved a lot. I don’t see anything wrong with you at all.”

“The doctor has the final say whether I’m sick or not. You can go back. We have to rest.”

Shen Meng was deflated and left without saying anything more.

After a while, he saw a name that had not appeared for a long time. It was hanging at the top of the phone. It said, “I heard that you are sick. Are you okay?”

The words were clumsy, but they looked comfortable. As soon as Shen Luo saw his news, he knew that Shen Meng had complained to them before coming.

“It’s okay now.”

Su Ji: “As long as everything’s okay, go to bed early.”

“Yeah.”

There was nothing to talk about between them. They only exchanged messages when they had to, but only a few short words.

Shen Luo was lying on the bed, thinking about Shen Meng’s angry appearance just now. He couldn’t imagine what that face would look like when he smiled. All that lingered in his ears was “Shen Luo, Shen Luo, Shen Luo”, which seemed to be their most affectionate name.

An Yu, who was about to fall asleep, felt that there was no space next to him, but he didn’t chase him out. He should be left alone now. There were densely packed small flying insects lingering under the dim yellow street lamp. They formed a circle, and the light outlined the outline of Shen Luo’s face in a gentle and charming way. He walked into a small road, and there was only a street lamp that was not very bright at the intersection. He sat under the street lamp, and the small pebbles everywhere were his toys.

“You tell me whether I should or not. They say parents are a safe haven, but what do I plan on after all the storms I experienced when I was a child?”

He was talking to himself, tilting his head to look to the side, raising the corners of his mouth and smiling self-deprecatingly. There sat a “self” who could listen to what he said in his heart.

“I don’t dare to tell anyone, I can only tell you, even he doesn’t know,” Shen Luo said, his lips began to tremble, “I’m afraid, I don’t dare to tell him, every good thing he does to me will make me more afraid, I’m afraid that if I say it, I won’t even be as good as this.”Now, I am a person with nothing. I am… afraid that he will think I am hypocritical, I am afraid that he will think I am sick, maybe I am really sick, I have been imitating others, but this is too tiring, I am too tired, I don’t know who I can tell except you, no one understands me.”

As he spoke, tears dripped down his face and onto the stones at his feet. He looked at the shadow on the ground, feeling a little lonely and said, “Maybe I am really lonely.”

The people next to him kept smiling, and he didn’t speak, like a puppet without emotions. Shen Luo would never be afraid of him telling his secrets, because he had no shadow, no one would believe his words, or no one would hear him at all.

“Meow meow meow.”

Shen Luo, with tears in his eyes, saw a furry thing at his feet. After a closer look, he realized it was the kitten. Shen Luo picked it up, put it in his arms, and said, “Why did you come here? Are you hungry?”

The kitten licked his hand, and Shen Luo shrank back a little ticklishly. He hugged it tightly and walked to a convenience store to buy it some food.

It was past midnight, and there were almost no people on the road. He sat on the ground, unwrapped the package and poured it into his hands. Every time the kitten took a bite, it would raise its big eyes to look at him, and then immerse itself in eating.

Shen Luo carried it back to its cabin, filled it with a bottle of water, and left reluctantly until the kitten fell asleep in front of him.

It was already late at night when Shen Luo got home. He opened the door softly to avoid waking up the sleeping people inside. He lay on the bed uneasily. Suddenly he felt someone hugging him from behind, and a hoarse voice sounded above his head, “Why are you back?”

“I ate too much at night and couldn’t sleep and went out for a walk.”

Hearing these words, Shen Luo soothed and caressed his lower abdomen. The gentle movements were like touching a fragile treasure. Feeling the warmth coming from his lower abdomen, Shen Luo choked up and silently soaked the pillow with tears.

Shen Luo turned around and hugged him, crying until his nose was clogged, and his eyes were obviously swollen, and said: “I like you, can you not leave me? Even if you want to leave, can you tell me in advance? I don’t like a sudden result.”

“What’s wrong? Why did you suddenly say these things?”

Shen Luo didn’t answer him. An Yu, who couldn’t get an answer, looked down and saw that he had fallen asleep. Today’s words made An Yu a little confused, but he didn’t want to understand now, he only cared about the present.

At night, Shen Luo felt carefully that her and his heartbeats slowly overlapped. After confirming that Anyu was asleep, he opened his eyes again and traced his facial features with his hands, especially his ears. They were very hot. Even if they were not touched, they could be felt just by being close.

“Even if what you said is false, my heart is true at this moment.”

“It’s true that I like you, and it’s true that I’m afraid. I’m younger than you, so you can’t be angry if I lose my temper.”

Liking is a nonsensical thing. You don’t know when it starts or when it ends. It may be the last second or the next moment. If you say it, you are afraid it will become a regret. If you don’t say it, you are afraid it will become a regret. In the end, you can only cherish the memory of the new person.

Shen Luo got a little closer to him and murmured: “I wish you a sweet dream, I am in your dream.”