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    Chapter 91

    When the boat slowly docked, even in the dark night, Lan Yuan could recognize the outline of Shen Xian at a glance based on memory and familiarity.

    Shen Xian is not dead!

    Chen Xian is still alive!!!

    Chen Xian is really back!!!!!

    Lan Yuan excitedly immediately held hands with Shen Xian to get off the boat, and then hugged her tightly.

    “I knew you would come back.” Lan Yuan cried so hard that she could hardly speak. She could only hold her tightly in her arms and express her longing and love.

    “Yuan Yuan, Merry Christmas, I’m back!” Shen Xian hugged his lover tightly and left two lines of tears, crying for escaping death, for meeting again after a long separation, and for meeting his lover.

    Several more female students got off the boat, and their eyes turned red when they saw the scene in front of them. They were really happy for Shen Xian and Lan Yuan.

    Jasmine couldn’t help but cry. She held up a lantern and was happy for the young lady and Shen Xian.

    Birds in thousands of mountains have disappeared, and all traces of people have disappeared. In this desolate and cold dock, at this moment, there is no war, no disturbance, and no secular world. All people are happy for the existence of life itself.

    The greatest happiness is that life still exists.

    After the two separated from each other, Lan Yuan immediately led her back home.

    There was a charcoal fire in the room, and Lan Yuan asked Shen Xian to drink the hot porridge quickly to warm up.

    Then Lan Yuan fetched water to wash Shen Xian’s face and her feet.

    Then Lan Yuan also brought a brazier for Shen Xian to cross!

    A person who burns ancestral halls and does not believe in gods and Buddhas becomes superstitious because he waits for his lover!

    Chen Xian cooperated with Lan Yuan’s instructions and followed them all. She understood Lan Yuan’s worry and sadness, so she felt particularly sorry for Lan Yuan.

    After doing all this, Lan Yuan got into bed and got into bed to warm up Shen Xian. Shen Xian’s body was colder than hers and it was not easy for her body to get hot.

    After turning off the lights, the two lay on the bed, sticking close to each other. In the black space, they could hear each other’s breathing.

    “These days must be very difficult. I’m sorry, I came back late.” Shen Xian touched Lan Yuan’s face, his tone full of debt to Lan Yuan.

    “Just come back. I just forgot to tell you Merry Christmas.” Lan Yuan hugged Shen Xian’s waist as before.

    But at the moment when she hugged her waist, Lan Yuan suddenly shed tears. At that time, she thought it was ordinary, but now she realizes how precious this kind of happiness that is easily available is!

    They both had a good night’s sleep. Lan Yuan opened her eyes early in the morning and saw Shen Xian still lying beside her. It felt like a world away and she felt like she was reborn.

    Chen Xian opened his eyes again and found that there was no one around him, but there was an extra ring on his hand.

    But Shen Xian knew very well that Lan Yuan must have put this on for him. There was also a small simple sketch of a kite engraved in the ring.

    The kite sticks to Shen Xian’s hand, and the blue kite belongs to Shen Xian!

    When Lan Yuan brought breakfast in, she found Shen Xian giggling there.

    “Did you have a good dream? You are so happy.” She asked Shen Xian and handed the hot towel to Shen Xian to wipe her hands and face.

    “Much more beautiful than a dream.” Shen Xian shook the ring on his hand with a proud look in his eyes, “Are you proposing to me?”

    “Then do you accept it?” Lan Yuan asked Shen Xian seriously, suddenly feeling a little uneasy, even though she knew that Shen Xian would definitely agree.

    This ring was made in September, when Shen Xian was still out of town. Lan Yuan thought about proposing when Shen Xian came back at the end of October.

    Moreover, Lan Yuan also practiced piano for a long time for this proposal, and took very good care of the out-of-season lilies of the valley, preparing to pick them and make them into bouquets, but all of this was ruined by the war.

    This morning Lan Yuan thought that this was the first day of the rest of her life with Shen Xian, so she immediately put the ring on her finger while Shen Xian was sleeping.

    There couldn’t be a more fitting day.

    “You didn’t kneel down or buy me flowers.” Shen Xian deliberately picked on Lan Yuan.

    Lan Yuan immediately knelt down, her knees touching the ground, and hurriedly asked for help, “I’ll go buy you flowers later.”

    Chen Xian immediately jumped off the bed, helped Lan Yuan up, took Lan Yuan’s hands, and said gently but firmly: “Even if there is no ring, no kneeling, no bouquet, I will accept your proposal. I have long belonged to you, and only to you.”

    Lan Yuan breathed a sigh of relief. She had thought that Chen Xian would say these words, but when she heard them, she still felt extremely moved. She couldn’t help but burst into tears, crying like a child.

    Then, Lan Yuan tenderly kissed the back of Shen Xian’s hand and the hand with the ring on it, expressing her love.

    Now both of them are wearing rings given to each other.

    After breakfast, Shen Xian told Lan Yuan about her experiences these days——

    Shen Xian and Lisa arrived in Jinling around November 20, but they found out that Lan Yuan and Hunter had gone to Yangzhou to take refuge.

    Shen Xian then planned to go to Yangzhou, but he could not buy tickets for a long time, either by boat or train.

    Xu Ziyu is used to the upper class life, so she naturally doesn’t know how hard it is to get a vote, so she can’t guess why Shen Xian doesn’t come back!

    Japanese planes often fly around in the sky and can bomb at any time. Shen Xian and Lisa can only hide at home during the day and go out at night to find someone to buy tickets at a high price.

    A few days later, Shen Xian and Lisa finally bought tickets for December 15th, but on the 13th, the Japanese began to massacre wildly.

    The ticket seller was also a liar, and the whole city was sealed off. Shen Xian and Lisa couldn’t leave at all, and they had to carry their luggage and hide from the Japanese.

    During this period, Shen Xian was almost hit by a bullet. A nun from the church rescued her and hid her in the church.

    After learning that Lisa and Shen Xian were British, the nun asked Shen Xian and Lisa to help more female students in the church.

    Because the Japanese did not dare to harm the British at that time, the British identity was a natural protective umbrella.

    Shen Xian and Lisa accepted this request and sent the female students to safe places for refuge every day, and then continued to look for a way out of the city.

    Finally they heard that there was a boat going to Yangzhou, but they had almost no property at that time and the boatman was unwilling to sail.

    In the end, Shen Xian had no choice but to mortgage the white jade bracelet given by Lan Yuan, and let several female students get on the boat.

    “When I see the sailor again, I will definitely redeem the bracelet.” Shen Xian was sorry for selling the bracelet.

    “These are all external things, as long as you come back alive.” Lan Yuan was only grateful that the white jade bracelet could save Shen Xian’s life, and it was considered to be the best use of everything.

    After saying this, the two walked out of the room and wandered around the Lan family, where they left behind memories of their first love and ignorance about love.

    The small trees in the yard have grown a lot, but the old trees that have been there for decades have not changed much. After a heavy snowfall, the wintersweet blossoms are even better, and they are as bright red and green as pigeon blood.

    There are only three or five people serving in the house, all of whom are new faces. Aunt Li has gone home to take care of herself, and the housekeeper has been replaced by Lan Yuan.

    However, the piano in the piano room is still there, but it has accumulated a lot of dust and has not been touched for a long time.

    Chen Xian simply wiped the piano, lifted the lid, and invited Lan Yuan to sit next to her, and they played the song “To Alice” together.

    In the past, she was used to seeing Shen Xian wearing Western-style dresses. Now Shen Xian is wearing a Chinese-style winter coat. Although it doesn’t fit well, Lan Yuan thinks it has more charm.

    Standing in the snow, they took another photo.

    Back in the house again, Lan Yuan confessed Shen Xian’s life experience, “I hid something from you. I think you have the right to know. Sister Pei is your biological sister.”

    “What did you say?” Shen Xian looked stunned and in disbelief.

    Lan Yuan told Shen Xian the whole story.

    “In the past, I was afraid that you wouldn’t be able to accept these bad things, so I didn’t dare to say anything. But after this experience of separation and death, I think you should know all this and shouldn’t be kept in the dark.” Lan Yuan said calmly, but her eyes could not hide her concern and love for Shen Xian.

    “I always thought that my biological mother didn’t want me, but it turned out that she was so difficult!” Shen Xian cried. She never thought that there was such a story behind being abandoned.

    In fact, from the day Shen Xian knew she was an orphan, she subconsciously felt that abandonment was the greatest sin. Therefore, in her emotional entanglement with Lan Yuan, what she feared most was abandonment!

    In the past, abandonment in Shen Xian’s world meant disgust and separation, but never love. But what happened to her biological mother suddenly made Shen Xian understand that abandonment was actually because she couldn’t help herself. Her biological mother and Yuan Yuan were both people who couldn’t help themselves, and they also loved her very much!

    Lan Yuan didn’t know how to comfort the crying Shen Xian. In fact, Lan Yuan felt that she was very unqualified in family relationships. She didn’t love her parents, and her parents didn’t love her, so she couldn’t comfort Shen Xian well and could only hold Shen Xian’s hand tightly and stay with her.

    “I want to find Sister Pei!” Shen Xian said while wiping away his tears.

    “Go.” Lan Yuan supported all Chen Xian’s decisions.

    After meeting Qian Pei, Shen Xian didn’t call her sister. She was still used to calling her sister Pei.

    “Sister Pei, I know my life experience.” Shen Xian said bluntly.

    “But blood relationship is just the icing on the cake. I have always regarded Sister Pei as my biological sister!” Shen Xian continued.

    “Do you have a photo of my biological mother?” Shen Xian wanted to know what her biological mother looked like.

    Qian Pei shook her head. Her mother had burned away everything about Shen Xian’s mother.

    Shen Xian’s eyes dimmed a lot, but he still smiled with relief. “Perhaps when I was born, I had already seen her once. After a thousand years, I will think of her sooner or later.”

    “I’m sorry, I apologize on behalf of my mother!” Qian Pei said with his head lowered.

    “I don’t forgive Sister Pei’s mother,” Shen Xian said lightly, but with an unmistakable determination, “I’m sorry, it’s useless. This is not a house fight, this is murder.”

    “I know it’s useless, but most of my mother’s body has been buried in the ground. Apologizing is the only thing we can do.” Qian Pei explained humbly.

    “I have no evidence to hold you accountable,” Shen Xian sneered, “Your mother lived a long life, and my mother died underground in her prime. I just feel so sorry for her!”

    After saying that, Shen Xian started crying by himself.

    After almost thirty years, someone finally shed tears for the innocent soul in the well.

    After Chen Xian finished speaking, he returned to Lan’s house and lay in Lan Yuan’s arms, “Yuan Yuan, there are really many unfair things in this world!”

    “Yeah, it’s too unfair!” Lan Yuan also lamented.

    Qian Pei’s mother was not held accountable, Zhao Wencheng paid for the murder but did not go to jail, Su Wan was still alive and well, Du Yunhe never let Xu Ziyu go free, Hunter was alone for many years because of the shadow of the war, Zhao Jing never knew his life experience…

    Sins have not been punished, pain has not been healed, and the truth has been buried forever. It is indeed too unfair!

    “But no amount of injustice should make us give up on ourselves. We must always become a better version of ourselves and learn to reconcile with ourselves.” Shen Xian continued to say calmly after a long time. In her thirties, she finally understood these truths.

    “Yes, we are all becoming better versions of ourselves!” Lan Yuan said with a smile. She was now sure that Shen Xian did not fall into the shadows because of what happened to his biological mother, but became more transparent. This is a good thing.

    “I love you, Yuan Yuan. It is precisely because of meeting you that I learned to reconcile with everything.” Shen Xian said softly against Lan Yuan’s forehead.

    “I love you too. Because I met Teacher Shen, I became Lan Yuan’s Lan Yuan and Chen Xian’s Lan Yuan!” Lan Yuan said and kissed Chen Xian gently.

    The words “Teacher Shen” seemed to bring them back to the year they first met. It was the beginning of everything good and the starting point of their cultivation life.

    Blue Kite’s Blue Kite – This expresses that Blue Kite is becoming herself.

    Chen Xian’s Blue Kite – This is an expression of Blue Kite’s unwavering love!

    The Chinese New Year is here in a blink of an eye, and for the first time in seven years, the Lan family is so lively.

    Because Lan Yuan thought that this might be her last year in China, she invited many people to have a New Year’s Eve dinner on New Year’s Eve.

    Jasmine got married five years ago and now has a child and a husband. Lan Yuan has always regarded her as a good sister, so the New Year’s Eve dinner naturally arranged a place for Jasmine’s family.

    Xu Ziyu is a good friend and Wen Shu is her goddaughter. Lan Yuan is afraid that her mother and daughter will be deserted during the New Year, so she also invites them to have dinner.

    Shen Xian invited Qian Pei to the New Year’s Eve dinner, feeling sorry for her being alone.

    Feng Jia doesn’t want to go back to the Feng family, so he has to spend the New Year at Lan Mansion.

    Hunter and Lisa are naturally here too.

    The relationship with Su Wan has eased a lot. As long as Su Wan does not bully Chen Xian, Lan Yuan will naturally talk and laugh with her.So I am willing to celebrate the New Year with her.

    Lan Zhi is a biological brother. Although they are not close to each other, they still eat at the same table during the Chinese New Year.

    Except for Lan Yuan’s mother, who was paralyzed in bed and unable to serve at the table, it was really a big family of relatives and friends.

    Shen Xian was sitting next to Lan Yuan, wearing the new red clothes Lan Yuan asked her to wear. Her face was full of happiness. Looking at this lively scene, she felt that the Chinese New Year was very interesting for the first time.

    After the New Year’s Eve dinner, everyone set off fireworks in the yard, stayed up and chatted.

    During the Chinese New Year, how could it be possible that Xu Ziyu, Qian Pei, Lan Yuan and Su Wan, who we usually chatted with together, were now in harmony, talking and laughing!

    Du Wenshu and Jasmine’s daughter had a great time playing together. They watched the fireworks blooming in the sky and clapped their hands repeatedly.

    However, Shen Xian had the most fun playing with the fireworks. She also snatched the children’s to play with, “Awen, my godmother wants this in your hand, okay?”

    Lan Yuan held the teacup and laughed at Shen Xian, “Are you childish, robbing children?”

    Xu Ziyu protected her daughter, “Don’t grab Wen Shu’s fireworks.”

    Du Wenshu became the most favored person in the room. She gave Shen Xian everything he asked her.

    Jasmine’s daughter asked Du Wenshu: “Why are you so partial to Aunt Shen?”

    Du Wenshu rolled her eyes and said with a smile: “Because my godmother is more beautiful than fireworks, and I love my godmother.”

    Shen Xian was so happy by these words that he put the red scarf around his neck on Awen to keep him warm, and then excitedly held Awen in circles.

    “Is she really two years older than you?” Su Wan looked at Shen Xian’s naughty look and couldn’t believe that this person was thirty years old.

    “There’s nothing I can do about it. My wife has a childish charm about her, and she’s even more tender than me.” Lan Yuan spread her hands and expressed her helplessness.

    When Xu Ziyu, Qian Pei and Su Wan saw her showing affection again, they simply didn’t notice and they all licked melon seeds and said nothing.

    Lan Yuan continued to look at Shen Xian who was playing with fireworks with crooked eyebrows!

    On the first day of the new year, Chen Xian and Lan Yuan slept together until three o’clock in the morning, and Shen Xian woke up only when Du Wenshu knocked on the door.

    It was too late yesterday, so Xu Ziyu and her daughter stayed at Lan’s house for one night.

    “Godmother, why are there so many red spots on your neck?” Du Wenshu’s big eyes were full of doubts.

    Shen Xian immediately closed the door and changed into a turtleneck before coming out.

    Last night, Lan Yuan pestered Chen Xian for a long time. Shen Xian was too tired from playing with fireworks and had no strength. He was bullied by Lan Yuan and risked his life to accompany Junzi. He was pestered three times by Lan Yuan before he was allowed to sleep.

    In the evening of the first year of junior high school, Lan Yuan went back to her room to rest after dinner. The moment she opened the door, she saw Shen Xian walking over carrying a cake with candles.

    “Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you…”

    Today is Lan Yuan’s birthday. Lan Yuan even forgot about it, but Shen Xian still remembered it for her and gave her an emerald brooch as a birthday gift.

    After winter, the winter jasmine flowers are gradually blooming in the courtyard.

    Su Wan also divorced Lan Zhi and left the Lan family. She wanted to pursue a new life!

    Lan Yuan woke up one morning and suddenly a piece of paper was thrust into her hand by Shen Xian.

    Taking a closer look, Lan Yuan’s eyes lit up. It was a ticket to England.

    “Do you want to come with me this time?” Chen Xian asked Lan Yuanyuan.

    “Of course.” Lan Yuan jumped onto Chen Xian excitedly.

    In April of the New Year, the two said goodbye to their relatives and friends at the dock and finally boarded the ship to England.

    The two stood side by side on the deck, enjoying the sea breeze.

    Shen Xian looked at the blue sea, and her mood was completely different from the mood she had when she boarded the ship seven years ago. There was something she wanted to tell Lan Yuan——

    “A British writer Somerset Maugham once said, ‘Would you stop loving someone just because you were hurt mercilessly?'” Chen Xian held Lan Yuan’s hand tightly, looked at her lover affectionately, and said calmly, with a mature tone in her voice.

    “I asked myself this question seven years ago on the boat back to England. My answer at that time was no.” Shen Xian hugged Lan Yuan, “I love you, Lan Yuan. No matter what the situation is, I love you. I love you just like I love myself.”

    “I love you too, Chen Xian.” Lan Yuan hugged Shen Xian tightly and said emotionally.

    The ship accelerated, leaving vast swaths of sea water behind, and their promise was witnessed by the sea!

    Finally, seven years later, Lan Yuan failed to live up to Shen Xian!

    Twenty days later, the ship successfully docked at the Port of London, England.

    The story of my godmother is still going on, but the sunshine today is not good enough, so I want to take a few days off before writing!

    Now when you go back to the beginning, you should be able to guess that I am Du Wenshu, the person who wrote this true story!

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