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    The essence of multiple distortions and mutations is “purification”

    Loading, one or two white bullets filled with liquid are loaded into the bullet nest one after another.

    Spin, you know very well that when the roulette wheel is turned on at 4000 rpm without trimming, it will make a terrible noise and then randomly fire a bullet and take away you, the unfortunate and lucky gambler.

    In fact, it is balanced.

    But maybe?Maybe triangular trim will produce uncontrollable components?

    You closed the cover, stood in silence for a while, and pressed the start button.

    … Nothing happened, the machine worked quietly and efficiently.You lowered your eyes with bated breath, and slowly let out a sigh of relief and disappointment.

    Actually, it’s not that complicated.

    Apart from the “instructor” who set the topic, you are actually the only one in this experimental group.Just pick up the scalpel and pretend to accidentally poke yourself, and you’ll be fine…

    Forget it.you say.You are afraid of pain.

    Anyway, the content every day is the same: come early, turn on the computer early and click on some mysterious websites, prove that you are human, accept all the “cookies”, download the information that may have been downloaded, and then talk about life with the big model tool…

    Or go to the quiet cell stage and see if the cells from yesterday, the day before yesterday, last week or even last month have died again, pick and choose among the dead corpses, silent mutes, and perverted weirdos, and then take photos of the results of this trial and error…

    Maybe, even if you are stuck in a loop, you won’t actually notice it.

    Or maybe it’s already… it’s a cycle.

    Something drove you to stand up, walk out of the cell room directly, not bothering to bother with disinfection, and walk to the window.

    Don’t get me wrong, you said you were afraid of pain.You just suddenly want to do something and find something, thus proving that time is still moving forward linearly.

    Maybe, maybe it’s time to look outside.

    The shadows of the trees, the sky, and the newly painted red walls were bright and bright, as bright and dazzling as the sun.

    You don’t like the color, it’s quite, quite ugly.It clearly takes over the posture and gaze of the leaves, making this world so old-fashioned and over-embellished.

    Be it white walls or black bricks, that patch of green was so good, why was it…

    Be, be…

    You have nothing to say and it seems like you haven’t socialized in a long time.

    I have to say something. Although talking to myself is ridiculous, I am already ridiculous enough anyway.

    “Uh…” Where’s your sharp tongue?

    Where did it go?

    “…I want to drink coffee.”

    Ah, so you want to drink coffee?You should have told me earlier.

    You chuckled and secretly decided not to do any experiments today.

    It can’t be done anyway.

    Just do it, you start taking off your gloves and coat, and pull and throw the mask, which is really domineering.When you walk to the door of the laboratory building and the good sunlight shines on you, you finally feel like you are still alive.

    Such a sun…

    “What are you doing out here?”

    The black car parked on the roadside at the door slowly rolled down its window.You know that license plate all too well.

    “Let me ask you, if you don’t do experiments, what are you doing here?”

    This woman, oh, this person…

    “Shen Molin!”

    Your name is Shen Molin.

    You are not someone else, you are him.

    White sheets of paper flew out of the window and hit him in the face.They fell one after another, and together with Shen Molin’s face, they made his figure sway as he wished.

    “It’s been a month and there’s been no progress? Did you keep all the allocated money?”

    Embezzlement?

    Shen Molin smiled coldly: “I’d like to, but you’ve swallowed all the money and haven’t left much for me.”

    “Capitalists still use wages to oppress slaves, but you can only try to embarrass me by trying to embarrass me by trying to embarrass me with unfounded charges. Okay, okay, it turns out it’s because you don’t get any money at all!”

    He spoke loudly, standing in the middle of the white paper with his hands on his hips, as if there was no one around.

    “That’s right.”

    Mother Shen’s face was dark and sinister in the shadows.What she was holding in her hand was a rat’s oral LD50 record sheet.

    “After all, you are just an adult male that I raised.”

    That’s right.

    He almost rushed over, grabbed the car window with his hand, lowered his head and gritted his teeth and smiled at the frightened owner.

    “So don’t forget, all that can make me humble and call your mother now is just a contract.”

    “When the debt of childbearing is repaid…” The anger in his words boiled on the edge of the crucible, like a drugged rabbit or dog with red eyes.

    “…Get away.”

    The exhaust rolled up the white paper, making her departure embarrassing.

    But how can Shen Molin’s victory be honorable?

    In the end, he still had to pick up the mess all over the floor one by one.

    When the debt of childbirth is repaid…

    He clenched the paper tightly, looked up at the beauty that was beyond his reach, turned around and went back upstairs.

    He also knew that this was embarrassing.

    But no matter how reluctant he was, he still had to be willing.

    In order to make up for some unacceptable permissions, in order to pursue some selves that cannot be called one’s own, in order to recover some capital that cannot be capitalized…

    for…

    It shouldn’t be…

    He should try to make more calls to Qi Ruiqing at that time.Maybe Qi Ruiqing will…

    No, this will harm him.He acted wisely because he was indecisive…

    “Shen Molin, what are you doing standing there, drinking and drinking.”

    The people next to him hugged him and urged him to stop being reserved, but Shen Molin looked at his face and couldn’t remember who it was.

    “What’s that look in your eyes?” “…Who are you?” “No, how often do noble people forget things? When I was a sophomore, I asked Qi Ruiqing to give you the Internet Plus…”

    Can’t remember.He was very sleepy. It was probably almost two o’clock in the morning.Here is a world of feasting, lights, flowers, and huge music…

    “Is this a sleep deprivation experiment?” “What are you talking about?”

    Shen Molin didn’t have much energy anymore. He wanted to rest, although a drink would be fine…

    “Drink.” “I have no money recently.” “So tight?” “I am paying off debts.” “Can’t you pay back the tranquilizer once it’s made? Didn’t you and your mother sign a contract?”

    Who knows what tricks she will do, and if she saves more money, Shen Molin will not end up leaving home.

    “Okay, I’m treating you.”

    Shen Molin looked at the people around him unexpectedly and hesitated.

    “What a treat!” “Then give me some more money.” “Are you crazy!?”

    I always feel like no one is scolding me like this.

    Shen Molin couldn’t remember because it was already half past three when he got home.He didn’t drink after all, he knew he was too drunk.

    It was too late, his heart was beating so hard, and he felt so nauseous that he almost retched.This was a sign of insomnia, but his physical weakness forced him to lie down and rest.

    The mouth is dry and the irritability cannot be suppressed even by drinking water.

    Come to think of it, he hid medicine, sleeping pills.

    What’s the dose?One or a half…can’t crush it…forget it…

    I think about it, I think about it…this medicine is still…it’s still illegal in my home…

    He was lying on the table, standing on his elbows and holding the medicine bottle in his palms. He looked at the medicine bottle under the light and sneered like a fool.

    What is inside this bottle, is it salvation or something else?

    What is…?

    He suddenly realized something, and slowly got up from the table, holding on to his strength, and began to carefully observe the label on the medicine bottle.

    No…right.

    This bottle of medicine.

    I clicked it with my fingernails, and the label stood up.He pinched the false disguise and pulled it off bit by bit, sweating all over his body.

    His medicine was stolen.This is not sleeping pills, this is…

    He covered his mouth and felt sick to his stomach.

    He had just eaten two slices.

    When he walked to the drawer where the medicine was kept, he stumbled and almost fell.

    None of the other medicine bottles had been touched, and there weren’t even signs of rummaging in the other drawers.This man not only knows what he will eat today, he also knows where it is.

    But in fact, Shen Molin secretly brought these illegal drugs.

    Did s/he know it from the beginning?This was all planned by them…

    His mind started to twist, and he couldn’t remember where the initial arrangement was.

    It hurts, it hurts…

    “These bastards… bastards…”

    He was already walking unsteadily, so he could only soak some warm salt water and drink it for himself.He ran to the toilet and pressed the base of his tongue, spitting out again and again, but the blur and patches in front of his eyes only increased.

    Eyelids feel heavy.My limbs no longer obey my command.He lay there, feeling his breathing becoming more labored.

    He has already guessed that this is the half-finished product he is working on now.

    He had known for a long time that he would end up like this one day.In fact, if it hadn’t been for his accidental discovery today, maybe he wouldn’t have understood that he was not even as good as a certain pet from another family until the day his spine was torn off.

    The Shen family is all crazy. As an experimental mouse, Shen Molin can survive under his parents only because he can still create value.

    Value…

    In this case, let yourself become better!Price!value!

    Direct and accurate data on the lethal dose of a father, mother, or an adult is very rare, right?

    As if he had figured something out, he suddenly got up.He staggered and fell to the table, desperately reaching for the medicine.

    All in one go.He told himself that it wouldn’t hurt anyway.

    He struggled to unscrew the bottle cap, closed his eyes and took a breath, until the sound of his hand hitting the ground woke him up again.He lay on the ground and patiently tried to pick up the pills one by one and put them in his mouth, until finally he couldn’t even swallow them.

    It’s funny, there are already cases of death from this drug before it even hits the shelves.But if my corpse is taken for an autopsy and made into a rough body, then it can be regarded as my dedication…

    He finally thought that he might not be too selfish…

    Qi Ruiqing…

    His throat was sore and swollen, and someone was taking the medicine out of his mouth.Nothing was clear in front of him, but something seemed to be moving his body.

    “Don’t sleep, don’t sleep…” Someone was patting his face.

    “Why are you so cruel to yourself?”

    Shen Molin didn’t blink, looking at the face blankly.

    Is it him?

    “It’s me, it’s me!”

    It’s just a hallucination before death…

    “I’ve already called an ambulance, hold on…”

    Shen Molin smiled at him contentedly, and his supported head slowly tilted down from “Qi Ruiqing’s” arm.

    The black haloed, and finally, I couldn’t bear to close it again.

    ……

    ……

    ………Well.

    What happened?

    Shen Molin only remembered that the water for gastric lavage was extremely cold, and the smelly kid in emergency room next door was extremely noisy.His stomach was so distended that he felt like vomiting, but his body was no longer under his control.

    He was really tired. Normally he would wake up within 24 hours. He just slept for nine more hours without even knowing that he had been transferred to another hospital. He missed the opportunity to see Qi Ruiqing.

    But it’s really not appropriate to see him in his current state, it’s very annoying and worrying…

    “Why are you…” He stared listlessly at Senior Sister Yu, whom he hadn’t seen for a while.

    “I took money from your father, and he asked me to come and test your voice.” Senior Sister Yu answered truthfully.

    “What…the tone…” “Don’t you want to die?”

    Who wants to die?Who would want to die if they could live, live freely and happily?

    “Get away… get away… you all get out…” His current attack was really weak, so he had to slow down a few words.

    “I heard that you haven’t eaten anything until now.” Senior Sister Yu took out a lunch box, “I brought you some rice soup…”

    “I won’t eat…” In fact, I was almost starving.

    “I don’t care whether you eat or not. I’m just here to tell you that your mother said you don’t have to work on this project anymore, and she’s going to break the contract.”

    Shen Molin remembered that there was no one to change the culture medium for the cells while he was away.

    “Go and change it for me…” “I told you, you don’t have to be responsible anymore.”

    He said: “Oh…” He was stunned for a long time before he spoke.

    Senior Sister Yu held her forehead: “Please wake up, okay?”

    “Think clearly about the consequences and how you should explain the fact that Qi Ruiqing visited your home.”

    …Huh?

    “What’s your look?” Senior Sister Yu frowned. She might also be a little surprised. “I also want to ask you. Qi Ruiqing was obviously working the night shift in the hospital that day. How did he find you swallowing medicine and call an ambulance?”

    What…

    Shen Molin tried hard to remember, but he couldn’t even remember why he acted out of anger or why he swallowed medicine.The effect of this medicine was really very poisonous, and his memory felt as if it had been dug away.

    “I don’t remember… not at all…”

    He pulled hard on the ends of his hair, fighting against the physical discomfort caused by the memory.

    “Hey!” Senior Sister Yu rushed up to stop him, “Don’t even think about it if you have a headache.”

    Headache, headache, it hurts like hell…

    “Okay, okay, I’m going to ask Qi Ruiqing sideways. The neurotoxicity of DMT-SYN-015 is not small. You should have a good rest. That’s all for now.”

    That’s all.

    After Senior Sister Yu left, he also picked up the bowl and drank it all hungrily.

    Then check the emergency number.The kind person used Shen Molin’s cell phone, and the call time was 3:47.When the ambulance arrived at 4:01, the door had been opened, but Shen Molin was the only one in the room.

    How strange… is this an illusion or…

    But apart from Qi Ruiqing, Shen Molin couldn’t think of anyone else.

    “Did you find anything?” Senior Sister Yu came again the next day, and during the conversation, she glanced at the takeout bag on the bedside intentionally or unintentionally.

    “Can you please stop looking?” “Do you know how dirty the takeaway porridge is?” “Then what should I eat? No one comes to see me except you…”

    Senior Sister Yu looked regretful.

    “Let’s get down to business, don’t waste my precious rest time.” “I went to ask, and it is true that Qi Ruiqing never came to your place that day.”

    Shen Molin took a sip of some water, thinking so.

    “Do you have any reasonable explanation?” Senior Sister Yu asked him.

    “Maybe I made the call myself.” He replied lazily and casually, “Maybe it was the desire to survive. After all, I don’t remember anything.”

    “Impossible, were you still conscious at that time? Besides, how do you explain that timbre?” Senior Sister Yu refuted him, “Don’t say that you two have ‘very similar voices’. No one will believe this reason.”

    “Then what’s your explanation?” Shen Molin was annoyed, he just felt noisy.

    “I do.”

    But before that, Senior Sister Yu wanted to ask Shen’s mother and the contract again.

    “Tsk, do you need to be so concerned about my family affairs?” Shen Molin didn’t want to pay attention to her – this was a family scandal, and this was his most vulnerable state.He has no interest in exposing others’ wounds.

    But: “I’m asking you on behalf of Qi Ruiqing. He is concerned about your current situation.”

    Using Qi Ruiqing as a shield is despicable!

    “…Naturally she drafted a new one. But as liquidated damages for breaking the contract, she gave in and said that the direction of the project and the form of the results could be decided by myself.”

    When he raised his eyes, he saw Senior Sister Yu grinning horribly like a traitor.

    “You, what on earth are you going to do?” “Junior brother, I do have a reasonable explanation…”

    What incorporeal body, what energy…what the hell?

    “The energy of the human brain? This sounds fake.” He was speechless. “Are you laundering money for my mother?”

    “Just take a look.” Senior Sister Yu threw some information to him and spread her hands helplessly, “If you don’t believe it, it’s useless for me to tell you.”

    “But this has obviously dismantled the pharmaceutical industry. My mother will not recognize these as having no economic value…” “DMT-Exp-3, in conjunction with current stimulation, can be used to stimulate nerves to produce hallucinations, increase excitability and increase energy coefficient.”

    Senior Sister Yu glanced around, lowered her voice, and pulled out a photo to show to Shen Molin.

    “There is also this instrument. Although it is still in the experimental stage, it is currently known that it can measure neuropsychiatric diseases such as depression and bipolar disorder based on the energy coefficient…”

    “That’s enough.” Shen Molin closed his eyes and pushed her away.

    Senior Sister Yu’s surprise was not fake: “I thought you would be interested in these new things.”

    But what can you do if you are interested?

    Can it be eaten as a meal?

    If possible, Shen Molin really wanted to go back to the past and give herself a slap in the face at that intersection.

    But he also understands that this is treating the symptoms rather than the root cause, whether he chooses his father’s business or his mother’s scientific research… As long as his surname is Shen, haha…

    “…I hope you can come to my place.” Senior Sister Yu stopped smiling and just looked at him with a sad look.

    “Why? Did my mother say that?” “I can’t see you like this anymore, alone…”

    She didn’t finish her words, she just sighed in a deep voice:

    “You’re going to get yourself killed…sooner or later.”

    Not that serious.Is it that serious?

    Shen Molin couldn’t understand the ways of the world.He believed that he had nothing to do with Senior Sister Yu.The only thing they have in common is that they were oppressed by the same mentor and suffered the same hardships…

    “That’s for Qi Ruiqing! Even if you want to see him again, you have to…live first, right?”

    Who said that I had seen him before he almost died…

    After a long silence, Shen Molin picked up the materials again.

    “Okay… okay… what else can I say… I’ll go to your place.”

    This lasted for a year and a half.This project team grew bigger and bigger. From being a simple medical researcher at the beginning to a multidisciplinary collaboration, the leap forward was indeed inseparable from Shen Molin’s talent, and he naturally became the person in charge.

    But, indeed, “leap forward”.

    All he cares about is financial gain.To this end, he can go up and test the equipment himself, he can package “illegal human drug use” as “hypnosis”, he can even accept a marriage contract to pay off part of the debt…

    …Shen Molin.

    Do you remember what you were doing?

    The aftereffects of banned drugs always hit you again and again at night and in your dreams. Several times you convulsed in a cold sweat, and then you couldn’t remember anything…

    “Do you remember Qi Ruiqing?”

    you ask yourself.

    “Do you remember who you are?”

    You don’t know.

    “Do you know what you’re doing?”

    You know nothing.

    You don’t remember anything…

    Blue – the sky is green, the clouds are green, the trees are green, the water is green, your world is only a blur of cyan, but you can’t remember why the background of your memories is this color.

    “…….”

    Until he showed up again, this time alive.

    You looked at him through the glass window, and after just one glance, you were so burned that you couldn’t look straight anymore.

    “Why did you call me here?” You asked Senior Sister Yu in a low voice, almost angrily.

    “I didn’t say it directly, I went through his dean… Do you know that something has been wrong with you recently? You are going crazy!”

    “Seeing him only makes me crazier! You idiot!”

    “Am I an idiot? Shen Molin, don’t forget that so many experiments failed because of the influence of your energy field!”

    …What she said is correct.You have to admit it.

    Calm down, calm down.Whether Qi Ruiqing is here or not, you have to stay calm.This experiment is very important and must not fail…

    Anyway.

    No matter the cost.

    In a daze, you look at yourself, behind the glass window.

    The experiment must succeed!!!

    That’s you, that’s me, that’s our long-cherished wish.”We are the same.”

    The experiment must succeed!

    Our purpose remains the same.”Don’t you want the experiment to succeed?”

    The experiment must succeed.

    Completely understood?No, no need to inquire so deeply.”That’s your business.”

    The experiment must succeed…

    That roar is the best proof.You’ve been waiting, you’ve been waiting…

    At this moment…

    Then nothing more.

    ………

    So, why would you do this?

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