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    Descartes’ ontology and Hegel’s idealism

    Hands up.those people said.

    The leader was the captain, whom he knew.Next to the very cold freezer, he solemnly pushed himself into the darkness.

    Qi Ruiqing clutched the bloody draft, and his eyes stung under the bright light.

    sinner?

    Yes, yes.He admitted that he was a villain now just because he stole Shen Molin and broke into various forbidden places.These people should indeed point their guns at himself like they are now, shining the red dot of their sniper rifles into his face.

    And he who did evil should fight back and vent his anger.

    The camellia-colored mountains are beautiful, but in the end there is only decay and decay.

    But my mother also said: Life is not easy.

    Hypocrisy?

    Yes, yes!But that was his last act of reason, his “kindness.”So in the end, he waved his hand to make the fallen flowers bloom again and to reconnect the broken branches.

    Do you want to say that it brings a thousand times more pain?

    Hahaha, ridiculous!This is just a drop in the bucket!Nothing compares to Shen Molin’s pain!

    Selfish?

    Just think of it as selfish.

    But anyway, whatever he thinks, others must think the same as him.

    He would strangle those who disagreed and would affect Shen Molin’s discord, then resurrect them, kill them again, resurrect them again…

    He is both a doctor and a poisoner.

    The real threat?

    yes!yes!!The fools finally realized it!

    That exploding star has already died in the past before being observed; the first step for the sprouting “new life” is to “kill” its seeds.

    If they don’t treat them as human beings, they will die and lose their lives.

    Let’s all go and be buried with Shen Molin.

    “Qi Ruiqing,” the captain surnamed Yan finally couldn’t help asking him bitterly during the occasional waking moments, “I understand what you want… but, just for its existence, are you worth it?”

    What else is worth it?In a battle between hot weapons and fantasy, he has destroyed everything, everything is empty, only Shen Molin is real.

    “…Well, we don’t have a choice.”

    Just understand.

    “If you have any other requests, please make them now.”

    Nothing else, except for one piece of advice: don’t question Shen Molin.

    “Why?”

    Because he is soberer than me?Because He is the truth.

    This was Qi Ruiqing’s answer at that time, and now, facts have proved that “he is indeed not sober.”If it weren’t for this flashback, which was either a dream or a memory, Qi Ruiqing wouldn’t have been able to remember that he had talked to Captain Yan two or three times about making peace.

    But again, “Shen Molin is the truth” – this time the world he imagined is clear and rational, and it is the best solution without any guilt.

    Unfortunately, Qi Ruiqing couldn’t get enough sleep, as if he was going into hibernation.He began to shiver inexplicably, wrapped himself tightly in the quilt and sneezed.

    “Hello.”

    The toilet door was ajar, and the sound of water inside sounded like someone washing their face.

    “What time is it?” Qi Ruiqing guessed that Shen Molin woke up early.

    “Ahem…well.”

    Such a hoarse and hoarse voice…

    “Have you been reading the information all night?” He turned over and lay there, looking at the papers scattered on the floor, and raised his voice slightly.

    The water didn’t stop, but there was still no answer.There seems to be something hidden under the sound of washing and splashing…

    “Shen Molin?”

    A leaking red pen rolled out from under the bed strangely and rolled into Qi Ruiqing’s palm.The red liquid continued into a dark path. He picked up the pen and saw that it had obviously broken the ball on the tip.

    “This…”

    There was a sudden vomiting sound, followed by a hoarse cough.

    This…

    The quilt fell behind his back, he straightened his upper body and moved out of bed silently.

    “Ahem… vomit…”

    The red belly of the snake rubbed against the mess on the ground. He squinted his eyes, raised his neck and stared at the shadow behind the door, and unconsciously spit out the snake letter.

    From the crack in the door, he clearly saw the huge shadow lying down, imitating a human cough, and then stretched out a wriggling tentacle to turn off the faucet.

    “Ahem…it’s really…”

    “He” picked up a towel, and the strange, huge, inhuman body shook and made a sound, as if to get rid of the water on it.

    Qi Ruiqing arched his body and got ready to go.

    “Ahem… was there someone just now…”

    Waiting for this “monster” to come out without any defense, wiping his face…

    “Wow.”

    When he rushed forward and dug his fangs into the opponent’s neck, he heard a low-pitched cry.

    “You…”

    The towel covering his face fell off, and his chest was pressed against the other’s naked upper body. What he felt was the sudden warmth and heartbeat of the same frequency.

    “…I haven’t woken up yet.”

    Shen Molin rubbed the head biting on his neck, tilted his head and rubbed it lightly.

    “…Eh?”

    The chaos in front of him suddenly condensed, and Qi Ruiqing was suddenly able to recognize who this monster was.

    “Shen…” He relaxed blankly, climbed on his shoulder and leaned back to observe.

    “It’s Shen Molin.” Shen Molin said seriously, “Can’t you recognize it?”

    “Ah…ah?! It’s over!” “Huh?” “Why is it you?! How did I bite you?!”

    It’s poisonous!Qi Ruiqing went there with the intention of killing the opponent, so he bit extra hard.Those two huge holes were spurting out blood on Shen Molin’s neck, and Qi Ruiqing was so frightened that she reached out to press them.

    “Oh.” Shen Molin held the back of his head and said lightly, “It’s okay. Anything I can’t assimilate will be spit out.”

    He wiped his mouth again, rubbed some of the oozing transparent venom on the back of his hand and showed it to Qi Ruiqing: “Look, this injection of venom medicine is useless to me.”

    That’s good.

    “You weren’t awake before I went to take a shower. Did I wake you up?” “No… it’s just that you suddenly weren’t warm.”

    Qi Ruiqing leaned on his shoulder, feeling inexplicably sad.He had to dig deeper into the shoulder and neck, as if looking for a safe corner.

    “Why did you vomit?” “It’s just a food pill. I swallowed the chicken leg bone the day before yesterday. I remember humans can’t digest this.”

    No wonder Qi Ruiqing didn’t see a single bone when he was cleaning it up. He thought he had accidentally swallowed it.

    “Speaking of which, why do I suddenly not recognize you?”

    Shen Molin carried him back to bed and wrapped him in a quilt.

    “In addition to not waking up, there should be some reasons for me.” He knelt down in front of Qi Ruiqing and warmed him with the body temperature under his wings.

    “What’s the relationship?”

    Shen Molin chuckled and said nothing, just waved a piece of paper to float over.He lowered his eyes to see the information related to “observation”.

    “Well… I doubt that I am me, but I am still real; you are convinced that I am me, so I exist. So, when I am sure that I am me, or I ignore the authenticity of this matter and choose not to care, and you doubt the authenticity of my existence, am I still there?”

    Qi Ruiqing might not have woken up.

    “The practice and some image data just proved that, ‘When I am sure that I am me, or when I ignore the reality of this matter and choose not to care, and you doubt the authenticity of my existence, then I do not exist’ is a false proposition. My consciousness really exists, and what can be changed is only the physical form.”

    Shen Molin stuffed a few photos into his hand. The photos above seemed to be from the laboratory where Shen Molin was stunned before. They were the follow-up photos taken by his mother’s group.In the photo, Qi Ruiqing was the only one beside the door that was about to be broken through.

    “I don’t remember…didn’t I faint?” “Look carefully…”

    If you look carefully, Qi Ruiqing in the photo seems to be covered with a flame-like black ghost.

    “That’s me.”

    Huh?

    “In short, it must have been the first time that you and I were ‘compatible’. Because we didn’t get used to it, we couldn’t remember it clearly afterwards.”

    New definition.

    “It’s not new. Now we are familiar with it and have used it.”

    For example: entering a black hole.

    Qi Ruiqing was frightened when he heard these two words.

    “I won’t go back for the time being, so don’t be afraid.”

    That’s good.

    “In short, can we conclude that the necessary conditions for the existence of ‘I’ are: the necessary and sufficient conditions for the existence of my consciousness are that I am thinking, making decisions and other thinking activities, and your perspective and that of others only exist in a social sense and are completely independent of my consciousness. It’s just that in your eyes, I have been given a specific name.”

    Philosophy?Can’t understand.

    “Now that it has been proven that ‘mind is not matter’, dualism has risen from philosophy to science.”

    Shen Molin frowned slightly and immediately said: “But I’m not sure whether it is true yet. This requires more practical proof materials.”

    “After all, this involves how I treat you, and I need to treat it rigorously.”

    Qi Ruiqing was tired of hearing this.He just curled up in a ball and slumped there, holding his head and listening to him.

    “You’re very sleepy.” “Yawn…ah, a little bit.”

    While he was yawning, Shen Molin gently pinched his cheek and reached out to pick out the fangs.

    “Delta neurotoxin, its point of action is on the voltage-gated sodium ion channel… Well, you are quite poisonous.”

    After finishing the blow, Qi Ruiqing put her head in his palm, grabbed his arm and slowly moved it towards him.

    “No, we can kiss you later. There are still toxins in my mouth.”

    Tsk, who wants to kiss?I was thinking about what you just said in your chatter.

    “It’s okay. I will teach you about the experiment bit by bit in a while. If you want, I can explain the principles to you again.”

    So patient… Shen Molin’s condition has improved a lot.Qi Ruiqing rubbed his outstretched hand with peace of mind, thinking that maybe she could take a break and not be so nervous.

    “Because there is no time to indulge in my self-refutation anymore… I have to hurry up and help you…”

    The disintegrating molecules will only become more scattered and chaotic in the disorderly movement, and the same is true for thinking.

    “Sleep a little longer. When those people come, I’ll call you again.”

    When they had set off.

    What I want to do today is to explore that “fantasy elementary school classmate.”

    “The first person who discovered that Chen Jianwei did not exist was an ordinary citizen who wrote a report letter. Because he did not receive the reward, he made a complaint. The information he got from the operator was inconsistent with the network, and we discovered the contradiction.”

    Qi Ruiqing was so sleepy. He couldn’t understand Captain Yan’s words without Shen Molin’s processing.

    “At first, we suspected that ‘Chen Jianwei’ was just a hidden mutant, and organized a secret round-up operation for this purpose. But it wasn’t until Qi Ruiqing suddenly broke into the high-rise office area and…” Captain Yan glanced at him who seemed to be a little distracted, choked, and then said, “We realized that this was just an illusion created by Qi Ruiqing.”

    “It’s not an illusion.” Shen Molin suddenly interrupted and said to Captain Yan.

    Captain Yan was surprised: “What did you say?”

    “Not an illusion.”

    Qi Ruiqing thought the same way – just like the slanting sunlight they walked through, it all “really” existed.

    It’s just that it’s “past tense”.

    “You are wrong. We have complete facts to prove that this is just an illusion.”

    Really?

    Shen Molin raised the cordon and asked Qi Ruiqing to get through.Their footsteps stopped at a narrow door.He raised his head and saw the word “utility room” written on the door sign.

    “As you can see, this is just a utility room.” Captain Yan opened the door gently and showed them the mess in the room. “Qi Ruiqing used illusions to disguise this place as Chen Jianwei’s office, and the purpose was to steal confidential documents.”

    “Ah?” Qi Ruiqing was confused, “Do I have it?”

    “No, he’s farting.”

    Shen Molin carried Qi Ruiqing with her wings and walked into the house.Falling ashes rose up with their footsteps, and Shen Molin waved them away from Qi Ruiqing.

    “You said, this is all an illusion.” Shen Molin stretched out his hand and wiped the thick dust on the countertop with two fingers, “Then is [my mother’s] death also an illusion?”

    “Qi Ruiqing created the hallucination just to kill [your mother], so other than that, it’s all hallucination.”

    “I can create hallucinations? Isn’t that all true?” Qi Ruiqing was confused and turned to see Shen Molin about to lick the dust on his hands, “Hey!”

    Shen Molin was pressed down: “Then I’m also hallucinating?”

    “No, you are a special mutant.” “Is the resurrection of those people an illusion?” “Yes, because after examination, it was found that their physiological indicators were normal, and even the bullets in the guns were not discharged.”

    “Um…” Qi Ruiqing was speechless and choked. He raised his forehead and frowned, trying to argue, “No…”

    No need to waste words with them.

    The door slammed shut, and Captain Yan, who was supposed to be standing outside the door, was suddenly moved forward and locked in with them.

    “Is this also fake?”

    He saw the muzzle of the gun raised, and it was Shen Molin who was looking at him indifferently, as if he were looking at a dead person.

    “This…” Captain Yan touched his waist, and his gun was clearly still there.

    “Is it fake?” Shen Molin asked in a calm tone.

    “Shen Mo Lin… you can’t mess around…” “The principle is still the same, it’s quite simple. You can understand the mechanical structure of the firing pin by eating a few more bullets.”

    There was a gunshot, and Shen Molin didn’t look away, but he accurately shot down the pistol Captain Yan was trying to pick up.

    “There are already intelligent models in China that predict movement by analyzing human body posture and movement patterns, and I don’t even need to guess your movement intentions to achieve this goal. Shoulder circumference internal rotation, pectoralis major, teres major, and latissimus dorsi will all stretch and contract. You have experienced many battles, but your body cannot fool me.”

    Captain Yan was forced to take a step back and glanced at the door behind him.The air outside the door was stagnant, and what was seen through the small window on the door was nothing but a void of nothingness.

    “They can’t hear it. I can also directly silence it by changing the way the propellant gas is discharged. But out of respect, I will install a silencer on the next shot.” Shen Molin took a step forward, tilted his head and screwed the gun head onto the suppressor.

    “I just ask, are these fake?”

    The muzzle of the gun was pressed against Captain Yan’s forehead.

    “Fake?”

    Of course not.

    Snap, the gun fell from Shen Molin’s hand.When Captain Yan opened his eyes again, Shen Molin had already chuckled.

    “Everyone has their own opinions on whether it is true or false. I have long since lost the ambition and patience to convey the truth to everyone.”

    Ah…it’s Qi Ruiqing who is feeling lost.

    He raised his hands in surrender: “But, I’m here just to explore whether this is true or false, isn’t it?”

    Hmm.It was Qi Ruiqing who agreed.

    Shen Molin kicked the gun to the captain with a light kick, and watched Captain Yan pick up the gun and retreat out of the door in frustration.

    Ha… Qi Ruiqing was obviously gloating about his misfortune.

    He gave a thumbs up to Shen Molin who turned around.

    “You actually remembered everything I taught you yesterday. You are really a genius! You are so handsome! This is how you should use your abilities!”

    “Okay Qing, you’re awake now.” Shen Molin held his face with both hands, “Then let me ask you a few questions. How did you find out that Chen Jianwei doesn’t exist?”

    They asked Qi Ruiqing if Chen Jianwei was in alliance with me, and asked him if he knew that he was not the director at all.So Qi Ruiqing suddenly realized that Chen Jianwei seemed not qualified to be the chief at all. He was obviously the same as himself.

    “Oh, and then, it’s a contradiction?”

    Yes, how could someone like Qi Ruiqing become a director?

    Qi Ruiqing looked at him – Shen Molin today.He is so reliable and ridiculously normal.Thinking about it this way, he must have figured out his own existence.

    “It seems that’s what you think.” Shen Molin gently rubbed his temples, “Then I will overturn your fallacy now.”

    What?Is this a fallacy?

    “To say something shameless for Shen Molin: Have you ever thought that you could reach such a height and reach such a point?”

    Uh… to this point.

    Yes… Who would have thought that Qi Ruiqing today has become less than a human being.His madness, his arrogance and cold-bloodedness… These are things that the child who counted stars and the ordinary rural person could never have imagined.

    “Uh…that’s not what I meant…but, indeed, things are unpredictable, right?”

    That’s right… things are impermanent, so don’t fight with the sky.

    “Then how can you be sure that there cannot be such a person who was born like you and really embarked on the path of politics?”

    Because it’s too difficult.

    Qi Ruiqing knows better than anyone how difficult this journey is.And all these suppressed sufferings turned into ecstasy and burst out when the admission notice was delivered to his hands – he really understood Fan Jin at that moment.

    There are many more surprises like this, the moment Shen Molin confessed, the moment the experiment finally broke through, the moment he was recognized by the examiner…

    However, since it is “overjoyed”, it means that it is unexpected, and there is an element of luck, which is a small probability event.

    Such a thing cannot happen so ordinaryly.

    “Ah…well…I’m sorry, your journey must have been difficult beyond my imagination. But…I mean, although they are not your classmates from the same village, they may indeed have something to do with you.”

    What…mean?

    “You may just remember it wrong. Chen Jianwei may exist, but not as your elementary school classmate.”

    Ah…?Isn’t it?He just doesn’t exist…?

    No…he existed.

    “Yes, then, existence is reasonable. Even if it is only the past tense, it is a real reality.”

    Shen Molin raised his head and looked around.

    “Qing, look.”

    Look.

    “What do you think this place should be like?”

    Should it be?It’s just gray here.

    But obviously, there is another appearance here, just under the smoke.

    “Qing,” Shen Molin pushed his shoulders and sent him out the door, “Let’s do it again.”

    When you open the door and come in, what should you see?

    should…

    Qi Ruiqing put his hand on the door handle.He remembered that the purpose of pushing open the door that time with a blood that was not his own was to confront Chen Jianwei.

    So this is, his office.

    But that time, he didn’t find anyone, only an unsigned document on the table, which fully demonstrated their malice.

    Chen Jianwei…does not exist…

    What else… also doesn’t exist?

    Open the door and you’ll see a simple office. There’s a glass coffee table and a sofa nearby, and two boxes of tea on the desktop. There’s a solid wood table a little further away, with folders and a printer on the desktop.A mature and steady thermos cup was placed next to his hand. He saw a “familiar” but “imaginary” face, raised his eyes, and looked at himself.

    “No…Shen Mo…”

    The luster faded crazily and crawled into the black mud in front of him. Everything in his fantasy was sucked away crazily and spun away.

    The collapse only lasted an instant. When the last word of the name fell, even the black mud disappeared.

    It’s Shen Molin.

    “…I understand everything.”

    “Understand what?” Qi Ruiqing grabbed his arm in a panic, fearing that he would turn into someone else the next second, “You…why do you want me to do this? Is this an experiment?”

    “Hmm.” “Why, why? Why would you…” “Because, this is the characteristic of ‘me’.”

    No no, it’s not!You are Shen Molin, Shen Molin will not change like this!!

    “Okay…I’m sorry for scaring you.” Shen Molin pulled him into his arms and touched his head to comfort him, “But it’s over.”

    “Captain Yan, I am fully aware of what ‘Chen Jianwei’ did. Do you want his confession, or a confession signed by ‘Shen Molin’?”

    The iron seats in the corridor are so cold.

    Qi Ruiqing was wearing Shen Molin’s coat, sitting with her tail crossed, her head lowered and silent.

    Captain Yan had already walked over, but he didn’t speak, and Qi Ruiqing didn’t want to pay attention.

    “Um, ahem… Shen Molin is still in there?”

    Qi Ruiqing nodded perfunctorily and saw him sitting down diagonally opposite her with some embarrassment.

    “Um…what’s going on?”

    Fortunately, he was not ashamed to ask.To put it simply, an existence like “Chen Jianwei” can be regarded as part of Qi Ruiqing’s distortion.

    “That was something I imagined. I don’t know why, but it became real.” Qi Ruiqing said.

    “So…is it really true?”

    Could it still be fake?Otherwise, how could the ash in the house be so thick?

    “Really, it’s like… putting a layer of film on reality.” Qi Ruiqing lowered his eyes, “Those are true and some are false.”

    “No, no…how did you do it?”

    “Because I’m a madman…”

    No, it’s not, it’s because of the third law.This is the basis for changes in reality and reality, and the foundation for you and me to live in the world.You are not crazy, Qing.

    “Okay,” Qi Ruiqing changed his mind, “because my incorporeal energy level has exceeded the threshold and I can interfere with reality.”

    At present, my understanding of this phenomenon can be summarized as the “Weaver Hypothesis”: thinking is like a larvae making a cocoon and cement covering a wall, spinning silk to make a cocoon and covering it up.The more silk and mud there are, the more blurry the reality becomes, until finally, it completely turns into the appearance of a virtual outer membrane.

    This hypothesis is simple and easy to understand, including other phenomena such as those mutants with super vitality and destructive power, those strange changes within the influence of black holes, etc., which can all be understood in this way.

    But unfortunately, there is insufficient supporting evidence, and I dare not draw a conclusion at this time.After all, “thinking” may really vary from person to person…

    …Well, it just varies from person to person.

    “Then that gun is also fake? Impossible! The magazine, barrel, sleeve, and even the precision structures such as the firing hammer and firing pin are all in compliance with military standards. His bullets can even be used in my gun for normal use! Is this also fake? Is this also made of paper?”

    Unlike you, everything I create, from the inside to the outside, is filled with high-density virtual energy into “real objects”, which can also be understood as the “projection” of my memory in reality.Although they are essentially silk and mud, quantitative changes lead to qualitative changes, and they do comply with the physical rules of the entity field, so they are basically the same as entities in terms of function.

    “That’s not… different. He is his, and he is better than me.” Qi Ruiqing said.

    “Um… what are you doing…” Captain Yan tried to describe it in words, but in the end he could only circle his head with his hand, “brain, brain electrical communication?”

    What, this is much worse.

    “Almost.”

    “Then how did Shen Molin know everything about Chen Jianwei? Isn’t Chen Jianwei just…a layer of film?”

    “Well… because of this guy…” Qi Ruiqing sighed depressedly, “This guy induced me to do the same obscene things as his mother…”

    The door behind him opened, and Shen Molin hurriedly walked out and squatted in front of Qi Ruiqing.

    “I didn’t.” He took Qi Ruiqing’s hand and whispered coaxingly, “I know that Chen Jianwei does not exist, and there is no risk of me becoming someone else, so I do this. I will not take risks, and I don’t want to abandon my current identity.”

    Qi Ruiqing pursed her lips and turned her head.

    “Good Ruiqing, just give me another chance. Just once, just once. I swear there won’t be a second time.”

    Shen Molin clasped his hands together: “Don’t be angry, okay? It’s wrong, it’s really wrong.”

    “Really…” “Forgive me? Qing, you are so soft-hearted, thank you.” “You are so annoying.”

    Having said this, Qi Ruiqing’s tail still wrapped around Shen Molin’s arm obediently, letting him pick her up.

    “Captain Yan, if there’s nothing else, you can send us back.” “Uh… Okay. I still have to deal with the gun. I’ll send someone to send you back.”

    Shen Molin nodded, raised his wings into the wind, hugged Qi Ruiqing and walked out of Captain Yan’s sight.

    During the long, suffocating wait, Captain Yan lowered his head stiffly and looked at his spread hands.

    He remembered the scars, the calluses on his fingers.He remembers his childhood, youth and adulthood, his family, his preferences and habits…

    Fortunately, he did not disappear.

    They are gone, but He remains.

    “Do I… exist?”

    What does existence mean?

    “What was I thinking…Hey, let’s go.”

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