The Downtrodden Villain In A Redemption Romance Novel Chapter 54

Chapter 54 Collar

The night was deep, and the night in Lincheng was completely silent, with only the occasional sound of wind passing outside the window.

In the rental house, Xu Wen had already fallen into a deep sleep, breathing steadily and long.

Lu Qingrang quietly felt the warm body temperature coming from the person in his arms.

His fingertips gently traced the sleeping outline of Xu Wen, from the slightly frowned eyebrows to the straight bridge of the nose, and finally stopped at the lips that always held a smile.

It was this man who rescued him from the decaying despair.

But at this moment, looking at Xu Wen, a darker desire grew crazily in Lu Qingrang’s heart.

During the day, when Li Yue looked at Xu Wen, his too bright eyes were like a thorn piercing his nerves.

So jealous.So jealous.So jealous.

How could an insignificant colleague share Xu Wen’s attention?How could he be allowed to smile like that without any haze?

A voice shouted crazily in his heart:

“Lock him up. Let you be the only one left in his world. In this way, he will be yours forever.”

“His smile, his care, all his freshness and warmth will be your exclusive nourishment, and no one will covet you anymore.”

This thought has a depraved sweetness, which is tempting to sink.

He even began to subconsciously think about the details, how to create an absolutely safe nest, how to let Xu Wen stay in it willingly and forever, belonging only to him.

He could almost imagine that those eyes that were always shining would only reflect his figure from now on.

What a perfect sight that would be.

Lu Qingrang was indulged in this dark fantasy, and his fingertips unconsciously increased their strength.

“Yeah.” Xu Wen frowned slightly in his sleep, tilted his head to avoid the slightly forceful touch, and instinctively dug deeper into his arms.

This subtle evasive movement made Lu Qingrang feel like he was struck by lightning.

He jerked his hand back, curling his fingertips.

A chill ran up his spine, and he broke out into a cold sweat.

What was he thinking?

He almost…almost became another Nangong Chen.

In the name of so-called love, it is actually controlled and imprisoned.

He thought of Su Xia.

The person he once thought he truly admired, the person who chose to go to Nangong Chen again and again.

He witnessed with his own eyes how Su Xia was changed little by little. When she was a child, there was still some lively light in her eyes, but later she gradually became hollow and submissive, like a carefully tamed canary. Every feather was combed to make it shine according to the owner’s preference, but she only lost her chirp.

He had felt sad about this, and even felt a chill that penetrated into his bones.

But now, looking at Xu Wen’s defenseless sleeping face in his arms, the chill swept over him again, more piercing than ever before.

What he wants is Xu Wen’s vivid appearance at this moment, the unpolished purity, the eyes that will light up because of him and become angry because of injustice.

What he wants is Xu Wen’s complete self that has not been distorted by anyone.

Any attempt to erase this trait, even if it stems from the darkest possessiveness in his own heart, is the greatest blasphemy against Xu Wen.

Su Xia’s ending is a warning.

And Xu Wen must always be himself.

If he really breaks Xu Wen’s wings and turns him into a dodder flower that can only rely on himself to survive, what’s the difference between him and the people he hates most?

The voice in my head immediately retorted sharply:

“How can this be the same?!”

“Nangong Chen tamed Su Xia to show off and control, but you… you are just too afraid. Afraid of losing him, afraid of turning back into that body rotting in the dark. He is the only one you have in this world, so what’s wrong with wanting to hold on to him?!”

But then another cold voice sounded, cutting through all his self-justification:

“Isn’t possession packaged in fear not possession?”

“Look at how your thoughts at the moment are essentially different from Nangong Chen’s mentality when he regarded Su Xia as his possessions? What you call love ultimately points to imprisonment.”

“No…that’s not the case…”

He whispered weakly, but found that he couldn’t really refute the cold voice.

The two voices inside were still fighting fiercely, each trying to drag him into a different abyss.

In this chaotic whirlpool, a picture emerges uncontrollably——

Xu Wen looked at him with a look of disappointment and alienation that he had never seen before.

A strong sense of shame suddenly emerged, making Lu Qingrang almost want to curl up.

He didn’t have the courage to face that scenario, he couldn’t do it.

With his fingertips still trembling slightly, Lu Qingrang carefully raised his hand again, tracing Xu Wen’s quiet brows very lightly.

The young man slept peacefully and breathed evenly. He had no idea what kind of storm he had just experienced in his heart.

He could not… and would never lock Xu Wen’s neck with this collar filled with dark and twisted desires.

Then

A completely opposite thought, like lightning in the dark night, suddenly illuminated the foggy road ahead of him.

“I can’t put a collar on him…then put the chain in his hands.”

This thought carried a desperate determination that made him calm down instantly.

Yes, this is the only way out.

A method that can tie Xu Wen to his side forever and allow him to fly freely.

Not deprivation, but entrustment.

Not to imprison, but to invite him to take charge of his own destiny.

He wanted to make a big gamble, betting on Xu Wen’s feelings for him, betting on the resilience of this bond, enough for Xu Wen to willingly hold on to the chain that he had personally given, and… never let go.

Once the ideas are clear, the direction of action will suddenly become clear.

This is Lu Qingrang’s certificate of surrender.

He tied all his ambition, hatred, and paranoia that could engulf him at any time on this chain, and handed it over to Xu Wen’s hands.

This is the most extreme trust he can give.

But as he thought about this, a trace of panic quietly enveloped Lu Qingrang’s heart.

The fingertips tightened unconsciously.

Will Xu Wen… be able to accept this heavy chain?

Would he be willing to take over the chain that trapped me?

But the next second, he looked at Xu Wen’s unprepared sleeping face, and remembered how this man had made exceptions for him time and time again and was soft-hearted for him, and his hanging heart slowly fell back to its original place.

It will.

Xu Wen was always like this, being too talkative and too soft-hearted towards him.

Thinking of this, the corners of Lu Qingrang’s lips unconsciously raised a slight arc.

Xu Wen……

He wanted to give Xu Wen respect, help him grow, and let him truly stand side by side with him.

He wanted Xu Wen to stand at a level where he could look at him levelly, or even look down on him.

Lu Qingrang finally found the narrow road that could lead both of them to the light.

Xu Wen was still sleeping soundly, with the corners of his lips naturally raised slightly, as if he was wandering in a beautiful dream.

Lu Qingrang’s fingertips gently landed on the boy’s lips, as cautiously as if he were touching a fragile dream.

He stared for a moment, then slowly lowered his head, and pressed his lips gently on Xu Wen’s lip line through a layer of cool fingertips.

He placed his fingers across Xu Wen’s lips and pressed a kiss.

Then he leaned close to Xu Wen’s ear, his breath was slightly chaotic due to nervousness, and his voice was as soft as a dream:

“This… chain is tied to me, will you… take it?”

“Don’t let me go, Xu Wen.”