The Downtrodden Villain In A Redemption Romance Novel Chapter 47

Chapter 47 Struggle

As dusk falls, the aroma of braised pork wafts through the small kitchen.

The sauce shines alluringly on the fat and thin pieces of meat, which Lu Qingrang specially prepared for Xu Wen.

Familiar footsteps came from outside the door. Xu Wen pushed the door open and cheered immediately when he smelled the fragrance.

He hurriedly washed his hands and sat down, putting rice into his mouth and talking vaguely about interesting things about the company.

He spoke with great joy, his eyes were shining, and there was a little bit of shining sauce on the corner of his mouth.

Lu Qingrang ate quietly, but his eyes fell on Xu Wen involuntarily.

He looked at Xu Wen’s eyes that narrowed with satisfaction from the delicious food, his cheerful expression when he spoke, and his hands that waved from time to time as he spoke…

The braised pork in the bowl was stewed so soft and delicious that he carefully prepared it according to Xu Wen’s taste.

But before Xu Wen opened the door and came in, he was facing the plate of food alone, without even the desire to use his chopsticks.

It wasn’t until this moment, when he saw Xu Wen eating with gusto, that he suddenly realized.

It’s not that braised pork is not delicious.

Only by watching Xu Wen eat, and only by watching the satisfied smile on his face, did the meal have a taste and the world become vivid and real again.

His appetite, his joy and anger, and his ability to perceive the world have been quietly and closely tied to the person in front of him for some time.

This realization made him feel frightened.

His eyes unconsciously followed Xu Wen’s mouth as he spoke, to his cheeks that fluttered slightly as he chewed, and then to the corners of his lips that looked soft and plump with sauce…

Lu Qing let his Adam’s apple roll up and down uncontrollably.

Not a craving for food.

But a more primitive and secret impulse.

An urge to lean in, lick the sauce off, or otherwise block those lips that were constantly opening and closing to spit out vivid words.

“I’m such a pervert.”

A cold voice echoed deep in his mind.

A strong sense of self-loathing instantly enveloped him, stronger than ever before.

He lowered his head suddenly to avoid the scene that almost made him lose control. The hand holding the chopsticks trembled slightly from the exertion.

“Brother Lu? Why don’t you eat?” Xu Wen finally noticed something unusual about him, stopped talking, and asked with concern.

Lu Qingrang forced himself to raise his head, met Xu Wen’s worried eyes, and gave an ugly smile, “Maybe… I ate too much at noon, so I’m not very hungry.”

He picked up the chopsticks again and stuffed the rice and meat into his mouth mechanically, but his taste buds seemed to have completely failed.

The delicious braised pork, when you eat it in your mouth, there is only endless bitterness left.

He chewed numbly.

What should he do?

What should we do with this heart that has already gone off track?

As the night got darker, the bitterness brought about by the tasteless dinner seemed to seep into my heart.

Lu Qingrang lay next to Xu Wen, listening to the other person’s even and long breathing. He didn’t know when he fell asleep, and his consciousness seemed to be forcibly dragged into a dark quagmire.

Then, the nightmare began.

In the dream, it was also an evening, and he also cooked braised pork, and the aroma filled the house.

He placed the dishes and chopsticks, and just like every night in the past, he waited for the familiar figure to push in the door with an outside atmosphere and a bright smile.

However, as time passed by, the door remained silent.

The dishes on the table gradually cooled down, and the fat solidified on the surface of the sauce, taking on an unsettling color.

A cold feeling of panic came over him, quickly spreading throughout his body.

He stood up suddenly, rushed to the door, and opened it——

Outside the door is not the familiar corridor, but a void that is so thick that it cannot be dissolved.

“Xu Wen?”

He tried to shout, but his voice could not be heard in the void. Instead, it bounced back, making it horribly hollow.

“Xu Wen! Where are you?”

He raised his voice, an uncontrollable tremor in his voice.

No one responded.

He panicked, stumbling and trying to rush into the void to find it, but his footing missed the mark and his whole body plummeted downwards!

A feeling of weightlessness enveloped him, and the howling wind sounded in his ears.

He didn’t know how long he had been falling, but he fell heavily to the ground, and the surrounding scene suddenly became clear.

It is a noisy street with people coming and going and traffic.

He looked around blankly, and suddenly, across the street, he saw the figure engraved in his soul, it was Xu Wen!

Xu Wen was wearing a piece of clothing that he had never seen before. His back was straight and his steps were brisk. He was walking side by side with a person whose face couldn’t be seen clearly but whose figure looked like a girl’s.

The two of them were very close, and the girl seemed to be amused by Xu Wen’s words, turning her head sideways with a smile as bright as a flower.

Xu Wen also lowered his head and smiled at her. The smile was gentle and focused. It was an expression he had never seen before and would not show to his brother.

A tearing pain instantly penetrated Lu Qingrang’s chest!

He wanted to rush over, to shout his name loudly, to pull him away from the stranger.

But his feet seemed to be nailed to the spot, his throat tightened, and in the end he couldn’t make any sound.

He could only watch helplessly as Xu Wen and the girl walked further and further away, their figures gradually blurring and about to merge into the crowd.

“No…don’t…”

“Xu Wen…come back…see me…”

He finally let out a broken cry from the bottom of his heart.

At this moment, Xu Wen in the distance seemed to sense something, paused in his steps, and slowly turned around.

A faint hope instantly ignited in Lu Qing’s heart!

He desperately wanted to meet Xu Wen’s eyes and let him see the pain and prayer in his eyes.

However, Xu Wen’s eyes swept over his location, and those eyes that were always full of smiles and starlight seemed to pass through a piece of transparent air at this moment, without any focus or any stop, as if he, Lu Qingrang, did not exist at all.

The gaze was calm, unfamiliar, and slightly indifferent.

Then, Xu Wen turned back and naturally put his arms around the shoulders of the girl next to him. The two of them chatted and laughed and disappeared completely into the sea of ​​people.

The sound of the world stopped abruptly at that moment.

Lu Qingrang froze in place, feeling as if his heart had been ripped out by a cold hand, leaving a huge hole filled with cold wind.

Pain, indescribable pain, not a sharp sting, but a dull pain that spreads to all limbs and crushes every inch of bone.

He lost the strength to support himself and slowly fell to his knees.

He lost him.

He re-perceived the coordinates of this world… gone.

He was permanently disqualified from being by his side.

Darkness came from all directions like a tide, trying to swallow him completely.

“Uh-!”

Lu Qingrang suddenly sat up from the bed, his chest heaving violently, his mouth wide open, but he felt like he couldn’t take in any oxygen.

A feeling of suffocation gripped his throat, and his vision went black.

The cold sweat soaked through the thin pajamas and clung to the skin, causing waves of chills.

He was shaking uncontrollably, his teeth were chattering, and the muscles in his arms and legs were spasming uncontrollably.

In the darkness, he subconsciously reached out and touched his side——

Empty.

That side of the quilt was cold.

In an instant, the despair and heartache in the dream flooded him again like a tsunami, more real and profound than in the dream.

Could it be…could the dream be true?

Xu Wen is really… gone?

No…no!

This thought pierced his already fragile nerves.

“Ho…ho…” He let out an untuned, broken gasp, and his panic reached its peak.

He struggled to get out of bed, wanting to confirm, but because of his limp limbs and violent trembling, he almost fell off the bed.