Stars Fall Into The Sea, Love Never Fades Chapter 14

Chapter 14 The belated truth and the deep connection of the soul

After the exhibition, Azhi donated all the proceeds from the sale of the paintings to the Depression Relief Foundation.The person in charge of the foundation specially gave him a letter of thanks. The letter said that these funds will be used for the treatment and assistance of patients with depression and help more people get out of the haze.Ah Zhi carefully collected the thank you letter and placed it in Qi’s draft book, as if reporting his results to Qi.

In the days that followed, Ah Zhi’s life gradually got back on track.He is no longer as decadent as before. He is focused and serious at work. After get off work, he will visit Qi’s mother, chat with her and help her with housework.Qi’s mother also became more and more dependent on him, often cooking his favorite meals and waiting for him to come.

Qi’s soul was always within three meters of him, accompanying him every moment.The interaction between the two became more and more frequent. Qi could not only make clear sounds, but also slightly affect the surrounding environment. Sometimes, when Ah Zhi worked overtime until late at night, the lamp on the table would suddenly light up, as if Qi was reminding him that “it’s time to rest.” Sometimes, when he was in a bad mood, Qi’s photo frame would shake slightly, as if Qi was comforting him, “Don’t be sad.”

That night, Ah Zhi accompanied Qi’s mother after dinner and prepared to go home.Qi’s mother suddenly stopped him and handed her an old wooden box: “Azhi, this is Xiao Qi’s thing. I have never dared to open it and look at it. Now I give it to you. Maybe there is something you want to know in it.”

Azhi took the wooden box and felt it was heavy.The surface of the box is engraved with small patterns, which are Qi’s favorite star patterns.He could feel that there seemed to be some important secret hidden in the box.

Back at the villa, Ah Zhi sat on the sofa in the living room and carefully opened the wooden box.The box was covered with a layer of red velvet, with a thick notebook and a small voice recorder placed on it.

The cover of the notebook is dark blue, the same as Qi’s draft notebook, and it says “Letter to Azhi” on it.Ah Zhi’s heart skipped a beat, and he tremblingly opened the notebook. Inside was Qi’s neat handwriting, recording all his emotions from love to death. It was more detailed and affectionate than the previous diary.

“Azhi, you worked overtime again today. I heated up the milk for you and put it in the kitchen. You must remember to drink it. Don’t be too tired.”

“Azhi, we had a fight and you said I was too clingy. But I just love you too much and am too afraid of losing you. I know you are busy with work, so I will try to be sensible and not disturb you.”

“Azhi, the doctor said that my depression is getting worse. I’m so scared. I’m afraid that I will become a burden to you, and that you will dislike me. But I really can’t live without you, Azhi, can you love me more?”

“Azhi, I decided to break up with you. It’s not because I don’t love you, but because I love you too much. I don’t want my illness to affect you, and I don’t want you to see my embarrassment. I will silently wish you happiness and hope that you can meet a better person.”

“Azhi, I really can’t hold on anymore. I live in pain every day without you. I know it’s selfish to do this, but I really don’t have the courage to go on. Azhi, I’m sorry, I can’t stay with you forever. If there is an afterlife, I hope we can meet sooner, and I hope you can stay with me longer.”

Ah Zhi looked at the words in the notebook, tears falling like broken beads.He finally knew that Qi broke up with him not because he didn’t love him, but because he loved him too much and didn’t want his depression to be a burden to him.But because of his pride and indifference, he failed to see through Qi’s thoughts, and instead said so many hurtful words, pushing Qi into the abyss of despair.

“Qi, I’m sorry, I was wrong.” He choked, his voice full of endless regret, “I shouldn’t have been so selfish, so indifferent, and shouldn’t have failed to see through your mind. If I had been more patient and understanding, you wouldn’t have left.”

The smell of cedar around him became particularly heavy, as if Qi was also sad for this missed time.Ah Zhi could feel that Qi’s soul was standing beside him, reaching out his hand and gently “stroking” his hair, as if to comfort him, “I don’t blame you.”

Ah Zhi picked up the recorder in the box and pressed the play button.Qi’s gentle voice came from inside, with a hint of sobs: “Ah Zhi, when you listen to this recording, I may no longer be here. I want to tell you that I have never blamed you. Even when you said we broke up, I knew you loved me, but you just didn’t know how to express it. I am very lucky to meet you and fall in love with you in this life. Although we are togetherIt didn’t last long, but those sweet memories are enough to support me through the whole dark years.Ah Zhi, promise me that I will take good care of myself in the future, and don’t work too hard.If you meet someone you like, take advantage of it and don’t miss it for the rest of your life.I love you, Ah Zhi, and I will always love you.”

The sound in the recorder stopped, and there was silence in the living room.Azhi leaned on the sofa and cried bitterly.He finally knew all the truth, knew Qi’s affection and forbearance, and knew how serious his fault was.This belated truth was like a knife, cutting a deep gash in his heart, and the pain was unbearable.

“Qi, I know, I know everything.” He choked and shouted into the void, “Why are you so stupid? Why don’t you tell me the truth? Why do you have to bear so much alone?”

The smell of cedar around him became stronger and stronger, and a strong warmth enveloped him, as if Qi was hugging him tightly.”Azhi… don’t cry…” Qi’s voice was trembling, “I… don’t want… to embarrass you…”

“I’m not embarrassed, Qi, I’m not embarrassed at all.” Ah Zhi hugged Xukong tightly, as if hugging Qi’s body, “I would rather you tell me the truth and face it together than lose you. Do you know? Without you, I will live in regret every day, and life would be worse than death.”

“I’m sorry…Azhi…” Qi’s voice was full of guilt.

“I’m the one who should say I’m sorry.” Ah Zhi choked, “I’m sorry for you. It’s me who didn’t love you properly and didn’t protect you properly. Qi, I really miss you, I miss you so much…”

The two just held each other, cried, and told each other their thoughts and regrets.Although there is a distance between life and death, although they cannot truly touch each other, this connection across life and death is deeper than ever.

Late at night, Ah Zhi gradually calmed down.He carefully put away his notebook and voice recorder and put them into the wooden box.He knew that these things were the most precious gifts Qi left to her, and they were witnesses of their love.

He leaned on the sofa, looked at the void around him, and said softly: “Qi, we will never be separated again. You have to stay with me, okay?”

“Okay…always…accompany you…” Qi’s voice was gentle but firm.

A gentle smile appeared at the corner of Ah Zhi’s mouth.He knew that Qi would always be with him, within three meters, watching his life, watching him slowly come out of the haze, watching him live well with their love.And this bond that spans life and death will become the most precious treasure in his life and will be engraved in his heart forever.