Qinglian’S Heart Is Covered, Fate Meets Chapter 45
byChapter 45
Qinglian’s Heartfelt Words·Xia Lin Returns to the Dust (Ten Thousand Words·Qinglian’s Perspective·The Changes in Heaven and Earth and the Perfection of Destiny)
1. The sky is falling and the earth is falling apart, everything is in chaos
On the third day when the clouds filled the sky, something unexpected happened.
At that time, I was leaning on the lounge chair in the bamboo shed in the courtyard. Bai Fei had just peeled a plate of iced lychees for me, and the sweetness of the lychees was still on my fingertips. The evening breeze blew through the bamboo curtains, and the fresh scent of the lotus pond mixed with the fruity fragrance filled my body. The fetus in my belly also kicked me gently. Everything was as pleasant as a good dream that I would never wake up from.
But this stability was torn apart in an instant.
First, the earth trembled without warning. The beams of the bamboo shed made a crunching sound, and the hanging bamboo curtains fell. The lychee plate on the small table overturned with a clang, and the bright red flesh rolled to the floor, mixed with ice water and splashed on the hem of the clothes.I was so shocked that I tightened my grip on Bai Fei’s wrist. Before I could say anything, I saw the sky suddenly darken – the rosy scales that had been hanging for three days began to collapse like broken glass. The golden and red light waves surged, carrying the pressure of destroying the world and smashing down towards the lotus pond.
“Qinglian!” Bai Fei’s voice changed suddenly. He picked me up almost instantly, turned around and rushed into the house. For the first time, Leng Sandalwood’s breath was filled with panic, “Don’t be afraid, I will protect you!”
The wind howled in my ears, carrying the dust and the fishy smell of the lotus pond. There was a loud sound of the house collapsing behind me. The supports of the bamboo shed suddenly broke, and rubble and tiles fell like raindrops.I was buried in Bai Fei’s arms, and I could clearly feel that his back was as tense as a fully stretched bow, and his steps staggered but never stopped. His palms were tightly clasping my knees, so hard that they were almost embedded in my flesh, but he deliberately avoided my slightly bulging belly.
The moment he rushed into the house, the rafters from the roof crashed down at his feet, and the dust raised made his throat tight.Bai Fei protected me in the corner, using his back to block the falling debris. His body temperature came through his thin coat, but it made my eyes tremble.I clutched the hem of his clothes and my voice trembled, “Bai Fei, the sky… the sky is falling…”
“As long as I’m here, it won’t collapse.” He looked down at me, the panic in his eyes was suppressed, leaving only a calm tenderness. He wiped the dust from my cheeks with his fingertips, “I’m guarding you and the child, no one can touch you.”
But the changes in heaven and earth are far beyond what human beings can contend with.The tremors outside the house became more intense, and an earth-shattering roar came from the direction of the lotus pond, as if something huge had broken out of the ground, or as if some ancient force was forcibly gathering.I pressed against Bai Fei’s chest, and I could hear his heart beating like a drum, but he still gritted his teeth to protect me. His breath blew on the top of my hair, carrying a hint of blood. It seemed that his back was scratched by gravel.
All the fragility of pregnancy came to me at this moment. I hugged his neck tightly, and tears fell on his clothes uncontrollably, mixed with dust and turned into dark marks: “I’m afraid…Bai Fei, I’m afraid that none of us can hold on…”
“No.” He lowered his head and kissed my forehead, his lips were cold but with unquestionable firmness, “I am the guardian appointed by heaven. As long as I am still here, I will never let you be harmed in the slightest. Even if the sky collapses and the earth collapses, I will give you stability.”
Before he finished speaking, there was another more violent tremor, and the door of the house was blown away by the strong wind. The clouds on the horizon had completely collapsed into a dazzling ball of light, hanging over the lotus pond. The ball of light was filled with golden red and silver light, sometimes expanding and sometimes contracting, with a heart-stopping pressure, and even the air began to feel hot.
2. Signs of convergence, mixed blessings and sorrows
The tremor lasted for about an hour before it gradually subsided.
The ball of light in the sky no longer surged, but slowly converged away from the dazzling light, turning into a soft halo that settled steadily in the center of the lotus pond.In that halo, tiny points of light began to overflow and fall on the water of the lotus pond. In an instant, the pond was filled with green lotuses. Even the withered grass and trees on the shore sprouted new buds. Green branches sprouted next to the collapsed house.
Bai Fei slowly let go of the arm that was protecting me. The clothes on his back were torn by gravel and oozed blood, but he didn’t notice it at all. He just stared in the direction of the lotus pond, his eyes full of shock.I followed his gaze and was stunned for a moment – in the halo, a shadow appeared faintly. It looked almost similar to me. It was wrapped in lotus fragrance and had the shimmer of rosy scales.
“Is this… the aggregation of the lotus heart’s origins?” Bai Fei murmured to himself, with disbelief in his voice, “Back then, you scattered your origins to protect the people, but Heaven actually brought your origins back together through Xia Lin?”
My heart was shocked, and I subconsciously touched my lower abdomen. I felt the throbbing of the fetus in my belly suddenly become stronger. A warm force surged from the direction of the lotus pond, flowing along the limbs and bones throughout my body. My body, which was originally a little weak due to pregnancy, instantly became lighter, and most of the previous fear dissipated.
Bai Fei reacted, helped me sit down, and carefully inspected my body. He touched my wrist with his fingertips and felt the warm power. The shock in his eyes gradually turned into ecstasy: “You are really back! Qinglian, your lotus heart origin is back. You no longer have to worry about exhaustion of spiritual power, and the child can also be protected by the purest lotus heart!”
His voice was choked, and he stretched out his hand to hold me tightly in his arms. The force was so strong that it seemed to embed me into my bones and blood. The wound on his back was affected, but he groaned and refused to let go. He only murmured repeatedly: “It’s so good… it’s so good…”
I leaned in his arms, smelling the smell of blood mixed with lotus fragrance on his body, and tears fell again, but this time, they were tears of joy.When there was a flood in the south of the Yangtze River, I forcibly activated my origin and almost lost my soul. Although I was rescued by Bai Fei, I suffered from a lifelong disease that was difficult to recover from. I was always worried about getting pregnant. Now that my origin has gathered together, not only can I recover as before, but my child in my belly can also be born with the blessing of lotus heart. This is a great blessing to me.
But looking at the collapsed houses and the mess on the ground around him, he couldn’t help but feel his heart sinking.The fear of the sky collapsing just now has not dissipated. The broken bricks and tiles, overturned tables and chairs are all reminders of the horror of this unusual movement. If Bai Fei hadn’t been protecting us with all his life, my child and I would have been in trouble.
“Abominable Heaven, using such an earth-shaking method to gather the origin.” Bai Fei seemed to be aware of my mood, lowered his head and kissed the top of my hair, his tone was full of anger, but he couldn’t hide his smile, “But… I can bring your origin back to its original place, no matter how big a mess it is, it’s all worth it.”
As he spoke, he carefully picked me up horizontally, avoiding the gravel on the ground, and walked to the side room that had not completely collapsed: “Go and have a rest first, I will clean up the mess, and then let the cook make you a bowl of anti-fetal soup. Now that you have returned to your original position, you have to make up for it.”
I hugged his neck tightly and looked at his injured back, feeling pain and warmth in my heart.The collapse of the sky and the earth just now is extremely disgusting, but the reunion of the origins and the stability of the fetus is a great joy. This strange movement of the heaven and the earth has actually become a perfection in our destiny.
3. The dust has settled and we stay together gently.
Fortunately, the side house was not affected and can barely settle down.After Bai Fei settled me in place, he turned to deal with the mess outside the house. He called the servants from other courtyards to clear the rubble and repair the house. He also went to the town to hire a doctor himself to make sure that the child and I were fine. Then he breathed a sigh of relief and turned to the kitchen to make soup for me.
I leaned against the window and looked at his busy back. The wound on his back had been simply bandaged, but if he moved a little too much, it would be involved. However, he gritted his teeth, put on the red apron I made for him, and was busy clumsily in the kitchen.The afterglow of the setting sun shone on him, giving him a layer of warm light, which was even more moving than the glow of the clouds that day.
Not long after, he came back with a steaming bowl of anti-fetal soup. The soup contained lotus seeds and red dates that he had specially found, and also added some herbs that replenished qi and blood. The aroma was rich but not cloying.He sat on the edge of the bed, took a spoonful of soup and blew it to cool down, then handed it to my lips. His eyes were full of tenderness: “Drink slowly. This soup has been simmered for a long time and can protect you and the child.”
I opened my mouth to hold it, and the warmth fell down my throat into my belly, blending with the original power coming from the lotus pond. It made me feel so comfortable that I narrowed my eyes.He fed me very slowly, checking the temperature of every spoonful, and occasionally wiped the soup from the corner of my mouth. The temperature of his fingertips made my heart tremble.
“Does the injury on your back hurt?” I suddenly asked, reaching out to touch his back, but he held my hand down.
“It’s just a small injury, nothing to worry about.” He shook his head with a smile and put my hand against his cheek. “As long as you and the child are well, this little injury is nothing.”
Looking at the smile in his eyes, I suddenly felt that this sudden change in the world had become the touchstone of our relationship.In the past, he always protected me in Zhulou, with a somewhat paranoid cage, but now he used his back to hold me up when the sky collapsed. His love has never changed, but I was always limited by my grievances and never saw through this deep protection.
After finishing the soup, night has fallen.The halo in the direction of the lotus pond is still bright, and the green lotus pond full of green lotus is emitting a shimmering light, shrouding the small courtyard in a gentle light.Bai Fei hugged me and sat by the window, pointed in the direction of the lotus pond, and said softly: “Look, this lotus pond has become a fairyland on earth because of your origins. From now on, we will stay here and never be separated again.”
I leaned in his arms, touched my lower abdomen, and felt the strong throbbing in my belly. Then I looked at the green lotus in the pond and the stars in the sky. Suddenly I felt that all the twists and turns had become the preparation for the perfection at this moment.Although the sky is falling apart and the earth is falling apart, it is destructive, but the return of the origin, the love and safety of the loved one, and the safety of the fetus are the blessings that are hard to find in this life.
“Bai Fei,” I looked up at him, my eyes full of smiles, “When the baby is born, let’s take him to visit the Jiangnan Night Market, eat all the delicious food, and then come see this pond full of green lotus, okay?”
He lowered his head and kissed my lips, his voice gentle but firm: “Okay, not only do I want to go to the night market and eat delicious food, I also want to watch every sunset with you, guard you and your children, and guard this Fanglianyuan, year after year, until forever.”
The evening breeze blew, and the lotus fragrance filled the house, wrapping our whispers and accompanied by the throbbing of the fetus in the belly, becoming the most tender perfection after the silence of this world.
4. Morning dew brings new life and fireworks last forever
The next morning, I was awakened by the scent of lotus flowers and the smell of fireworks.
When he opened his eyes, Bai Fei was no longer around. The sound of him talking to his servants could be heard outside the window, mixed with the crackling sound of firewood burning.I put on my clothes and got up, walked to the window, and saw him standing in front of the makeshift stove, wearing a red apron, instructing the servants to move wood. The injury on his back had been replaced with new medicine. Although he could not move much, he was still busy. My favorite crab roe buns were still warm on the stove.
When he saw me waking up, he immediately put down what he was doing and walked over quickly, his eyes full of concern: “Why don’t you sleep more? The morning breeze is cold, be careful to catch the cold.”
As he spoke, he put a thicker coat on my shoulders, then stretched out his hand to explore my forehead, and then breathed a sigh of relief after confirming that it was okay.I looked at the red bloodshot eyes under his eyes, knowing that he must have stayed with me all night, and got up early to work again. Feeling distressed in my heart, I stood on tiptoe and straightened the ends of his messy hair: “You should rest for a while, don’t be exhausted.”
“I’m not tired.” He shook his head with a smile, took my hand and walked to the kitchen, “The crab roe buns have just been steamed. They are still warm. Try them quickly.”
I bit open the crab roe bun, and the sweet juice mixed with the soft dough spread out between my teeth. I looked at him standing aside, holding his chin and watching me eating. I suddenly felt that even if the sky collapsed yesterday, as long as he was here, with the taste of fireworks, and with the child in my belly, I would have nothing to fear.
After dinner, he accompanied me for a walk by the lotus pond.The green lotus in the pond was in full bloom, and the halo of light was still hanging in the center of the pond. The fine light spots fell on the body, making it feel warm.He held my hand, walked slowly, and deliberately accommodated my body. When passing by the collapsed house yesterday, he pointed to the open space not far away and smiled: “When the injury is healed, I will build you a new courtyard here. It will be more spacious than the previous one. I will also build a small pavilion in the courtyard. You can sit and look at the lotus flowers and eat delicious food. You no longer have to worry about the sky falling.”
He made me laugh out loud, and I reached out and poked his chest: “You dare to mention that the sky is falling and the earth is falling? Yesterday, you scared me.”
He held my finger, put it to his lips and kissed it gently, his eyes full of apology: “I didn’t protect you well, and I will never let you be frightened like this again.”
The sun shines on the lotus pond, glowing with fine golden light, and the fetus in the belly kicks slightly, as if in response to our words.Bai Fei immediately leaned over and put his ear against my belly. His eyes were full of tenderness and he couldn’t hide the smile on his lips.
I looked at his appearance, at the pond full of green lotuses, at the flowing clouds on the horizon, and suddenly understood the meaning of the phrase “It’s so hateful, but it’s so gratifying.”The fear of the collapse of the world is certainly abominable, but the exchange of origins and destiny is a great joy. And this intertwining of joy and evil eventually turned into the tenderness of lovers staying together, becoming the most precious mark in this life.
5. Destiny is perfect, year after year
After the source was gathered, my health became better day by day, and the fetus in my belly became more stable.Bai Fei still doted on me like a treasure, but he no longer paranoidly trapped me in a world. Every day, he would accompany me to walk in the lotus pond, go to the night market in the town, eat my favorite snail noodles and hairy crabs, and occasionally take me to the countryside to watch the sunset. My life was comfortable and complete.
I still have a little temper during pregnancy, and sometimes I get upset because he warned me a few more words, but he always lowers his head to coax me immediately, and his clumsy but sincere apology always makes me calm down instantly.The injury on his back gradually healed, but he always liked to deliberately expose the scars to make me feel distressed. Then he would take the opportunity to hug me into his arms and ask for a kiss as compensation.
That day, I was sitting in a small pavilion by the lotus pond, munching hairy crabs, and suddenly asked him: “Bai Fei, do you think this sudden change in heaven and earth was arranged by heaven a long time ago?”
He picked out the crab meat for me and put it into my bowl. He lowered his head and kissed my fingertips and said with a smile: “It doesn’t matter if it was arranged or not, as long as the ending is good, that’s enough.”
Looking at the tenderness in his eyes, I suddenly felt that destiny may really be determined, but true perfection is never given by heaven, but protected by the best efforts of those around you.Without him sacrificing his life to protect me that day, even if the origins are reunited, I may not be able to enjoy this blessing in peace; without his gentleness day after day, even if the world is fine, I may not be able to experience such fireworks and love.
The evening breeze blew by, the lotus fragrance spread all over my body, and the fetus in my belly kicked gently, as if echoing my thoughts.Bai Fei held my hand, interlocked with my fingers, looked up at the sunset on the horizon, and said softly: “When the child is born, we will name him ‘Nianxia’ to commemorate the fate of the origin of the clouds, okay?”
I smiled and nodded, leaning on his shoulder, looking at the pond full of green lotus, the sunset in the sky, and the lover beside me, my heart felt soft.
The panic of the sky falling and the earth falling apart is a thing of the past, and the joy of the gathering of origins is engraved in my heart. Those intertwining of “hateful” and “pleasant” finally turned into staying together year after year.In the days to come, there will be endless delicacies, endless sunsets, the cry of children, the fragrance of the lotus pond, and his everlasting gentle protection.
I know that having him, Nianxia, and Fanglianyuan in this life is the best fulfillment that fate has given me. Even if the sky falls and the earth falls again, as long as we stay together, we will have nothing to fear, and we will have peace of mind year after year.