Qinglian’S Heart Is Covered, Fate Meets Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Chaos Lotus Shang·Pan Lang’s Guard·Only Thinking of the Old Days and Nights (Part One·10,000 Words·Obsessive Thoughts·Old Shadows Are Hard to Find)

Wedge distracts the gods to control the heaven, and the main god goes to the mortal world

On the third day when the three realms were filled with purple lotus fragrance, I cut out 90% of my own Dao Qi and divided it into nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine clones to guard the ninth level of heaven, the four seas and eight wastelands, and the six realms of reincarnation.

The avatars transformed into golden-armored generals, Wenqu star officials, and dragon kings of the four seas, each performing their own duties and weaving the order of the heavens into an airtight web.The soul consciousness of each clone is engraved with my obsession – to protect the three realms, and more importantly, to protect you, and not to allow anyone or anything to take you away from me.I only left behind a trace of the soul of the Lord God, just because you said you wanted to go to the human world with me to see your children survive the disaster.

But the purple lotus mark in his heart was burning hot day by day. What was surging was not the concern for all sentient beings to survive the calamity, but the fear that penetrated deep into the bone marrow.You have returned from a billion-year calamity, and the kindness of your lotus heart has become stronger and stronger. From the first three hundred children, to thirty thousand, three hundred million, and now to nine billion, your eyes fall on all living beings, on those “children” who are stained with the scent of your lotus soul, but you rarely look at me like when Chaos first met, when you only stared at me.

That day you were leaning on the edge of the Purple Lotus Pond, your fingertips brushing against the new lotus buds on the surface of the pond, your eyebrows curved in a gentle arc: “Pan Lang, look, there are many more ‘children’ to protect in this world. They are all the hope of the Three Realms.”

I clenched the hand in my sleeve tightly, making marks with my fingertips, but I only responded in a low voice, “Yes.”I dare not tell you that I would rather not have so much “hope” in the Three Realms. I would rather go back to the beginning of chaos, when it was just you and me, only the first few children, guarding a purple lotus pond and spending hundreds of millions of years.

Siyi, Nanfu, Nanning, Nanyu, Nanyu, Nanjin, Nanlu, Nanyang, Zituo…these names engraved in my soul are the bonds that I believe in my heart truly belong to you and me.The other nine billion Yunyuns, to me, are just extensions of your lotus heart and countless concerns between you and me.

When you proposed to go to the human world with my Lord God to see your children survive the tribulation, I agreed almost immediately.I think that at least in the human world, in the shackles of the mortal world, you can temporarily let go of the nine billion people, just be my lotus, and only look at me.

Chapter 1 Fireworks in the world, the old name touches the heart

You and I lost our divinity and turned into an ordinary commoner couple, living in the old alleys of Liancheng in the south of the Yangtze River. There is only a bluestone road between us and those children who have gone through calamities.

You still like to wear plain cloth skirts, with an ordinary wooden hairpin in your hair. The kindness in your eyebrows has not diminished, but you have also added a bit of gentleness to an earthly woman.During the day, you go to the porridge shop in the alley to help cook a pot of sweet lotus heart porridge and distribute it to the poor children passing by; at night, you sit by the window, lit by a dim butter lamp, and embroider a handkerchief with a lavender lotus pattern, saying that you will give it to the children who are going through the calamity to protect their safety.

I turned into a bamboo craftsman, weaving bamboo baskets and mats in the courtyard every day, weaving everything I could to make a living, but my eyes were always glued to you unconsciously.I’m afraid that when you turn around, you will be taken away by the calls of those “children”, and I’m afraid that you will forget again that there are only you and me in the chaos.

That day, an old man selling candy came to the alley. There were various kinds of candy figures on his burden, including one that looked like a small purple lotus.A little girl with braids ran over and stood on tiptoe to buy the purple lotus candy man. When she raised her head, I caught a glimpse of a lavender lotus seal on her wrist – that is the mark of your lotus heart and soul, and the proof that you are recognized as your “child”.

“Grandma, I want this purple lotus!” The little girl’s crisp voice attracted you to walk out of the house.You looked at her, your eyes instantly filled with tenderness, and you quickly stepped forward to pay for the candy for her, then squatted down and gently stroked the top of her hair: “Nanny, be nice, don’t be playful and miss the right path.”

The little girl bit the candy man, sweetly said “Thank you, grandma”, turned around and ran away.You looked at her back, smiled for a long time, and then turned to look at me, unaware of the loneliness in my eyes.

“Pan Lang, look at that child, does he look like Siyi back then?” You walked up to me and brushed off the dust on the bamboo strips for me, the warmth of stroking the top of the child’s hair still lingering on your fingertips.

My heart froze, and the bamboo strips in my hand snapped.Si Yi, our first child, the first bone and blood that you condensed with Lotus Heart Soul Breath and I used Dao Qi in the chaos.At that time, Siyi also loved to call you “mother” and me “father” so abruptly. At that time, in your eyes and heart, we were the only family.

“It’s not like that.” I whispered back, bending down to pick up the bamboo strips, my fingertips couldn’t stop trembling.

You were stunned, as if you didn’t expect me to respond like this, and then sighed: “Pan Lang, what’s wrong with you? You’ve always been depressed since you came back.”

I raised my eyes to look at you, and the grievance and fear in my eyes almost overflowed: “Lian, I’m afraid.”

“What are you afraid of?” You stretched out your hand to cover the back of my hand, and the lotus fragrance in your palm tried to soothe my anxiety.

“I’m afraid they will snatch you away.” My voice was hoarse, like a helpless child. “I’m afraid you will see more and more ‘children’ and you will no longer be able to see me. I only want you, not the nine billion Yunyuns. I only want the nine children we just started with, only Siyi and the others…”

I read out the names engraved in my soul one by one, Siyi, Nanchu, Nanning, Nanyu, Nanyu, Nanjin, Nanlu, Nanyang, Zituo… Every time I read one, the burning in my heart became heavier. “There are also Zige, Ziyu, Zixun, Lianhua, Xianyu, Pianqu, Yiyi, Weier… These are our children. I don’t recognize the rest.”

You looked at me blankly, the tenderness in your eyes gradually turning into astonishment, and then turned into a sigh: “Pan Lang, how could you think so? They are all creatures from the three realms, they all carry my lotus soul, and they are all my ‘children’, but you will always be my only Pan Lang.”

“But you gave them more eyes than you gave me.” I turned away, not wanting you to see my red eyes, “In the chaos, you only stayed with me; in the Zixiao Palace, you would still wait for me to go to court; in the mortal world, we could still watch the sunset together. But now, your eyes are all for the common people, all for your ‘children’, I’m afraid I can’t even hold the corner of your clothes.”

You fell silent, the hand hanging by your side tightened slightly, and after a long time you said: “Pan Lang, in the course of a billion years of calamity, I have seen too much suffering, and those living beings have suffered too much. I am Chaos Purple Lotus, and I was born to benefit the common people, but this does not mean that I have forgotten you.”

“But I only want you.” I turned to look at you, with paranoid obsession in my eyes, “I created thousands of clones to control the heaven, just to let the Lord God guard you. I don’t want you to save the world, I just want you to save me, and save my heart that is about to be crushed by fear.”

Your fingertips gently touched my eyebrows, and the lotus fragrance penetrated into my soul, but it couldn’t smooth the wrinkles in my heart: “Silly Pan Lang, how could I not save you.”

But I know that your “rescue” has the background of common people, and what I want is the lotus that only belongs to me, the tenderness that only belongs to me.

Chapter 2 The old man is going through the tribulation, but his obsession is hard to get rid of

On the seventh day after entering the human world, we met Zi Tuo who was going through a tribulation.

Zi Tuan was reborn in a scholarly family in this life, his name was Su Wan, but his family was in a state of decline, and he was made things difficult by his stepmother. He had to do menial work every day, and had to take care of his young brother.That day, she was washing clothes by the well at the entrance of the alley. Her thin body was shaken by the winter wind, and the back of her hands was red from the cold, but she still gritted her teeth and beat the clothes clean.

When you saw her from a distance, your eyes instantly filled with pity. You walked over quickly, took off your cotton cloak and put it on her body: “Girl, it’s cold, don’t freeze your body.”

Zi Tuo (Su Wan) was stunned, and looked up at you, with tears in her eyes, but she resisted falling: “Thank you grandma, but I have to do laundry, which will stain your cloak.”

“It doesn’t matter.” You squatted down and helped her wash the heavy clothes. Your fingertips turned purple from the cold, but you didn’t notice it. “Your hands should be for holding pens, not for doing rough work.”

I stood not far away, watching the way you treated her so meticulously, my heart felt like being pricked by lotus needles.Zi Tuan is our child, so I naturally love her, but I am even more afraid that you have given all your tenderness to these children who have gone through many calamities, but you have forgotten me.

I stepped forward and put the hand-warming soup pot into your hand: “It’s cold, warm your hands first, and I’ll do the rest.”

You looked up at me, a hint of gratitude flashed in your eyes, and then turned to Zi Tuo and said softly: “Nanny, come here and warm your hands.”

Zi Tuo came over timidly, held a corner of Tang Pozi’s hand, his eyes were red: “Grandma, you and grandpa are both good people.”

After that day, you often went to pick up Zi Tuan, gave her food and clothes, and secretly gave her some silver to buy pen and paper.You circle around her every day, and even when you embroider a handkerchief at night, you embroider a budding purple lotus just like her.

I sat aside and looked at your busy figure, and suddenly felt like an outsider.I can’t help but ask you: “Lian, you accompany her every day, but do you still remember how our family of three went to see the Milky Way when Zi Tuo was in Zixiao Palace?”

Your hand embroidering the handkerchief paused, and you raised your eyes to look at me, with guilt in your eyes: “I remember, how could I not remember. But she has suffered so much in this life, and I should protect her more.”

“What about me?” My voice trembled, “I guard you every day, have you ever looked at me one more time? You are busy saving the world and protecting your ‘children’, but why don’t you save me? My heart is thousands of times more painful than Zi Tuan’s.”

You put down your needlework, walked to me, hugged me from behind, rested your chin on my shoulder, and the lotus fragrance lingered around my neck: “Pan Lang, I know I have wronged you. But you are the Lord of Heaven and my husband. You understand me, right?”

“I don’t understand.” I broke away from your arms, and the paranoia in my eyes almost swallowed me up, “I only understand that I want you, as long as you. Those nine billion ‘children’, they are protected by the three realms and protected by your lotus fragrance, but I only have you. I would rather you are not the Purple Lotus of Chaos, not the Lotus God who saves the world, but just my lotus, just the lotus who lives with me in the chaos.”

You looked at me blankly, with tears in your eyes: “Pan Lang, I was born as a purple lotus of chaos. My lotus heart is half tied to you and half to the common people. I can’t let go of the common people, but I will never let go of you.”

“But you have already let it go.” I pointed to your half-embroidered veil, “You are embroidering her, not me; you are embroidering her suffering, not my grievances; the tenderness in your eyes was given to her, to nine billion children, but not to me.”

Our quarrel attracted Zi Tuo. She stood at the door and asked timidly: “Grandma, grandpa, are you quarreling? It’s my fault. I shouldn’t bother you all the time.”

You immediately wiped away your tears, turned around and smiled at her: “It’s none of your business, it’s just a little quarrel between us husband and wife. Come in quickly, I’ll make you lotus heart porridge.”

You took Zi Tuo’s hand into the kitchen and left me there. At that moment, the purple lotus mark on my heart suddenly burned so painfully that I could hardly stand.I know that in your heart, the common people and your children are more important than me after all.

Chapter 3 Siyi returns, old shadows overlap

On the thirtieth day after entering the human world, Si Yi returned from the tribulation, restored her divine status, and found our residence in Liancheng.

Si Yi still looks the same as before, with purple clothes and a silver crown, her eyebrows have the purity of chaotic purple lotus, and she also has the majesty of a celestial god general.She knelt in front of you, her voice choked with sobs: “Mother, father, the child is back.”

Your eyes instantly turned red and you hugged her tightly in your arms: “It’ll be good to come back, it’ll be good to come back.”

I stood aside and watched you mother and daughter embracing each other, with mixed feelings in my heart.Siyi is our eldest son and the deepest concern in my soul. But looking at your love for her, I still can’t help but feel fear – I’m afraid that her return will divert more of your attention.

Siyi stood up, looked at me, and bowed respectfully: “Father.”

I nodded and forced out a smile: “It’ll be nice to come back.”

That night, you stayed with Siyi for dinner at home and cooked a table full of dishes, all of which were Siyi’s favorite foods.You kept bringing her food, asking her about her experiences in overcoming tribulations, and asking her about the current situation in heaven. The smile on your face was as bright as I haven’t seen in a long time.

I sat aside and ate my rice silently, but I didn’t know how to taste it.Siyi suddenly looked at me and said softly: “Father, I know that over the years, you have been complaining that my mother cares about the common people and has neglected you.”

I was stunned, not expecting her to be so straightforward, and then smiled bitterly and said, “How could you know.”

“My child can feel your soul when he is going through the tribulation.” Si put down his chopsticks and said seriously, “My mother’s lotus heart was born to benefit the world, but her feelings for you have never changed. Back in Chaos, she saved the origin of the lotus heart for you; in the Zixiao Palace, she blocked the magic flames from breaking the lotus heart for you; in the mortal world, she guarded the purple lotus pond for you for thirty years. My child has seen all of this.”

I was silent. How could I not know what Siyi said.But knowing is one thing, letting go of obsession is another.

You held my hand, your eyes full of apologies: “Pan Lang, what Si Yi said is true. I have never forgotten you. It’s just that a billion years of calamity have made me suffer too much, and I can’t ignore it. But you will always be the most important person in my heart, and you are the husband I recognized as the first time I met you in chaos.”

“Then do you still remember the promise we made in the chaos?” I looked at you, with the last hope in my eyes, “At that time, we said that we would be together forever, only guarding each other and our little family.”

“Remember.” Your eyes turned red, “But the world has changed, and we are no longer just two people. We have children and all the people in the three realms, but my love for you has never diminished by half.”

Siyi added from the side: “Father, my mother has been using her lotus heart to maintain the stability of the three realms over the years, and she has also been using her soul breath to protect your clone. She has never forgotten you, but your obsession has covered your eyes.”

When I looked at your red eyes and Si Yi’s sincere look, the burning in my heart seemed to lighten a bit.I know what they said is true, but the fear in my heart still lingers.

“I’m just afraid.” My voice was hoarse, like a lost child, “I’m afraid that one day, you will leave me completely for the sake of the common people and for the sake of your children. I have divided into thousands of clones to control the heaven, just to hold you firmly. I only want you, not the supreme being of the three realms, or the main god of heaven.”

You held me tightly in your arms, and the lotus fragrance penetrated into my heart, calming all my anxiety: “Silly Pan Lang, how could I leave you. We came from chaos and have been bound for hundreds of millions of years. We are inseparable in life and death. How can ordinary people and children separate us.”

Si Yi stood aside, smiling and wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes: “Father, mother, you will always be the most loving and perfect person in a child’s heart.”

The moonlight was very good that night, shining on the table through the window lattice, reflecting the food on the table and the figures of our family of three.I suddenly felt that maybe my obsession really went too far.Your concern for the common people is your compassion; your love for your children is your motherhood; and your love for me is a bond engraved in your soul and has never changed.

Chapter 4 Lianhua endures calamities and protects her with lotus hearts

On the 100th day after entering the human world, we met Lianhua who was going through a love crisis.

Lianhua was reborn in an official’s family in this life, named Lin Xi, and fell in love with his childhood sweetheart, the scholar, but was forced by his father to marry the son of a powerful man.That day, she said goodbye to the scholar by the lotus pond outside the city, crying heartbrokenly: “I can’t stay with you in this life, and I will definitely not let you down in the next life.”

The scholar also had tears streaming down his face, but he could only say helplessly: “Xi’er, it’s my inability to protect you.”

When you saw this scene from a distance, your eyes instantly filled with pity. You walked over quickly and handed a handkerchief embroidered with purple lotus to Lianhua: “Girl, don’t cry. If our hearts are together, we will not be afraid of separation.”

Lianhua took the handkerchief and looked up at you with tears in her eyes: “Grandma, but I have to marry someone else after all. There is no possibility of staying together in this life.”

“Not necessarily.” You hold her hand, and the lotus fragrance slowly enters her body. “Your love crisis is the only way for you to become a god. As long as you keep your heart, you will eventually be able to see the moonlight when the clouds clear.”

I walked forward and looked at the appearance of Lianhua and the scholar, and suddenly I remembered the time when Lianhua secretly asked me “What is love” in Zixiao Palace.At that time, I smiled and told her that love is like your mother and I, staying together for hundreds of millions of years and never leaving.

“Lian, Lianhua’s love crisis needs to be overcome by herself. We should not interfere too much.” I said softly, “She is our child, but she also needs experience before she can truly grow.”

You nodded, but still worried. You took out a lotus heart jade pendant from your sleeve and stuffed it into Lianhua’s hand: “This jade pendant can protect you. If you are in danger, crush it and I will come to save you.”

Lianhua held the jade pendant and choked with sobs: “Thank you so much, grandma. I will never forget your great kindness.”

Later, on Lianhua’s wedding day, the son of a powerful man suddenly died suddenly, and her father was also investigated for corruption. She was able to escape and stay with the scholar.That day she and the scholar came to the alley to thank us. You looked at their dependent faces and smiled especially happily.

I looked at you and suddenly asked: “Lian, tell me, was our relationship back then also so rough?”

You turned to look at me with gentle eyes: “We depended on each other in the chaos, side by side in the Zixiao Palace, and stayed with each other in the mortal world. Although there were misunderstandings, we were never really separated. Compared to them, we are lucky.”

“Yes, fortunately.” I held your hand, feeling the warmth in my palm, and the burning in my heart completely dissipated, “I used to be afraid that you would be snatched away by the common people and your children, but now I understand that your concern for the common people is your compassion; your love for your children is your motherhood; and I am your only husband, the destination of your billions of years of bondage.”

You smiled, the tears in your eyes shining with tenderness: “Pan Lang, you finally understand.”

“My obsession is too deep.” I held you in my arms and smelled the lotus fragrance in your hair. “From now on, I will accompany you to protect the common people, love your children together, and guard our years together.”

That night, we sat in the courtyard and looked at the stars in the sky, cuddling together like we did in the Zixiao Palace.Si Yi and Zi Tuo also came and gathered around us, talking about interesting things about heaven and their insights from past tribulations.The fragrance of purple lotus filling the courtyard, mixed with the smoke of human beings, has become the warmest bond.

I know that in the years to come, you will still care about the common people and love your children, but I will no longer be afraid.Because I understand, your love is both big love and small love; it is the compassion of the common people and my exclusive tenderness.We have come from chaos, and after hundreds of millions of years, nothing can tear us apart, including the nine billion “children” and the people of the three realms.