Paper Lover At Old Town Bookstore Chapter 58
bydon’t try to escape
Before the music in the KTV box stopped completely, Song Zhili grabbed my wrist and walked to the car, his knuckles so hard that they were almost embedded in my flesh.
The car door slammed shut, cutting off the noise outside. The air pressure around him was frighteningly low, and there was madness and violence in his eyes that I had never seen before.
Just as I was about to sit down, he suddenly leaned over, pressed my shoulders with both hands, and pinned me to the seat.The tip of his nose was almost touching mine, and his breath was filled with the strong smell of alcohol and suppressed anger: “Have you ever liked her? Song Qiusheng, tell me if you do!”
His voice was hoarse as if it was squeezed out from between his teeth, and the paranoia in his eyes almost swallowed me up.I was startled by his sudden rage. I pressed my back against the cold seat and curled my fingertips slightly: “It was… it was a long time ago. She was still an intern at that time. I had a slight affection for her, but it has long since passed.”
“Past?” Song Zhili sneered and rubbed my lower lip with his thumb, so hard that it hurt. “So you were so distracted all night and your eyes never left her because of this? You are still thinking about her, right?”
“No!” I shook my head hastily, my heart beating wildly, “I only have you in my heart now, really! That’s all in the past, I’ve forgotten it a long time ago!”
“Forgot?” He grabbed my chin suddenly and forced me to look at him, the madness in his eyes getting more and more serious, “Do you think I will believe it? Song Qiusheng, you are mine! Your heart, your body, everything about you can only be mine! Who allows you to have someone else in your heart? Not even in the past tense!”
His strength was so amazing that I felt like my jaw would be crushed by him, and my eyes were red with pain.”Song Zhili, calm down!” I struggled to push him away, but he pressed me tighter, “I told you it was a long time ago, and now I just want to have a good time with you, don’t do this!”
“Have a good life?” He seemed to have heard a huge joke, a hint of hurt flashed in his eyes, and was immediately replaced by deeper madness, “You want to have a good life with me, but you are still thinking about other women? Song Qiusheng, am I not good enough for you? I pamper you in the palm of my hand and give you everything you want, and you still want to betray me?”
He leaned over and bit the side of my neck hard, leaving deep tooth marks. The pain was so painful that I couldn’t help but groan.”Remember,” his voice smelled of blood and was close to my ear, cold and paranoid, “from today on, you are not allowed to think about her again, you are not allowed to look at her again, and you are not allowed to mention her name again! Otherwise, I don’t guarantee what will happen.”
I was stiff, looking at the madness and possessiveness in his eyes, and a sense of fear arose in my heart.I know that he is really crazy, for me and for his pathological possessiveness.
I could only nod my head obediently, with a hint of sobs in my voice: “I know, I don’t miss her anymore, and I will never see her again…”
Song Zhili stared at me for a long time, until the madness in his eyes faded slightly, and then slowly let go of me, but his hands were still on my sides, imprisoning me in his arms.
He lowered his head and kissed my lips. The kiss was punishing, rough and hot, almost swallowing me up.
I endured it passively, tears sliding down the corners of my eyes and dripping on the back of his hands.
My secret love for Xu Xingruo was just a lie I made up casually, but I never expected that it would trigger such a violent reaction from Song Zhili.
I know that from now on, this lie will be like a shackle, binding me and him tighter, and making me completely lose the possibility of escape.
There was silence in the carriage, except for the intertwined breathing of the two people.Song Zhili hugged me tightly, as if he was holding a lost treasure, with such strength that I couldn’t breathe.
And I, leaning in his arms, felt at a loss.Where will this turmoil caused by lies push our relationship?When I discovered the tiny camera in a hidden corner of the bedroom, the coldness on my fingertips ran down my spine and throughout my body.
Song Zhili stood at the door, leaning against the door frame. There was no guilt in his eyes, only morbid satisfaction: “This way I can see you all the time, Qiu Sheng, you won’t blame me, right?”
I didn’t say anything, I just clenched the corners of my clothes tightly, my nails almost digging into my flesh.The thought of escaping grew like weeds, but as soon as it emerged, it was snuffed out by reality – the last time I tried to hide my ID card, he locked me in the bedroom for three days after finding out. Except for his touch, I couldn’t even see the sun. The feeling of suffocation is still fresh in my memory.
“Don’t even think about escaping.” He walked over slowly, hugged me from behind, and rubbed his palm against my belly slowly, with an irresistible possessive force. “You have tried it. If you run away once, I will want you once, until you remember who you are.”
His kiss fell on the old scar on the side of the neck, so hot that it burned, “Be good, and I can still be nice to you. If you dare to have that kind of thought again…” He paused, and tightened his fingertips suddenly, making me groan, “I don’t mind locking you in the bed, so that you can’t do anything but feel me.”
I stiffened and let him push me down on the bed.The red surveillance light flickered on and off in the corner, like a pair of peeping eyes, recording his almost predatory demands.
He kissed me over and over again, repeating “You are mine” in my ear over and over again, with such force that it felt like he was rubbing me into my bones and blood. Only when he felt my true body temperature and response, did the madness in his eyes fade away slightly, replaced by almost humble dependence.
Afterwards, he hugged me tightly, buried his head in the crook of my neck, and breathed evenly but tremblingly: “Qiu Sheng, don’t leave me. I only have you.”
I stared at the ceiling with my eyes open, tears falling silently.Escape is ineffective, resistance will only lead to intensified confinement and demands, and obedience seems to be the only way out.
But the reluctance in my heart, the desire for freedom, is like a thin thorn, pricking me all the time.
Song Zhili’s surveillance became more and more intensive, with cameras hidden in the study, kitchen, and even bathroom.He doesn’t allow me to go out alone or contact anyone. Only his breath, his touch, and his paranoia remain in my world.
I am like a bird locked in a golden cage. It seems to be held in the palm of my hand, but in fact I have lost all freedom.
Late one night, he was sleeping deeply, his arms still tightly wrapped around my waist.
I quietly took out the mobile phone hidden under the pillow – it was my only secret. Zhang Biling secretly gave it to me at the last party, saying that if there was an emergency, I could contact her.
The screen turned on, and my fingers were hovering on the dial key, but I didn’t dare to press it.I’m afraid, afraid of triggering Song Zhili’s madness again, afraid that I will fall into a more desperate situation.
But when he thought about Xu Xingruo being innocently implicated, and when he thought about being trapped in this small place and unable to see the future, the struggle in his heart became more intense.
What should we do?Should you continue to stay by his side obediently, or should you risk everything and try to escape again?