Paper Lover At Old Town Bookstore Chapter 36

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Tears blurred my vision, and the suffocation and grievance in my chest completely erupted in his desperate plea. I suddenly broke free from his hand, raised my hand and slapped him in the face – a crisp “snap” sound, which was particularly harsh in the empty apartment.

“Song Zhili, you bastard!” I roared, my voice breaking with excitement, “Do you think I will stay like this? You will only tie me up in this coercive way. You don’t understand what I want!”

He was hit and tilted his head, clear fingerprints quickly appeared on his left cheek, and the fragility in his eyes was instantly replaced by madness.He wiped the tears on his face and sneered, the laughter full of desperate cruelty: “Am I a bastard? Yes, I am a bastard. If you don’t be a bastard, how can you remember me and how can you never want to leave me?”

His movements were so fast that I couldn’t react. He picked me up by the waist, ignored my struggles and cries, and walked straight to the bedroom.I beat his back desperately, kicked my legs, and kept cursing in my mouth, but his arms locked me tightly like iron hoops, and they were so strong that I couldn’t move.

“Let me go! Song Zhili, let me go!”

He threw me hard on the bed, and before I could get up, he leaned over and pressed me down. He firmly held my wrists with both hands and raised them above my head.

There was a raging fire in his eyes, which was anger, despair, and possessiveness that could not be refused.”Don’t you want to escape?” His voice was low and fierce, with the madness to destroy everything, “I’ll show you today whether you can escape!”

The buttons of my shirt were roughly torn off by him, and the moment the cold air touched my skin, I couldn’t help but wince and cry harder.”No…Song Zhili, please…” I begged with choked sobs, but he seemed completely unable to hear me. There was only an almost paranoid obsession in his eyes – he wanted me, he wanted to completely mark me with his traces, and he wanted me to never be able to escape from him again.

His kisses were punitive, ruthlessly plundering my breath, and the tossing and turning was full of irresistible possession.

The clothes on his body were removed one by one, and his fingertips were hot and urgent, tracing across every inch of the skin, leaving burning marks.I struggled desperately, but all my resistance seemed feeble in the face of his absolute strength.

Pain and humiliation intertwined in my heart, and I burst into tears. The sheets were soaked with tears, and my throat was hoarse from crying.

He completely ignored my resistance and cries, and just took possession of me again and again. His movements were almost destructive and crazy, as if he wanted to crush me into pieces and melt me ​​into his bones and blood, and we would never be different from each other again.

“Qiu Sheng… Qiu Sheng…” He whispered hoarsely in my ear, with a heavy breath and a hint of vulnerability in his voice, “Don’t leave me… Don’t ever leave me…”

I don’t know how long this extreme pulling lasted until I was exhausted and my crying gradually became fainter, leaving only unconscious sobs.

He held me tightly, resting his chin on the crook of my neck, his hot breath spraying on my skin, and his body was still trembling slightly.

The sky outside the window had already darkened, and the only two people left in the room were breathing heavily.I lay on my side with my back to him, tears still falling silently.His arms were still firmly around my waist, as if he was afraid that I would disappear in the next second.

In my blur of consciousness, I could feel him kissing my ear gently, with a trace of cautious care in his movements, which was completely different from the roughness just now.

But I don’t want to say anything or do anything.The secret that passes through the book is like an unbridgeable gap, lying between us.

Even if my body is completely occupied by him at this moment, I will never be able to confess everything to him – this world is just a short stay for me after all, and I cannot bear or respond to his deep affection.

There was still an aura of lust and brokenness in the room after the incident. I was like a puppet that had all its strength drained away, slumped on the bed, my consciousness dim, leaving only the dull pain in my body and the wet tears at the corners of my eyes.

Song Zhili did not leave immediately. His body was still filled with heat, but he was no longer as rough as before.

He carefully loosened his arm around my waist, as if he was afraid of breaking a fragile treasure.I could feel him getting up and out of bed, his footsteps very light, and then the sound of water running from the bathroom.

When he came back, he had a warm wet towel and a bottle of ointment in his hand.He sat down on the edge of the bed, leaned closer, and his eyes fell on the red marks and minor abrasions on my body. There were complicated emotions in his eyes – guilt, heartache, and a hint of lingering paranoia.

“Don’t move.” His voice was low and hoarse, and with careful probing, he reached out and gently turned me over, letting me lie down on my back.

The temperature of the towel was just right. He held the towel with his fingertips and wiped my skin bit by bit, from the neck to the waist and abdomen, to the limbs. Every movement was extremely gentle, as if he was treating a rare treasure.When he encountered the bruises left by the struggle, he would subconsciously move slower, frowning tightly, and the guilt in his eyes became more intense.

After wiping my body, he unscrewed the ointment, squeezed some ointment onto his fingertips, and gently applied it to the abrasions on my body.The ointment has a slightly cool touch, which relieves some pain.His fingertips were thinly calloused, but extremely gentle. He massaged the ointment in circles over and over again until the ointment was completely absorbed.

I kept my eyes closed the whole time, didn’t speak, and didn’t look at him.The tears fell silently again like broken beads.The grievance, humiliation, pain, and the unspeakable secret in my heart were all intertwined together, making me breathless.

He seemed to notice my tears. He paused and raised his hand to gently wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes with his fingertips. There was an imperceptible choking in his voice: “I’m sorry… Qiu Sheng, I didn’t mean it.”

I still didn’t respond, I just turned sideways, facing away from him.He was silent for a long time, and in the end he didn’t say anything more. He just gently covered me with the quilt, and then lay down next to me. He didn’t touch me again, but kept a distance that wasn’t too far or too close.

I don’t know how long it took, but I woke up in the middle of the night.The pain in my body was still lingering, making it difficult for me to sleep peacefully.When he opened his eyes, the moonlight outside the window shone through the gaps in the curtains, outlining Song Zhili’s profile.

He was not sleeping, and was looking at me with his eyes open, which looked particularly clear in the moonlight – there was guilt, distress, paranoia, despair, and a trace of confusion that even he himself was not aware of.His gaze was focused and hot, as if he wanted to carve my appearance into his bones.

When he noticed that I was awake, his body stiffened almost imperceptibly, and the emotions in his eyes instantly became complicated.

He opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but in the end it just turned into a low sigh.

There was silence in the room, except for the steady breathing of the two people.He and I looked at each other, the moonlight stretched our shadows very long, and the air was filled with an indescribable oppression and pull.

He took possession of my body, but could never touch my soul; I was hiding secrets that I couldn’t tell, and I was getting deeper and deeper into this out-of-control entanglement.